"Taking off like that was incredibly selfish and
stupid. You never let a chance for anyone to understand" Sirius told her Lily
stared at him her eyes tear stained.
"Okay" Lily interrupted, her
voice high. " I screwed up! I know this! But you have no idea what happened to
me or what I was feeling!"
Rose felt a stab of pain as she
saw Lily swipe at her tear smudged eyes. "There was nothing that anyone could
do I had to deal on my own" Lily shouted putting her head in her hands.
"And you see how that worked
out" Sirius sniped, James now stepped forward looking disgusted.
"You can't just bury stuff Lil'
it'll just come right back up and get you" James said sternly.
"You could've come to us,"
Sirius ranted on at her.
Lily gave him a dark look and
began to cry and talk at the same time.
"As if I could've gone to you
Sirius'," Lily's face was dark and tear stained with rage and anger "You made
your feelings perfectly clear about me and Bennie from day one"
"Look" Sirius snapped, " I'm
sorry your honey was a demon. But most girls don't hop a greyhound over boy troubles."
"Time out Sirius" Rose stared
hard biting her lip. The others stared at her.
"Lily" Rose began. "You never—"
"Rose I can't take this of you
too" Lily interjected weeping
"Let her finish" James snapped
and glared " You at least owe her that"
Lily glared at him. " God
James—do you think you could at least stick to be being annoying on your own
behalf"
"Fine" he said harshly trying to
close the gap between them "You stop acting like an idiot, and I'll stop
annoying you" Lily's eyes narrowed at this comment choking on her tears she
stepped forward.
"You want to talk acting like an
idiot? Amanda?" Lily stated fiercely referring to James' ex-girlfriend.
"Okay" Remus said calmly sliding
between the 3 of them. " Gonna step in now and be referee guy."
"Let them go Remus" Rose was so
angry her voice rose above the rest. " Talking about this obviously isn't
helping"
They stood in silence for a few
minutes in Lily' Aunt's living room, staring around at each other. Lily sank to
the floor in tears.
"I never meant to hurt anyone. I
was hurting" she sobbed, Rose bent down to her aid.
"Yeah well you did" James
snapped and turned away, hiding his tears. Even Sirius', who had a knack for a
quick tongue was staring at him. Lily's head tilted up.
"Do you think I mean to hurt
you?" she said angrily " Out of all the people standing here! Of all of them do
you think I wanted to hurt anyone" she shouted at his turned back.
"Well Lil' you ran away! Left us
to clear up your mess. Excuses for why you weren't at school. Your Aunt was
worried sick. I was afraid; we all were on where you were. It was selfish and a
stupid thing to do. Leave your friends to cope, not knowing or hearing
anything" James shook his head and began to walk out the room. Lily started to
get up.
"Yeah well there wouldn't have
had to be a mess if it weren't for you" she shouted, her voice rising high yet
again. " If it weren't…. for you I would've never ran away. You're the one who
said 'when life hands you a lemon you swallow it'. I tried to swallow it and it
was your advice James. Not anyone else's." James stared open mouthed and
couldn't think of a come back. She continued.
"You're the one who hurt me,
with your girlfriends. A new one every month. What was it a competition" Lily
quoted angrily, inhaling bitterness in her voice all the way. The room went
silence for a while then James spoke
"To think I considered you a
friend" James said and walked out the house. Rose ran after James out of the
house, Remus and Sirius were just staring at Lily crouching on the floor.
"James' that was unfair" Rose
called after her brother.
" Yeah, well was she being fair
just then and for the past month?" James retorted looking horrified. "She took
off, without telling us"
"She had reasons," Rose pleaded.
"Yeah, Bennie. Still doesn't
explain it" James explained
"I'm as horrified as you James,
and shocked at how selfish she was but, she's our friend my best friend." Rose
said tears welling up in her eyes.
Lily remembered it all too well;
it felt weird to be in her old new room again at her house with her dad. He'd
been the only one who had welcomed her back. He had bought Lily a new clothes
wardrobe and clothes with it, a new broomstick and new dress robes. Lily sighed
heavily and flopped down onto her bed, a week till she went back to school.
May 5th up at school
The sun shone down a few weeks
later upon the grounds of Hogwarts, Kitty was talking amiably to Lily about
their hol's when Lily got distracted. James Rose and Sirius had walked into the
courtyard talking happily yet they seemed distant to each other.
"I'll see you later Kitty" Lily
interjected Kitty's sentence and picked up her satchel and moved over to Rose,
Sirius and James.
