Just Where They Were
Disclaimer: No, I don't own Outlaw Star and I never will, so
there!^_^
This is the first fic that I actually finished and posted on
Fanfiction.net, so please, don't be too cruel.
And another thing, this is YAOI.
It's a yaoi fic between Gene and Jim.
If you don't like that sort of thing then I suggest that you leave. Now, on to the fic!
Why? Why him? Why did this have to happen to him? Why did
this have to happen to him of all people? Why did he have to fall in
love? Why? Jim Hawking thought. These and many other questions constantly
chewed at his mind everyday. And who would little Jim Hawking happen to fall
in love with? His own mind taunted. None other than Gene Starwind,
Jim's other half answered.
He didn't know when
it had happened and didn't really care for that matter. All he knew was that he
was in love with the handsome older man. But how did this happen?
Another mind boggling question. I don't know, the other voice in his
head answered.
You know sooner or later you're going to have to tell
him, right?
Yeah, but it's just that I'm too afraid to.
What are you afraid of?
Rejection.
Well, at least you'll have it off of your chest. Come on,
you can do this.
I can do it, Jim thought.
"I'm gonna do it," he whispered out loud to himself.
Jim slowly got up and walked down the hallway of the Outlaw
Star toward Gene's room. He was just about to knock when Gene opened the door.
"Hey, Jim! What are ya doin' up so late?"
"Can I come in?" Jim meekly asked.
"Sure." Jim walked
in. "So what's up?"
"I came here to tell you something."
"What?" Both boys sat down.
"I…well you see… I don't know when this happened-"
"Jim, what did you want to tell me?"
"Well…I wanted to say that… what I wanted to tell you is
that-"
"Jim," Gene said, clearly agitated.
"Iloveyou!" he blurted out as fast as he could.
There, I said it. But when he looked up, Gene was
just sitting there like a statue with a shocked look on his face. I knew it,
Jim thought. I knew he didn't love me. I don't blame him. Tears started
to well up in the young boy's eyes and he turned and ran out of the room, tears
streaming down his face. "Jim, wait!"
Gene yelled. I can't believe it. Jim is in love with me.
I should go talk to him. But wait. Do I love him back? No. Yes. No. Yes. Ugh!
Do I love him? Do I love Jim Hawking?
While Gene
was having his mental debate, Jim was crying silently in his room. "I'll never
be able to show my face around Gene ever again," Jim choked out between sobs.
"Why would he want to be with me of all people?" he scoffed at himself. "I
don't deserve him!" And with that, he curled up into a fetal position on the
bed, sobs racking his body.
Yes, Gene thought, finally coming to his
decision. Yes, I do love him. I love the way he smiles. I love the way he
looks when he gets mad at me. Hell, I even love our fights together. Gene
was walking down the hallway and approached the open doorway, hearing small
sobs he immediately felt guilty. He stood in the doorway of the dark room to
find Jim curled up in a ball, shaking from crying. "Jim?" Gene said quietly.
Jim's eyes snapped open, and he froze. Getting no answer, Gene approached the
bed and knelt beside it. "Jim," he gently repeated his name. Jim looked up at
Gene, tears sliding down his face. "Jim, it's ok," Gene coaxed. He reached out
to wipe the tears from the small boy's face, but Jim flinched back. "It's ok,
Gene. You don't have to do this. I'll understand if you don't love me back,"
Jim sniffled. He buried his face into the pillow. Gene lifted Jim's chin up, so
he could look at him and said, "But don't you see, Jim? I love you, too. Jim's
eyes grew wide, and he stammered, "But, Gene…I…how could you lo-"
"Shhh…Gene cut him
off quietly. He cupped Jim's face in his hand and leaned towards him. Their
lips met, and they kissed. It was a sweet, gentle kiss that made Jim's sorrow
quickly melt away. Gene pulled back and smiled down at the young boy.
"Gene, could
you…stay with me tonight?" Jim awkwardly asked in a small voice. "Sure," Gene
answered. He climbed into the bed and pulled the covers over both of them. He
slowly wrapped his arms around the smaller form, and Jim snuggled close. He fit
perfectly against Gene.
After a couple minutes of silence Jim spoke up, "Gene?" "Hm?
Gene asked sleepily. "I love you." Gene kissed Jim's forehead. "I love you too,
Jim." The two figures snuggled even closer and fell into a blissful sleep, both
content just where they were.
Yay! My first
fic! I would really appreciate it if
you reviewed it, so please do!
