Ok its me again! Well The Feeling is Gone is actually an M2M song, I dunno why it s not on their cd
I actually have the mp3 & its great! Sounds like em to me. Anyways, thanks to all my reviews who reviewed
anything I have ever written up to date. Reviews mean a lot, they're great encouragment so keep em comin *winks*
Once again huge thanks to Mike for ur offer to help me out if I need more ideas, means a lot :)
Ok this is a continuation to Feeling is Gone, & Why is comin up and I swear everyone will love it :)
Enjoy, I aim to please...
Mirror Mirror
There he was, looking at her with such hatred, such anger. How could she have inflicted such pain upon such an unsuspecting, innocent person
whom she cared for more than her own life? His eyes were so full of pain, his face personified pain which sent chills up and down her spine.
His eyes peared inside her soul, judging her for her harsh words, if only she could take them all back, every last one of them! She never dreamed
it was possible, to hurt someone so deeply the way she had hurt him. She may as well have physically slapped him across the face, who knows maybe
that was how he felt this moment. His eyes were deeply focused, he had this blank look on his face, the same look he wore as she sang that horrific song,
that song! How could she have been so cruel to the one she loved? For so long all he could say was how he didn't deserve her, how she was superior to him in every way,
but now, looking into those pain stricken eyes, that confused face, all she could think of was how she was unworthy of the ground he walked on.
She tried so hard to say something, anything, she wanted to explain her actions...but could her behavior ever be justified? Doubtful. Would he ever possess the strength
to forgive her? Doubtful. Could he ever stand to look in her direction let alone straight at her ever again? Doubtful. It seemed hopeless, utterly hopeless, until his lips began to move,
he was pronouncing words, he was attempting to speak, yet his words were inaudible, what was going on? Each time she took a step forward he seemed farther, much farther away as if she was
at the beginning of a hollow tunnel, the closer she got to the exit the faster he approached it. She collapsed onto the ground in tears. "I can't hear you...I can't..", she sobbed quietly hugging her knees, he
on the other hand just stood there keeping his distance with that same blank, confused, pained look in his eyes. He began to speak once more, again she was deaf to his words when suddenly
she heard,"There's nothing to forgive..I love you..", her face shot up with anticipation only to be greeted with darkness, complete darkness.
"I was dreaming...he must still hate me, despise me, loathe the sight of me after what I said to him. She looked at the clock which read 12pm noon, she had slept half the day away. Suddenly
she held her head in her hands and cried out in pain. She felt as if someone was literally hammering her head into her body, each hit resulted in more pain. She wanted to take something
for the pain but didn't think she would have the strength to get out of bed let alone take some pain killers. She reached for the phone to call Sakura when she realized that her anger was also
targetted at Sakura as well. She felt so alone, so lost, so devastated. She cried into her pillow wishing this was all just a bad dream, but she knew this would be a nightmare she would never be able
to awake from.
"How could I have been so cruel to them last night, was I drunk out of my mind? No, I got drunk after I sang that song..."The Feeling is Gone", no the feeling could never be extinguished."
Eriol always made her feel special, perfect in every way. His touch was always so sweet, so warm, so comforting even on her bad days, he was the refuge she would turn to when things got rough.
What did she hope to accomplish by singing that song that was so destructful to her life and the lives of her friends. What did she even hope to gain by pouring her heart out for the world to see,
her heart bled all over the floor and people enjoyed watching. Such cruelty, how did she manage it? Was she possessed by something? Someone perhaps? No. She had no one to blame but herself,
she was alone now not because of Sakura, simply because she had been jealous. Eriol swore time and time again he had no interest in Sakura other than friendship.
Now, I look back on what I've done and I feel so ashamed, I never want to leave this bed, she thought to herself as she hid under the covers.
"It's over...It's all over and it's my fault...all my fault", she sobbed to no one in particular. "Sakura...I'm so sorry...Eriol...I...", she felt so guilty,
what could she do to make this right? Was there anything she could do?...Would they even listen to the ramblings of a jealous, inconsiderate, cruel, heartless person like herself?
Her head pounded to no end, so much pain...and she had caused it all...
Suddenly she started to think about her dream, he had said that he loved her, that there was nothing to forgive...was that part of the dream?
No, it could'nt have been his lips didn't move, how had she heard the words, all he had said in her dream was inaudible to her, why was that?
Yet, she found no difficulty in hearing "I love you". She shook it off, Eriol was probably over joyed to leave her home last night, he probably went to HER place and spent the night...
