If You Want Me To
"It's going to be okay
Max, everything's going to be okay…"
Liz whispered trying to comfort Max, as well as herself. *Maybe if I keep saying that I'll
start to believe it myself*. "It just has to be…"
"I wish I could believe
that Liz," Max said, his voice slightly
muffled from having his face still buried in her shoulder. Then he looked up and stared at her, "but
with everything that's happened…and anything that will happen when I go out
looking for my son…it's not fair to you Liz…"
"It's not fair to you
either Max. I mean what's going to
happen when we find him? You are going
to be a single father who hasn't even graduated from high school. I can't even imagine being responsible for
another person right now."
"I really hadn't
considered that yet. When I first found
out, I assumed that at least I would have Tess to take care of him and I could
work. But now, how am I going to hold a
job and take care of him at once? Liz I
don't know how I am going to do this…I don't even know anything about kids!"
"Do you even have a place
to live Max? Cause I'm not sure your
parents are going to be too happy about a baby in the house. Speaking of which… do your parents even
know? *His parents…what about my
parents? They're never going to let me
keep seeing him.*
"No they don't know
yet…and I have no idea how I'm going to tell them. I think this may actually be more difficult than trying to tell
them I'm an alien." He said laughing a
little nervously. "You know in some
ways I'm not sure I want to find him…It's not that I don't care about him, but
I don't think I can handle this kind of responsibility yet. And I definitely don't want to screw things
up with you again. I mean really, why
would you ever want to go out with a guy who will be dragging a kid around on
all your dates or having to find a babysitter who can be trusted anytime we
want to be alone together?"
"I'm not going to lie to
you and tell you that I am going to be completely happy about the situation
Max. I'm not really looking to be a
parent at this point in my life—especially to Tess's child. But I do want to be with you…whatever comes
along with that decision is just a part of you. I can't exactly pick and choose which parts of you I want to
date…" She smiled just slightly. "Besides I think we really need to keep
things in perspective and take one day at a time right now…"
TBC…
The pathway is broken
and the signs are unclear
and I don't know the reason
why you brought me here
is it just
because you love me
the way that you
do
I'm gonna walk through the valley if you want me to
Cause I'm not who I was
when I took my first step
and I'm clinging
to the promise
you're not through with me yet
so if all of these trials
bring me closer
to you
then I will go through the fire if you want me to
It may not be the way I would've chosen
when you lead me thru a world that's not my home
but you never
said it would be easy
you only said I'd never go alone
So when the whole world turns against me
and I'm all by
myself
and I can't hear you answer my cries for help
I'll remember the
suffering your love put you through
and I will go
through the valley if you want me to
