Ahem! I am deeply hurt by the fact that two people reviewed dont mess with my love. *sobs *sobs* thanks Mikey *sniff sniff* & Midori iro, my totally loyal fans lol.
Anyways, this isnt S&S ..well it is at the very end...but I figured this is an itty bitty one compared to the others. Pretty Boy will be my next one, and Why will probably be after that,
so if you hate this one & hated the last one, the really cute lovey dovey S&S ones are coming! So Dont hate me lol, R&R.
Girl In Your Dreams...
Syaoran sat on his couch in deep thought with a smile plastered on his face, he would soon be able to go back...
He was overjoyed once his mother explained that she cared more for his happiness than the Clan ever would. She could
read her son so easily. She had known even before he had that he cared for Sakura more than he had let on. She knew how horrible
it must have been for him to leave the one girl he had ever truly loved.
"Sakura" he sighed quietly to himself "I promise you, you won't go another day in pain.."
Syaoran pictured how beautiful his cherry blossom must be at this time, it had been so long since he had gone to Hong Kong and left his Cherry Blossom
behind. It killed him to see the way her eyes fell into pain. He had wished that she never loved him sometimes so she would never have to deal with pain & sorrow.
But soon that would all change, very soon, he could feel it, all he needed now was a plane ticket. Suddenly there was a knock at his door.
"Syaoran, I've come to talk to you.."
"Meilin? Wha.."
"Syaoran I cant let you...I cant let you leave Hong Kong, your place is here, leader of the Clan, with..with me by your side." her voice now in a shushed whisper.
"Meiling..I love Sakura don't you know that by now? I'm sorry, really I am but there isn't much I can do about it.."
Meilin felt tears descend her cheeks. She wished there was something she could do.
"Syaoran...you've left me no other choice, I've convinced all the elders that you cannot go back to Japan, that you are needed here..."
"You did WHAT? Meilin, instead of trying to ruin my life try ruining your own!" Syaoran cried.
"Syaoran, I'm trying to protec.."
"PROTECT ME? From what? From Sakura?"
"Exactly! Kinomoto is no good for you Syaoran she can't give you what you want, she can't give you what you NEED! You NEED me! Soon you'll WANT me"
"NO, Meilin I've tried to be nice about this but this is ridiculous! You can't control my life!"
"I CAN, because soon I will be your wife & there is NOTHING Sakura can do about that!"
"What...Meiling what are you.."
"I'm saying...Syaoran, I have decided that the arranged marriage IS what I want & so you see you can't leave out of respect for Hong Kong, your home, your family, your CLAN and me."
"Meiling YOU CANT do this...I dont understand why you would do this!.."
"BECAUSE I LOVE YOU.."
"Meilin...I love you too but not in that way...we're family that's all...there is no you & me together...do you understand?"
Meiling nodded. "I understand...but..I ..I can't let you go to be with her...the wedding is on..I'm sorry..". Meilin departed in sadness & in anger.
Was she doing the right choice? He does want to go back to her, and she is the only one that can make him happy...but..what about her? Was she just something people could walk all over?
Sakura could have any guy in the world, yet she chooses Syaoran. Meilin was filled with jealousy & envy but the sentiments she was feeling couldn't compare to the sadness her love was feeling.
Meilin entered her room & shut her door quietly.
I was walking down the street one day, then I saw you I didn't know what to say..
You're eyes were shining. You're smile was so kind.
When I saw you I wanted you to be mine
Meiling took out an old picture of her & Syaoran by a cherry blossom tree..she couldnt help but cry, there was no fighting it she would always be in his life.
Who was she kidding she knew she couldnt keep him...he wasnt just some prize or a pet..he was a human being with wants & needs. The more she acknowledged this the more she wanted to buy him a one way trip back into her arms..but still, what about her?
Maybe I don't have the blonde hair you like
Or maybe I don't have eyes like the sky
And I'm not sure if I'm the girl in your dreams
But I can show you what love means...
She sat on the edge of her bed, torn. Should she let him go? for the sake of his happiness? Or should she keep him & have a life of hatred, anger...depression..
Why was this so hard? The choice was obvious wasn't it! She was just as important as any other, was she not? Sakura had nothing on her! right? Who was she trying to convince..She would NEVER be the girl in his dreams...no..that wouldnt happen because...there would always be something better...
her name was Sakura...
