A million words have been said
The
truth has been mislead
Promises
not kept broken like glass
An image, memory,
played itself around in her mind, like an annoying show that she could not turn
off but instead of sending her to tears like it had when she first witnessed
the blatant display, it made her angry, and stronger because of that anger.
****
It had started off as innocent as could be. Usagi walked up to Mamoru's apartment
looking for the pink haired little spore that had made his a second home. Usagi knew that wasn't the only reason for
her visit. She knew that she just had
to see Mamoru, convince him to give their love a second chance. They were meant to be together. Her memories of him in the time of the
Silver Millennium was so few, but they showed her how much in love those two
people were, Edymion and Serenity, Mamoru and herself. She pressed the elevator up to his
apartment, excitedly, knowing deep within her optimistic heart that this time
she would be able to convince him, that this time they would make amends. She was determined at least to find out once
and for all why he was pushing her away.
She knocked at the door with as much energy as she could muster in her
nervousness and waited anxiously for him to appear.
She knew he should be there, he gets out of school
at 3:00, and it was 5:00 now. He didn't
have to work today. She knocked again
and after a minute there was still no answer. She almost decided to leave when
she remembered the key Mamoru always kept under his welcome mat. Smiling triumphantly she picked the key up
from under the mat. She decided to
surprise him. If he wasn't at home, she
would cook him something, and have it hot and waiting on him. Still smiling at her plan, she foolishly,
naively, let herself into his apartment.
She took off her shoes and headed toward the kitchen. It was then that she noticed the voices
coming from the bedroom. She listened
carefully trying to hear what was being said but the voices were muffled
preventing her from properly eavesdropping.
She just knew it, that brat was there after all. But after hearing the other voice she knew
that that couldn't be Chibi-Usa. The
voice sounded much older and sophisticated than the voice of a little girl's
but it did sound oddly familiar.
Usagi walked slowly to the bedroom door, tears
coming to her eyes for there were definitely two voices coming from the room. One of them obviously belonged to Mamoru and
the other belonged to a woman.
"I love you don't you see that? I can be so much better for you".
Usagi heard the woman's voice say, she could not
hear Mamoru's reply only the sound of his voice. Familiarity tugged her mind,
she knew that she had heard that woman's voice before but just couldn't place
it.
"She is not good enough for you, Mamo-chan. She was never good enough for you". The woman screamed emotionally.
Again she
listened for Mamoru's reply but could not make out his muffled words. Tears poured down her cheeks but she barely
noticed them. Enough was enough, so she
opened the bedroom door.
What she saw
broke her heart. She felt faint at the
sight.
You swore by the moon whose face changes at
every game
Too untrue to stay the same
The moon is a lie
I don't believe in the moon anymore
For standing before Mamoru clad in nothing
but a lacy black bra and matching panties was Ami. Her navy blue eyes widened in shock when she saw Usagi, who was slowly
backing away from the door in horror. Mamoru, who was seated on his bed fully
clothed, mirrored Ami's expression, his eyes widened, his expression totally
unreadable. Usagi fled from the room,
from the apartment and thought she heard Mamoru call her name.
***
Ami, her best
friend, and her love had betrayed her.
She would have expected something like this from Rei; she knew that Rei
did have a rightful claim to Mamoru, for she dated him first. She would have even expected this sort of
action from Minako, the girl does have the essence of the goddess of love and
Aphrodite was known for her numerous lovers.
She would have expected anyone but Ami, shy sweet Ami. How could she do this? How could they do this?
How sweetly you speak artistic the lines you
paint
Phrases kissed with drops of dew traces
almost to faint
But your words make me cry
She felt the
anger swell within her, from the knowledge of their betrayal. Yes, she felt
betrayed and knew that they would be punished.
Her eyes narrowed into hollow silts.
The once naïve, innocent Usagi had died, died that day in Mamoru's
apartment. She would have her
revenge. They will have no second
chances.
Things will be different this time if
chances are given once more
The heavens will be blue I've heard this
once before
But clouds of gray come to darken the sky
I don't believe in chances anymore
A silver light
began to overtake her, her crescent moon shining on her forehead from the
intensity of her anger. The silvery
light once pure with love began to become darker, her crescent moon changing
turning upside down, changing from pure gold to a tarnished silver. The light around her became tainted, as had
her purity, into a shimmering dull gray.
She knew that she was no longer Princess Serenity of the Moon Kingdom,
she was something more, something much more.
Usagi looked on at the storm, once her enemy now her friend, for she now
understood it. She now understood why the
storm raged on dark and foreboding, shaking the earth with its quake and lighting
the sky on a whim, she was like the storm now for the thunder raged inside her
feeling her with its power, filling her with its rage. No she was no longer Serenity, no longer
Sailor Moon, for that persona stood for love and justice. She knew nether love or justice existed for
her now.
Love conquers all how I wanted to believe
But everything comes with a price and that
price has been deceived
Give love wings; let it fly
Usagi closed her
eyes and momentarily mourned what she once was, what she would have
become. No tears came to her eyes
though; she was incapable of those now.
Luna and Artemis
sat on top of the roof watching the
storm silently. The rain matted their
fur but they did not care for other matters were of more concern now.
"Did you see
that, Luna?" Artemis whispered to his mate.
"Hai. The Tsuki
Hikage. It's what we feared,
Artemis. Its power has been released".
"Kami, poor
Usagi". Luna said bowing her head tears
falling from her eyes as she thought of her charge, the girl she would protect
with her life.
"But she is not
Usagi now. I'm sorry." Artemis said.
"I failed her. I
failed Queen Serenity". Luna cried realizing their loss.
"There is nothing
we can do now, Luna. The Mitsukai Kurai
has risen. There is nothing anyone can
do now." Artemis said and bowed his
head in defeat. He listened to Luna
cry, her tears mingling with those of the dark sky and knew that she would cry
many more tears in the days to come for she had failed, they had both failed
and now all they could do was accept their fate.
Usagi looked
again at the moon that had once been her home, had once been her
protector. She could almost see her
mother, Queen Serenity, looking down on her with mournful eyes, yet that did
not matter to her, nothing mattered anymore.
"Hell has no fury
like a woman scorned". She said her
eyes transfixed on the glowing orb, which now reflected her tainted essence.
"I don't believe
in love anymore." She whispered coldly.
"I don't believe
in you anymore".
So what do you
think? Read and Review. BTW Usagi's last words are the last two
sentences of the poem. Below is a list
of the Japanese that was used in this fic:
Mitsukai= Angel
Kurai= Dark/
gloom
Tsuki= moon
Hikage= shadow
Hai= yes
Kami= God