Jealousy filled her system once again consuming her heavy heart. She had lost him the moment she sang that song, how could she have sung such harsh words in front of so many people
obviously directed at the person she stood before, why was love so hard to deal with? Was that how she felt towards him still, love? Was she capable of such a sentiment, this was deja vu,
she had thought all these thoughts before over and over in her mind recycling themselves into her memory. Her mind was punishing her as well as her heart with constant reminders of how she hurt him,
he was so confused, completely confused, he didn't even see it coming, not by a mile!
She sighed as she reverted back to her dream, she remembered whispering a declaration of love as she slept but it could have been the beer talking...
Still, all the alcohol in the world would never erase him from her mind, he was etched permanently inside her mind as a reminder of how cruel she could be to someone, to Eriol of all people, the one she loved with everything she had.
She finally gathered all the strength she could muster to get out of bed, she needed asprine and something to drink, her mouth was unbelievably dry.
She made her way to her desk before collapsing into a nearby chair. She felt awful, the room was spinning out of control, her head was in constant pain and her heart just tore with every breath she took.
She lifted her head slowly and paused. She now sat gazing at her reflection in the mirror. What had she become? She wasn't even human anymore, she had become something ....not even a living, breathing, interacting human being, she was just ..nothing.
Her hair was a complete mess, her eyes were puffy and red, her cheeks tears stained, her complection pale almost white. She looked the way she felt.
She stared blankly at her reflection, she had changed ever so much in so little time, she let her emotions rule her life, she let jealousy in particular over rule her heart and her mind of what she knew was right and wrong.
Her eyes, red and puffy personified depression, her pale complection personified pain, it looked as though she'd been deprived of love her entire life. The girl staring back at her was a complete stranger, she couldnt recognize that reflection as her own.
She never realized the effect Eriol had on her, with him she personified happiness, until she threw it all away, for what? For mere suspicions!
She could have sworn she had a vision of the miror cracking, shattering, pieces of glass dispersing throughout the room. She knew what this vision meant, deep down in her heart ..whatever was left of it she knew...
Mirror mirror lie to me
Show me what I wanna see
Mirror mirror lie to me
She closed her eyes wishing it was all a bad dream, praying this wasn't real, but she knew nothing could erase what had happened last night.
Her eyes snaped open, the erase card could erase what had happened couldn't it!? She thought for instant but declined such thinking, everything
happens for a reason, this incident occured to show her how much she loves him, this was to be a lesson. If she found a way to erase last night, it would only happen again and again until fate took back it's role in life.
Why don't I like the girl I see
She cringed as she analysed her appearance, how could she have let this happen?
The one who's standing right in front of me
She couldnt even recognize her own face anymore...she was no longer the same innocent girl she once was, the girl that found pleasure in the happiness of others, she was changed now and would never be the same again.
Why don't I think before I speak,
I should have listened to that voice inside me!
There is no justifying how i handled things last night, even though I felt I was justified to behave the way I did, I had no right, I was cruel and I don't deserve him..
Why didn't I listen to my conscience, the voice that creates a link between my head and my heart!
I must be stupid, must be crazy, must be out of my mind
To say the kind of things I said last night.....
"Oh Eriol, how I regret what I said...", she cried, burying her head in hands in disgust and pain, things would never be the same again.
Singing that song was so wrong, so hurful, why didn't I see it? Because I was hurt and in pain, I thought I could have revenge. I was so jealous,
so angry..no I was mad, I just lost all sense of reality, of humanity!
Mirror mirror hanging on the wall
You don't have to tell me who's the biggest fool of all
Mirror mirror I wish you could lie to me
And bring my baby back, bring my baby back to me..
No he'll never come back, personally I dont think I blame him, not after what I pulled last night. He should know to stay as far away from me
as humanly possible! I'm not of this world anymore, I lost myself yesterday, I suddenly was consumed with anger, with hate, with pain, with jealousy, yes that's what it was. I have no one to blame but myself,
I personified hatred, cruelty and of course jealousy, there is no possible justification Tomoyo, you are unworthy of this world...
Mirror mirror lie to me.....
Show me what I wanna see...
Mirror mirror lie to me....
Show me what I wanna see...
I will never see myself in this mirror the same way again. I have destroyed the Tomoyo I once was, the Tomoyo he once loved, the Tomoyo everyone once knew..
What I wouldn't do to have all that back, to be the girl I was, to go back in time, to change fate...to change...everything...
Why did I let you walk away
When all I had to do was say I'm sorry
He could never forgive me, not after what I did...it isn't possible, he will never perceive me the same way again, no I've destroyed his perception of me..he'll never return to me..and why should he, so I can inflict more pain upon him? No, I won't do it...not ever again, I would rather...
I would rather...die...
Thoughts began to wander in her mind, should she live on without him? Would life be worth living?...She glared at her letter opener, but shook her head..