One day you came and talked to meAnd you said we are meant to be
I was happy, everything was so nice
But then I found out that everything was a lie
It was all because he wanted to be leader of that stupid Clan! All he wanted was to please the elders growing up, but now...now he wants to live for no one else but himself...with his Cherry Blossom..
What was she going to do? The noble thing to do would be to let him go, she was never hers to begin with..not really. But if she let him go, she would be left alone, heartless, left with nothing...
Maybe I don't have the blonde hair you like
Or maybe I don't have eyes like the sky
And I'm not sure if I'm the girl in your dreams
But I can show you what love means..
Or maybe I can't???? Can I even love at all?...Do..I actually LOVE Syaoran? Or is this some perverbeal game of mine! I can't even tell when I'm lying to myself! What is wrong with me? Is my mind clouded so much so that I can't even differentiate between love & like? Do I only love him because I was told to?
Do I even love who I am? Look what I have become! Meilin you have changed in age but you..you have not. You are still the same selfish little girl that challenged people all your life just so you could prove you were better! But what if that saying was right?
What if...if you think your better than everyone..maybe your not better than anyone at all? Could it be that she had stooped so low that she couldnt recognize herself in the miror?
Maybe..she had never loved Syaoran..maybe it was just a ploy to prove she was better than Sakura..that just because she didn't have magic that she had heart and she had determination..but in reality maybe those were the things she was lacking among other things.
What..what is going on? Have I developed a conscience? Or..or maybe...it's been there the whole time, but I refused to listen to logic and reason...
How could you do this to me!
How could you make me love you & leave me behind??? WHY? ...is this even love?
You said we are meant to be!
YOU DID so long ago! You told me you would marry me!..but..did YOU mean it? Or was it just to please the elders, a thought that has continuously popped into my mind...maybe they were never meant to be...maybe that was the problem the entire time..
You showed me how to cry
When you told me everything was a lie
I was so hurt the first time I noticed you had deep feelings for Sakura..why was I so blind!? Thinking I could come between you both..?
Oh Syaoran..what do I do? Part of me says I need to let you go..but the other..the other wants you for myself...what now?
Maybe I don't have the blonde hair you like
Or maybe I don't have eyes like the sky
And I'm not sure if I'm the girl in your dreams
But I can show you what love means....
Wait! WAIT A MINUTE! I DONT GIVE UP! WHY AM I GIVING UP! SO WHAT IF HE DOESNT LOVE ME! I CAN MAKE HIM LOVE ME! YOU HAVE TO LOVE ME SYAORAN YOU PROMISED TO LONG AGO!! AND YOU WILL!
YOU WILL!!!!...but why do i feel so horrible? I'm not giving up, so should I be happy? ...I Meilin REFUSE to give up...no way...
I CANT show you what love means! I love you that's why!!!! Am I lying to myself again????..
"NO, YOU LOVE HIM"
do i really? Or do I love the IDEA of being in love with him..
"YOU LOVE HIM YOU LOVE HIM"
oh ya? than why are you having this conversation with yourself!?
"SHUT UP JUST STOP IT!!"
you know he will never love you the way he loves her...Sakura claimed his heart years ago..you never had his heart..never will..
Meilin broke down into tears & sobs. ...She wasnt about to lose him...no way especially not to Sakura!
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Syaoran could swear he heard yelling from Meilin's room, was she having doubts afterall? Maybe she was going to break off the engagement.
Anyhow it seemed she was in deep conflict with herself, her heart wanting one thing, her head another. He sighed as he saw an image of his love, Sakura in tears once again, when he had to tell her he was marrying Meilin..
NO it wouldnt come to that! It could never come to that!
Suddenly Meilin walked into his room again...
"Come lover, it's time to prepare for the wedding!" she yelled triumphantly.
Syaoran couldnt believe it, had the years of annoyance her way ever got into her thick head? Didn't she realize this was wrong? All of it was so wrong!?
"Meilin..I will NEVER love you the way I love Sakura!"
"SHUT UP! I LL MAKE YOU LOVE ME SYAORAN! YOU WILL LOVE ME!!!"
She began to cry again..she wasn't ready to lose him...
Suddenly the phone rang..
