Authors note

Authors note: Ok I have the worst writers block on my other two stories, so I decided to just take a little break. Yes, it is another Hermione depressed fic, but I'm so in love with those I can't help it. The song is Two Beds And A Coffee machine by Savage Garden.

A Future Wasted

Hermione rested her head against the bathroom door tears streaming down her face. She was never going to be perfect, never going to be the kind of woman he deserved. She was too much of a geek, not thin enough, and not pretty enough. She didn't deserved to be loved, and her children deserved a better life then she was giving them. She had made the wrong choices, and with all her heart she wished she could take them back.

And she takes another step


Slowly she opens the door


Check that he is sleeping


Pick up all the broken glass and furniture on the floor


Been up half the night screaming now it's time to get away


Pack up the kids in the car


Another bruise to try and hide


Another alibi to write

Hermione concentrated on the road as she drove to the familiar hotel. It's the same one she had been taking her two children to sense they had been born. Just thinking about how her two little girls new this hotel like a second home brought on a new wave of tears.

Another ditch in the road


You keep moving


Another stop sign


You keep moving on


And the years go by so fast


Wonder how I ever made it through

Hermione let her thoughts wander back to the time she was in Hogwarts. Before she had married Vicktor. When she had been the smartest witch Hogwarts had ever seen, her future had seemed so bright then, when had it all go wrong?

 


And there are children to think of


Baby's asleep in the backseat


Wonder how they'll ever make it through this living nightmare


But the mind is an amazing thing


Full of candy dreams and new toys and another cheap hotel


Two beds and a coffee machine


But there are groceries to buy


And she knows she'll have to go home

Hermione hadn't talked to Harry and Ron in 5 years, they probably thought she was dead somewhere. Which was in a way true, her future was dead, she was no longer the Hermione they knew, she couldn't fend for herself, she couldn't make it without Vicktor, she couldn't support her children alone. The only thing that kept her from killing herself was that look on her daughter's faces every day when they came home from kindergarten so happy to see her. She couldn't leave them alone in the world with just Vicktor; she wouldn't do what her own mother had done to her so many years before. Hermione prayed for the day her two little girls might be able to go to Hogwarts, and finally know true happiness.

 


Another ditch in the road


You keep moving


Another stop sign


You keep moving on


And the years go by so fast


Wonder how I ever made it through

If Hermione could go back in time and do it again she would have never agreed to marry Vicktor, but it was too late for her future and now she just had to concentrate on staying alive long enough to keep her daughters safe, who knows they might grow up to be the kind of women she was meant to be.

 


Another bruise to try and hide


Another alibi to write


Another lonely highway in the black of night


But there's hope in the darkness


You know you're going to make it


Another ditch in the road


Keep moving


Another stop sign


You keep moving on


And the years go by so fast


Silent fortress built to last


Wonder how I ever made it.

So, hope you liked that. Please review just cause it makes me feel happy! BTW I suggest everyone download that song cause it's really pretty.

~Charlene~