Selfish
Part Four of "I Only Think Of You" (4/9)
By Chash
"So tell me, oh all knowing First," the third's voice was laced with sarcasm, "did you expect this?"
"Expect what?" asked the first, calm.
"Aries and Cancer. You said they loved only Virgo," replied the third.
"They do love only Virgo. This is the next best things. Teenagers do have hormones, Third."
"Love is no different from hormones," replied the Third. "Both are merely escapes from what is truly important."
"You have obviously never been in love," commented the Fourth. The Third shrugged.
"Your point?"
"I wager they both still love Virgo, and that neither will choose this new relationship over a moment with Virgo."
"What shall we bet?"
"If I loose, you may have Taurus. If you loose, I may have Gemini."
"I accept," the two shook hands, and the meeting closed.
*
"The next mission is for Virgo and Opiuchus!" called Sagittarius, standing again on the old pickle cart. It worried Gemini that the cart would topple over while she stood on it, and send her plunging to the ground. He could only pray it wouldn't. He could hear the murmurs of surprise, the question of who Opiuchus was.
"Oi, Saggie! Is he the thirteenth?" called Cancer.
"Yes."
"Can't you give me a satisfactory answer, just once?"
Sagittarius laughed. "No! All right, you two are going to have to break into Madain Sari base and break out Libra! It's just a two man job, but you'll have to go by airship, it's pretty far. Next one leaves in an hour from the North Gate, so I'd get a move on!"
Again, Virgo kissed Scorpio goodbye. On the rooftop, Opiuchus jumped down and ran, determined to reach the station before Virgo. Virgo sauntered away, and all eyes watched. Gemini was the first to turn away, to see Sagittarius jumping down from the cart. Brushing herself off, her eyes turned to Scorpio. Gemini looked away, jealous of Scorpio for Virgo and Sagittarius, and no longer sure for which he was more jealous.
"Are you happy, then, Zechs?" Sagittarius asked Scorpio. He was looking after Virgo, sadness in his eyes.
"Almost, Noin, almost."
A purple eyebrow rose. "Almost?"
"Yes. Almost."
"What would make you completely happy?" asked Sagittarius. Gemini began to walk away, knowing what Sagittarius wanted to hear as reply, and afraid that she might hear it.
"To know for sure that he loved only me," replied Scorpio. Sagittarius laughed, but there was sadness there.
"Zechs, he had the choice of any of us here, and he chose you. What makes you think he loves anyone else?"
"The thirteenth wasn't here when he chose," replied Scorpio, walking away into the town.
*
"I'm glad you're here, Gemini," it wasn't a much better coffee shop, but Sagittarius at least didn't feel like she was drinking something with solid chunks in it. And had there been solid chunks, she believed that, if nothing else, here she would have been able to tell what they were.
Gemini blushed, and prayed she didn't notice. Or that she didn't care, either worked. "Really?"
"Yeah. It's good to have a friend to talk to," she replied, sipping the coffee. Gemini didn't know whether to laugh or cry.
"Tell me, do you know why Virgo had to choose?" asked Gemini. Sagittarius nodded. "Why?"
"We know about the lure of Virgo, correct?" Gemini nodded. "We twelve were the ones who went on missions for the Five. Destroying, attacking, all separately. Some of us, like you and I, and Taurus and Scorpio and Opiuchus, knew of Virgo before. Some of us loved Virgo before. And then some of us knew Virgo worked too for the Five. We had already been taken in by the lure of Virgo. The Five wanted us all to work together, to take on the Alliance of the Seven Empires, a huge foe. All of us would love Virgo once we met him. So, to introduce us all, they put down the challenge of Virgo. The mission to find Virgo, the mission to make Virgo love."
"And that was to introduce us, yes. Why have Virgo choose?"
"If we had all believed Virgo might love us, it would be chaos. You and I, when we came here, knew there was no chance that Virgo would love us. The others thought he might. Virgo had to choose, then everything would be in place for the plan."
"The plan?" asked Gemini. Sagittarius shrugged.
"That's for the Five to know." Gemini nodded and their talk moved to other things.
