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Witnessing Moon
Chapter 5: part 3
Story by: Cessy Angel



"No one had ever suspected that I had been gone that night. And so I continued going out with Sachi, it began every two days, and soon enough it was every night. Sachi and I became like brothers, although our love would make it a taboo. Our love grew every night and every day. I couldn't go one day without seeing him, his beautiful blue eyes twinkling when he said that he loved me.

The nights at the club were always the same. We would run through the streets until we reached the Moonlight Waltz, and then we would buy the most expensive drinks there was (all of which Sachi paid for, because I had no money that I could spare) and we would dance until the early hours of the morning. Sometimes I did pass out while dancing, but other times we would walk back to the monastery, drunk, and talking gibberish.

Although one night the conversation afterwards changed somewhat. My watch showed that it was indeed close to four in the morning. I think my body began to come immune against the effects of alcohol, because I felt perfectly awake. Sachi I knew was accustomed to te alcohol, because he had been and still was always the sober one.

Sachi's arm was around my waist and I leaned on him just a bit, he felt to warm, his skin, his clothes. We were walking in the almost deserted streets, only the wind breezed around us. I always felt safe when I was with Sachi, I didn't know how to explain it, I just did.

He was no longer the big brother I had wanted so much to have, but my lover. The one whom I would share my every secret, my every desire with. Sometimes we would show our love physically, kissing and hugging ourselves until we couldn't stand no more. But we never did have sex, the subject just never came up.

I would have walked forever like this. It felt so right. We walked until we were in front of the church, and then we stopped. There were still another three hours before I would need to sneak back inside. So we sat down on a large rock facing the church, my head laid on Sachi's shoulder, and his arm around my waist.

"Duo... why don't you come stay with me?" Sachi's voice broke the silence. The question took me by surprise, it just came out of no where.

"But, what about your mother?" I asked. I had indeed not heard much about her.

"My mother's been dead since I was six... you mean the lady who was at church with me last time? She was my aunt. She came to see me, like she does every four months. Except that, I'm usually always alone. It'd be great if I had someone to share the house with..." He snuggled closer to me, burying his face in my shoulder.

"But... what about the monastery...?" Even if I usually did sometimes ignore my life there, I still loved reverend Dubois like a father, and the nuns were my sisters. What would they think if I told them I'd leave them to live someone else, my lover in which I had been secretly going out with for almost a year?

"You'd rather stay with them instead of living with me?" He asked. I felt as if I hurt him, badly.

"It's not that... only..."

"The House of God. Heh, I guess it'd be difficult to leave that, considering you'd rather believe in the God of Death instead of the one who creates life." He laughed quietly to himself, then he ran his finger along my nose. "My little God of Death... my Shinigami."

"No! I do believe in Him. Wait, what does God have to do with our relationship?" Silence followed my words, and I saw that Sachi was looking at the church, almost in a dreaming state. "Sachi... are you feeling okay?"

"Oh, yes, I do." He turned towards me. "You don't know. It as even because of Him that we met in the church, that very day a year ago. It's not a question of believing or not believing, you see. I don't know... don't think of me that way."

I began to feel a little uncomfortable, but it passed. In the silence of the night we kissed each other until the glowing numbers of the watch showed that it was well close to five in the morning. We said our goodbyes and parted.

I was still sitting on the bench when he left. I didn't feel like moving much. Rain started spilling from the sky, even though I had not earlier noticed that the clouds turned grey. Water soaked me head to toe, my hair streaked along my face, but it felt good.

My dear Shinigami...

That voice! I bolted upright and looked around. No one was there, but the voice had sounded so near. A chill ran down my spine, and it wasn't because it was cold outside either. I made the decision to enter the monastery, surely it was a dream.

If only it had been a dream...

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"Duo...? Are you awake Duo?"

I turned around in the bed and mumbled a few incomprehensible words. A cold breeze passed over me, and I buried myself in the warm blankets that I was sleeping in. But there was something else too... I did feel warm, more than I should have.

A fever had broken upon me, and it took me a while to realize it. A nun had entered my room and was now taking my temperature. It was my favorite nun, Sister Helen. I'd even say that she and I were the best of friends.

"Duo... where have you been going lately? You're temperature is very high." She laughed a little, while she was sitting on the other side of the bed. "Have you been dancing in the rain?"

I coughed lightly. "Maybe."

She sighed and looked back at me. "Really, Duo, you should pay more attention to your health. You shouldn't... you shouldn't spend all night in the clubs, drinking and dancing..."

I turned towards her, wide eyed. How had she known, how could she have known? "But... how... how did you know?"

Her face became gently, and she brushed the hair away from my face with her hand. "Oh Duo, I know. I saw you one night leaving the monastery, were you with that boy Sachi? I think it was him. I stayed up all night, and then I saw you return in the early morning, you and him were arm in arm. Both of you seemed drunk... and I saw you kiss him before coming back inside..."

My heart ceased beating for a moment. In truth, to be part of the church you were forbidden to fall in love, and with a person of the same sex was completely out of the question. In those times... falling in love with someone of the same sex would for certain get you cast out from the public, people though it was wrong.

"I... I... I'm sorry, Sister Helen, I didn't want you to know, especially not you. But I love Sachi, I love him more than anything else. He's every breath I take, every step I walk, he's every beat of my heart." I stopped.

"Did... did you think I wouldn't fall in love? Oh, Sister Helen, I'm too young! I need to love, don't you see? Have you ever fell in love? Do you know how it feels?"

