*So Far Away*
Part 2
By: (*Areida Tokyo
Disclaimer: I don't own Gundam Wing or the characters, they are strickly owned by Sunrise and Bandai corporations. I also don't own the song 'So Far Away', it belongs to this kick ass band called: Stabbing Westward! *^_~*...Sorry you guys that I had to put this into chapter's, It would have been tooo long. Like always: Leave A Review and NO FLAMMING! =^_^=
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Dedication: This is for Ley and everyother person who reviewed ALL my fics!
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These steps were becomming ancient, the graish-bluish paint was chipping away and moss or other small plants were replacing the cracks in the hard material.
Heero's breath was caut in his throat, sweat building up on the rim of his noise and tense jaw; his Perssian Blue eyes widen with apperhension, unsure that it was her that was arriving at any moment. The suspence was driving his mind to the edge of loosing mental and emotional control, making him mad. It's been six, long melancholy months since he saw his dearest, amazing, antediluvian, valued, best gal tomodachi. He's known her ince they were four years old. She's also known Adam just as long.
His heart was dashing with anticipation, his eyes craved to see her; his lips dreamed to talk to her, to have those long night, pointless, friendship chit-chat's he had practically every night on the phone. Last but not least, his ears wanted nothing more in this universe and beyond, than to hear and listen to that musical, breathtaking voice that was only owened by one person; Relena. She had that kind of uterance that instanly brings joy to the heart and smile to one's face. She was the only girl, o-tenba, PERSON in the world who had that unique effect on Heero, she was one-in-a-million!
Heero took one more glance towards the door window, he saw the fimiluar figur standing by the wood, her face only a couple of intch's away from the door. Her head hung low, as if she was ashame of something, Heero mentaly noted her body position and how soaked her clothing was. Long, wet, messy honey-yellow hair fell around the figur's face and over her shoulder's, fractures of hair were twisted together; Heero got a better look of her face. It wasn't the facial apperence he was hopping to see, it looked all stressed out; interweaved with emotions, unable to choose one feeling and exsprece it. But the worst thing of all was her eyes, the deep ocean orbs were spaced out, filled with misery, pain, and confusen. They were a little pink and puffy, he's always been attracted to her eyes, when he felt down and she came jumping towards him, her eyes filled with joy made the world so much better than it really was; he's heart sunk to the botom of his stomach becuase of what he saw. Her lips continued to trimble and quiver, lipsing 'why'. Relena shook her head back and forth in a frastrated act, more tears fell out of her eyes, she bit lip and crunched her fists together, her mouth opened up; but no sounds or words came out. Heero than heard the nob of the door, but the door it self didn't open, she was just playing with the handle.
Everything went silent and he couldn't see her anymore, she was bent over for just a seconed. The door swung open, wind and drips of rain flew in, damping everything it touched. Relena draged her depressing body in and that's when she notice the little white peice of paper on the banaster, she closed the door and pealed it off. After she was done reading the message her head fell back and a groan escaped her mouth. She sounded like the note just brought more problem's. Relena picked up her book bag and a box with something in it. She began to head down stairs to her room, Heero didn't hear the door shut, just the slam of her bag against the wall. Heero followed her, quietly stepping onto each, purple-grayish carpet. Once he was done with the last set of steps, he peared over the corner of the hallway wall. One eye watching closly, making sure nothing regretable would occur.
She watched the velvet, patches of colorful book bag take air and smash agianst her wall, shacking little stuff off the shelf. The blond-head girl set the box down and let out a two-month old Germain Shepered puppy; it had a bandage around it's right, hind leg, he had a nasty fight with a feral cat. She setled it in a basket under the table and closed the navy, blue curtains. She stood up and stared at her reflection on the window, she bit her lip again and was about to yell; when she suddenly had the sience of not being alone. Not very oddly was it that she didn't panic or attact the person that she felt near by, she knew who was. Not only was the feeling recognizable, but also the note read:
'Honney pie, I'm gone just for awhile. The Yuy's house burnt down a few hours ago. I envited them over since they had no one to stay with. Alisa is at her best friends house, Mr. and Mrs. Yuy are with me. Were going to the insurence company, so they can begin to rebuild their home. Since the weather is wild right now, it might take us some time to get home. Some dinner is on the stove and dessert is in the fridge, take dear sweatheart and I'll see you later.
