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I Miss You
Part 5
Disclaimer in Part 1
by: Usa and Hoho
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Rei's smile faded. "All right, I'll stay. Just let me call Mako-chan and the others, okay?"
"Okay," came her muffled reply.
Rei walked downstairs and asked politely if she could use the phone. Usagi's mother told her that it was okay, so she picked up and dialed Makoto's phone number.
"Moshi moshi," came Makoto's voice.
"Mako-chan," Rei said.
"Ah, Rei-chan. Where are you?"
"I'm at Usagi's house. I won't be coming back tonight, is that alright?" Rei asked.
"Hai! Of course it is!" Makoto said. "No problem at all."
Rei said goodbye and hung up, then called to see if there was anyone at the shrine. Finding no one there, she left a message stating where she was, then told Usagi's parents that Usagi had asked her to stay the night. They found nothing wrong with it.
"Domo arigatou, Tsukino-san," Rei said to each of the parents, and went back upstairs to Usagi's room.
Usagi lay with her back to the bedroom door, looking out the window at the moon. Tears were silently streaming down her face. She was trying so hard to be strong for Mamoru, but she kept thinking about life without him.
As Rei was walking into Usagi's room, she heard a loud bleeping coming from her communicator. Answering the hail, she saw Sailor Jupiter's face appear on the small screen.
"Mako-chan, what's wrong?" Rei said, her eyes widening.
"Rei-chan, you and Usagi-chan have to get here as soon as you can! A youma just appeared and we can't defeat it on our own!" There was a grunt as she jumped out of the way of an oncoming attack.
"W-wait, Mako-chan, where are you?"
"We're just down the street from my place. Can you make it down here fast?"
Rei nodded. "Hai, Mako-chan. I'll get Usagi and we'll be there right away."
Rei ran over to Usagi and shook her. "Usagi, this is no time for sleeping! There's been a youma attack at Mako-chan's!"
Usagi sat up straight. "Lets go then!"
Rei nodded and they charged downstairs. Usagi's parents gave them odd looks, but didn't ask any questions, and they ran as fast as they could to Makoto's place.
"Usagi, henshin yo!" Rei reminded the blonde as they watched the other three senshi fight from a distance.
"Moon Crystal Power, Make Up!"
"Mars Star Power, Make Up!"
Usagi, now Sailor Moon, stared at her friends battling the youma. It looked strong and fierce... and Tuxedo Kamen wasn't there to help. She suddenly realized that she couldn't go on living without him by her side and, forgoing her speech, she ran towards the youma.
Mars charged up her attack and sent it toward the youma, who screamed in pain but did not seem seriously hurt. She then looked to Sailor Moon, who was charging straight at it, and wondered what the short girl was planning. Whatever it was, she was either very brave... or very stupid.
Usagi stared at the youma. She could tell the other Senshi were awaiting her attack. Instead of using any sort of weapon, Usagi waited for it to attack her. Sensing this stupid human, the youma sent the attack straight at her head.
Makoto ran for Usagi and pushed them both out of the way just in time. Though it had been very close to hurting both of them, Makoto had managed to avoid everything but a few bruises from the fall.
Usagi felt someone push her away from the attack. Looking over, she saw Makoto. "Why did you do that?" she screamed in tears.
Minako, Rei, and Ami were shocked but thought it was best to hold off the youma.
"Because I didn't want you to get hurt," was Makoto's simple reply. Getting up, the tall senshi looked at Usagi, a puzzled look on her face. "Nani? You *wanted* me to let you die? Iie."
"This is my life! I can do whatever I want with it! And if that means dying, well, then I'll deal with it!"
Makoto looked at Usagi. "Listen, you're the princess, I'm the guard. If we want to live happily in the future, we need you. Stop being so self-centered and think of everyone else instead of making us all feel sorry for you! Now get up and fight!"
Usagi got up and looked at the ground, ashamed. "Gomen ne..." She whispered, then turned to the youma. Ami had just attacked it. "Now Sailor Moon!" she said.
"Hai... Moon Princess Halation!"
