Hey this is the 10th part of New Kid At Chilton, but it is kinda a song fic. I mean the song just fit SO well with what the story was about. So enjoy! (I hope)
~*~I know that its been on your mind
That distant look is in your eyes. ~*~
Rory and Tristan sat in the courtyard on their bench.
"Rory.... What's wrong?" He repeated his question.
"Nothing...."
"Come on I know you well enough to know when something's up...."
"It's just that.... Do you have feelings for me?" Tristan looked surprised at the question.
"Uh, well, of course I do! We've been friends for like 3 years...." He tried to avoid the question.
"Tristan, you know what I mean..."
"Rory, why do we have to go threw this? You're with Dean I get it. We are friends! And I'm fine with that! I'm glad to have you in my life at all!"
~*~ I knew with time you'd realize
It's over, over. ~*~
"Well, I'm not with Dean any more, I haven't been for a while now..."
"Why didn't you tell me?"
"Because I was afraid...."
"Of what?"
"That we could lose what we have, if some would happen between us..."
~*~It's not the way I choose to live
And someone some where's got to give. ~*~
"Rory, now matter what we do we will always be friends!"
"But, I mean I don't even know if I like you like that. Sure I think about it, a lot, but I am still so confused..."
"Of what? Love? Rory if you and me are meant to be it will happen, and there is no amount of thinking that will give you a straight up answer!"
~*~As sharing this relationship
Gets older, older. ~*~
"Rory, I stood by you for almost three years while you were with Dean. I made sure you were being treated well, and that you were happy. But at some point I couldn't take it. I mean think about how you felt when you saw me kiss any girl."
She just nodded her head.
"And now pretend that you had feelings for me, and you could do nothing but stand by and watch...."
~*~ You know I'd fight for you but
How can I fight someone
who isn't even there? ~*~
She didn't know what to do. "I think we need some time to think about all this, some time alone...."
"Rory that is the last thing we need! How can you know how I feel if I cant see you. And if you don't see or talk to me how are you going to know? We need to talk about this...."
~*~I had the rest of you now I want the rest of you
I don't care if that's not fair. ~*~
"We've been great friends, and what if it-"
"Doesn't work out?" He finished her sentence. "Rory, I have had you as a friend and there is nothing or anyone who has meant more to me. But right now I don't need you as a friend. I need someone to love me some one to love...."
"What are you saying Tristan?"
~*~ Coz I want it all
Or nothing at all. ~*~
"I'm saying that we need to work these feelings out once and for all."
"Tristan what if I'm not ready to!"
~*~ There's nowhere left to fall when you reach the bottom
It's now, or never. ~*~
He stood up. "Rory look at us! We are fighting! I never want to fight with you. But you not being willing to look at what you feel is training us apart when it should be bring us together!"
~*~Is it all?
Or are we just friends? ~*~
"So what do you feel?"
"I don't know, I can't just be confused told to figure it out and then know the answer in 5 minutes!"
"Rory, I need to know. I need to know what you want, how you feel.
"Tristan I can't!" She ran to her car and drove away. That night she left a message on his answering machine. The next day at Chilton.
~*~Is this how it ends with a simple telephone call?
You leave me here with nothing at all. ~*~
Rory was walking through the courtyard and then she felt a hand on her arm, she didn't need to look, she knew who it was.
"Tristan I..."
"You what? Don't even think enough of me to tell me to my face?!? Rory come on! I know this isn't what you want!"
~*~There are times it seems to me
I'm sharing you with memories. ~*~
"Tristan how do you know what I feel inside?"
"Because you not very good at hiding things! I mean you suck at lying and your eyes." His hand touched her cheek. "Your eyes always tell me everything I need to know..."
"Well, those are my eyes, not my brain, and my brain it telling me... telling me..."
~*~I feel it in my heart
but I don't show it, show it. ~*~
"Stop listening to your brain and listen to your heart! What does your tell you is right?"
"I, Tristan, please. Cant we just be friends?"
~*~And then there's times you look at me
As though I'm all that you can see
Those times I know it, know it. ~*~
"Rory, the way you are acting and the how intense your eyes are RIGHT NOW when you look at me, tells me that something in side of you is telling you that you know you and me are right!"
"Tristan...."
~*~Don't make me promises!
Baby you never did know how to keep them well! ~*~
"No! I know you. Lorelai Gilmore, you are telling me now how you feel. I'm not giving you time to go home and think about all things that could go wrong!"
~*~I've had the rest of you now I want the best of you
It's time to show and tell. ~*~
"Tristan, and what happens if we do something and it doesn't work out? That we wind up hating each other. I don't think I could lose you..."