I know I shouldn't have asked that. I felt as if I hurt her, because a frown appeared on her face. I coughed again and took her hand in mine. I brought my face close to hers and closed my eyes, then I opened them again just to come into contact with her glittering dark brown orbs.

"Duo... " Her eyes seemed to shimmer even more, but I knew it wasn't only her eyes, it was the tears that had begun to collect in them. "People love. Everyone loves. Both reverend Dubois and I knew that you'd fall in love. But we just didn't expect it, you see."

A tear fell down her cheek. "Yes, Duo, I love. I love, more than anything else, I love. But my love and your love is different. You love Sachi, and he loves you. I love God and all the people in this monastery, I love the trees and the animals living in the forests. I love everything. But there isn't anyone I love, just everything."

She loves everything... yet she cannot love another. "Oh, Helen..." I frowned and my vision began to blur. I leaned closer to her and hugged her gently, putting both of my arms behind her back. "I love you too, Helen, it's just... it's just not the same as the love I have for Sachi..."

"I understand..." She whispered. "I'll miss you... my Duo..."

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I didn't go out for three nights. I just stayed in my locket room, covered by the many covers. My health wasn't doing so very good either. It seemed that I had caught a virus that had been going along the village. Although it wasn't always deadly, there were still chances.

My throat was so sore, I coughed continually, sometimes I would even cough up blood, wiping it away with a towel that was next to my bed. My body was stiff and I had lost almost all color, becoming white as a sheet. I always felt warm, whatever I did, I always felt warm.

A coughing fit took over me again, my hand shakily reached for the glass of what that was on the desk next to my bed. I took and few sips and sat up in bed. I kept the glass in my hands and took a sip here and there, although my hand was shaking so much I would sometimes spill some water on the sheets.

I wished I could of gone outside. The sun shone brightly into my room, the rays making me warmer than I already was. I leaned back against my pillow and looked at the sky, the clear blue color reminded me of Sachi's eyes, so beautiful...

Sachi...

Sachi...

My heart ached to see him, but even I didn't know where he lived. Now that I thought about it, I didn't know very much about Sachi. He never spoke of himself. He never spoke of his past. And yet... I felt as if I understood him. My love for him was so strong...

I sighed and closed my eyes. The breeze from the open window refreshed me. I began to breathe slowly, taking my time. I think I would have fallen asleep.

Suddenly I felt the brush of someone else's lips press upon mine. The sweet taste of honey entered my mouth at the same time as his tongue reached for mine. I opened my eyes only to see Sachi's closed one, a somewhat innocent look on his face.

His mouth left mine and I sighed with annoyance. A grin appeared on his face and he put both of his elbows on each side of me. He was sitting of his fours on top of me, his knees on each side as well. He then placed his head on his hands and puckered his lips.

"Aw, is my Duo-chan not feeling well?" he said. He then pouted and continued. "I missed you."

I suddenly felt a bit better. I forced a smile and said weakly "Yeah... I missed you too..."

He took his hand to my forehead and frowned. "You've got a high temperature. Did you hear of the virus that had been going through town? I've heard it's pretty bad. A lot of people have died from it..."

Sachi suddenly looked distant. I brought my arms behind his back and smiled. "Don't worry about it. I'm gonna be alright, a Shinigami can't die, can he?"

"My Shinigami. You've always been so strong. I told you not to stay in the rain, you baka." He forced himself to smile, even though he looked worried, I could see it in his eyes. My mouth mumbled something, and I brought my arms lower, bringing him so that his body would press against mine.

His head leaned against my shoulder, and he whispered my name in my ear. His legs came apart and I felt his organ press against mine, hardening. I gasped and brought him closer. There was a blanket between us, although Sachi was dressed in a blue velvet and golden coat with black pants and knee-high boots.

I moved myself a little, having his weight against mine excited me. I wanted to take him with me, and I had always thought he would be the one to bring me with him. His arms wrapped behind my back and he nuzzled himself in my collarbone, I could feel his breath tickle my exposed skin. I giggled lightly every time he did so. I leaned my head against mine, and in that moment I wanted to be with him forever.

"Did I ever tell you that I loved you with all my heart and soul?"

"Yes, many, many times. But it always feels like you say it for the first time every time."

"Okay then..." Sachi sighed happily. "I love you with all my heart and soul. Will you promise me that you'll always be with me? To be the one who will hold me in your embrace until the day were we must part this world? Forever, forever and forever?"

I closed my eyes and smiled. "And I love you with everything I have, soul, mind, heart. As long as I can open my eyes only to see and feel you living besides me in life. And yes, I promise you everything. Yes, yes and yes. Until the end of my life. Until the end of the universe."

And we stayed like that, hours seemed to pass but only minutes had in reality. It was as if time has been suspended, and only for us. Us and only us, no one else. As if we were special in someone's eyes, and that we were given to chance to feel this moment for a lifetime.

If only that was so.

If only...

If only I hadn't said "yes" afterwards...

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Author's note: Okay, I lied. I thought this chapter would be the last, but it ended up that the part, without being cut in half, would have been HUGE. So I'm cutting it in half. Now, just to warn you guys, the next chapter WILL contain human sacrifice, violence and torture. (Hey, I worked hard on that part :P)

Sooo... if you don't like that kind of stuff, might as well wait for the chapter after that. I'm even gonna put the rating higher. Well, this IS a vampire fic. What did you want me to write? "And the pretty little unicorn gave Duo immortality." Woooow... -_-;;

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