Hey Hey everyone :) Im sorry it's been quite a while since my last song fic. THANK YOU SO MUCH to all
you reviewers. Why may be the concluding chapter for my m2m songfic series..lemme know what u think.
Why
Why. She found herself asking this question throughout the entire day. Why. After all that had happened, why was this happening? Why.
She yearned for answers, she longed for his touch but dared not give into her constant urges... What had changed things so completely? She could hear faint noises, sounds that seemed
so far away yet she felt the owners oh so near. Ah yes, they were all there...HE was there amongst them. In fact, his voice seemed to be so
pained, so sad....misery spoke to her through him, he sounded lost, like a little boy in a dark room with no guidance. She could hear disbelief
along with the pain, along with such a degree of fear that had manifested itself from deep concern. Not love. He was so far now...so very far...Distance...
too far...Separated. Never to be reunited, for it was now forbidden. Alone. Never able to be truly happy with anyone else. Impossible.
Only wishful thinking, nothing more, nothing less. Darkness. No guiding lights to warm her cold, unbeating heart. Despair. Pain. Heartache. Not even love could chase such horrors away. A Nightmare. One that she would never arise from.
It was as though they shared a heart, they were one almost, because she knew on some level he felt them just as deep.
Although, now everything was different, love...what was love? Just a word. Just a word that she had a distaste for.
Was it love that did this to her? Was this love? Voices. So distant now, almost faint whispers in the quiet wind. Serenity. She was calm. So very calm.
She felt almost content. Almost perfect. Almost free....almost...ALMOST complete...she was missing something in this utopia. A part of her,
an empty part of her knew what it lacked, but the rest of her denied such a request. Why. Was that all she could think of? Soon enough,
tears made their way down her cheeks, pain made it's way to heart, loneliness found a home in the depths of her soul.
Her eyes fluttered open for a moment, finally able to see the voices, finally able to pose her pained question...finally able to grasp the truth..
"W...h....y?"
Maybe he would answer her in time...maybe...or maybe not..
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That night something so very peculiar had happened, and yet she could not remember what had occured. She sat on the ground. Why there?
She felt as though amnesia flooded her system. What had happened? Why. Why was she here, with..with a tear stained face, on the ground in a heep...on the ground..on the ground in the middle of her bedroom.
She looked all around her, she remembered a sensation she knew all too well creep up on her, a warm, calm, serene sensation. One that surely brought happiness to her heavy heart. Were these tears of joy? No. These tears held the answers to her questions.
She could remember gazing up at the stairs, her heart wishing upon them, her soul soaring high carefree and hopeful. She could recall
feelings exploding all around her not all of which brought her joy. Why. Was there a pain she failed to see at this moment, that once consumed her entire world? She looked to her bedroom door as if it would provide
her with the answers she was seeking. It was as though she could see herself leave the room upset. She looked back to the ground as if in rememberance, a sad recollection. She looked to the sky yet again, as if expecting to see omnious
glances from the sky above. She was confused. She was lost in her own thoughts. Something had happened that night that had scared her, made her heart shatter into black, cold, forgotten pieces onto the ground. Pain. Despair. Those were so friendly to her.
She held her head in her hands in confusion. She wanted to cry....she wanted to die...such pain...such agony...Why? Cry. Die. Alone. Afraid.
Pain. Heartache. Heavy hearted. Where were all these feelings coming from!? What could there possibly be to make her feel so hopeless, lost, without a reason to live.
Her head jerked up in realization. There was only one thing that could have such an effect on her. Only HE had such power. She felt instant concern, she feared the worst.
Pain, despair, fear, awareness all came crashing down on her, was that it? Her love, her other half, was his life in danger? Tears began to gather in her eyes when suddenly she was overcame with relief. She felt warm and safe, her lips curved into a smile.
After all this time. After so many years. After everything that had managed to separate him from her, the day had finally arrived. He was home. His aura, strong, comforting, determined, happy, pure...anxious, nervous yet in controle
She smiled to herself. Her little wolf was on his way back into the arms where he belonged.
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"Welcome to Japan"
His eyes fluttered open. Confusion plastered all over his face. They had landed. Had he been dreaming? No. It was real, it had to have been.
He could smell the fear that was once apparent throughout the craft. He could see tear stained faces that were now lost in happiness and
exhaustion from the flight as they prepared to embark the world outside. They all just got up and walked to the doors, walking past his still form as he sat bewildered in his seat. Things didn't add up.
He felt the severity of concern in the captain's voice not too long ago, he felt the plane shake uncontrollably, he could have sworn that one of the wings of that plane had ripped off at some point.
He searched for any indication that he hadn't lost his mind, that he hadn't fused his imagination into reality. Something was off. He looked out his window only to see the plane intacked.
It was as though nothing had happened, but he knew better. He recalled feeling pain and dissapointment, knowing he would never let eyes on his cherry blossom again. He could still feel the
pain in his heart thinking of how much she would cry over him. He remembered being scared, Syaoran Li afraid for his own life, a feeling that felt oh so rare to him.
He remembered praying so profusely, he remembered feeling a sense of loss. He recalled the screams of the innocent passengers ringing in his ears, but..why?
He knew something had saved him...perhaps even..someone yet no one showed any sign of recollection or confusion. Turmoil had occured yet there were no reprocussions. His head jerked up in anticipation, could it be possible, could her powers have grown to that extent, did she will his safety?