"Rory, if you don't tell me point blank how you feel, we still can't be friends..." He hated saying those words, but it was true. No matter what happened here is would tell him what they were going to be. And if it wasn't more then friends he wasn't sure if he could take it.
~*~Coz I want it all
Or nothing at all. ~*~
"Tristan that's not fair! I don't, I can't lose our friendship! And if your telling me, if I don't dated you we wont be friend anymore!"
"Because I know that we BOTH want to be more. Come on Rory, you cant tell me that you want to JUST be friends. And dating doesn't mean that we still wont be friends. When you date someone that pint is that you love them and that they are like your best friend."
~*~There's nowhere left to fall when you reach the bottom
It's now, or never. ~*~
"Tristan, I do want us to try this, but there are still so many things that could tare us apart."
~*~Is it all?
Or are we just friends? ~*~
"Then we wont let it."
~*~Is this how it ends with a simple telephone call?
You leave me here with nothing at all....~*~
"So Rory, what is it? All or nothing?"
She took a breath and exhaled. "All..." And at that he grabbed her by the waist and brought her in for a kiss. He looked at her in the eyes, both were sparkling.
"I like your choice Gilmore...."
"You know what? I do to..." She kissed him again. The two walked hand and hand back to the car. Rory sat there a smiled plastered across her face.
"What are you thinking?" He looked over at her.
"That after we are going to be very happy people. I mean we've been friends for like 3 years. And now we are friends who kiss. What could be better?"
"Well..." He said with 'his' grin.
She smiled, giving him a 'fat-chance' look.
"So what about you? What are you going to do about high school?"
"Are you kidding?!? I can't leave you alone with all those guys! No way in hell! I'm GOING BACK BABY!"
She wasn't going to say it, but she really wanted him there. "Oh really? And what pray tell would the mean boys do to me?"
"Things that only I get to do now..."
He leaned over to kiss her again.
::RING RING::
"Hello?" he said rather annoyed.
"Hey Tristan..."
"Who is this?"
"Don't you remember? It's Katie..."
Tristan closed his eyes. Rory looked at him. Who ever this is. He must really like them or really hate them!
"Tristan?"
"Yea, hey."
"Can we talk?"
"Katie..." Rory flinched knowing it was a girl.
"Tristan, come on. I think after all we've been though talking wont be to much to ask..."
"Fine. Tonight the same old place at 8:00"
"I'll be there..." He hung up. He didn't know how to tell Rory what just happened.
"Tristan... are you ok?" She touched his arm.
"I really want to tell you all about it, but I'm still not sure what it is all about... so after tonight I will tell you everything..."
"About what? Who was she?"
"Rory... I love you, but right now, I just need to straighten my life out before I can come into yours."
"What do you mean 'come in to my life?!?' Tristan you have been the biggest part of my life for 3 years!"
"Rory.... I don't want to upset you! Trust me! I mean I don't want to have to bring this baggage into our relationship."
"Tristan, this isn't a good way to start things off!"
"I know, but I need to do this Rory. I love you and but I cant let this chance to figure out what happened in my past go by..."
She still had no idea what was so important, or who the chick was.
"Tristan, just tell me who she is..." he said pulling up to her house.
"A girl from my past... but she is no threat to you! Trust me my heart is with you. It all ways will be..."
"I really hope your right..." She kissed him and went inside to try and maybe figure out what the hell just happened back there.
~*~ Tristan ~*~
Tristan just pulled up into the small coffee shop by his house. He saw a BMW and knew she was there. People with BMW's don't really come here.
He walked into see her setting there.
"Hey...." He said setting down at the table she had been setting at.
"Hey..." She was half Asian and half Swedish. The only way you could tell she wasn't all Asian was here hair and eyes. Her hair was a light brown, and her eyes. Her eyes were what made him fall for her. She was Asian with bright blue eyes. It was incredible.
"Katie, what's wrong? Because after 2 years you don't just show up unless something is wrong?"
"Or very right..."
"What?"
"Tristan, things between us were, hard. And I broke, after I left the things that just came easy to me... sucked. It was like they weren't worth it if I didn't have to try. I thought if I wanted him that much and I broke."
"We would have both broken eventually..." He said 1/2 lying.
She shock her head with a smile. "Not you.... You were always so sure of us..." The word 'us' brought back a lot of memories to them both.
"Katie... what are you saying?"
"I'm saying I want a chance not to break..."
"Katie, I have someone in my life..."
"But she doesn't have our history!"
"Our history sucks!"
"That's not true. The first year was great!"
"Yea 'was'. Katie I cant...." She could take it anymore. She leaned over the table and kissed him. He tried to resist, but it was Katie. It would always be Katie...
