Ethernity
(The
vortex opens only when your heart opens 3)
Standard disclaimers apply: Gundam wing and
related chara wasn't mine. My owner get mad when she know I'm using her name,
but she said it's okay as long I give her some credits. Oh well, let just
start!
I
stared at it, blinking. It's huge and the most important thing, that's my
will-be Gundam. It's beautiful with its dark blue and black shape. I know maybe
its sounds weird but in my opinion, it's looked like…wolf.
"Beautiful
isn't it?" Dr. J asked and stepped beside me.
I
turned my head and looking at him. His eyes glimmered by something untouchables
and I know his feeling. He love mecha and has been work with them for years,
maybe longer than my age. If I can fall in love with this mecha on my first
sight, so does he and so does the rest of Gundam pilots. I know why Wufei named
his Gundam Nataku. Why Duo obsessed with his Deathscythe. They falling love
with their Gundam, that's all. And I wonder how their lovers feeling about
this.
"
This folder contains all its data, read and tell me what you think about it."
He said and handed me a huge folder full with papers. " You only have 2 weeks
left to learn about this Gundam. Well, actually we surely needs this 2 weeks
for recovering."
"
Recovering? From what?"
"Her
system was failed everywhere, the last pilot who tried it now in hospital, he's
in coma."
"
Before that?"
"
I said, all her data is on your folder, including her victims." He said calmly.
I couldn't see his eyes behind his glasses but I doubt he feel sorry for that.
From what I heard about him I really doubt he had that kind of feeling. Oh
well, I don't have any choice left so…may God mercy my soul!
He
looked at his watch and smiled.
" Go to the weapons
room, Heero's waiting. Your folder contains all your schedules on these 2
weeks. Be careful and take care yourself " That's all he said before turn away
and left me confused.
I mean, 2 weeks?! He
only gave me 2 weeks to learn about whole things! Okay, I must admit that I'm a
fast learner, but, sheesh, I've never touched mecha in my whole life, and know
I have to learn how to use a Gundam in only 2 weeks?! That guy is nuts!
Well, I think I know why
Heero can be like that!
When I reached the
weapons room, Heero was there, waiting for me. He didn't say anything just
handed (well, actually threw it!) me a gun from his pocket.
" Let's just start, " He
said simply to dumbfound me.
I
lumped in my chair and sigh in relief, I really didn't know that assistant
means you have to be their slave. I wonder what happen to my body if this 2
weeks ended?
"
Sheera! Come here quickly!" Dr. h called me from his desk, so far away from
mine.
Oh
damn, what the hell on earth that old man need again?! He called me twice, asked me twice, and
yelled at me twice. Can he just let me take some rest? I'm not a robot for
crying out loud!
I'm
on my way to his desk when fortunately Quatre shows up and save me.
" Sheera, are you finished yet? "
With a devilish smile I said a lame good bye to the
professors and buzz off as quick as possible before they change their mind and
give me more jobs to do.
I'm
happy these 2 weeks was ended this day! At least, after those damn practice,
I'm going to sit on my lovely kawaai Ether! Duo was gave me tons of stories how
your first seat on your own Gundam will be unforgotten.
Oh, I can't stand this
feeling anymore!! I'm curious, scare and excited!
"Sheera-chan c'mon!
You'll not gonna miss this do you?" Duo's happy face pop-out and give me a wide
grin. He's cute ,though I didn't meet Hilde on this 2 weeks I know Duo love her
so much (Well you see, each time we met he only talk about Deathschyte and
Hilde). And I jealous, coz since this day I didn't have a guy who desperately
in love with me! After 17 almost 18 years!
Well, enough talking about my love live. Now I'm on my way to the
hangar with happy-go-lucky and bouncing Duo beside me. I feel something weird
on my stomach and I really know what it means, I'm nervous. Although I see her
in my spare time, it's still the same feeling I had till now. She's scared me.
Yeah, I'm curious and excited at the same time but mostly, I'm scared. Maybe
this wasn't that good , maybe I'm wrong, maybe I'm not supposed to work as a
Gundam pilot! Maybe I supposed to sit there and burying my live with those damn
files!
" Sheera-chan, are you okay?
We're going to the hangar right? Well, this is it Where the heck are you going?
" Duo's voice breaking my thoughts and
made me jolt back to reality before I realized that I almost hit the wall. And
almost ruined my twice on this day.
"
Oh yeah, I'm fine" I said while rubbing
my nose, somebody open the door rashly in the hall and whacked my dear nose,
ruined my files and made me work twice, plus Dr. J yelled at my ear.
I
stepped inside and gulped, tried to ignore my itchy stomach. She's still like
yesterday with her gorgeous shape. Nothing changes. Now she's ready, that's
all. Maybe I'm change.
"
Woman, don't just stand there like idiot! Are you going or not? Or you scare
and want to change your mind?" he said with a mocked grin of his.
"
I'm NOT!" I stared at him with fury eyes. I know I'm going outta control if I
didn't remember that mad at him was only wasting my energy and embarrass my
self! Quickly I shut my mouth and keep promised to myself I wouldn't forgive
him 'till he said sorry! And I doubt that will be happen, world can be weird
but if Wuffie say 'I'm sorry'…I think I gonna need a general check-up for sure.
"
Stop it right there! Wufei, she'll gonna be your partner if you don't keep your
mouth shut! Sheera, be a good girl. You'll be on the same team with him, you
have to control your emotion from now on." Dr. J poked his head in and shouted before disappeared again.
