~~AN=This is now completely in third person, I was far too confused about the changing point of views. Hope this helps.~~
Chapter 6
'Not uh!' She thought. Relena threw the pills down at down at his feet and doubled over in laughter. Heero cracked an uneasy smile at her and grabbed the pills.
"That's the most ridiculous thing I've ever heard!" She said through fits of laughter. "But seriously, there's no way."
"Right.", he said.
Heero gulped down a glass of water. He rubbed his temples with one hand and then ran it through his hair. 'I must look like shit.' he thought. "Look I'm gonna head back and take a shower..."
"Yeah cause we have class in an hour so..."
"Yeah." They both stood there looking around at all the pillows on the floor and things that were knocked over. "Did we do that?" He asked, smiling at the floor.
"Haha, you wouldn't believe how funny you are when you're drunk! You kept falling over everything!" she laughed as he blushed.
"Well you were too drunk to even get up the stairs with out falling over laughing. Why do you think I had to take you up here?" he flipped over a small table and threw the pillows around on the couch.
"Shut up!"
"Hey, so we can finish up with your apartment after class alright?" He turned to a serious tone to avoid the conversation of even sharing the same room last night.
"Um...yeah...sounds good." Relena turned around remember her situation and everything that happened only a few days ago. She kept trying to push it away, but the hurt of losing her boyfriend and her dad being mad at her, and everything else from the past that fell apart kept running through her head. It was too much, and she needed to slow down and start living her life like a normal person did. Like he did.
Heero saw Relena turn around and grab the counter edge and sit at the kitchen chairs. A flash of hurt ran across her features and he instantly changed his tone. "Look, how about we have a coffee tonight and we can talk about things. If it's alright with you."
"Sure." she replied simply. Thoughts and feelings obviously expressed on her face.
"See ya at school." and with that he left her room.
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A tingle in her nose shot up to her eyes, and that suffocating feeling took hold of her chest. Her lip curled out and the tears slowly fell from her face. Relena's shoulders shook violently as her sobs took hold. "It's all my fault." she managed to say as her tears streaked blacked rivers on her cheeks.
Heero wrapped an arm around her and held her. She must have cried to the last tear because they sat there like that for an hour. He said what comforts he could think of. But the truth was, he didn't know what was wrong and felt helpless as he could do nothing. So they stayed like that until she stopped and wiped her face again. All the makeup she had on was now on her sleeve and her eyes were all red and puffy.
He stood up and dragged her over to a tree by the bench and sat down. She just collapsed onto her knees and stared at the grass beneath her. The sun singed the trees it was pinned between with a red-orange intensity, on its venture into the earth. The evening air smelled strongly of jasmin from the bushes on the fence and the large weeping willow covering them added to the aroma.
Heero looked at her and neither smiled nor frowned, he just stared. Her eyes came to his and she was almost frightened by the intensity of his gaze. The same beautiful gaze from the man she admired that day on the field. It was the same look when he first woke up. Just breathtaking eyes. She frowned, "I look horrible don't I."
"Never." he said unwavering and tugged on her arm, urging her to sit with him. She fell back into the crack in the tree and leaned towards him, letting out a sigh. Both just sat there watching the sun melt into the distance. Heero, all the time, thinking about everything they had talked about the day before. Relena thought about everything and why he wouldn't tell her about his past after all she had told him.
***'Why the hell are you hiding from me?' "I told you everything, you know." Relena said through tears. The arguing was too much. It felt like home.
"It's not your problem." was all he said.
"But why? What's so wrong with talking to me about it? I'm not telling you to give me your burdens, but maybe talking about it, I...I want to help."
"You can't."
"What the hell is wrong with you? You only let me in so far and then you completely block me out and shove me off. Like I'm not the only friend you have!"
"Forget it. I'm out of here." he said and grabbed his jacket and walked out. Relena sat there with a look of shock and anger on her face. He always pushed her away.***
As comfortable Relena was there, with Heero's arms wrapped around her, something about this was wrong. 'It's just not fair.' she thought. 'He's not allowed to just wrap his arms around me and be all wonderful and nice after blowing me off like I don't mean more to him.'
Heero knew that he couldn't be friends with her like this. It was time he made a decision. Either he let her in and completely dropped his walls, or he had to stay away from her. Something about her made him so vulnerable. Whenever she was around he wanted to just throw caution to the wind and do what felt natural. She had come here to finish what they started yesterday, and that continued in yelling.
