Past the Mission
By Moi
Ch. 3: "The Only Time"
All that legal shit I keep going goes here.
Notes: Ya ya uh huh ... look at the lyrics and you'll find out that the ch. will be disturbing. Ya well anyways, if you can't handle blood, fuckin sue me. And as a reminder, I do not worship Satan. Thank you.
LOL.
"I'm drunk. And right now I'm so in love with you.
and I don't want to think too much about what we should or shouldn't do.
Lay my hands on Heaven and the sun and the moon and stars.
While the Devil wants to fuck me in the back of his car.
(pause)
Nothing quite like the feel of something new ...
Maybe I'm all messed up! Maybe I'm all messed up! Maybe I'm all messed up in you!
But this is the only time I really feel alive.
This is the only time I really feel alive.
(pause)
I swear. I just found everything I need.
the sweat in your eyes and the blood in your veins are listening to me.
And my moral standing is lying down.
(pause)
Nothing quite like the feel of something new ...
Maybe I'm all messed up! Maybe I'm all messed up! Maybe I'm all messed up in you!
But this is the only time I really feel alive.
This is the only time I really feel alive.
And sometimes I can't help thinking that Christ never had it quite like this."
~
Nine Inch Nails (Trent Reznor basically, LOL), "The Only Time"
So ... we waited. And we got bored. Especially Chani. You know young people, they always get so damn restless CONSTANTLY.
By about 11:40 AM, she had asked out 4 guys unsuccessfully for the hell of it. Strange child.
After discussing a bit about how we might scream for doing nothing, we decided to go to a bar.
Chani was screaming for an excuse (She has thing *thing* about drinking ... I suppose I never influenced her enough). "But ... but ...
AREN'T WE SUPPOSED TO STAY HERE?! WATCH?!"
"Who cares?!" asked Remus.
"Me!"
"Well, we don't, now get your ass over here!" said Remus rather rudely.
We got in the bar, although Chanelle was screaming with protests. We ordered some drinks and sat down.
I drank as I got fucking drunker and drunker. I was falling into a pit of seclusion from the world. Like I have a dirty little secret to
hide from the living. Then I can see everyone around me like they were 15 years ago. I could even see James and Lily, talking like they were
alive. We were all wearing black leather, talking about absolute nothing, except for me and James, who were talking about government, people,
the world like we always did. I had scars all over my arms from getting off tattoos and from cutting myself, Magda was smoking, Rhemyra joined
with her, and Remus was usually hanging out, think about god knows what. Of course Chanelle wasn't there because she was in school
and had to be such a good little whore.
"It's so so fucking sad to see this paranoia everyone has in this world. It's so SAD to just see everyone cutting themselves open with
pocketknives then try to turn themselves inside-out ... when will people learn that no one gives a fuck if you are just a dumbass down the
street that no one cares about?"
God, I remember when I said that. When I actually believed it. Now I would give anything to do that. I remember so much. i remember--"OK, WHY THE FUCK IS EVERYONE STARING AT ME?!" I screamed, noticing my companian's eyes burning through my back.
About five seconds silence.
"Well that depends on who the hell you're talking to!" said Rhemyra, who was staring at me disgusted.
Oops.
"I'm just remembering stuff ... I'll shut up."
"Damn straight you will!" she said.
Maybe I'm just sick. Maybe I'm just so fucking crazy I can't think straight anymore. But I don't care. Because right now I truly feel alive.
~*~
By Moi
Ch. 3: "The Only Time"
All that legal shit I keep going goes here.
Notes: Ya ya uh huh ... look at the lyrics and you'll find out that the ch. will be disturbing. Ya well anyways, if you can't handle blood, fuckin sue me. And as a reminder, I do not worship Satan. Thank you.
LOL.
"I'm drunk. And right now I'm so in love with you.
and I don't want to think too much about what we should or shouldn't do.
Lay my hands on Heaven and the sun and the moon and stars.
While the Devil wants to fuck me in the back of his car.
(pause)
Nothing quite like the feel of something new ...
Maybe I'm all messed up! Maybe I'm all messed up! Maybe I'm all messed up in you!
But this is the only time I really feel alive.
This is the only time I really feel alive.
(pause)
I swear. I just found everything I need.
the sweat in your eyes and the blood in your veins are listening to me.
And my moral standing is lying down.
(pause)
Nothing quite like the feel of something new ...
Maybe I'm all messed up! Maybe I'm all messed up! Maybe I'm all messed up in you!
But this is the only time I really feel alive.
This is the only time I really feel alive.
And sometimes I can't help thinking that Christ never had it quite like this."
~
Nine Inch Nails (Trent Reznor basically, LOL), "The Only Time"
So ... we waited. And we got bored. Especially Chani. You know young people, they always get so damn restless CONSTANTLY.
By about 11:40 AM, she had asked out 4 guys unsuccessfully for the hell of it. Strange child.
After discussing a bit about how we might scream for doing nothing, we decided to go to a bar.
Chani was screaming for an excuse (She has thing *thing* about drinking ... I suppose I never influenced her enough). "But ... but ...
AREN'T WE SUPPOSED TO STAY HERE?! WATCH?!"
"Who cares?!" asked Remus.
"Me!"
"Well, we don't, now get your ass over here!" said Remus rather rudely.
We got in the bar, although Chanelle was screaming with protests. We ordered some drinks and sat down.
I drank as I got fucking drunker and drunker. I was falling into a pit of seclusion from the world. Like I have a dirty little secret to
hide from the living. Then I can see everyone around me like they were 15 years ago. I could even see James and Lily, talking like they were
alive. We were all wearing black leather, talking about absolute nothing, except for me and James, who were talking about government, people,
the world like we always did. I had scars all over my arms from getting off tattoos and from cutting myself, Magda was smoking, Rhemyra joined
with her, and Remus was usually hanging out, think about god knows what. Of course Chanelle wasn't there because she was in school
and had to be such a good little whore.
"It's so so fucking sad to see this paranoia everyone has in this world. It's so SAD to just see everyone cutting themselves open with
pocketknives then try to turn themselves inside-out ... when will people learn that no one gives a fuck if you are just a dumbass down the
street that no one cares about?"
God, I remember when I said that. When I actually believed it. Now I would give anything to do that. I remember so much. i remember--"OK, WHY THE FUCK IS EVERYONE STARING AT ME?!" I screamed, noticing my companian's eyes burning through my back.
About five seconds silence.
"Well that depends on who the hell you're talking to!" said Rhemyra, who was staring at me disgusted.
Oops.
"I'm just remembering stuff ... I'll shut up."
"Damn straight you will!" she said.
Maybe I'm just sick. Maybe I'm just so fucking crazy I can't think straight anymore. But I don't care. Because right now I truly feel alive.
~*~