When the monster disintegrated, Rei angrily marched over to Usagi. "What was that for? Listen, you're putting yourself - iie, you're putting us all in danger when you do things like that! i know you're all broken up about Mamoru-san. That's evident. But could you at least stop yourself from getting us all in comas, or worse?"
Makoto nodded, just as angry as Rei was about Usagi's reckless action.
Ami put a hand on Usagi's should. "Usagi-chan, Rei-chan's right. You can't just give up. Mamoru-san needs you now more than ever! He wouldn't give up on you."
"Gomen..." Usagi said again. Changing back into her civilian clothes, she looked up at the disappointed faces of her friends. She was tired... tired of everything. "Ja..." she called, running off.
"Usagi..." Rei started, but decided that she didn't want to bother her right now, mainly because she was sick of trying to help her and needed a break. With that, she hung her head and rubbed her temples.
"We have got to get through to her," Minako said sadly.
"I'm afraid the only one who can do that is Mamoru-san," Ami replied.
"What are we going to do...?" Makoto asked no one, knowing that there wouldn't be a good answer.
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Usagi arrived at the hospital and took out the Disguise Pen Luna had given her a while back. "Turn me into a young nurse!"
Usagi walked down the hall towards Mamoru's room and found it slightly ajar... with doctors rushing all about. She stopped a passing nurse. "Ne, what's going on in there?" she asked.
"Chiba-san is dying and we're going to attempt CPR. If it doesn't work... well... you know the story." With that, the nurse went back to work.
Usagi's heart leapt into her throat. "Iie... iie..." She felt the whole room spinning. "Mamo-chan..." Closing her eyes, Usagi took a deep breath then sat down. "You can't leave me, you can't!" she cried.
A few of the nurses looked at Usagi. One of them asked, "Are you related to Chiba-san?"
Usagi looked up. She didn't know what to say. Finally, she decided on the truth. "In a way... he's my boyfriend."
The nurse nodded, told something to another nurse, and looked back at Usagi. "Well, if you're that close, don't just sit there! Help us with this."
Usagi stood up, wondering what the nurses could think she would be able to do. A doctor looked at Usagi and told her to stand next to Mamoru. "We're trying to use CPR, so hurry!" He obviously wanted Usagi to do something, but she hadn't a clue what to do.
Something clicked in her head. She didn't know if it was from the disguise pen or even Mamoru telling her in her mind what to do, but she put her mouth to his lips and breathed. She lifted her head as the doctor began doing compressions on his chest. Then she breathed again. The two rotated on and off for two mintues when a nurse brought in the paddles.
After three minutes of using the machine, a beep told them they had been successful in bringing Mamoru back to life.
"We did it. Now, let's go back to work," one of the doctors said. Two nurses stayed behind with Usagi to make sure Mamoru didn't have a relapse.
Usagi stared at Mamoru's face. "Yokatta..."
The day had finally taken it's toll on Usagi and she sank to her knees, crying uncontrollaby. The nurse that had talked to Usagi before whispered something to the other nurse that was working beside her. She then went over to Usagi and put an arm around her shoulder.
"Come on, maybe you should leave for a while and go do something else. It should take your mind off of this..."
Usagi laughed a bit. "Take my mind off of this? Do you know how many times I've tried to take my mind off of this?" The nurse shook her head. "Too many to count! Every time I think I'm all right, something comes into view that reminds me of him! It's not that easy to just take my mind off him... I love him too much."
Suddenly, a voice broke the silence. "And I... love you too much to leave you... Usa-ko..."
"Mamo-chan!?" Usagi cried, rushing over to his side. She took his hand in hers.
Mamoru looked up at Usagi with tired eyes, and sat up in his bed to kiss her, but... A doctor rushed in, followed by one of the two nurses who had seen Mamoru wake up.
"Sorry, Chiba-san, but we'll have to do one last check before we can let you leave." He looked to Usagi. "Gomen, but it's one of our policies. You'll have to do that later."
Usagi nodded, a bit saddened that she couldn't be with him yet.
**
Half an hour later, Mamoru was finally allowed to see Usagi. Unfortunately, as was customary in most hospitals, he had to stay for the night just to make sure there were no 'accidents'. They sat next to each other and started talking. "So... what did you do while I was in the coma?" He asked, curious.