I let my pride get in the way
And in the heat of the moment I was to blame
I must be stupid, must be crazy, must be out of my mind...
God, what is wrong with me? What possessed me last night...dammit Tomoyo! Nothing possessed you! It was all you! YOU! it's YOUR fault
YOUR to blame...all you...you hurt him...YOU sang that song directly at him...you...you broke his heart, did you not see his pained expression
plastered all over his face? You hurt him, no one else...you....Your crazy if you think your a victim! Your out of your mind if you think your in pain!
Now in the cold light of the day I realize...
Why did it take me so long to trust him? When I finally did, why was I so eager to point fingers, assign blame that was never there, why did
I just make up my mind without even verifying!? I handled myself badly, I made a complete fool of myself in more ways than one..
Mirror mirror hanging on the wall
You don't have to tell me who's the biggest fool of all
Mirror mirror I wish you could lie to me
And bring my baby back, bring my baby back to me
Why am I even bothering? I know he won't come back! Hell, I don't even deserve his loving face, his warm touch, his safe embrace..he's too good for me...
he was too good TO me, I destroyed our relationship because I was jealous? Come on Tomoyo, you know better than that! You destroyed your
relationship because you were SCARED, flat out frightened by love, afraid to let anyone get too close to you...afraid...
If only wishes could be dreams
And know my dreams could come true
There would be two us standing here in front of you
If you could show me that someone that I used to be...
You changed me in so many ways Eriol, my love, I need you..I need you so much...my heart doesn't beat without you, my mind goes crazy
when your not with me. I know I don't deserve you, but...but I need you to show me how to be a better person, you bring out the best in me..
I need you...come back to me..
Bring back my baby, my baby to me...
Oh Eriol...come back...
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Eriol sat alone in the semi lit room, he couldn't help but what wonder about her. Was she alright? She did have a lot to drink...
"Give it up Eriol, she doesn't want you, she made it perfectly clear! Are you thick?" he spoke to himself as a poor attempt to convince himself
how little importance... denying her how she affected him...
"Tomoyo", he called out in pain...He would never be able to convince himself that ..that he didn't love her...he would love her no matter what...
But she said the feeling was gone...she even dared to wonder if there ever was a feeling to begin with! What would make her doubt me?
He thought to himself as he punched a near by cushion.
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Mirror mirror lie to me.........
Tomoyo wanted to destroy what she saw before her...but she didn't have the courage, she was too weak, she had no strength left, but then
again she had lost her reason to live...how could he have affected her this much? Was this true love?
Show me what I wanna see.....
"I just want things to go back to the way they were, just he and I laying next to each other...just having him near me, having his heart beat next to mine..
made life worth living. So many times I would just watch him sleep, just breathe in and out, he looked so peaceful, he sometimes whispered
"Tomoyo" in the darkness. Why did she have to go and ruin it...?..
Suddenly the phone rang, she jumped out of her skin, then reached over to answer it. Before she could say a word, the voice spoke..
"Tomoyo chan, I want you to know I love you, I would never hurt you the way you thought I did yesterday, trust me when I say your my best friend,
I would never dream of ruining what we have. Our friendship is so precious to me, I need to know that you believe me when I say, I love Eriol
the way I love you, we are all friends, but you...you love Eriol and he loves you, so much! Despite what you might think, he never lied to you,
he always said he loved you and only you, it's true, he still loves you....Anyway, I just thought I d let you know..."
Silence.
"Tomoyo? Are you there? I hope its you because I will be terribly embar.."
"Yes Sakura chan its me...look I...I love you guys too..I'm so sorry for ruining our evening last night...please forgive me."
"Oh Tomoyo, there's nothing to forgive..."
Nothing to forgive...That sounded so familiar! Had Eriol said that to her last night? She heard his voice but...was it him or was it her imagination... Had he forgiven her...?
"Tomoyo?"
"Uh, sorry Sakura, I've got to go talk to Eriol..."
"Tomoyo...maybe you should stay in bed today, you probably have one bad hang over!"
Tomoyo smiled into the phone, "I guess, but I need to make things right..."
Sakura nodded, Tomoyo as if she'd seen her best friend nod smiled once again and hung up, thanking God that she had Sakura in her life.
Suddenly she heard what sounded like thunder...thunder???? ERIOL! Could it be him? She ran to her window despite the pain shooting
throughout her body. She called out his name to be greeted with more thunder...it had started to rain, she backed away from the window sad
once again, she looked back one last night after hearing the soft "pitter patter" of rain drops, only to realize a storm had commenced, nothing more, nothing less...Eriol was not there...
