Forgiven
Author: T.A. Medley
Genre: Romance/Drama
Rating: PG
A/N: Read! And Please Review!
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I won't forget what he said before I left. It's probable that those words would ring in my ear for all eternity. It was inevitable that they would haunt me in my dreams at night. It was amazing how they all felt the same way. Amazing how can people can turn on you after declaring their undying love and adoration for you just that previous day. It is amazing how people can change.
Flashback
"Hand it over Usagi!" Rei bellowed fury in her eyes.
"What? Why?" I stammered. They had sat me down after an unsuccessful battle against a youma. They all stared at me with eyes full of anger and possibly pain, all the while Mamoru was holding Chibi Usa and looking out the window as if they were unaware of the events unfolding behind them.
"Because Usagi, it's apparent that you cannot handle the responsibility of being the leader!" Makoto yelled.
I looked around at them, each of their eyes were piercing my heart like sharp knives. I didn't know what to say or do. I tried to hold back the tears. I tried, for once in miserable life to be stronger than them; again, I failed, as one single, solitary tear trickled silently down my red cheeks. I wiped it away as quickly as possible.
For minutes, they sat there staring at me in anticipation, waiting for me to hand over the crystal; my crystal.
I looked around and did the only thing that might help…
"Mamoru, Mamoru please don't let them take it from me," I cried, my voice breaking as I waited for a response. 'Please,' I thought, 'please say something, a whimper, a groan, but please don't shut me out.'
"Why, Usagi?" he asked coldly, "They are all right. I know it and you know it too. I love you Usagi, but I hate the things you do. You talk all this stuff but you never get the job done. You are always late and goofing around. You are sixteen but you still act like you are ten. When will grow up and realize you have responsibilities? You're a crybaby, a klutz, and you don't pay attention to good advice. If you listened half as much as you talked, then you wouldn't be in this predicament!"
I did not believe it. Just days ago they were telling me how much I had grown, although just days ago they yelled at me for the exact same thing.
"Mamoru? Ami, Minako!? Rei, Makoto!?!? Chibi Usa!" I cried hoping that one of them would come to my side.
"No Usa-chan, Mamo-chan is right! You do not deserve to be the leader. Daddy used to tell me about the heroic soldier Sailor Moon. I loved that Sailor Moon! I wanted to be just like her! But when I finally got know her, she wasn't the person I thought she was. You're not the person I thought you were! You don't deserve to be moon princess, moon soldier, moon anything! Why can't you just grow up!" she yelled, her eyes ablaze with fury.
I couldn't take it. Their stares, their hurtful words. I raised my hands to my chest and removed the brooch. My hands were shaking so violently that I could barely get it off. I threw it on the table. Just as Rei opened her mouth to say something, I was gone before she could let it out.
I ran. I ran until my legs collapsed; until my body ached and my head spun. I was feet away from my home, but I felt as though I couldn't make it. So, I sat there. I did not cry. I did not think or move. I just stared at the hard, concrete ground that had scraped my knees as though it mesmerized me. I thought of nothing, I freed my mind. I was in a place of no time, no objects, just matter. A place where I could be alone. A place in the deepest, darkest corners of my mind; here I had never journeyed before. I was alone.
And that is exactly where I wanted to be.
Flashback Ends
Somehow, I made it up to my room. I was lying in the bed, tucked neatly under the covers. My eyes could barely open, and my ached greatly. However, regardless of how I felt, I pushed my self up and got out of bed. I staggered to the bathroom and ran myself some water. I emerged by entire body in the hot, steaming water and let the power of the H20 heal my aches and pains. I let my head go under, as I held my breath for long periods of time as though I was a fish, extracting oxygen form the water.
Luckily, it was Friday. It were any other day and I had to go school the next day, I would probably pass out on my daily rush there from emotional and physical exhaustion.
I did not realize how late it was, or how long I had been in there, until my mother began to bang in the door. I didn't respond though, for my energy had deteriorated greatly. After she knocked again, and the worry in her voice became apparent to me, I managed, for her sake to moan loudly.
Time passed on as I sat there, thinking of nothing. I didn't dare reminisce in the past events of today. I put the pain away. The way I always did. I put it away in some unexplored corner of my mind, the way I did when my problems became too much to bear.
Finally around 9 p.m., I managed to remove myself from the addicting wound healing powers of a good bath, put my pajamas on, and slept, amazingly without thought or need of nourishment. I just slept unaware and uncaring of the events tomorrow might bring.
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How is Usagi going to handle things?
Will she be able to handle it at all?
Or will her world slowly begin to deteriorate even more than it already has?
All these question and more answered in the next chapter coming soon:
Chapter 2: Realization