Usagi looked down and became fascinated with the floor. Kami, how was she supposed to tell him she had been absolutely miserable and tried to kill herself?
Mamoru put a hand under Usagi's chin and tilted her face toward his. "Something wrong?" He asked.
"Mamo-chan," she began. She didn't want to lie to him, but... "I just knew you'd wake up! I did miss hearing your voice, though."
Mamoru smiled and brushed Usagi's short bangs out of her face, then said, "I missed you too, Usa-ko." With that, he leaned down and kissed her gently.
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Two days later, Usagi, Minako, Makoto, Rei and Ami were gathered at Mamoru's apartment for a small celebration. Makoto had brought snacks (of course), Usagi and Minako feasting themselves. The others were more than happy to see Usagi as herself again.
Usagi chomped happily on a piece of cake Makoto had made. "Shish ish guud!" she said with her mouth full.
Makoto grinned. "Arigatou!" she said, and picked up her own piece of cake. Rei followed suit, as well as Ami. Mamoru entered the room just then and sat down across from Makoto, Ami, and Minako, between Rei and Usagi.
"So tell me, did I miss any important events?" he asked everyone.
Usagi was too busy eating to realize what Mamoru had asked. She was oblivious to the fact that the girls could ruin her whole lie.
Rei finished her cake and put it down, then looked up at Mamoru. "Well, I suppose Usagi's already told you about her little episode and the way she was acting... other than that, nothing special. At least, not with me."
Mamoru gave Rei a look, then shot a glance at Usagi. "'Little episode'? Did you forget to tell me something, Usa-ko?"
Usagi stopped, mid bite. Her eyes widened. *Leave it to Rei-chan...*
"Uh... hehe... maybe?"
Mamoru looked at Usagi, his gaze a little less gentle. "Usa-ko, tell me what happened," he said.
"I... um..." Usagi looked at her friends faces. They were giving her the same look as Mamoru. "Fine," she said in resignation.
Usagi stood up. Tears began falling again. "I was terrified!" she screamed. "You happy?! I thought I'd never see you again, hear you, touch you... I hate the way I acted but I couldn't help it! It's like someone had torn my heart out of my chest and stomped all over it!" Usagi then turn and ran out the door.
"Usa-ko!" Mamoru yelled, running after her. Upon reaching the door, he turned around and looked at the others, who were wide-eyed. "Stay here." He then continued out the door and after Usagi.
Usagi stopped running when she reached her and Mamoru's bench and sat down. Sobs wracked her entire body. How could they not understand? She had almost lost the man she loved with all her heart. How did they think she was going to act?
Mamoru followed Usagi and slowed down when he saw her sit down at their bench. He came up beside her quietly and sat down. "Gomen ne, Usa-ko... I just wanted to know if you were all right when I was... away. If you had been otherwise, I wasn't planning on being angry." He put an arm around her shoulders, hoping she wouldn't pull away.
Usagi didn't pull away, she leaned in to get closer to him. "Gomen, Mamo-chan. I didn't mean to lie to you. I should have known you wouldn't have been angry with me."
"I guess there's something else you should know before Rei-chan goes blabbing it to you," Usagi told him.
Mamoru looked at Usagi and held her close. "Hai, Usa-ko?"
Usagi thought for a minute on how to tell him what she had done. "Well, a youma attacked a few hours before you woke up..." She took a breath. "I... I almost let it kill me," She finally said. "If Mako-chan hadn't pushed me out of the way, I'd be... I'd be dead."
Mamoru's eyes widened. "Usa-ko...." he murmured. "I guess we have Mako-chan to thank then, ne?" With that, he smiled slightly and looked Usagi in the eyes.
Usagi couldn't believe her ears. "You're not mad at me?"
Mamoru gave her an odd look. "I'm too sick of worrying you to be mad. I'm shocked, and a little scared, but other than that, I'm just glad we're together again. Does that answer your question?"
Usagi nodded slightly. "Mamo-chan, will you just hold me?"
"Of course, Usa-ko." He took her in his arms and held her gently, never wanting to let go.