Tomoyo collapsed onto the ground and sobbed, "It wasn't him....." she cried loudly as if in competition to drown out the sounds of the storm
which had made her so happy not too long ago.
Mirror mirror lie to me.....
She commenced her cries of agony of pain not caring that water fell from the window sill onto her head.
Mirror mirror lie to me.....
Her head raised up from her hands to look at her mirror once more, she stood up and walked toward it...looking one last time..
Show me what I wanna see.....
She could hear herself pleading that this would soon be all over, the pain was just too much...so painful...so much of it...
Still her reflection appeared before her, but not the one she had hoped she'd see. She turned away from it ashamed.
"He'll never love me again.."
She looked to the mirror once more before lifting it up in her hands...she wanted nothing more than to throw it out the window, destroy
what she had become that way..
Mirror mirror ....
She spoke slowly, pronouncing each syllable with such grace, yet with such sadness...
lie to me ......
The rain and thunder continued outside violently...
She turned to the window and looked out one last time and was greeted by a soaking wet boy...
"Tomoyo..." he said with a slight smile as he spoke...
She must be seeing things...It was him! Eriol here? Not after what happened! Not after last night!
"Tomoyo, uhm...it's raining pretty hard...could you maybe open ....Tomoyo?"
Tomoyo had ran out her bedroom door like the wind, she needed to touch him, she needed to make sure it wasn't just her imagination...
She opened the front door to be face to face with Eriol.
She smiled for the first time that day, "What took you so long?"
Eriol smiled and soon broke into a fit of laughter, Tomoyo hugged him in hopes he wouldn't disappear from her touch.
She was overjoyed to see him still standing there in the hug.
"Come in Eriol, your soaked!"
Once inside, the storm outside subsided.
"Tomoyo...I love you, I came here to tell you that no matter what you say Im never leaving your side again and.."
"Eriol...did you reherse or somthing?"
Eriol smirked.
"Is it that obvious?" Tomoyo nodded and smiled. "I practiced in front of a mirror, I've been staring at my reflection for hours now! It's funny
I seem to have this song stuck in my head, "Mirror Mirror" you know it?"
Tomoyo was shocked! She had been doing the same thing, trying to find the words to say to him.
She nodded and laughed. Eriol was clueless as to what made her laugh but didn't question her, it was a beautiful melody that laugh of hers.
"Eriol I am truly sorry, Sakura called me and made me realize that you guys would never betray me like that because..because you both love me..."
Eriol nodded slightly but was soon captivated by her eyes that despite the run down mascara, tear stained face, she was still the most
gorgeous creature he had ever seen.
"Tomoyo, your so beautiful.."
Tomoyo laughed, "Your too good to me."
They hugged again before Eriol leaned in to kiss her. This kiss sealed the deal, Tomoyo would no longer cower from love, no, she would confront it
by Eriol's side, together they would defeat the odds, and stay happy with each other forever...
Suddenly something caught Tomoyo's eye, she released Eriol from the embrace and picked it up.
"Tomoyo, why is your mirror down here?..Tomoyo?"
She smiled to herself as she stared at her reflection, through it all the girl she once knew was still there, there was a spark that was Tomoyo,
staring back at her with a smile. She promised herself she would never become what she had last night, never again... Her mirror was her
window to life, she finally realized that this large piece of glass was constructed to show her how much she needed Eriol. She made a pact
that she would never forget this incident, a valuable lesson had been learned, one she would never forget.
Tomoyo threw the mirror the ground. Time seemed to slow down, as the mirror fell slowly, eventually meeting it's doom- the inevitable, the ground.
The mirror shattered, pieces of glass dispersing around her forming a circle. It was magical! She finally realized that love was not meant
to be understood. She smiled at the pieces of glass standing over them, all of which projected her image, the Tomoyo she once knew, the Tomoyo
everyone knew, the same innocent Tomoyo who found happiness when others were happy, the same Tomoyo, Eriol had fallen in love with...
Eriol stared at Tomoyo in confusion...
"Tomoyo..honey...are you ok?"
She looked into his eyes and nodded. She'd never felt more ok, she was free.
"Tomoyo, honey...uhm...I assume your not superstiscious because you know that if you break a mirror its seven years bad luck right?"
Tomoyo's smile faded..uh oh! But soon enough her smile appeared right where it had a moment before.
"I know, but Eriol, I wont let that affect who I am, I wont be controled, I wont be possessed..I wont be influenced..I wont be anyone, or anything
that I'm not...a mirror is a mirror, I broke a mirror..." She shrugged her shoulders, "I'll just buy a new one" she said as she lead Eriol up the
stairs...