" I
couldn't take control if he's not keep his damn-fucking mouth shut!! For crying
out loud! " I yelled. I think Quatre shocked, coz he looked surprised. I know
hwy, coz he never see any girls 'flames' like mine. Well, from I know, all girl
we had here was the polite ones. They maybe use damn, but never use both damn
and fuck in a sentence.
"
Well, what we waiting for! Let's stop this fight and we'll see you real
partner! Sheera, Lady's first" Dou said cheerfully and tapped my shoulder while
Quatre just stood there, smiling. I nodded and walked in, ignore the grumbled
Wufei
"
Meet your new partner, Ethernity. You'll fight with her from now on, so take a
good care of her." Dr. J smiled and
handed me s clipboard. " Now, let's see
what you get on this 2 weeks."
I
landed on my butt when I jumped down. It was success, well ignoring the fact
that I ruin half of the hangar, smacked Nataku down (plus Wufei trademark yell)
and broke Wing Zero arm. They greeted me, said that I'm pretty good for 2 weeks
learner. (I must admit that 'they' here were only Quatre and Duo. Coz Trowa
didn't say anything and Heero gave me his famous death glare, I broke his
Gundam arms, remember?), except you-know-who. Well, I'm not surprised. I'll be
very surprise if he said that I'm good. I'll check my brain if he do that!
"
So sorry for your Gundam Heero.." I smirked. Heero didn't say anything and
threw a gun to me. I don't know anything about gun but I think is Magnum 44.
"Heero,
this .."
"
It's your gun. Everyone here had their own gun except you. Since now you're one
of us, Dr.J think you'll need your own
gun."
"
But, it's heavy."
"
Every gun is heavy, doesn't care its Caliber, Magnum, Glock or something."
Trowa began to spoke, " especially when you need to pull it to kill someone."
I
stunned, still cupped the gun in my hands, trying to catch what he just said.
It's not that difficult, I know. But I still couldn't believe that I had to
kill somebody someday.
"
Sheera, what are you thinking about?" Quatre suddenly asked, reached me back
from my thoughts.
"
Why? What..?"
"
What are you thinking about? You looked confused of something. Could you tell
me what is it?" He smiled and keeps driving. I trying to looked at his eyes,
but he's worn sunglasses, I could read at least his mind with that such a
barrier.
"
Nah, you'll get mad if you heard what I've been thinking." I replied.
"
No, just say it." He laughed. " You love to keep your mind down don't you."
I
sighed in relief, tried to found better word to say but I couldn't. It's just
stuck on my throat , so I popped it out.
"
I've been thinking, are you guys feel sorry if you kill somebody with your own
hand? Well I mean, this guy maybe have a family, children or wife, maybe
husband. In my mind Gundam pilot is an assassin. Whatever you fought for." I
said, stared at him. Behind his sunglasses I could see a glimpse of sorry in
his eyes. It's hurt to say that to him, but I had no choice. I need an answer
more that anything right now.
He
didn't say anything for 10 minutes, made me feel sorry for asked that kind of
question to a nice guy like him. " Sorry" I murmured softly, but he didn't
replied, he didn't even say anything till we got home. Just uncomfortable
silent companied me till our ride was over.
I
was in the middle of the stair when he called my name, forced me to look over
him.
"
Sheera-chan, can go to my den after taking a bath? I need to talk." He gave me
his smiled and I just knew he didn't get mad of my rude question. I just smiled
and nodded. Continuing walked to my room and prepare.
10
minutes later I was facing a cup of Earl Grey on his den, unwilling to take a
first move when suddenly he asked me,
"
What happen, why are you so quiet? " He said.
"
I'm sorry.."
"Sorry
for what?" He replied and sipping his tea slowly
"
For asked you such a rude question." I said, looking straight to my reflection
on the tea he gave to me. On this 10
minutes, I didn't touch it or drank it. " You can drink it, no poison added."
He laughed for his own joke, forced me to smile a little.
"
Sheera, we fight for our own reason. Me, to protect our rights to live, to
survive. And to protect their rights too."
"
They?"
"
People who couldn't fight. Coz I know, peace wasn't something that someone gave
it to you. We have to keep it, and fight for it. For our child. And yes, we
feel sorry to kill someone. We have our own way to feel sorry. Me, Trowa,
Wufei, Heero, Duo. If I have another choice better than fight, I'll do it.
Unfortunately, I don't. So here I'm." He said looking straight at me. " I hate
this war either, Sheera. But we have to protect ourselves."
I
didn't what I have to say, so I keep my mouth shut as a replied. I could feel
that he's stared at me. " And, may I know what's your reason to fight, Sheera
?"
I
shook my head, " I don't know. First, I thought I wanna fight coz Dr. J
promised he'll return me to my own world if I fight for him. But now it's
different. I can't kill somebody just because I want to go back!! It's sounds
so.."
"…selfish." He said sipping his tea once more. I nodded.
I know sometimes I could be very selfish. I dunno why, maybe its part of my
behavior, part of my brain, my live.
"
But its normal. Selfish is normal for human, you couldn't hate yourself just
because you're so selfish. It's difficult for you, I know. And you don't have
any choice, except do this. I mean it's your only way to go back." He poured
tea to his own cup. " Someday you'll
find a better reason, Trust me."
I just smiled and sipping my own tea.
To be continued…
Well, what do you think?! R&R pls!