*
Taurus looked out over the sea. It was a jagged cliff, yes, but it had a beautiful view. The wide blue sea, airships passing, it was wonderful. Taurus sat with his legs dangling barefooted over the edge, allowing the cool breeze to blow through his golden hair. He held a blue flower in his hands, and half its petals were blown behind him.
"He loves me," another petal flew behind Taurus, making a slow journey towards the ground of the sea air. "He loves me not," Taurus smiled, sadness more prevalent on his face than happiness as he saw he was down to the last two petals. "He loves me," he just dropped this one, allowing it to contrast to the bright green grass. "He loves me not," the final petal plunged into the sea, and Taurus wondered what it would be like to follow it. He tucked the green stem behind his ear and left the sea, a tear falling after the final petal.
*
"This can't last forever," commented Opiuchus. Virgo was looking out the window, and had not looked at Opiuchus. Finally, he turned.
"What?"
Opiuchus smiled. "The silence. See? It ended," the older man replied. Virgo sighed.
"I don't want to talk to you," Virgo turned back to the sea, wide and blue outside the window.
"I love you," said Opiuchus, knowing it was useless. Virgo's eyes widened, but didn't leave the sea. He fought to keep his voice even, bored.
"Then why'd you leave?"
"It was a mission. You took them all the time," replied Opiuchus, his heart breaking at the tone of Virgo's voice.
"I didn't take death missions. I thought you were dead," replied Virgo, some emotion creeping into his voice. "And you never told me you weren't."
"I only just got back, dragon, I came as soon as I could. I found you with Zechs," at once, Opiuchus regretted his words. Virgo turned now.
"Zechs? Not Scorpio? How do you know his name?" Virgo asked, his voice dangerous.
"We were lovers once, before I met you," before Virgo could respond, Opiuchus continued. "I never felt for him what I felt for you, though."
"And I never felt for you," Virgo turned back to the sea, "what I feel for him."
The new silence seemed to last forever.
*
Yuy looked over at Cancer's sleeping form. Yes, the boy was still beautiful. But still, Yuy felt nothing when he looked at him, except for some hormonal need. Nothing like what he felt when he saw Virgo. Nothing at all. He wondered what Cancer felt when he saw him, if it was just the same need. What Cancer felt when he saw Virgo. Both still cried out Virgo's name. Neither thought of the other, Yuy knew that. All either ever thought of was Virgo.
Yuy felt something reawakening within him thinking about Virgo. He looked over at Cancer and saw the other boy was still asleep. He sighed and reached down, having no other choice than to take care of the problem himself. Moaning, he touched himself, pretending irrationally that it was Virgo. Seeing Virgo through his closed eyes, as he did whenever Cancer was there, doing things to him. Wishing, wishing, as he had always told himself only undependable things did, that it was Virgo. Crying out Virgo's name as he pushed himself past the edge. Feeling empty as he returned to the dark room and the only sound that of Cancer's steady breathing, uninterrupted by Yuy. For the first time in his life, Yuy thanked god for something, that Cancer was a sound sleeper.
*
They did not speak as they ran through the base. There wasn't stealth this time, it wasn't ordered. Orders this time were to kill. This base was to be destroyed completely. As long as they got Libra out, everything else could die.
And to Opiuchus and Libra, mad at each other and mad at themselves, this meant everything else did die. Each wielded a sword, and each used it as a master. Neither spoke, neither looked at the other, and Opiuchus couldn't tell if his face was wet with tears or blood. Libra was all that mattered, and Libra was all he sought now. He would not look at Virgo, would not think of Virgo, though that was all he wanted to do. Everything else was a distraction. Distractions from the smell of Virgo, which still drifted over past the blood and smells of the base. Distractions from the glimpses of Virgo he caught. Distractions from everything.
Libra was freed, and the base destroyed, and the silence lasted forever, even through the sunrise.
Owari.
Ahh!!! I just wrote Heero… about… not… GAH!!! *Chash dies*
Serge: Oh no.
Pairings: 6x5, 1x2, (past) 13x6, (past) 13x5, 3+9, 9+6, (past) 4x5, 1x1 (o.O;;;;)