R&R PLZ! that was kinda long..hope it was liked. Lotz of people like T&E! Im glad! Just remember Why is coming up, MAJOR S&S!
Thanks to all my reviewers! luv ya!
I actually have the mp3 & its great! Sounds like em to me. Anyways, thanks to all my reviews who reviewed
anything I have ever written up to date. Reviews mean a lot, they're great encouragment so keep em comin *winks*
Once again huge thanks to Mike for ur offer to help me out if I need more ideas, means a lot :)
Ok this is a continuation to Feeling is Gone, & Why is comin up and I swear everyone will love it :)
Enjoy, I aim to please...
Mirror Mirror
There he was, looking at her with such hatred, such anger. How could she have inflicted such pain upon such an unsuspecting, innocent person
whom she cared for more than her own life? His eyes were so full of pain, his face personified pain which sent chills up and down her spine.
His eyes peared inside her soul, judging her for her harsh words, if only she could take them all back, every last one of them! She never dreamed
it was possible, to hurt someone so deeply the way she had hurt him. She may as well have physically slapped him across the face, who knows maybe
that was how he felt this moment. His eyes were deeply focused, he had this blank look on his face, the same look he wore as she sang that horrific song,
that song! How could she have been so cruel to the one she loved? For so long all he could say was how he didn't deserve her, how she was superior to him in every way,
but now, looking into those pain stricken eyes, that confused face, all she could think of was how she was unworthy of the ground he walked on.
She tried so hard to say something, anything, she wanted to explain her actions...but could her behavior ever be justified? Doubtful. Would he ever possess the strength
to forgive her? Doubtful. Could he ever stand to look in her direction let alone straight at her ever again? Doubtful. It seemed hopeless, utterly hopeless, until his lips began to move,
he was pronouncing words, he was attempting to speak, yet his words were inaudible, what was going on? Each time she took a step forward he seemed farther, much farther away as if she was
at the beginning of a hollow tunnel, the closer she got to the exit the faster he approached it. She collapsed onto the ground in tears. "I can't hear you...I can't..", she sobbed quietly hugging her knees, he
on the other hand just stood there keeping his distance with that same blank, confused, pained look in his eyes. He began to speak once more, again she was deaf to his words when suddenly
she heard,"There's nothing to forgive..I love you..", her face shot up with anticipation only to be greeted with darkness, complete darkness.
"I was dreaming...he must still hate me, despise me, loathe the sight of me after what I said to him. She looked at the clock which read 12pm noon, she had slept half the day away. Suddenly
she held her head in her hands and cried out in pain. She felt as if someone was literally hammering her head into her body, each hit resulted in more pain. She wanted to take something
for the pain but didn't think she would have the strength to get out of bed let alone take some pain killers. She reached for the phone to call Sakura when she realized that her anger was also
targetted at Sakura as well. She felt so alone, so lost, so devastated. She cried into her pillow wishing this was all just a bad dream, but she knew this would be a nightmare she would never be able
to awake from.
"How could I have been so cruel to them last night, was I drunk out of my mind? No, I got drunk after I sang that song..."The Feeling is Gone", no the feeling could never be extinguished."
Eriol always made her feel special, perfect in every way. His touch was always so sweet, so warm, so comforting even on her bad days, he was the refuge she would turn to when things got rough.
What did she hope to accomplish by singing that song that was so destructful to her life and the lives of her friends. What did she even hope to gain by pouring her heart out for the world to see,
her heart bled all over the floor and people enjoyed watching. Such cruelty, how did she manage it? Was she possessed by something? Someone perhaps? No. She had no one to blame but herself,
she was alone now not because of Sakura, simply because she had been jealous. Eriol swore time and time again he had no interest in Sakura other than friendship.
Now, I look back on what I've done and I feel so ashamed, I never want to leave this bed, she thought to herself as she hid under the covers.
"It's over...It's all over and it's my fault...all my fault", she sobbed to no one in particular. "Sakura...I'm so sorry...Eriol...I...", she felt so guilty,
what could she do to make this right? Was there anything she could do?...Would they even listen to the ramblings of a jealous, inconsiderate, cruel, heartless person like herself?
Her head pounded to no end, so much pain...and she had caused it all...
Suddenly she started to think about her dream, he had said that he loved her, that there was nothing to forgive...was that part of the dream?
No, it could'nt have been his lips didn't move, how had she heard the words, all he had said in her dream was inaudible to her, why was that?
Yet, she found no difficulty in hearing "I love you". She shook it off, Eriol was probably over joyed to leave her home last night, he probably went to HER place and spent the night...