P.S~ Heero didn't come with us, he might be on the downstairs couch, be sure to not wake him up. The boy's had a thought day ('I've had a hard day also' Relena thought as she finished reading). Hope you had a nice day at work. Love you~ The MOM*^_~*
Relena could feel Heero right by the entrence of the door, she felt the space between her and his body closing in. She could immagian his srong chest under his shirt rise and relax after each breath he took in...what the hell was she thinking like that for??!?! She didn't bother to focus on the question, other thoughts preoccupid the one idea. She guess that maybe he was less than an arm lenghth from her back, that didn't stay the same for long. Now he was close, close as if he was a boyfriend and was going to wraped his arms around her waist. She didn't squirm by the thought, she felt comfertable by Heero, she usually isn't like that with guys. She hates it when they treat her like a girl, as if she was every other female around. The ones that giggled at everything, Relena is dose that too, but she dosen't laugh at the dumb things people say and do. She also can't stand the feeling of a guys arms encircling her hips, she felt caged, traped. Unable to get up and move, she felt like a stuff toy.
Relena knew that Heero knew that something was wrong, that she was crying...why!?!?! Why she have to cry infront of a boy?!?! But his is Heero were talking about, he would understand, he's only seen her cry once. When they were seven, Relena's Golden-Retriver, pasted away by a dissease. Relena loved that puppy, she wasn't ready to lose her. That was another reason Relena wanted to be a vet, to find cures, so it wouldn't happened again. Relena didn't want another child to lose the best frined one could ever have, espechally if they took care of it so well. He saw her cry and didn't ever once make fun of her because of that, she was so embarresed when he caught her in her room crying her eyes dry. She was just as embarressed as now, she felt her checks warmth become warmer. But that was long ago, she's was younger, she was still learning to be tough like a boy; to not cry in public. She also had a good reason to be sad, for christ sakes she lost a best friend, she's seen guys cry over a lost pet; that's normal, what she was crying over now was...pathetic! It wasn't like she was going to marry the bastard! Anywayz, how long was he awake? Did she wake him up or was he already awake?
Heero stood over her, watching her body twich and tence up once in awhile. He wanted to hold her and try to help her, but he was worried that she might jerk from his touch and shove him away because she was so embaressed. He didn't like seeing her be in so much pain that it allowed tears to fall out, he was going to help her and he knew she needed it more than anything right now. He took in a breath and let one hand fall onto her shoulder.
*But every time that I touch you
You feel so far away...*
"Relena..." He whisspered. "Do you need my help?" Her head jest fell, letting strands of hair surround her face.
*And every time that you need me
I feel so far away...*
She truned her head half way, so he could only get a glance of her unhappy face. He moved his head a little closer, being careful to not making her uncomfertable. 'Scrue it!' Heero thought powerfuly, he just decided to take action. He quickly turned her around and shoved her body into his arms, he held furmly, just enough so she wouldn't feel traped. For awile she didn't move, her face barried into his right brest. Her lips trivered, her eyes became wet and tears pilled on the rim of her eyebrows. She continued to fight the earge to cry. "Please Relena, please cry. It's ok, I'm not going to think your weak. Let it out, even on me if it makes you feel better." Heero said as her stroked the top of her head. Still he didn't feel the tears on his shirt, making it damp from the salty wetness. He tried agian. "Lena cry and tell me what's wrong. I wanna help, but I can't if you don't let it out." Heero said in feathery tone. Still nothing happened, what was he going to do?!
*As you lie silently beside me chocking back your tears
I wounder if you recognize
That silence now defines us...*
"Relena?..." He said, breaking the silence.
She finally spoke,"I don't want to seem like I'm complaning or braging about my problems." Relena said so honestly.
"You know I wouln't think like that. You can tell me anything, right?" What came next made Heero's chest hurt. She didn't answer, she just looked up and stared. "Lena you still tell me everything?" Again she just looked into his eyes, was she actually holding something back? Has their friendship changed and he didn't know about it? How long has she held back on him? How long has this transformation in their frinedship been going on?! Heero froze and continued to stare back, he was stumped. He actually didn't know what to do, there wasn't much if she wouldn't corroperate with him. He might not have the strength to help, that would be the first.
*Desperately I try to fight this overpowering sense
That I may never find
The strength to change
How hopless we've become*
"Relena.." He mumbled.
"Heero I haven't hold anything back before and I still haven't"
"Than why were you so hesitant to answer?!" He quetioned, cocking one eyebrow as he spoke deeply with curiosity.
"Because I just wanted to see if I was ready to tell anyone about my day, that's all." She said honestly. Heero nodded and asked her to continue. They took a seat onto the small blue and white pladded couch in her room, Relena began to tell her day, just like the old days.
