Disclaimer: I don't feel like
putting one. Kay?
Authors notes: I don't know how
I got this idea. I was in the shower washing my hair, and I got inspiration for
this. It's short. But I think it's a good read. I'm not trying to sound
egotistical.
Engulfed in darkness
Darkness
controls my life. It follows me like a shadow. I never laugh, I never talk, I
don't ever cry. No emotions come to me. It's like I'm in a pit that I can't get
out of. Nothing touches me. I'm the center of some people's world, and I hate
it. Everything I live and stand for is a lie. How can anyone know me? Ken, my
best friend doesn't care where I am right now.
Takeru
is off somewhere with his 'baby' Hikari. He knew how I felt for her. But that
ass had to ask her. 'It won't last' I had thought. I inwardly laughed. How
stupid was I? Now I see every other digidestined as a pain. Everyone leads
happy perky lives. Sickening. I'm always doing what my coach wants.
"You
have to be on time" "You can't go there" "Your life is here" is what
seems to be all I hear. The only time I feel relief is when I party. I can let
loose with my team members. My parents hates it. It's my life and I can do what
I want. Now I am doing what I want. It's actually more what I need. Nobody can
stop this.
Not
Iori, Jun, Takeru, Miyako, Hikari, nobody. Oh shit. There's pounding at the door.
"Daisuke!
Open the door. For the love of God" a males voice screamed. Ken's. Ya right.
Like saying 'don't do it' could stop me. Nothing can. I have so much to live
for do I? What? I live for peer pressure? My depression? My disguise? Ya my
disguise. The one I put on every time I walk out of this house.
Nobody knows it's a disguise. They think the real me
the smiling auburn boy with a perfect smile and chocolate brown eyes. Do you want
to know the real me? I'm the depressed boy who didn't sing along with everyone
else in kindergarten. The most popular teen in school that doesn't give a shit
if he lives or dies. I'm engulfed in a darkness that has no ending. It began so
young, it will end so old.
I was a eleven year old who was thinking my big
sister was a winy bitch. Now, that is the least of my worries (although she's
become worse). I'm always trying to be what people want me to be. I can't be
myself. The real me is somewhere inside, and I haven't found him yet because
he's been hiding all my life. I want him to come out so badly, but he's not
what mom and dad want.
And right now it's to late to find him. Everything
is to late. As I raise to blade to my wrists, I don't have any doubt this is
what I want to do. Everything's going to end. I can't help but smile. I had
left a note on the counter. When they find me, it'll be to late. The sharp
silver slices my skin. Blood started trickling down my arm. No turning back
now. Well, it's not like I want to. The room starts spinning at my eyelids get
heavier.
"Bye everyone" I whisper. My life then went dark.
Forever.
~~~~~~~~~~
*Burst out crying* Davis!!!!!!! *Davis comes up behind me and taps my
shoulder* *Davis* Um… Nicole? *I jump up and hug the bishi* DAVIS!!!!!!!!!!!!
Wait, how'd you get here? *Davis* Ask Number two. *Me/Nicole* Nicole…. Oh well
*continues hugging Davis.* I refuse to stop!