Jealousy filled her system once again consuming her heavy heart. She had lost him the moment she sang that song, how could she have sung such harsh words in front of so many people
obviously directed at the person she stood before, why was love so hard to deal with? Was that how she felt towards him still, love? Was she capable of such a sentiment, this was deja vu,
she had thought all these thoughts before over and over in her mind recycling themselves into her memory. Her mind was punishing her as well as her heart with constant reminders of how she hurt him,
he was so confused, completely confused, he didn't even see it coming, not by a mile!
She sighed as she reverted back to her dream, she remembered whispering a declaration of love as she slept but it could have been the beer talking...
Still, all the alcohol in the world would never erase him from her mind, he was etched permanently inside her mind as a reminder of how cruel she could be to someone, to Eriol of all people, the one she loved with everything she had.
She finally gathered all the strength she could muster to get out of bed, she needed asprine and something to drink, her mouth was unbelievably dry.
She made her way to her desk before collapsing into a nearby chair. She felt awful, the room was spinning out of control, her head was in constant pain and her heart just tore with every breath she took.
She lifted her head slowly and paused. She now sat gazing at her reflection in the mirror. What had she become? She wasn't even human anymore, she had become something ....not even a living, breathing, interacting human being, she was just ..nothing.
Her hair was a complete mess, her eyes were puffy and red, her cheeks tears stained, her complection pale almost white. She looked the way she felt.
She stared blankly at her reflection, she had changed ever so much in so little time, she let her emotions rule her life, she let jealousy in particular over rule her heart and her mind of what she knew was right and wrong.
Her eyes, red and puffy personified depression, her pale complection personified pain, it looked as though she'd been deprived of love her entire life. The girl staring back at her was a complete stranger, she couldnt recognize that reflection as her own.
She never realized the effect Eriol had on her, with him she personified happiness, until she threw it all away, for what? For mere suspicions!
She could have sworn she had a vision of the miror cracking, shattering, pieces of glass dispersing throughout the room. She knew what this vision meant, deep down in her heart ..whatever was left of it she knew...
Mirror mirror lie to me
Show me what I wanna see
Mirror mirror lie to me
She closed her eyes wishing it was all a bad dream, praying this wasn't real, but she knew nothing could erase what had happened last night.
Her eyes snaped open, the erase card could erase what had happened couldn't it!? She thought for instant but declined such thinking, everything
happens for a reason, this incident occured to show her how much she loves him, this was to be a lesson. If she found a way to erase last night, it would only happen again and again until fate took back it's role in life.
Why don't I like the girl I see
She cringed as she analysed her appearance, how could she have let this happen?
The one who's standing right in front of me
She couldnt even recognize her own face anymore...she was no longer the same innocent girl she once was, the girl that found pleasure in the happiness of others, she was changed now and would never be the same again.
Why don't I think before I speak,
I should have listened to that voice inside me!
There is no justifying how i handled things last night, even though I felt I was justified to behave the way I did, I had no right, I was cruel and I don't deserve him..
Why didn't I listen to my conscience, the voice that creates a link between my head and my heart!
I must be stupid, must be crazy, must be out of my mind
To say the kind of things I said last night.....
"Oh Eriol, how I regret what I said...", she cried, burying her head in hands in disgust and pain, things would never be the same again.
Singing that song was so wrong, so hurful, why didn't I see it? Because I was hurt and in pain, I thought I could have revenge. I was so jealous,
so angry..no I was mad, I just lost all sense of reality, of humanity!
Mirror mirror hanging on the wall
You don't have to tell me who's the biggest fool of all
Mirror mirror I wish you could lie to me
And bring my baby back, bring my baby back to me..
No he'll never come back, personally I dont think I blame him, not after what I pulled last night. He should know to stay as far away from me
as humanly possible! I'm not of this world anymore, I lost myself yesterday, I suddenly was consumed with anger, with hate, with pain, with jealousy, yes that's what it was. I have no one to blame but myself,
I personified hatred, cruelty and of course jealousy, there is no possible justification Tomoyo, you are unworthy of this world...
Mirror mirror lie to me.....
Show me what I wanna see...
Mirror mirror lie to me....
Show me what I wanna see...
I will never see myself in this mirror the same way again. I have destroyed the Tomoyo I once was, the Tomoyo he once loved, the Tomoyo everyone once knew..
What I wouldn't do to have all that back, to be the girl I was, to go back in time, to change fate...to change...everything...
Why did I let you walk away
When all I had to do was say I'm sorry
He could never forgive me, not after what I did...it isn't possible, he will never perceive me the same way again, no I've destroyed his perception of me..he'll never return to me..and why should he, so I can inflict more pain upon him? No, I won't do it...not ever again, I would rather...
I would rather...die...