"It started this morning, when I woke up, I was having a diffacult time sleeping last night. I was jerking in my sleep that I jumped so high I fell on the floor and hit my head real hard on the floor, that's how I woke up." Heero was trying his hardest to hold back the laughter, they way he immagin her waiking up was so fuuny. "I sore under my breath and decided to ignore the pain. As I was getting ready for work, Animal (the Russian Blue cat), keeped chewing on my ankle. I quickly began to feed her when I smelt smoke, I spun around and saw that my toaster was spitting out globs of thick, dark gray clouds. I took the toast out, still forgetting about the cat, and it was all black and kogasu. I just threw it away and finished feeding Animal, I checked my watch and I was already five minuets late for work and today was supposed to be real...isogasii. I decided to forget about it and I ran out to the car, I only had coffie for breakfeast."
"By the time I got to work, not only was I late, but I also forgot my lunch and I didn't have any loose cash. When I got there I explained that my alarm clock wasn't working right, Lillia told me not to worry. Since I've been working so hard and the fact that we've berly begun the day, in other words the real work hasn't began. When lunch time came around, my stomach began to roar so loud that some of the dogs barked everytime I came by. Lillia had a extra sandwitch and drink, she told me...no demanded me to eat it. So I did without a hesitece, after words I remembered tonight I was supposed to do something with Ryan, I asked Lillia if I could get off work early. She said no and that she really needed the help today. Not only was the number of patients growing, but new shipments were comming in. I said ok and called Adam, I told him that I couldn't go and that I was real...summimaser! He just began to yell at me and saying all this kusot..." Relena's eyes became a little moist when she metioned Adam's name and what he said, Heero noted all of this and every detail. The fact that she just swore in Japanese ment she was real pissed off and hurt, something told Heero that Adam didn't help her day at all. This made Heero's blood flowed quicker, he calmed himself down and waited for Relena to be ready to finish. She continued, "He said that I was always at work and ore no shitta koto ja nai about us and that I never have free time anymore and that all care about is my "yume". This is all bulshit Heero! I do care about him and I told him that I'm busy for awhile and why I was so packed with work. Would you yell at your girlfriend for being so busy?" She asked, it looked like she was starring at Heero; but she had this far distance look in her eyes and they were filled with emothions. She was confussed and probably felt like she did something wrong.
Heero shoock his head viciously. "Hell no, I would completly understand. And dreams are important in one's life, we need goals." Said Heero wisley and honestly. Relena smiled for the first time and that grin made Heero's heart rise and his chest feel less pain.
Relena tucked her hair behind her ear, looked up, met Heero's gaze once more, and continued."He didn't let me say much and just hung up one me, he sounded real pissed off. I was worried, but if he was going to do something real baka na I would have beaten him up good!" Heero nodded, he knew she could do that. "I was dumbfounded for awhile, but I hung up my phone too and went back to work. He didn't help the day much, after are "talk" I kept doing dumb things threw out the day. For example: I would mix the medicien, I would write something wrong on the pets records. I felt so stessed that the animals began to sience my anger and feelings. One dog was already jummpy and when I took him in his room I had a hard time picking him up. Once I did...I guess he felt more nevious around me and he bit me real hard on the arm." Relena took off her jacket and showed her arm, white cloth was wrapped around the wound and a patch of dry blood could be seen. "Lillia fixed it up for me and I was back to work less than a minuet. Before we closed up we had to go to Mr.Berkly's house and help his Chestnut, Querter Horse give birth."
"It was finally closing time, Lillia asked if I could take a Germian Shepered puppy home, of coarse I said yes. At least I had someone with me when I came home. When I left the building the storm began, I had to take my jacket off and put it over the box to keep the pup alive. I dashed toward my car, almost falling, when I got in I was completly soaked! Plus I had mud from Mr.Berkly's farm. The drive home was calm and nice untill Lil' Rascal, the dog, got all restless. I stoped at Edith Moulton Park, I let him out and do his "buisness". Suddenly he ran off into the dark, I chased after him, following the sound of barks and whimpers. I continued to cry out the name I gave him, when I found him I could distinguished the sound of the dog and...and some other sound. I stood there with Lil' Rascal by my side; I was trying to focus my sight on the...moving figure, at first I thought it was some animal, but when the lightning strucked and it's yellow glow filled the park. I saw...I could see the object..." Relena stopped talking, she was whispering when she began telling about the Park scene.
Small, wet crystals sat on the edge of her eyes, after one blink the saturated rocks escaped her indogo eyes and slid down her soft, fair skin. One after another the tears fell, she clenched her chest trying to breath. Heero looked at her in shock, but he didn't wait, he scooped her up in his arms and held her close to his chest. For five minuets she cried, not being able to stop. Heero rocked her back and forth, he could feel the salted tears moist his shirt. Relena gripped his shoulers as she cried out loud in agony. Heero waited patiently, what ever she saw crushed her heart greatly. They stayed like this for another five minuets, her crying and him comferting her as much as he could.