(AN: don't worry, no one missed a part, everything will be explained in the next chapter.)
~*~I know that its been on your mind
That distant look is in your eyes. ~*~
Rory and Tristan sat in the courtyard on their bench.
"Rory.... What's wrong?" He repeated his question.
"Nothing...."
"Come on I know you well enough to know when something's up...."
"It's just that.... Do you have feelings for me?" Tristan looked surprised at the question.
"Uh, well, of course I do! We've been friends for like 3 years...." He tried to avoid the question.
"Tristan, you know what I mean..."
"Rory, why do we have to go threw this? You're with Dean I get it. We are friends! And I'm fine with that! I'm glad to have you in my life at all!"
~*~ I knew with time you'd realize
It's over, over. ~*~
"Well, I'm not with Dean any more, I haven't been for a while now..."
"Why didn't you tell me?"
"Because I was afraid...."
"Of what?"
"That we could lose what we have, if some would happen between us..."
~*~It's not the way I choose to live
And someone some where's got to give. ~*~
"Rory, now matter what we do we will always be friends!"
"But, I mean I don't even know if I like you like that. Sure I think about it, a lot, but I am still so confused..."
"Of what? Love? Rory if you and me are meant to be it will happen, and there is no amount of thinking that will give you a straight up answer!"
~*~As sharing this relationship
Gets older, older. ~*~
"Rory, I stood by you for almost three years while you were with Dean. I made sure you were being treated well, and that you were happy. But at some point I couldn't take it. I mean think about how you felt when you saw me kiss any girl."
She just nodded her head.
"And now pretend that you had feelings for me, and you could do nothing but stand by and watch...."
~*~ You know I'd fight for you but
How can I fight someone
who isn't even there? ~*~
She didn't know what to do. "I think we need some time to think about all this, some time alone...."
"Rory that is the last thing we need! How can you know how I feel if I cant see you. And if you don't see or talk to me how are you going to know? We need to talk about this...."
~*~I had the rest of you now I want the rest of you
I don't care if that's not fair. ~*~
"We've been great friends, and what if it-"
"Doesn't work out?" He finished her sentence. "Rory, I have had you as a friend and there is nothing or anyone who has meant more to me. But right now I don't need you as a friend. I need someone to love me some one to love...."
"What are you saying Tristan?"
~*~ Coz I want it all
Or nothing at all. ~*~
"I'm saying that we need to work these feelings out once and for all."
"Tristan what if I'm not ready to!"
~*~ There's nowhere left to fall when you reach the bottom
It's now, or never. ~*~
He stood up. "Rory look at us! We are fighting! I never want to fight with you. But you not being willing to look at what you feel is training us apart when it should be bring us together!"
~*~Is it all?
Or are we just friends? ~*~
"So what do you feel?"
"I don't know, I can't just be confused told to figure it out and then know the answer in 5 minutes!"
"Rory, I need to know. I need to know what you want, how you feel.
"Tristan I can't!" She ran to her car and drove away. That night she left a message on his answering machine. The next day at Chilton.
~*~Is this how it ends with a simple telephone call?
You leave me here with nothing at all. ~*~
Rory was walking through the courtyard and then she felt a hand on her arm, she didn't need to look, she knew who it was.
"Tristan I..."
"You what? Don't even think enough of me to tell me to my face?!? Rory come on! I know this isn't what you want!"
~*~There are times it seems to me
I'm sharing you with memories. ~*~
"Tristan how do you know what I feel inside?"
"Because you not very good at hiding things! I mean you suck at lying and your eyes." His hand touched her cheek. "Your eyes always tell me everything I need to know..."
"Well, those are my eyes, not my brain, and my brain it telling me... telling me..."
~*~I feel it in my heart
but I don't show it, show it. ~*~
"Stop listening to your brain and listen to your heart! What does your tell you is right?"
"I, Tristan, please. Cant we just be friends?"
~*~And then there's times you look at me
As though I'm all that you can see
Those times I know it, know it. ~*~
"Rory, the way you are acting and the how intense your eyes are RIGHT NOW when you look at me, tells me that something in side of you is telling you that you know you and me are right!"
"Tristan...."
~*~Don't make me promises!
Baby you never did know how to keep them well! ~*~
"No! I know you. Lorelai Gilmore, you are telling me now how you feel. I'm not giving you time to go home and think about all things that could go wrong!"
~*~I've had the rest of you now I want the best of you
It's time to show and tell. ~*~
"Tristan, and what happens if we do something and it doesn't work out? That we wind up hating each other. I don't think I could lose you..."