Thoughts began to wander in her mind, should she live on without him? Would life be worth living?...She glared at her letter opener, but shook her head..
I let my pride get in the way
And in the heat of the moment I was to blame
I must be stupid, must be crazy, must be out of my mind...
God, what is wrong with me? What possessed me last night...dammit Tomoyo! Nothing possessed you! It was all you! YOU! it's YOUR fault
YOUR to blame...all you...you hurt him...YOU sang that song directly at him...you...you broke his heart, did you not see his pained expression
plastered all over his face? You hurt him, no one else...you....Your crazy if you think your a victim! Your out of your mind if you think your in pain!
Now in the cold light of the day I realize...
Why did it take me so long to trust him? When I finally did, why was I so eager to point fingers, assign blame that was never there, why did
I just make up my mind without even verifying!? I handled myself badly, I made a complete fool of myself in more ways than one..
Mirror mirror hanging on the wall
You don't have to tell me who's the biggest fool of all
Mirror mirror I wish you could lie to me
And bring my baby back, bring my baby back to me
Why am I even bothering? I know he won't come back! Hell, I don't even deserve his loving face, his warm touch, his safe embrace..he's too good for me...
he was too good TO me, I destroyed our relationship because I was jealous? Come on Tomoyo, you know better than that! You destroyed your
relationship because you were SCARED, flat out frightened by love, afraid to let anyone get too close to you...afraid...
If only wishes could be dreams
And know my dreams could come true
There would be two us standing here in front of you
If you could show me that someone that I used to be...
You changed me in so many ways Eriol, my love, I need you..I need you so much...my heart doesn't beat without you, my mind goes crazy
when your not with me. I know I don't deserve you, but...but I need you to show me how to be a better person, you bring out the best in me..
I need you...come back to me..
Bring back my baby, my baby to me...
Oh Eriol...come back...
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Eriol sat alone in the semi lit room, he couldn't help but what wonder about her. Was she alright? She did have a lot to drink...
"Give it up Eriol, she doesn't want you, she made it perfectly clear! Are you thick?" he spoke to himself as a poor attempt to convince himself
how little importance... denying her how she affected him...
"Tomoyo", he called out in pain...He would never be able to convince himself that ..that he didn't love her...he would love her no matter what...
But she said the feeling was gone...she even dared to wonder if there ever was a feeling to begin with! What would make her doubt me?
He thought to himself as he punched a near by cushion.
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Mirror mirror lie to me.........
Tomoyo wanted to destroy what she saw before her...but she didn't have the courage, she was too weak, she had no strength left, but then
again she had lost her reason to live...how could he have affected her this much? Was this true love?
Show me what I wanna see.....
"I just want things to go back to the way they were, just he and I laying next to each other...just having him near me, having his heart beat next to mine..
made life worth living. So many times I would just watch him sleep, just breathe in and out, he looked so peaceful, he sometimes whispered
"Tomoyo" in the darkness. Why did she have to go and ruin it...?..
Suddenly the phone rang, she jumped out of her skin, then reached over to answer it. Before she could say a word, the voice spoke..
"Tomoyo chan, I want you to know I love you, I would never hurt you the way you thought I did yesterday, trust me when I say your my best friend,
I would never dream of ruining what we have. Our friendship is so precious to me, I need to know that you believe me when I say, I love Eriol
the way I love you, we are all friends, but you...you love Eriol and he loves you, so much! Despite what you might think, he never lied to you,
he always said he loved you and only you, it's true, he still loves you....Anyway, I just thought I d let you know..."
Silence.
"Tomoyo? Are you there? I hope its you because I will be terribly embar.."
"Yes Sakura chan its me...look I...I love you guys too..I'm so sorry for ruining our evening last night...please forgive me."
"Oh Tomoyo, there's nothing to forgive..."
Nothing to forgive...That sounded so familiar! Had Eriol said that to her last night? She heard his voice but...was it him or was it her imagination... Had he forgiven her...?
"Tomoyo?"
"Uh, sorry Sakura, I've got to go talk to Eriol..."
"Tomoyo...maybe you should stay in bed today, you probably have one bad hang over!"
Tomoyo smiled into the phone, "I guess, but I need to make things right..."
Sakura nodded, Tomoyo as if she'd seen her best friend nod smiled once again and hung up, thanking God that she had Sakura in her life.
Suddenly she heard what sounded like thunder...thunder???? ERIOL! Could it be him? She ran to her window despite the pain shooting
throughout her body. She called out his name to be greeted with more thunder...it had started to rain, she backed away from the window sad
once again, she looked back one last night after hearing the soft "pitter patter" of rain drops, only to realize a storm had commenced, nothing more, nothing less...Eriol was not there...