Syaoran answered.
"Moshi moshi, Syaoran speaking..."
"Syaoran, I miss you so much when are you coming back?"
Syaoran looked at Meilin with anger in his eyes...he was nt sure he would ever be going back to Japan....
"...Soon my love soon...I'm sorry I have to let you go, ..I ve got to train I ll call you back later, I love you Sakura.." he hung up the phone to see Meilin in tears, yet filled with anger.
"You are NEVER going back there, you hear me? I WONT allow it! AS YOUR FIANCE.."
"You are NOT my finance...because I am NOT going to marry you!"
Meilin realized her grip on him was loosening, she was beginning to lose faith & confidence in herself. She refused to give up, she ran to him and kissed him hoping he would respond, but he backed away angrily..
He was ready to scream & declare his love for his cherry blossom to get the message clear to her but he couldnt, there was too much sadness & loneliness in her eyes...
"I am truly sorry Meilin...but.."
"I know.." she nodded & pointed to the door..
Syaoran was taken aback by this, was she setting him free from such bondage?
"Syaoran...I...I know you love her..and no one..nothing can ever change that...so I ask that you go to her...as my wedding gift" she looked up and smiled..
"I really love you , you know that right?"
"I love you too..but it doesnt go into more depth than family..."
Meilin nodded sadly while still pointing to the door.
"Please Syaoran, leave now..before I regret my choice...go to her..."
Syaoran was about to leave, but hugged his cousin gingerly.
"Don't forget to invite me to the wedding, Syaoran.."
Syaoran smiled one of his rare smiles.
"Don't worry..."
"Syaoran..I know I'm not the girl your dreams...but"
"You ll be able to show your other half what love means Meilin...don't give up on your heart, it will guide you..I guarantee it.."
Syaoran left after an emotion goodbye to return home to his cherry blossom.
"Sakura...I'm coming..I'm coming home...and I promise to make you my wife ..."
Syaoran smiled to himself remembering that the girl in his dreams would forever be his..
R&R plz! I thought I 'd squeeze this one in here to explain a bit about Meilin. SYAORAN IS RETURNING HOME YAYAYAYAYAYA!
S&S next couple of stories i promise!
next will be..the long awaited PRETTY BOY...
Anyways, this isnt S&S ..well it is at the very end...but I figured this is an itty bitty one compared to the others. Pretty Boy will be my next one, and Why will probably be after that,
so if you hate this one & hated the last one, the really cute lovey dovey S&S ones are coming! So Dont hate me lol, R&R.
Girl In Your Dreams...
Syaoran sat on his couch in deep thought with a smile plastered on his face, he would soon be able to go back...
He was overjoyed once his mother explained that she cared more for his happiness than the Clan ever would. She could
read her son so easily. She had known even before he had that he cared for Sakura more than he had let on. She knew how horrible
it must have been for him to leave the one girl he had ever truly loved.
"Sakura" he sighed quietly to himself "I promise you, you won't go another day in pain.."
Syaoran pictured how beautiful his cherry blossom must be at this time, it had been so long since he had gone to Hong Kong and left his Cherry Blossom
behind. It killed him to see the way her eyes fell into pain. He had wished that she never loved him sometimes so she would never have to deal with pain & sorrow.
But soon that would all change, very soon, he could feel it, all he needed now was a plane ticket. Suddenly there was a knock at his door.
"Syaoran, I've come to talk to you.."
"Meilin? Wha.."
"Syaoran I cant let you...I cant let you leave Hong Kong, your place is here, leader of the Clan, with..with me by your side." her voice now in a shushed whisper.
"Meiling..I love Sakura don't you know that by now? I'm sorry, really I am but there isn't much I can do about it.."
Meilin felt tears descend her cheeks. She wished there was something she could do.
"Syaoran...you've left me no other choice, I've convinced all the elders that you cannot go back to Japan, that you are needed here..."
"You did WHAT? Meilin, instead of trying to ruin my life try ruining your own!" Syaoran cried.
"Syaoran, I'm trying to protec.."
"PROTECT ME? From what? From Sakura?"
"Exactly! Kinomoto is no good for you Syaoran she can't give you what you want, she can't give you what you NEED! You NEED me! Soon you'll WANT me"
"NO, Meilin I've tried to be nice about this but this is ridiculous! You can't control my life!"
