Disclaimer: I own nothing but the plot. Everything else belongs to Joss Whedon, Mutant Enemy and UPN.

Finished: August 6, 2001

~~ Friends ~~

Best friends are forever, right?
At least that's what they say
Then where have all my friends gone?
Where are they today?

I needed them like water
I needed them like air
Now I lay here dying
And it seems like they don't care

I finally gave up today
I gave in to my fears
I ended my existence
Through blood and sobs and tears

I wonder if they'll notice
That I'm no longer around
When they find me all alone
Will they fall to the ground?

Racked with guilt and sorrow
Tears falling from their eye
I won't be there to comfort them
Wait, I don't wanna die

"What have I done?" I yell aloud
And, "Can I take it back?"
I know I can't, I see it now
My world is turning black

My body's cold
My limbs are still
Forgive me Buff
Forgive me Will

I thought, "I can't go on like this
Living life in fear"
My dad's a drunk; my mom is too
It's hard for me to hear

The endless shouts and screams and yells
That caused each sleepless night
I'm afraid I'll be like that
And I don't want to fight

It's too late now; my eyes are closed
And yet it's now I see
It's not supposed to be this way
This ending's not for me

I love you, Buff and Will and Giles
And, yes, Cord, even you
I miss you, Jesse, it seems like hours
Since I killed you too

With a smile of peace upon my lips
Conscious thoughts slip from my mind
The last one is a question:
Who will be the one to find

My body here upon the grass?
Once green, but now bright red
So this is what it feels like
To finally be dead