I Miss You
Part 5
Disclaimer in Part 1
by: Usa and Hoho
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Rei's smile faded. "All right, I'll stay. Just let me call Mako-chan and the others, okay?"
"Okay," came her muffled reply.
Rei walked downstairs and asked politely if she could use the phone. Usagi's mother told her that it was okay, so she picked up and dialed Makoto's phone number.
"Moshi moshi," came Makoto's voice.
"Mako-chan," Rei said.
"Ah, Rei-chan. Where are you?"
"I'm at Usagi's house. I won't be coming back tonight, is that alright?" Rei asked.
"Hai! Of course it is!" Makoto said. "No problem at all."
Rei said goodbye and hung up, then called to see if there was anyone at the shrine. Finding no one there, she left a message stating where she was, then told Usagi's parents that Usagi had asked her to stay the night. They found nothing wrong with it.
"Domo arigatou, Tsukino-san," Rei said to each of the parents, and went back upstairs to Usagi's room.
Usagi lay with her back to the bedroom door, looking out the window at the moon. Tears were silently streaming down her face. She was trying so hard to be strong for Mamoru, but she kept thinking about life without him.
As Rei was walking into Usagi's room, she heard a loud bleeping coming from her communicator. Answering the hail, she saw Sailor Jupiter's face appear on the small screen.
"Mako-chan, what's wrong?" Rei said, her eyes widening.
"Rei-chan, you and Usagi-chan have to get here as soon as you can! A youma just appeared and we can't defeat it on our own!" There was a grunt as she jumped out of the way of an oncoming attack.
"W-wait, Mako-chan, where are you?"
"We're just down the street from my place. Can you make it down here fast?"
Rei nodded. "Hai, Mako-chan. I'll get Usagi and we'll be there right away."
Rei ran over to Usagi and shook her. "Usagi, this is no time for sleeping! There's been a youma attack at Mako-chan's!"
Usagi sat up straight. "Lets go then!"
Rei nodded and they charged downstairs. Usagi's parents gave them odd looks, but didn't ask any questions, and they ran as fast as they could to Makoto's place.
"Usagi, henshin yo!" Rei reminded the blonde as they watched the other three senshi fight from a distance.
"Moon Crystal Power, Make Up!"
"Mars Star Power, Make Up!"
Usagi, now Sailor Moon, stared at her friends battling the youma. It looked strong and fierce... and Tuxedo Kamen wasn't there to help. She suddenly realized that she couldn't go on living without him by her side and, forgoing her speech, she ran towards the youma.
Mars charged up her attack and sent it toward the youma, who screamed in pain but did not seem seriously hurt. She then looked to Sailor Moon, who was charging straight at it, and wondered what the short girl was planning. Whatever it was, she was either very brave... or very stupid.
Usagi stared at the youma. She could tell the other Senshi were awaiting her attack. Instead of using any sort of weapon, Usagi waited for it to attack her. Sensing this stupid human, the youma sent the attack straight at her head.
Makoto ran for Usagi and pushed them both out of the way just in time. Though it had been very close to hurting both of them, Makoto had managed to avoid everything but a few bruises from the fall.
Usagi felt someone push her away from the attack. Looking over, she saw Makoto. "Why did you do that?" she screamed in tears.
Minako, Rei, and Ami were shocked but thought it was best to hold off the youma.
"Because I didn't want you to get hurt," was Makoto's simple reply. Getting up, the tall senshi looked at Usagi, a puzzled look on her face. "Nani? You *wanted* me to let you die? Iie."
"This is my life! I can do whatever I want with it! And if that means dying, well, then I'll deal with it!"
Makoto looked at Usagi. "Listen, you're the princess, I'm the guard. If we want to live happily in the future, we need you. Stop being so self-centered and think of everyone else instead of making us all feel sorry for you! Now get up and fight!"
Usagi got up and looked at the ground, ashamed. "Gomen ne..." She whispered, then turned to the youma. Ami had just attacked it. "Now Sailor Moon!" she said.
"Hai... Moon Princess Halation!"