"I CAN, because soon I will be your wife & there is NOTHING Sakura can do about that!"
"What...Meiling what are you.."
"I'm saying...Syaoran, I have decided that the arranged marriage IS what I want & so you see you can't leave out of respect for Hong Kong, your home, your family, your CLAN and me."
"Meiling YOU CANT do this...I dont understand why you would do this!.."
"BECAUSE I LOVE YOU.."
"Meilin...I love you too but not in that way...we're family that's all...there is no you & me together...do you understand?"
Meiling nodded. "I understand...but..I ..I can't let you go to be with her...the wedding is on..I'm sorry..". Meilin departed in sadness & in anger.
Was she doing the right choice? He does want to go back to her, and she is the only one that can make him happy...but..what about her? Was she just something people could walk all over?
Sakura could have any guy in the world, yet she chooses Syaoran. Meilin was filled with jealousy & envy but the sentiments she was feeling couldn't compare to the sadness her love was feeling.
Meilin entered her room & shut her door quietly.
I was walking down the street one day, then I saw you I didn't know what to say..
You're eyes were shining. You're smile was so kind.
When I saw you I wanted you to be mine
Meiling took out an old picture of her & Syaoran by a cherry blossom tree..she couldnt help but cry, there was no fighting it she would always be in his life.
Who was she kidding she knew she couldnt keep him...he wasnt just some prize or a pet..he was a human being with wants & needs. The more she acknowledged this the more she wanted to buy him a one way trip back into her arms..but still, what about her?
Maybe I don't have the blonde hair you like
Or maybe I don't have eyes like the sky
And I'm not sure if I'm the girl in your dreams
But I can show you what love means...
She sat on the edge of her bed, torn. Should she let him go? for the sake of his happiness? Or should she keep him & have a life of hatred, anger...depression..
Why was this so hard? The choice was obvious wasn't it! She was just as important as any other, was she not? Sakura had nothing on her! right? Who was she trying to convince..She would NEVER be the girl in his dreams...no..that wouldnt happen because...there would always be something better...
her name was Sakura...
One day you came and talked to meAnd you said we are meant to be
I was happy, everything was so nice
But then I found out that everything was a lie
It was all because he wanted to be leader of that stupid Clan! All he wanted was to please the elders growing up, but now...now he wants to live for no one else but himself...with his Cherry Blossom..
What was she going to do? The noble thing to do would be to let him go, she was never hers to begin with..not really. But if she let him go, she would be left alone, heartless, left with nothing...
Maybe I don't have the blonde hair you like
Or maybe I don't have eyes like the sky
And I'm not sure if I'm the girl in your dreams
But I can show you what love means..
Or maybe I can't???? Can I even love at all?...Do..I actually LOVE Syaoran? Or is this some perverbeal game of mine! I can't even tell when I'm lying to myself! What is wrong with me? Is my mind clouded so much so that I can't even differentiate between love & like? Do I only love him because I was told to?
Do I even love who I am? Look what I have become! Meilin you have changed in age but you..you have not. You are still the same selfish little girl that challenged people all your life just so you could prove you were better! But what if that saying was right?
What if...if you think your better than everyone..maybe your not better than anyone at all? Could it be that she had stooped so low that she couldnt recognize herself in the miror?
Maybe..she had never loved Syaoran..maybe it was just a ploy to prove she was better than Sakura..that just because she didn't have magic that she had heart and she had determination..but in reality maybe those were the things she was lacking among other things.
What..what is going on? Have I developed a conscience? Or..or maybe...it's been there the whole time, but I refused to listen to logic and reason...
How could you do this to me!
How could you make me love you & leave me behind??? WHY? ...is this even love?
You said we are meant to be!
YOU DID so long ago! You told me you would marry me!..but..did YOU mean it? Or was it just to please the elders, a thought that has continuously popped into my mind...maybe they were never meant to be...maybe that was the problem the entire time..
You showed me how to cry
When you told me everything was a lie
I was so hurt the first time I noticed you had deep feelings for Sakura..why was I so blind!? Thinking I could come between you both..?
Oh Syaoran..what do I do? Part of me says I need to let you go..but the other..the other wants you for myself...what now?