"Rory, if you don't tell me point blank how you feel, we still can't be friends..." He hated saying those words, but it was true. No matter what happened here is would tell him what they were going to be. And if it wasn't more then friends he wasn't sure if he could take it.
~*~Coz I want it all
Or nothing at all. ~*~
"Tristan that's not fair! I don't, I can't lose our friendship! And if your telling me, if I don't dated you we wont be friend anymore!"
"Because I know that we BOTH want to be more. Come on Rory, you cant tell me that you want to JUST be friends. And dating doesn't mean that we still wont be friends. When you date someone that pint is that you love them and that they are like your best friend."
~*~There's nowhere left to fall when you reach the bottom
It's now, or never. ~*~
"Tristan, I do want us to try this, but there are still so many things that could tare us apart."
~*~Is it all?
Or are we just friends? ~*~
"Then we wont let it."
~*~Is this how it ends with a simple telephone call?
You leave me here with nothing at all....~*~
"So Rory, what is it? All or nothing?"
She took a breath and exhaled. "All..." And at that he grabbed her by the waist and brought her in for a kiss. He looked at her in the eyes, both were sparkling.
"I like your choice Gilmore...."
"You know what? I do to..." She kissed him again. The two walked hand and hand back to the car. Rory sat there a smiled plastered across her face.
"What are you thinking?" He looked over at her.
"That after we are going to be very happy people. I mean we've been friends for like 3 years. And now we are friends who kiss. What could be better?"
"Well..." He said with 'his' grin.
She smiled, giving him a 'fat-chance' look.
"So what about you? What are you going to do about high school?"
"Are you kidding?!? I can't leave you alone with all those guys! No way in hell! I'm GOING BACK BABY!"
She wasn't going to say it, but she really wanted him there. "Oh really? And what pray tell would the mean boys do to me?"
"Things that only I get to do now..."
He leaned over to kiss her again.
::RING RING::
"Hello?" he said rather annoyed.
"Hey Tristan..."
"Who is this?"
"Don't you remember? It's Katie..."
Tristan closed his eyes. Rory looked at him. Who ever this is. He must really like them or really hate them!
"Tristan?"
"Yea, hey."
"Can we talk?"
"Katie..." Rory flinched knowing it was a girl.
"Tristan, come on. I think after all we've been though talking wont be to much to ask..."
"Fine. Tonight the same old place at 8:00"
"I'll be there..." He hung up. He didn't know how to tell Rory what just happened.
"Tristan... are you ok?" She touched his arm.
"I really want to tell you all about it, but I'm still not sure what it is all about... so after tonight I will tell you everything..."
"About what? Who was she?"
"Rory... I love you, but right now, I just need to straighten my life out before I can come into yours."
"What do you mean 'come in to my life?!?' Tristan you have been the biggest part of my life for 3 years!"
"Rory.... I don't want to upset you! Trust me! I mean I don't want to have to bring this baggage into our relationship."
"Tristan, this isn't a good way to start things off!"
"I know, but I need to do this Rory. I love you and but I cant let this chance to figure out what happened in my past go by..."
She still had no idea what was so important, or who the chick was.
"Tristan, just tell me who she is..." he said pulling up to her house.
"A girl from my past... but she is no threat to you! Trust me my heart is with you. It all ways will be..."
"I really hope your right..." She kissed him and went inside to try and maybe figure out what the hell just happened back there.
~*~ Tristan ~*~
Tristan just pulled up into the small coffee shop by his house. He saw a BMW and knew she was there. People with BMW's don't really come here.
He walked into see her setting there.
"Hey...." He said setting down at the table she had been setting at.
"Hey..." She was half Asian and half Swedish. The only way you could tell she wasn't all Asian was here hair and eyes. Her hair was a light brown, and her eyes. Her eyes were what made him fall for her. She was Asian with bright blue eyes. It was incredible.
"Katie, what's wrong? Because after 2 years you don't just show up unless something is wrong?"
"Or very right..."
"What?"
"Tristan, things between us were, hard. And I broke, after I left the things that just came easy to me... sucked. It was like they weren't worth it if I didn't have to try. I thought if I wanted him that much and I broke."
"We would have both broken eventually..." He said 1/2 lying.
She shock her head with a smile. "Not you.... You were always so sure of us..." The word 'us' brought back a lot of memories to them both.
"Katie... what are you saying?"
"I'm saying I want a chance not to break..."
"Katie, I have someone in my life..."
"But she doesn't have our history!"
"Our history sucks!"
"That's not true. The first year was great!"
"Yea 'was'. Katie I cant...." She could take it anymore. She leaned over the table and kissed him. He tried to resist, but it was Katie. It would always be Katie...
(AN: don't worry, no one missed a part, everything will be explained in the next chapter.)