Keroberus laid on my bed asleep while I sat beside him. I refused to leave him; Clow had no right to hurt him like that.
As he nudged my hand, I looked up and saw Clow standing in the doorway, his hands resting against the doorframe. "Clow-sama." I stuttered, I was still scarred from earlier events.
He walked into the room and sat next to Keroberus, who slid closer to me. "He's still shaking Yue." Clow's lips formed a pout, a sweet innocent pout.
"You hit him too hard." I looked up at him, part of me wanted to push him away the other wanted to draw him closer and kiss him.
"I am sorry. I don't know what came over me." He bent his head down, so that his glasses fell off the bridge of his nose.
I bent down and lifted his chin up. Pushing his glasses up, I smiled lightly. "I know. Someone like you should never hang their head."
He turned his head to the side while I still held his chin in my hands. "Why do you say that?"
I brushed my finger against his cheek, and leaned forward so that he could feel my breath against his cheek. "Because you are too lovely. Holding your head down takes away from your beauty."
Clow blushed madly. "Yue.." His hands clutched his ropes as I leaned forward and pressed my lips against his cheek. "Yue, please."
I stooped over slightly and kissed him gently. I knew I had crossed the line. But it was a line I wanted to cross. "Please what master?"
I felt Clow's arms wrap around me. "Please come with me." He pulled me up off the bed and led me next door. Bringing me down against the stool, his fingers meshed through my long hair. "Tell me Yue.. Tell me how to make this longing stop. It isn't right… I know it isn't."
I snapped my head up and looked up at my master. His face was so puzzling, no smile or frown. My stomach was doing back flips as I sat there still clinging to him. "Why stop it?"
"Because I made a mistake. I made you to fall in love with me."
I clung to him tighter. "You do not love me?" I closed my eyes as tears welled along my eyelashes.
Clow coughed slightly and sternly wiped the eyes from my eyes. "Don't cry. I love you as a father. Not as my love."
"Why… Tell me why?" I clutched at his cloak and starred up at him.
"I never meant to hurt you."
"You did." I wrapped my wings forward after he walked away, I had to shield myself from him.
Clow's head turned to the side before walking out the door. "I need to check Keroberus. Cry if you must, however I don't think you are losing much."
"I think I am." I wiped my tears from my eyes and looked up at him. "Even though I know how you feel, I can't change how I feel Read-sama."
"I was afraid of that. I may have to make you hate me one day."
"I never will." I clutched my fists at my sides holding them close to hide my shaking.
"There is a reason why I avoided this, because… I swore never to hurt you."
Flicking my hair to the side, I starred at him. "Hurt me? You are hurting me. Distancing me from you hurts just as much."
Clow closed his eyes, those once calm dark eyes, were now clouded. He shook his head. "I need to see Keroberus now."
Keroberus pushed away from Clow fanning out his claws defensively. "I saw what you did to your last lover."
"I won't hurt him Keroberus. I will try. He is weakening my control." Clow pushed his glasses up and petted his mane. "Would you like to be healed?"
"Tell him the truth.." Keroberus scooted closer laying his head against his knee. "I understand that attacking you was wrong. But you need to tell him."
"I will." Clow focused his energy to Kero's jewel on his chest. After healing him he pet his mane one last time before walking from the room only to slam right into me knocking me back against the wall. "Are you okay?"
"Hai." I gathered myself up and stared to get off the floor. Clow seized my hand tightly and dragged me back to his room.
"I have something to tell you." Clow leaned forward so his lips were just barely of an inch away from mine. "I am a former abusive person." He closed his eyes.
"You have been nothing but gentle." I frowned at him. "If you are trying to tell me you are not interested, you are doing a horrible job."
"I am not kidding. My last lover, I abused her to the point where she committed suicide." Clow tilted his head to the side laying his head on my shoulder. "I swore never to love another person, because I am so controlling. I don't want to abuse you too Yue."
I gasped, my platinum silver hair falling into my face. "Will you trust
me Clow?" I took his hand pressing it to my lips. "I am not
as fragile as you think."