*And every time that I touch you
You feel so far away...*
What Relena asked next took Heero's breath away. "He-heero what could be...the worst way finding someome you thought you loved, chetting on you?" She asked between whimpers. Heero just stared at her, he wouldn't know, he's never been cheated on before. "Uh...I guess them kissing some other person or them making out." Heero answered. Relena shook her head and shoved out of Heero's warm, damp chest.
"No, the worse...that's what I thought untill what I saw." Heero knew who she was talking about and his eyes began to narrow and turn into slivers, berly being able to see his eyes. Relena's sorrow turned into anger and hatred. "The worst way finding someone you "loved" cheeting on you is: Them in the undercover part of a place fucking someone else till there goddamn ears RING!!!" Relena yelled, her fists turning red as she remembered the scene. She cried even more, "Heeeero I feel so pathetic, I did what I feared."
"What was that?" He asked as he held her again. "I lived in a fantasy, I gave my heart away only to get it crushed. I played my self dumb!"
"I know how it feels." Was all Heero could say, he looked down at Relena's face, all wet and shinny. She whipped her head away from Heero's facial looks. Relena stood up and stared at her bed, not moving, but just looking. "Uh, Relena what are you up to?" Heero asked, worried that she might do something racinal.
"chikusho, I'm going to return the kusoyaro kusot! I want him to burn in jigoku." She barked out. Relena dove under her bed and took out a box. She began to throw stuff in, CD's, cloths, cards, pitchures, little things; as she was doing all this she still cried. She stopped at her stuff toy net with the animals, she had a goal to collect every animal in stuff form; if it wasn't for Adam she wouldn't have as much, she starred at the cornor with the artificail creatures. NO! She wasn't going to keep anything, she grabed a chair and began to throw the toys in a big, black bag. She began to throw more stuff untill she couln't think of a spot with his crap. During all of this Heero watched and waited. Relena went over to her dresser and gazed toward a glass box, on the outside there was a sign; it read: 'Speedy-the-Spot, nickname~Seedo'. In it was a little animal, a 'Rose Hair Tarantula', Relena gestered her head back and forth, "No. It's an akanbo to me. I know he gave her to me, but I'm not letting those filthy hands touch her. The damn Pigfucker can live without Speedo!"
She twirled around and starred at Heero. He was mad, but for once he was going to let Relena show the asshole who he was messing with. "Come, let's go!"
"Go where?!" Asked Heero, "It's midnight if you haven't noticed.
"To his house."Answered Relena, Heero got up and told her he would drive. She wasnt in the mood to fight, so Heero got his way. "Thanks for helping me Heero." She said as the left the parking lot.
*And evey time that you need me
I feel so far away,*
Relena told the way to Adam's house, she didn't care if he wasn't there. "Here it is." She said angerly, she turned her head and looked at Heero. He put his head down and didn't say anything. She opened the door, invitting cold rain and wind in, she grabbed the box and bag and headed up the stair to the house. Heero just watched, he wanted to tell her how he felt, but he didn't know if he should tell her now. Anyways he was going to tell her today Adam wasnt good enough for her, plus Quatre told him she was going to break up with him anytime soon; once she wasnt so busy. He thought maybe tonight he could tell her all of this.
*I feel so far away,
I feel so far away...
Relena stood by the entrence of the worst house she ever stood by, water dripping of her cloths, face, and hair. A wabably fist hung over it's desenation, she let if fall with full force. Knok, knock, knock, knock! This would defently wake someone up, she didn't care and didn't mind if she made a scene. The poarch lights turned on, putting a spot light on Relena, she heared the sound of locks being unlocked, the door cracked open and a tiered like face peared through. "Yes?" It asked in a whissper.....
TO BECONTINUED...
Translations:(just incase *you* have no idea what i was saying*-_-*;;)
tomodoachi~friend
o-tenba~tomboy
kogasu~burt
isogasii~busy
summimaser~sorry!
kusot~shit
ore no shitta koto ja nai~I don't give a damn
yume~dream
baka na~dumb
chikusho~Hell! (also used as the place)
kusoyaro~bastard
akanbo~ baby
A/N: I can't tell you guys how sorry I am about this...::blushes:: just please don't hate and flame me. At least for the first time all the chapter's are done*^_^* Just leave a review, even if it's small. I swear I didn't know it would be this long...sorry again and arigato for being so nice*-_-*