***"Don't think you can just ignore me from here on out. You're stuck with me like it or not." Relena said, storming up the side walk towards the park. Heero sat there, slouched over, and hands clasped. He stared off at the edge of the park where two trees that posted the corners swayed in the wind and their leaves torn off and fell over the cliff dropping into the hidden waters below.
He said nothing to her, just stared off in the distance. Going to the park was always something that seemed to calm him and he often made trips when studying got to be too much. Relena sat down on the other side of the bench and stared down at the ground. She knew that he didn't like to talk much, but that was selfish sometimes. Even though she felt like reaming him out, she kept to herself.
Finally he spoke, "I don't have a family." She should have been shoked at the thought, but something in her told her to expect something like this.
He turned to look at her. She said nothing, just sort of frowned a little. He turned back around and looked away again.
Flashbacks suddenly flew through Relena's mind. Her past flashed through her mind. Short flashes of things that happened to her that she never told anyone about until him. They were all so vivid that she felt like they were happening all over again. She gasped out loud as the memories stopped the intake of air in her lungs.***
After the sun had long since disappeared Relena finally spoke up, "Please say something."
"I don't know what to say." he said.
"Me neither."
"Then don't say anything."
It was then she finally realized what he wanted. Her understanding didn't have to be the knowledge of his past, but an understanding of him, and their evolving friendship. She didn't need to ask him anymore. She was content just the way everything was. In his arms that night was where she was supposed to be. And this friendship they shared meant that she would be in his arms under those bright stars tomorrow if that was how things went.
Day by day.
He wanted nothing more than to have things just like they were. No thoughts of a possible relationship. Just what happened would happen. To both of them, life was definitely less confusing this way.
~~Well ya like? hehe...im such hopeless romantic...grrr...damn curse is what it is. i can't even throw angst in there without feeling guilty to them. well i tried. lordy lordy, im slow on these chapies aren't i? man, well schools back in ::looks at computer date and adjusts eyes cause its all blury cause im really tired:: 2 weeks. yey. Review please, im not sure to cont or not. thanks kids :)~~
Chapter 6
'Not uh!' She thought. Relena threw the pills down at down at his feet and doubled over in laughter. Heero cracked an uneasy smile at her and grabbed the pills.
"That's the most ridiculous thing I've ever heard!" She said through fits of laughter. "But seriously, there's no way."
"Right.", he said.
Heero gulped down a glass of water. He rubbed his temples with one hand and then ran it through his hair. 'I must look like shit.' he thought. "Look I'm gonna head back and take a shower..."
"Yeah cause we have class in an hour so..."
"Yeah." They both stood there looking around at all the pillows on the floor and things that were knocked over. "Did we do that?" He asked, smiling at the floor.
"Haha, you wouldn't believe how funny you are when you're drunk! You kept falling over everything!" she laughed as he blushed.
"Well you were too drunk to even get up the stairs with out falling over laughing. Why do you think I had to take you up here?" he flipped over a small table and threw the pillows around on the couch.
"Shut up!"
"Hey, so we can finish up with your apartment after class alright?" He turned to a serious tone to avoid the conversation of even sharing the same room last night.
"Um...yeah...sounds good." Relena turned around remember her situation and everything that happened only a few days ago. She kept trying to push it away, but the hurt of losing her boyfriend and her dad being mad at her, and everything else from the past that fell apart kept running through her head. It was too much, and she needed to slow down and start living her life like a normal person did. Like he did.
Heero saw Relena turn around and grab the counter edge and sit at the kitchen chairs. A flash of hurt ran across her features and he instantly changed his tone. "Look, how about we have a coffee tonight and we can talk about things. If it's alright with you."
"Sure." she replied simply. Thoughts and feelings obviously expressed on her face.
"See ya at school." and with that he left her room.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
A tingle in her nose shot up to her eyes, and that suffocating feeling took hold of her chest. Her lip curled out and the tears slowly fell from her face. Relena's shoulders shook violently as her sobs took hold. "It's all my fault." she managed to say as her tears streaked blacked rivers on her cheeks.
