Staind
It's been awhile, since I could
"Hold my head high
It's been
awhile since I first saw you
It's been a
while since I could stand
On my own two
feet again
It's been
awhile since I could call you
But everything I can't
remember
As fucked up
as it all may seem
The
consequences that I've rendered
I've stretched
myself beyond my means
It's been awhile since
I could say
That I wasn't
addicted
It's been a
while since I could say
I love myself
as well
It's been
awhile since I've gone and fucked things up
Just like I
always do
But all that
shit seems to disappear
When I'm with
you
But everything I can't
remember
As fucked up
as it all may seem
The
consequences that I've rendered
I've gone and
fucked things up again.
Why must I feel this
way
Just make this
go away
Just one more
peaceful day
It's been awhile since
I could
Look at myself
straight
It's been
awhile since I said I'm sorry
It's been
awhile since I've seen the way
the candles light
your face
But I can
still remember
Just the way
you taste
But everything I can't
remember
As fucked up
as it all may seem to be
I know it's me
I cannot blame
this on my father
He did the
best he could for me
It's been awhile since
I could
Hold my head
up high
And It's been
awhile since I said I'm sorry"
It's Been A While
Logan studied the figure that lay
before him and wondered how he got so lucky. What did a dazzling, captivating and intelligent
woman want with him?
The
light from the candles casted an illumiance on Marie's facial features and her
hair. Hoping not to stir her, Logan gently stroked her bare shoulder and kissed
her smooth creamy forehead.
Marie wanted him as
much as he wanted her, but Logan prayed that he did not push her into anything
she wasn't ready for.
After coming back and
discovering she had control over her mutation, any man would have wanted to
take advantage of her, but that was not his intentions at all.
Logan loved her. He
knew he loved her before he left for Canada. He just didn't have the balls to
say it.
The hours they spent
together last night in the lobby, just talking and playing pool, were flawless.
One thing caused
another, and they found themselves on the couch. The first taste of her lips
was unforgettable. Logan couldn't get enough of the moist fruity flavour. The
memory of his hands travelling against her skin and pulling Marie into his lap
straddling him, was enough to make him insane.
The thought that he
didn't tell her how much she meant to him before they made love plagued his
brain like a splinter that couldn't be removed.
"Marie, Darlin'?" He
whispered. When she didn't respond, Logan leaned closer to her ear.
"Marie?" Marie moaned softly and opened
her beautiful brown eyes.
"Everything alright Logan?"
She asked in that sweet, tender voice.
Logan nodded, "Yeah,
Darlin' I just wanted to tell you something." Bad ass Logan does have a
conscious, he thought.
"Marie, I don't regret
anything we did. The only thing I regret is not telling you how I felt earlier."
"Logan, I-" Marie
started, but Logan pressed a finger against her soft lips.
"I love you, Marie.
I've been wanting to say that to you for the longest time."
Marie smiled and kissed
the tip of Logan's finger as he continued. " I also regret leaving you. I
should have stayed."
There was a long pause
before she answered. "Please don't regret leaving. The space we had was good
for us. It gave me time to grow up a bit and to realise that...I love you too."
Logan sighed a breath
of relief. It was like a heavy burden was lifted from his shoulders.
"I just didn't want you
to think that I was just using you because you are not a one night
stand."
"I know Logan, I can
see it in your eyes"
He reached with his
hand to touch the satin skin of her cheek. "Go back to sleep Darlin', I kept
you up enough tonight" He said with a wink.
Marie giggled and said
"Not without you." She outstretched her arms for an embrace from her lover.
Logan welcomed himself
in her warm eyes and thought It's defiantly been a while since I have ever
felt this way as he drifted off to sleep.