When the monster disintegrated, Rei angrily marched over to Usagi. "What was that for? Listen, you're putting yourself - iie, you're putting us all in danger when you do things like that! i know you're all broken up about Mamoru-san. That's evident. But could you at least stop yourself from getting us all in comas, or worse?"
Makoto nodded, just as angry as Rei was about Usagi's reckless action.
Ami put a hand on Usagi's should. "Usagi-chan, Rei-chan's right. You can't just give up. Mamoru-san needs you now more than ever! He wouldn't give up on you."
"Gomen..." Usagi said again. Changing back into her civilian clothes, she looked up at the disappointed faces of her friends. She was tired... tired of everything. "Ja..." she called, running off.
"Usagi..." Rei started, but decided that she didn't want to bother her right now, mainly because she was sick of trying to help her and needed a break. With that, she hung her head and rubbed her temples.
"We have got to get through to her," Minako said sadly.
"I'm afraid the only one who can do that is Mamoru-san," Ami replied.
"What are we going to do...?" Makoto asked no one, knowing that there wouldn't be a good answer.
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Usagi arrived at the hospital and took out the Disguise Pen Luna had given her a while back. "Turn me into a young nurse!"
Usagi walked down the hall towards Mamoru's room and found it slightly ajar... with doctors rushing all about. She stopped a passing nurse. "Ne, what's going on in there?" she asked.
"Chiba-san is dying and we're going to attempt CPR. If it doesn't work... well... you know the story." With that, the nurse went back to work.
Usagi's heart leapt into her throat. "Iie... iie..." She felt the whole room spinning. "Mamo-chan..." Closing her eyes, Usagi took a deep breath then sat down. "You can't leave me, you can't!" she cried.
A few of the nurses looked at Usagi. One of them asked, "Are you related to Chiba-san?"
Usagi looked up. She didn't know what to say. Finally, she decided on the truth. "In a way... he's my boyfriend."
The nurse nodded, told something to another nurse, and looked back at Usagi. "Well, if you're that close, don't just sit there! Help us with this."
Usagi stood up, wondering what the nurses could think she would be able to do. A doctor looked at Usagi and told her to stand next to Mamoru. "We're trying to use CPR, so hurry!" He obviously wanted Usagi to do something, but she hadn't a clue what to do.
Something clicked in her head. She didn't know if it was from the disguise pen or even Mamoru telling her in her mind what to do, but she put her mouth to his lips and breathed. She lifted her head as the doctor began doing compressions on his chest. Then she breathed again. The two rotated on and off for two mintues when a nurse brought in the paddles.
After three minutes of using the machine, a beep told them they had been successful in bringing Mamoru back to life.
"We did it. Now, let's go back to work," one of the doctors said. Two nurses stayed behind with Usagi to make sure Mamoru didn't have a relapse.
Usagi stared at Mamoru's face. "Yokatta..."
The day had finally taken it's toll on Usagi and she sank to her knees, crying uncontrollaby. The nurse that had talked to Usagi before whispered something to the other nurse that was working beside her. She then went over to Usagi and put an arm around her shoulder.
"Come on, maybe you should leave for a while and go do something else. It should take your mind off of this..."
Usagi laughed a bit. "Take my mind off of this? Do you know how many times I've tried to take my mind off of this?" The nurse shook her head. "Too many to count! Every time I think I'm all right, something comes into view that reminds me of him! It's not that easy to just take my mind off him... I love him too much."
Suddenly, a voice broke the silence. "And I... love you too much to leave you... Usa-ko..."
"Mamo-chan!?" Usagi cried, rushing over to his side. She took his hand in hers.
Mamoru looked up at Usagi with tired eyes, and sat up in his bed to kiss her, but... A doctor rushed in, followed by one of the two nurses who had seen Mamoru wake up.
"Sorry, Chiba-san, but we'll have to do one last check before we can let you leave." He looked to Usagi. "Gomen, but it's one of our policies. You'll have to do that later."
Usagi nodded, a bit saddened that she couldn't be with him yet.
**
Half an hour later, Mamoru was finally allowed to see Usagi. Unfortunately, as was customary in most hospitals, he had to stay for the night just to make sure there were no 'accidents'. They sat next to each other and started talking. "So... what did you do while I was in the coma?" He asked, curious.