Heero wrapped an arm around her and held her. She must have cried to the last tear because they sat there like that for an hour. He said what comforts he could think of. But the truth was, he didn't know what was wrong and felt helpless as he could do nothing. So they stayed like that until she stopped and wiped her face again. All the makeup she had on was now on her sleeve and her eyes were all red and puffy.
He stood up and dragged her over to a tree by the bench and sat down. She just collapsed onto her knees and stared at the grass beneath her. The sun singed the trees it was pinned between with a red-orange intensity, on its venture into the earth. The evening air smelled strongly of jasmin from the bushes on the fence and the large weeping willow covering them added to the aroma.
Heero looked at her and neither smiled nor frowned, he just stared. Her eyes came to his and she was almost frightened by the intensity of his gaze. The same beautiful gaze from the man she admired that day on the field. It was the same look when he first woke up. Just breathtaking eyes. She frowned, "I look horrible don't I."
"Never." he said unwavering and tugged on her arm, urging her to sit with him. She fell back into the crack in the tree and leaned towards him, letting out a sigh. Both just sat there watching the sun melt into the distance. Heero, all the time, thinking about everything they had talked about the day before. Relena thought about everything and why he wouldn't tell her about his past after all she had told him.
***'Why the hell are you hiding from me?' "I told you everything, you know." Relena said through tears. The arguing was too much. It felt like home.
"It's not your problem." was all he said.
"But why? What's so wrong with talking to me about it? I'm not telling you to give me your burdens, but maybe talking about it, I...I want to help."
"You can't."
"What the hell is wrong with you? You only let me in so far and then you completely block me out and shove me off. Like I'm not the only friend you have!"
"Forget it. I'm out of here." he said and grabbed his jacket and walked out. Relena sat there with a look of shock and anger on her face. He always pushed her away.***
As comfortable Relena was there, with Heero's arms wrapped around her, something about this was wrong. 'It's just not fair.' she thought. 'He's not allowed to just wrap his arms around me and be all wonderful and nice after blowing me off like I don't mean more to him.'
Heero knew that he couldn't be friends with her like this. It was time he made a decision. Either he let her in and completely dropped his walls, or he had to stay away from her. Something about her made him so vulnerable. Whenever she was around he wanted to just throw caution to the wind and do what felt natural. She had come here to finish what they started yesterday, and that continued in yelling.
***"Don't think you can just ignore me from here on out. You're stuck with me like it or not." Relena said, storming up the side walk towards the park. Heero sat there, slouched over, and hands clasped. He stared off at the edge of the park where two trees that posted the corners swayed in the wind and their leaves torn off and fell over the cliff dropping into the hidden waters below.
He said nothing to her, just stared off in the distance. Going to the park was always something that seemed to calm him and he often made trips when studying got to be too much. Relena sat down on the other side of the bench and stared down at the ground. She knew that he didn't like to talk much, but that was selfish sometimes. Even though she felt like reaming him out, she kept to herself.
Finally he spoke, "I don't have a family." She should have been shoked at the thought, but something in her told her to expect something like this.
He turned to look at her. She said nothing, just sort of frowned a little. He turned back around and looked away again.
Flashbacks suddenly flew through Relena's mind. Her past flashed through her mind. Short flashes of things that happened to her that she never told anyone about until him. They were all so vivid that she felt like they were happening all over again. She gasped out loud as the memories stopped the intake of air in her lungs.***
After the sun had long since disappeared Relena finally spoke up, "Please say something."
"I don't know what to say." he said.
"Me neither."
"Then don't say anything."
It was then she finally realized what he wanted. Her understanding didn't have to be the knowledge of his past, but an understanding of him, and their evolving friendship. She didn't need to ask him anymore. She was content just the way everything was. In his arms that night was where she was supposed to be. And this friendship they shared meant that she would be in his arms under those bright stars tomorrow if that was how things went.
Day by day.
He wanted nothing more than to have things just like they were. No thoughts of a possible relationship. Just what happened would happen. To both of them, life was definitely less confusing this way.
~~Well ya like? hehe...im such hopeless romantic...grrr...damn curse is what it is. i can't even throw angst in there without feeling guilty to them. well i tried. lordy lordy, im slow on these chapies aren't i? man, well schools back in ::looks at computer date and adjusts eyes cause its all blury cause im really tired:: 2 weeks. yey. Review please, im not sure to cont or not. thanks kids :)~~