Hi, it's Suzume again.... I'm really bored, and I have nothin' to do. So I wrote a poem that had no rhythm or sense what so ever and didn't rhyme. It could be nonsense about anything till you reach about the 8th verse or so... It's in Shinji's POV. I think it gets a little better towards the end, but then, it all sucks. Please, bear with me.... Gomen!!!

Tell me what it's like to remember
Love as a flame and hate as an ember
Tell me what it's like to lose your wings
Perhaps what it's like without attatched strings
Remember to me what the daylight is like
What it is to have a hand that won't strike.

Why all these bruises?
Life just confuses
Help me to see
Help me to be
When all I own
Is my skin and my bones

Freedom is beautiful
Why can't you see?
They say you are just dutiful.
Trapped beneath me.

Don't you forget
That I am all yours
Don't you neglect
Life outside your jailing doors.

I am just a stranger
Someone who can't belong
Am I really just a danger
Or could it be that you are wrong?

I'm shut away with solitude
So who am I when... not?
Am I just a bad attitude,
That everyone forgot?

My skin is made of holes
My eyes just salty tears
My lacking is my soul
My courage is my fear

Who are you when you are lost
Who are you when no one cares?
How much did your good cheer cost?
Or are you unaware?

I'm no one - here I sit
I can't pilot anymore
Why can't you find someone fit
To fight out petty wars?

How do you kill an angel
How do you destroy a heart?
Leave my soul to dangle,
Still falling apart.

I hate you as a father
I hate you as a man
If I should ever bother
I'll hate all if I can

I'm lost and I am lonely
Careful - not too near!
If you are my one and only
It's you I'll have to spear

The disposision of a porcupine
The thoughts of one that's killed
The blood on my hands is never mine
And my soul is never filled

So why are you now asking
For me to just go on
My weakness you are masking
In this plug-suit that I don

Betrayal I have known
And trust is not to be
And she is nothing, just a clone
Nothing left for me

I think I knew a man once
Scarlet eyes aflame
He was but just a taste of bunce
Before my soul was maimed

I think I know my coming fate
Lying here and breathing blood
I merely have to rest and wait
And be dragged through all life's mud

So giving up is not a choice
I think I am... Too weak?
I'm pulled along without a voice
Never the strength
to speak.