Usagi looked down and became fascinated with the floor. Kami, how was she supposed to tell him she had been absolutely miserable and tried to kill herself?
Mamoru put a hand under Usagi's chin and tilted her face toward his. "Something wrong?" He asked.
"Mamo-chan," she began. She didn't want to lie to him, but... "I just knew you'd wake up! I did miss hearing your voice, though."
Mamoru smiled and brushed Usagi's short bangs out of her face, then said, "I missed you too, Usa-ko." With that, he leaned down and kissed her gently.
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Two days later, Usagi, Minako, Makoto, Rei and Ami were gathered at Mamoru's apartment for a small celebration. Makoto had brought snacks (of course), Usagi and Minako feasting themselves. The others were more than happy to see Usagi as herself again.
Usagi chomped happily on a piece of cake Makoto had made. "Shish ish guud!" she said with her mouth full.
Makoto grinned. "Arigatou!" she said, and picked up her own piece of cake. Rei followed suit, as well as Ami. Mamoru entered the room just then and sat down across from Makoto, Ami, and Minako, between Rei and Usagi.
"So tell me, did I miss any important events?" he asked everyone.
Usagi was too busy eating to realize what Mamoru had asked. She was oblivious to the fact that the girls could ruin her whole lie.
Rei finished her cake and put it down, then looked up at Mamoru. "Well, I suppose Usagi's already told you about her little episode and the way she was acting... other than that, nothing special. At least, not with me."
Mamoru gave Rei a look, then shot a glance at Usagi. "'Little episode'? Did you forget to tell me something, Usa-ko?"
Usagi stopped, mid bite. Her eyes widened. *Leave it to Rei-chan...*
"Uh... hehe... maybe?"
Mamoru looked at Usagi, his gaze a little less gentle. "Usa-ko, tell me what happened," he said.
"I... um..." Usagi looked at her friends faces. They were giving her the same look as Mamoru. "Fine," she said in resignation.
Usagi stood up. Tears began falling again. "I was terrified!" she screamed. "You happy?! I thought I'd never see you again, hear you, touch you... I hate the way I acted but I couldn't help it! It's like someone had torn my heart out of my chest and stomped all over it!" Usagi then turn and ran out the door.
"Usa-ko!" Mamoru yelled, running after her. Upon reaching the door, he turned around and looked at the others, who were wide-eyed. "Stay here." He then continued out the door and after Usagi.
Usagi stopped running when she reached her and Mamoru's bench and sat down. Sobs wracked her entire body. How could they not understand? She had almost lost the man she loved with all her heart. How did they think she was going to act?
Mamoru followed Usagi and slowed down when he saw her sit down at their bench. He came up beside her quietly and sat down. "Gomen ne, Usa-ko... I just wanted to know if you were all right when I was... away. If you had been otherwise, I wasn't planning on being angry." He put an arm around her shoulders, hoping she wouldn't pull away.
Usagi didn't pull away, she leaned in to get closer to him. "Gomen, Mamo-chan. I didn't mean to lie to you. I should have known you wouldn't have been angry with me."
"I guess there's something else you should know before Rei-chan goes blabbing it to you," Usagi told him.
Mamoru looked at Usagi and held her close. "Hai, Usa-ko?"
Usagi thought for a minute on how to tell him what she had done. "Well, a youma attacked a few hours before you woke up..." She took a breath. "I... I almost let it kill me," She finally said. "If Mako-chan hadn't pushed me out of the way, I'd be... I'd be dead."
Mamoru's eyes widened. "Usa-ko...." he murmured. "I guess we have Mako-chan to thank then, ne?" With that, he smiled slightly and looked Usagi in the eyes.
Usagi couldn't believe her ears. "You're not mad at me?"
Mamoru gave her an odd look. "I'm too sick of worrying you to be mad. I'm shocked, and a little scared, but other than that, I'm just glad we're together again. Does that answer your question?"
Usagi nodded slightly. "Mamo-chan, will you just hold me?"
"Of course, Usa-ko." He took her in his arms and held her gently, never wanting to let go.