"Hey, Got room for a giver
upper" She asked simply, they stared up at her and James smiled and said
"Sure" he smiled and moved his
bag for her.
"Thanks" was what she managed.
"We're sorry Lil'" Sirius
muttered, looking from James to Rose on what to say. " I didn't mean all
those…things" Sirius stammered Lily interjected.
"Padfoot, how about new leaf"
she smiled whole-heartedly at him, he grinned. Lily 'Dragon' Evans was back
Lily smiled to herself happily;
it felt good to be with her best friends again. Someone to talk to about all
her adventures and stuff that happened. After lunch they all had an hour to
kill, so they walked out to their favourite tree where from then on many things
would be shared.
A
year later
"Lily, you look fine" Lou-Anne
said for the millionth time that evening " There is nothing wrong with that
dress."
"Your right" she sighed twirling
around in her dress "It'll be fine. Oh god what if he doesn't like it" lily
said worriedly.
"He will, which guy wouldn't
with your figure" Rose chirped in fiddling with Kitty's hair.
"You sure, I don't look too…
posh." Lily stammered.
"No" Nicole said from under the
bed, frantically looking for her diary. " Lou-Anne have you seen my diary?"
Nick asked.
"No" Lou-Anne replied simply. A
loud shout seemed to tell Nicole just exactly where her diary was.
"Sirius Black" she screeched and
marched out of the dormitory angry. A few moments later, Sirius had a very soar
cheek and Nicole retained hold of her diary.
"What did you do to my
boyfriend?" Rose asked quizzically through holding a hairbrush.
"What he always deserves!"
Nicole replied satisfyingly.
At 8 o'clock Lily found herself
walking on the bank of the lake with James talking happily, James was carrying
a picnic basket in one hand and the other arm around Lily.
"Do you ever wonder about the past?" James asked as they
sat down to eat their picnic.
"Yes and no. I suppose I'd
rather not. But yes I do. The way we were, the way we are now and in the
middle" She said looking over at him.
"Hmmm, you still think about
Bennie then?" James asked sighing.
"Yeah, you can't help but when
you think it's your first…" Lily stammered on the last part and James supplied
it for her.
"Love" he said simply, she
nodded her head.
"I feel like you know me better
than anyone" Lily said walking along the river leaning against his shoulder.
"I do, we're compatible. Two
people in love." He said breaking away from her.
"That's what the other's don't
understand. How comfortable you can make me feel." Lily said looking up into
Bennie's blue eyes.
"They'll understand soon" he
said comforting and kissed her hair gently.
"I hope so, I can't stand James
not liking you, my 2 fav men not speaking," she almost sobbed into his shoulder
"We'll make up soon, I'm sure.
Now how about tonight, you me a picnic and the Hogwarts lake." He suggested and
hugged her tight.
That night Lily waited around
the lakeside looking for Bennie, no sign she decided to walk around for a bit
then heard a scream and someone punching and kicking something.
"Now, what do I have to do to
get you to stay away from my school" she shouted, a blonde haired girl was
kicking and tackling the monster to the ground. Lily watched from bush as she
saw Bennie lying there dead. She clasped her hand to her mouth and gasped. As
the monster turned to dust
"No" she sobbed and ran, what
she didn't see was, Bennie rise and dodge the slayer to run after her.
Later in the week
'Girl missing' was the headline of the daily Prophet that
morning, James read with horror as Lily's picture stood out on the front.
In a cave somewhere.
"Lily I love you," the vampire
said simply
"Don't say that, it's a joke,
you don't, love anything" Lily shouted at the figure approaching her, pale and
allergic to sun.
"But I do nothings changed
except, I'm dead" he said simply
"Oh yeah really" she said and
backed away to the back wall where she was trapped." If you loved me why did
you kidnap me," she shouted angrily
"Just felt like it" he spat.
Next to Lily she could see a few chairs, and Lily thought fast and remembered
what that girl from the other night had done. She ran quickly and snapped a
chair leg; the vampire had his back turned and right through the heart. He
turned to dust, the piece of wood and Lily fell to the floor.
Not knowing what to do she
packed her things and caught the next train to London and then train to
Manchester. She sat mellow, staring out the window.
Mean while James ran to where
he'd heard the scream, nothing there.
"She's gone" he inhaled gasping
for breath. James ran back to the castle frantically looking for Sirius. Lily
had left, where James didn't know. Once up at the castle, James