If You Want Me To
Liz sat on her balcony writing in her journal and looking up
at the stars…
May 20, 2001
My name is Liz Parker and I've been thinking about the
recent events a lot lately.
Particularly about Max. (Not
that that's anything new) But I can't
help but wonder where he and I stand now.
I mean with Tess gone now anyway, does that mean it safe for Max and I
to be together? Can I finally tell him
the truth about what happened "that night" and why it happened? With all the craziness that we've been
through lately, he has to believe me.
And I really do want us to be together…but how can I trust him
again? I mean he slept with Tess! Even though I know he doesn't really love
her, it doesn't change the fact that she was his "first"…And they have a child
together, that is a link to her he can't ever totally break. What if he is successful in finding his
son—what then?
Just then, she heard a
rattling noise at the ladder and quickly placed her journal back in its hiding
space. She looked over the ledge and
saw Max standing in the alley.
"What are you doing here
Max?"
"I needed to talk to you
Liz…"
"But Max, it is two in the
morning! Can't this wait? Besides aren't your parents keeping you and
Isabel under lock and key after you 'disappeared' last week?"
He shrugged and smiled a
little.
"I guess I will have to
make sure they don't find out then.
Look Liz, I really needed to see you …I just couldn't stay away any
longer."
"I guess I know how you
feel… you better come on up here then.
We can't really talk with you down in the alley now can we?"
As he climbed over the
ledge his eyes locked with Liz's and they kinda just stared at each other for a
moment.
"Well Max what did you
want to talk about?" Liz said as she
turned and walked away.
"I think we both know…"
She sat down on her lawn
chair but Max remained standing.
"Tess?"
He began pacing back and
forth in front of her.
"Well yeah, but Liz I
wanted to talk about US and what happened to us…I know you didn't sleep with
Kyle, but why would you want to make me think that you did? You had to understand how much that would
hurt me!"
"That's why I had to do it
though. God Max, I hated lying to
you. It killed me…its still killing
me. But I had a reason…"
He looked at her slightly
doubting and she took a deep breath.
"A future version of you
came to visit me a few days before the Gomez concert. He told me that 14 years from now your enemies would attack Earth
because when we got married (Max looks a little shocked) Tess left Roswell for
good. We were losing the war because
the four of you needed to combine your powers to defeat your enemies. Michael and Isabel were already dead…we were
about to be. But a friend helped us use
the Granolith to go back in time and change the future. I had to do it Max! I couldn't be responsible for the end of the
world…"
As Liz looked up at Max,
she realized that he had tears rolling down his face and he was just staring at
her.
"My God…I don't know what
to say. I can't believe you would give up
everything for us. But Liz, don't you
see? Tess is already gone and not
because of us. There's no reason we
can't be together now!"
"But there is a
reason… I don't know if I can trust you
anymore Max. After every time that I
risked my life, my friends' lives, and my whole future for you this year…you
went and slept with her. I know I pushed you two together…but it just
doesn't help…"
TBC…
The pathway is broken
and the signs are unclear
and I don't know the reason
why you brought me here
is it just
because you love me
the way that you
do
I'm gonna walk through the valley if you want me to
Cause I'm not who I was
when I took my first step
and I'm clinging
to the promise
you're not through with me yet
so if all of these trials
bring me closer
to you
then I will go through the fire if you want me to
It may not be the way I would've chosen
when you lead me thru a world that's not my home
but you never
said it would be easy
you only said I'd never go alone
So when the whole world turns against me
and I'm all by
myself
and I can't hear you answer my cries for help
I'll remember the
suffering your love put you through
and I will go
through the valley if you want me to
