*~*Dark Nightmares*~*
*~*Dark Nightmares*~*

"Ah, loneliness… How would I know who I am without you?"

-Emma Larocque

Disclaimer… I don't own sailor moon, sue me… this chapter is done, and there I'm still working on rechecking all the others before I put the final versions up, but I wanna go after them and re re-check them all…I know I wanna change some things… what's the matter, Shona C? no witty comeback or insult? Shona C: nope… bad day… insulters block. You understand…

Chapter 7:      Doubts

"So, where are we exactly? I don't exactly have a road map of the galaxy…"

"Ah, yes this is you're first time here, isn't it?" Setsuna asked, a smile playing across her lips. "This is where I live… when I'm not with you guys." She added when she saw confusion surface on Hotaru's face. "This is my Temple of Time. This is where I watch the universe, for all time.

"Ah… I see." Hotaru replied. "I missed you, Setsuna. Why were you gone so long?" Hotaru asked her. She couldn't help but smile as she sat there talking to a dear… friend. She always admired Setsuna. She thought she was drop dead beautiful, kind and compassionate, and so smart, too.

"Well… I missed you, too. I've just had a lot to do. I've been scanning time for a while. Something big will happen soon. And, Firefly, I must say, you're gonna have a big part in the future proceedings." Setsuna smiled back at the teen. "I must say, though, that I get lonely here. It's nice to have some company. Which reminds me, how exactly did you get here?" She sent a sceptical look at Hotaru, who hung her head.

"I don't really know… I just wanted to get away from everyone. It's one of those things that 'you-don't-know-how-to-do-it-but-deep-down-inside-there's-that-sailor-part-of-you-that-knows-everything-and-always-gets-you-out-of-jams'." Hotaru said it all in one breath, and the Pluto couldn't help but giggle. Hotaru did, too, and soon they were laughing uncontrollably.  When they finally stopped, Sailor Pluto was the first to speak.

"Yeah, I know that feeling all too well. I remember, ages ago, as far back as I remember, I had no idea what I was doing, but there was this voice inside me that always pulled me through.  It felt as if it was a completely different person."

"Exactly! When I first became Saturn, I had no idea what was going on, I just did stuff that a voice told me to do!" Hotaru agreed.

"Yeah, but over the years, I got used to the feeling, and it was like I integrated that person into who I am, and it's made me stronger." Pluto said. "Although, there are the times that I wish I was normal. Just to have fun and be myself without worrying about the whole concept of time continuum."  Hotaru hung her head at these words. 'Oh dear, I've struck a nerve' Setsuna thought, as Hotaru suddenly became introverted. 'And I was just starting to get her to open up.'

After a brief pause, Hotaru spoke up. "I know. Everyone hates me because I'm the Senshi of death and destruction. I hate it, it really tears you up." Setsuna took her hand and wrapped her arm around her slender shoulders. "It's not like I want to be death, even saying I'm death doesn't sound right, as if that's not the whole truth… but… I don't know, I just feel like they're not giving me a chance. They don't say much to me, it's like they're all afraid that I'll hurt them. I can see why they think that, not many people last very long around me, but it still hurts. I'm so lonely, all the time." Hotaru let out a bitter laugh, trying to hold back tears. "And the irony gets to me, because I've thought about killing myself, but what good would that do?" she asked Setsuna. 'I've thought about it, too, little one.'  Setsuna thought to herself.

"What's the point when you just keep getting reborn, eh?" Setsuna said. Being the Keeper of Time, she's wondered the same things over and over. "But don't think like that, firefly, cause what would happen if you did? I'd have to wait until you grow up all over again to have a friend to talk to."  She started to get up and stretch. They should be getting back soon, the others would be worried. And that evil she sensed was still coming. They had to prepare…

"Setsuna, you like me… don't you?" Hotaru asked. That question caught her off guard, and she didn't know what to say. She looked down at the young woman's slender face and deep violet eyes.

"Of course I do! What ever would make you think otherwise? I love you as if you were my daughter.  It worries me to see you this upset." She looked into deep purple eyes, seeing thankfulness and happiness well into them. She hadn't seen Hotaru this happy in aeons, and it made her heart jump for joy. "I'll never let anything harm you. OK?" Hotaru looked up at her and hugged her as hard as she could. Pluto thought she heard a 'thank you' and hugged her back. "Now then, we should get back… the others are probably worried about you. They're not going to be angry… don't worry." Pluto took Sailor Saturn's hand as she waved her time staff to create a portal back home. Saturn seemed a little nervous as she took her glaive and stood up, but a loving look from Setsuna gave her the courage to face anything.