Tomoyo collapsed onto the ground and sobbed, "It wasn't him....." she cried loudly as if in competition to drown out the sounds of the storm
which had made her so happy not too long ago.
Mirror mirror lie to me.....
She commenced her cries of agony of pain not caring that water fell from the window sill onto her head.
Mirror mirror lie to me.....
Her head raised up from her hands to look at her mirror once more, she stood up and walked toward it...looking one last time..
Show me what I wanna see.....
She could hear herself pleading that this would soon be all over, the pain was just too much...so painful...so much of it...
Still her reflection appeared before her, but not the one she had hoped she'd see. She turned away from it ashamed.
"He'll never love me again.."
She looked to the mirror once more before lifting it up in her hands...she wanted nothing more than to throw it out the window, destroy
what she had become that way..
Mirror mirror ....
She spoke slowly, pronouncing each syllable with such grace, yet with such sadness...
lie to me ......
The rain and thunder continued outside violently...
She turned to the window and looked out one last time and was greeted by a soaking wet boy...
"Tomoyo..." he said with a slight smile as he spoke...
She must be seeing things...It was him! Eriol here? Not after what happened! Not after last night!
"Tomoyo, uhm...it's raining pretty hard...could you maybe open ....Tomoyo?"
Tomoyo had ran out her bedroom door like the wind, she needed to touch him, she needed to make sure it wasn't just her imagination...
She opened the front door to be face to face with Eriol.
She smiled for the first time that day, "What took you so long?"
Eriol smiled and soon broke into a fit of laughter, Tomoyo hugged him in hopes he wouldn't disappear from her touch.
She was overjoyed to see him still standing there in the hug.
"Come in Eriol, your soaked!"
Once inside, the storm outside subsided.
"Tomoyo...I love you, I came here to tell you that no matter what you say Im never leaving your side again and.."
"Eriol...did you reherse or somthing?"
Eriol smirked.
"Is it that obvious?" Tomoyo nodded and smiled. "I practiced in front of a mirror, I've been staring at my reflection for hours now! It's funny
I seem to have this song stuck in my head, "Mirror Mirror" you know it?"
Tomoyo was shocked! She had been doing the same thing, trying to find the words to say to him.
She nodded and laughed. Eriol was clueless as to what made her laugh but didn't question her, it was a beautiful melody that laugh of hers.
"Eriol I am truly sorry, Sakura called me and made me realize that you guys would never betray me like that because..because you both love me..."
Eriol nodded slightly but was soon captivated by her eyes that despite the run down mascara, tear stained face, she was still the most
gorgeous creature he had ever seen.
"Tomoyo, your so beautiful.."
Tomoyo laughed, "Your too good to me."
They hugged again before Eriol leaned in to kiss her. This kiss sealed the deal, Tomoyo would no longer cower from love, no, she would confront it
by Eriol's side, together they would defeat the odds, and stay happy with each other forever...
Suddenly something caught Tomoyo's eye, she released Eriol from the embrace and picked it up.
"Tomoyo, why is your mirror down here?..Tomoyo?"
She smiled to herself as she stared at her reflection, through it all the girl she once knew was still there, there was a spark that was Tomoyo,
staring back at her with a smile. She promised herself she would never become what she had last night, never again... Her mirror was her
window to life, she finally realized that this large piece of glass was constructed to show her how much she needed Eriol. She made a pact
that she would never forget this incident, a valuable lesson had been learned, one she would never forget.
Tomoyo threw the mirror the ground. Time seemed to slow down, as the mirror fell slowly, eventually meeting it's doom- the inevitable, the ground.
The mirror shattered, pieces of glass dispersing around her forming a circle. It was magical! She finally realized that love was not meant
to be understood. She smiled at the pieces of glass standing over them, all of which projected her image, the Tomoyo she once knew, the Tomoyo
everyone knew, the same innocent Tomoyo who found happiness when others were happy, the same Tomoyo, Eriol had fallen in love with...
Eriol stared at Tomoyo in confusion...
"Tomoyo..honey...are you ok?"
She looked into his eyes and nodded. She'd never felt more ok, she was free.
"Tomoyo, honey...uhm...I assume your not superstiscious because you know that if you break a mirror its seven years bad luck right?"
Tomoyo's smile faded..uh oh! But soon enough her smile appeared right where it had a moment before.
"I know, but Eriol, I wont let that affect who I am, I wont be controled, I wont be possessed..I wont be influenced..I wont be anyone, or anything
that I'm not...a mirror is a mirror, I broke a mirror..." She shrugged her shoulders, "I'll just buy a new one" she said as she lead Eriol up the
stairs...
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