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Her head pounding with pain, she grabbed the bottle of Tylenol out of the top drawer and took two pills with a nearby glass of water. Maybe in a little bit this convenient headache will die down, she hoped. Suddenly she heard two loud knocks at the door. Holding her throbbing head in her hands, she closed her eyes. "Come in."
The door opened and closed. Relena glanced up to see her assistant, Gwen, walk up to her desk with another small stack of contracts in her hands. Relena eyed the contracts evilly and then turned a fearful glance to her assistant.
Gwen looked at Relena apologetically. "Yes, more dreaded papers." Gwen rolled her eyes and set them down carefully on Relena's desk.
Relena leaned back into her soft, cushiony chair. "God I never knew there was so much paper in the world! I've signed about a thousand already today!"
"Yeah I know. You have been at it since 10:00 this morning, Miss. You should rest some, or else go out for some fresh air." Gwen suggested, looking at her employer with a worried glance.
"You know Gwen, normally I would not consider that. But right at this moment, I'm tired of looking at white paper…actually just paper period. I am going out for a walk." Relena stood up with enthusiasm, trying not to notice her aching head. "I'm tired of being responsible all the time. I am taking a break!" She walked out the door of her office.
Suddenly her other staff member, Dereck, appeared in the hallway. Pushing his glasses up, he looked down at the papers he was holding. "Um, Miss Relena here are some contrac-"
"Put them on my desk" Relena interrupted gleefully as she ignored the papers and walked by a stunned Dereck.
After going through security and successfully convincing them she didn't need any bodyguards, she strode through the front doors of the Cinq Kingdom Institute, walked down the steps and started down the sidewalk into New Port City. It was early evening, and the sunlight dimmed off into the horizon far away, creating colors of red, yellow, and purple. Relena breathed in the cool air as she walked to the main square.
As she continued her walk, Relena suddenly noticed a man and a woman sitting together by the city-square water fountain, hugging and kissing each other. She smiled at their personal romantic moment, but her smile began to fade as she thought of the one man she wished she could be with.
The perfect soldier, Heero Yuy.
Break my heart so bad
She blinked back tears as her memories of him flooded into her mind, good and bad. He was always in her mind, always there haunting her. She wished he wasn't. She wished she could forget Heero Yuy.
You don't need him Relena, she told herself for the millionth time. He left you by his own free will. But even that single thought felt like a knife plunging into her heart.
How could the one who made me happy
Make me feel so sad
Heero Yuy knew Relena Dorilan loved him. She told him directly to his face, when he rescued her from Libra. And all he did was give his trademark icy look and demand that she come with him to get off the spaceship. He didn't even say anything else. He ignored her. Just silence.
She had loved him so much. She thought he loved her too. How stupid she was! He never loved her! Maybe he…cared for her some, but only because she was important to his mission. Yeah, after all that happened, Heero was right: She was an obstacle to his mission. All he ever cared about was that damn mission, she spat to herself. He could never even learn to love me at all, he was too stubborn.
Won't somebody tell me
So I can understand
If you love me
How could you hurt this heart of mine
Tell me
Relena kept walking, never really knowing what street she was on. She didn't even notice her headache seemed to have disappeared. Her thoughts kept her preoccupied. All these angry emotions came to her, in the form of Heero. She narrowed her eyes.
How could you be so cold to me?
When I gave you everything
All my love, all I had inside
How could you just walk out the door?
How could you not love me anymore?
I was a fool! A damn fool! A lovesick schoolgirl who was obsessed with him, this mysterious boy. She was caught off-guard by his obvious disregard for his own life, and was intrigued. And like a naïve little child she ran after him all the time, bugging him to death probably. Relena laughed at the thought.
I thought we had forever
How could the one I shared my dreams with
Take my dream from me
How could the love that brought such pleasure
Bring such misery
He could have at least said goodbye to me! She had to
admit that hurt her a lot. She thought that her and Heero were close friends.
And he didn't even come to visit her, or send her a card or anything! After he
collapsed at Mariemaia's underground castle, Relena had him taken to a nearby
area hospital, only to have him break out a few hours later. That last fact
didn't surprise Relena at all. And that was it. Nobody had heard from Heero
ever again. At least, not that she knew of.
Won't somebody tell me
Somebody tell me please
If you love me
How could you do that to me
Tell me
Relena then noticed she was walking in circles in the square. God I must look like some drunk idiot, she smiled to herself. Noticing that the sky was turning darker, she wiped her tear-streaked face with her hands and decided to head back to the Institute before anyone decided to send a search party after her.
Later that night, Relena entered her bedroom and changed into her pale-blue silk nightgown. She walked over to her bedroom window and opened the glass doors, letting some much needed air in. Walking out on the balcony she leaned against the balcony wall and observed her surroundings. All she saw was trees and buildings with streetlights glowing in the darkness, looking like scattered fireflies above the forest.
How could you just walk out the door
How could you not love me anymore
I thought we had forever
No I can't understand
Taking a deep breath, her mind once again came back to Heero like it always did. Relena pursed her lips. She had had it.
How could the one I gave my heart to
Break my heart so bad
How could the one who made me happy
Make me feel so sad
"This is it Heero Yuy. You hear me now!" She spoke outloud. "I loved you! I did! I told you straight to your face! I gave my heart to you! What did you do? You turned away! You didn't give a damn about me! If you would have, you wouldn't have left! You left without saying goodbye….. You hurt me." A pair of prussian blue eyes in the darkness blinked.
Won't somebody tell me
So I can understand
If you love me
How could you hurt me like that
"I'm tired of being hurt. I'm tired of being blinded by my
feelings for you. I'm tired of wondering where you are and what you think of
me.
How could the one I gave my world to
Throw my world away
How could the one who said I love you
Say the things you say
How could the one I gave my heart to
Break my heart so bad
Relena Dorilan closed her eyes briefly and then walked back inside her bedroom, closing the glass doors behind her and pulling the curtains closed.
How could the one who I used to run to
Tell me lies
Suddenly a figure crept out of his hiding place behind the rose vines in the corner of the balcony. He walked over to the very same spot that Relena had just stood at.
How could the one I gave my heart to
Make me feel so sad
"Relena…." He whispered, as he raised his fingers and touched them against the spot where Relena's kissed fingers touched the marble. He brought his fingers up and pressed them gently against his lips.
"I'm sorry Relena. I never wanted you to be hurt. But we can never be together. I don't deserve you."
How could the one I gave my heart to
Break my heart so bad
"I will always be watching you though, protecting you…from where you can't see me." He quietly said out loud to the breezy wind, it cascading through his chocolate brown mane.
He turned around and stared at the glass doors with the mahogany curtains covering them. Heero smiled, a smile he had never experienced before.
Tell me
"I love you forever Relena Dorilan." Then Heero's eyes
turned back into his prussian-blue stare, but now instead of being totally icy,
there was a speck of feeling in them.
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Goodbye Aaliyah. You will forever be an inspiration to us all, girl. Peace