Maybe I don't have the blonde hair you like
Or maybe I don't have eyes like the sky
And I'm not sure if I'm the girl in your dreams
But I can show you what love means....
Wait! WAIT A MINUTE! I DONT GIVE UP! WHY AM I GIVING UP! SO WHAT IF HE DOESNT LOVE ME! I CAN MAKE HIM LOVE ME! YOU HAVE TO LOVE ME SYAORAN YOU PROMISED TO LONG AGO!! AND YOU WILL!
YOU WILL!!!!...but why do i feel so horrible? I'm not giving up, so should I be happy? ...I Meilin REFUSE to give up...no way...
I CANT show you what love means! I love you that's why!!!! Am I lying to myself again????..
"NO, YOU LOVE HIM"
do i really? Or do I love the IDEA of being in love with him..
"YOU LOVE HIM YOU LOVE HIM"
oh ya? than why are you having this conversation with yourself!?
"SHUT UP JUST STOP IT!!"
you know he will never love you the way he loves her...Sakura claimed his heart years ago..you never had his heart..never will..
Meilin broke down into tears & sobs. ...She wasnt about to lose him...no way especially not to Sakura!
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Syaoran could swear he heard yelling from Meilin's room, was she having doubts afterall? Maybe she was going to break off the engagement.
Anyhow it seemed she was in deep conflict with herself, her heart wanting one thing, her head another. He sighed as he saw an image of his love, Sakura in tears once again, when he had to tell her he was marrying Meilin..
NO it wouldnt come to that! It could never come to that!
Suddenly Meilin walked into his room again...
"Come lover, it's time to prepare for the wedding!" she yelled triumphantly.
Syaoran couldnt believe it, had the years of annoyance her way ever got into her thick head? Didn't she realize this was wrong? All of it was so wrong!?
"Meilin..I will NEVER love you the way I love Sakura!"
"SHUT UP! I LL MAKE YOU LOVE ME SYAORAN! YOU WILL LOVE ME!!!"
She began to cry again..she wasn't ready to lose him...
Suddenly the phone rang..
Syaoran answered.
"Moshi moshi, Syaoran speaking..."
"Syaoran, I miss you so much when are you coming back?"
Syaoran looked at Meilin with anger in his eyes...he was nt sure he would ever be going back to Japan....
"...Soon my love soon...I'm sorry I have to let you go, ..I ve got to train I ll call you back later, I love you Sakura.." he hung up the phone to see Meilin in tears, yet filled with anger.
"You are NEVER going back there, you hear me? I WONT allow it! AS YOUR FIANCE.."
"You are NOT my finance...because I am NOT going to marry you!"
Meilin realized her grip on him was loosening, she was beginning to lose faith & confidence in herself. She refused to give up, she ran to him and kissed him hoping he would respond, but he backed away angrily..
He was ready to scream & declare his love for his cherry blossom to get the message clear to her but he couldnt, there was too much sadness & loneliness in her eyes...
"I am truly sorry Meilin...but.."
"I know.." she nodded & pointed to the door..
Syaoran was taken aback by this, was she setting him free from such bondage?
"Syaoran...I...I know you love her..and no one..nothing can ever change that...so I ask that you go to her...as my wedding gift" she looked up and smiled..
"I really love you , you know that right?"
"I love you too..but it doesnt go into more depth than family..."
Meilin nodded sadly while still pointing to the door.
"Please Syaoran, leave now..before I regret my choice...go to her..."
Syaoran was about to leave, but hugged his cousin gingerly.
"Don't forget to invite me to the wedding, Syaoran.."
Syaoran smiled one of his rare smiles.
"Don't worry..."
"Syaoran..I know I'm not the girl your dreams...but"
"You ll be able to show your other half what love means Meilin...don't give up on your heart, it will guide you..I guarantee it.."
Syaoran left after an emotion goodbye to return home to his cherry blossom.
"Sakura...I'm coming..I'm coming home...and I promise to make you my wife ..."
Syaoran smiled to himself remembering that the girl in his dreams would forever be his..
R&R plz! I thought I 'd squeeze this one in here to explain a bit about Meilin. SYAORAN IS RETURNING HOME YAYAYAYAYAYA!
S&S next couple of stories i promise!
next will be..the long awaited PRETTY BOY...