I didn't want the music to end. I didn't care if I ever saw my white horses or my foot popped, or even saw sparks. I couldn't remember being so happy as I was just there dancing. For all I knew the world could have ended and I was happy. I never wanted the music to end because I knew once it did I would have to tell Ben I planned to leave. I could have just left without a word but I knew he would hear something about it somehow and I wanted to tell him instead of him hearing it though the mindless town gossip. But the music stopped and I did tell him. I had to tell him.
He took it much better then I thought and agreed to keep everything a secret and making me swear to write him every chance I got. I accepted these terms, patted him on shoulder and left to pack my things.

Once I got home I couldn't think straight. I started taking things out of my closet in a blur. I took pants, shirts, socks, everything but dresses. I wanted nothing more to do with the life of shallow minded nitpickers who couldn't see past their hate and demanded everyone under 18 saw things the same way they did. I left a note for my sister
Hey there kiddo,
I'll bet my bottom dollar on the fact that if your reading this now I'm gone. I'm not coming back. This isn't exactly going to be poetry because I'm rather in a rush but I want you to know your a good sister. You really are and I just wanted to tell you not to let anyone change your dreams and thoughts. Those are all yours and nobody has the power to take them away- no matter what anyone tells you. I have a pretty good idea of where I'm going but I don't dare write it down in case it falls into the wrong hands, so I don't want you to worry. Hopefully one day i'll see you again. I love you always

I left to meet Jessie down by the train yards. I didn't want to go alone so I begged her to come down with me. It was rather risky doing this in the early evening instead of late at night but either one of us could make noise outside and our neighbor carried a gun so you can imagine that would be scary. We had some time to kill so we both said whatever was on our minds. Soon my train was pulled into the station and the attendent was loading my bags on the car. I was on the train when- "Hey wait. One last hug" Jessie said hoping on. Just before she let go she said "I'll join you one day." "don't forget that" was the last thing I heard before the train pulled off. She followed along the platform as far as it would go and I waved back like crazy. She almost ran into the pole and I started to laugh. I had mixed feelings about this whole ordeal. I knew I would miss my family like mad but I was very excited about the new possibilities and hopefully the new people I would meet.