He smiled to himself, if so, that must mean she still loved him...maybe it wasn't too late, maybe it never would be too late. His cherry blossom...his beautiful Sakura had saved him.
He wanted to contact her immediately. He looked to consult his watch when he realized it was cracked, irreperable damage. It read 3am. He furrowed his brow. He was soon recalled to life when he felt someone tap him on the shoulder.
"Sir, we have landed, I'm sure you are eager to explore Japan."
He nodded with a smile as he got up and headed for the exit he looked back to the attendent.
"Excuse me miss, what time is it?"
"6am" she replied with a smile. However Syaoran's confusion did not go unoticed.
"Is everything alright sir?"
Syaoran just nodded and decided not to question what had happened any longer. Recalling his mission, now filled with determination and persistence he started to leave.
"Sakura" he whispered into the wind as he felt the ground meet his feet. He was home despite the confusion, the awe...he was home. His home which he would never leave again.
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Sakura's eyes fluttered open, his aura felt so close. She found herself on her bed, when did she fall asleep? She looked to her clock which read 10am.
'Oh my gosh! I have to go to...wait...no I don't...its Saturday. She sighed in relief. But was soon consumed with worry, shouldnt he have contacted her by now? Surely he's back, his aura is twice as strong as it had been before.
Sakura sighed in exasperation. Where was he? What was taking him so long? She was anxious to be reunited with her soul mate, with the one thing that would always complete her.
She could feel him nearing yet it seemed as though he was searching for something...but what?
"Syaoran...I know your back, I can sense your presence...so...where are you? Why haven't you bothered to contact me?"
Suddenly there was movement from under the covers.
"Sakura...huh?"
"Kero?"
Kero scratched his head in confusion. Why wasn't he in his drawer?
"That's....strange." He said groggily as he starred at Sakura in confusion. "I could have sworn I was sad...about...something...". He shrugged it off assuming it was a dream.
He flew to open the bedroom door when it hit him like a ton of bricks. It had happened. His mistress was in deep pain about something...someone...
Something changed that...
He turned the door knob and headed towards the bathroom. There, on the ground lay a razor blade. Kero's eyes widened with realization.
"It happened, Sakura...Sy..Syaoran...Sakura wanted to...die...Syaoran was...dead...but...I sense...his aura? Could it be?"
"Kero? Whats the.."
Her eyes starred at the razor which lay on the ground. Death. Pain. Syaoran.
"Kero, we were here...right here...last night...Syaoran was on a plane...some...disturbance...some...thing...turmoil...crash the plane..it was real."
Kero flew to his mistress.
"Sakura, I sense.."
"Syaoran...is alive Kero...He didn't die..He's here in Japan..something saved him."
Kero looked up to his mistress, his friend and smiled. "You did Sakura".
Sakura shook her head. "I didnt do anything Kero...really". His smile faded. This wasnt what was originally intended to happen. Syaoran was suppose to die in that plane crash. Kero thought to himself.
Was he saved by a mere miracle? There is no way Sakura could have saved him...right?
"Expect the unexpected".
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Syaoran continued his search relentlessly. It would have to be perfect, unforgettable, tonight would be one hell of a night. A night which would mark
a whole new beginning.
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Together, the love birds walked hand in hand. They had been spending every day with each other. Nothing would ever tear them apart from each other, they had survived so much. The pair was inseparable.
Eriol smiled lovingly as his lips neared hers. They met in a sweet, gentle yet passionate kiss.
"Eriol, I love you so much" Tomoyo whispered in his ear.
"I love you too Tomoyo-chan" he replied.
Suddenly she looked straight ahead and saw a man distressed, as if searching for something. There was something so familiar about him, something so recognizable.
Eriol frowned.
"Don't tell me you've found someone else to gawk at already honey?"
Tomoyo shook the feeling off.
"Don't be silly hon, so long as you keep paying for our dates, your numero uno to me, forever and always."
They smiled to each other and continued they're strole.
Still, Tomoyo looked to the place where she'd seen the man that had emitted such a familiar glow, where he no longer stood.
'Could it be...no..no way, if that were him he'd be all over Sakura 24/7 besides, whoever he was, he's gone now.'
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Sakura paced uncontrollably around her room. She turned on her radio which explained a slight rainstorm later in the day.
"Well folks, sorry to say that last night's beautiful weather will be put on hold for just a little while, we've got some refreshing rain which hasn't
graced us with it's presence in quite some time so embrace it when it comes" spoke the radio announcer.
"A storm", she exclaimed loudly.
"Last night, there was a storm, Syaoran was flying home when it hit and.."
"The plane was going to crash, his aura became faint until it disappeared completely...he died Sakura"
"Maybe...but...here's the weird part...he's alive now." Sakura spoke in an eerie yet confused tone.
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He searched and searched some more until he found himself gazing at the perfect find.
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Tomoyo did a double take as she and Eriol walked some more. Eriol looked at her confused.
"Eriol, that man over there, doesnt he remind you of.."
"Syaoran?"
They gasped in unison. Was he back?
"I can't tell, I can't see his face!"
"Tomoyo, honey, we shouldn't interfere...not yet anyway"
"Come on, I have an idea", she exclaimed gleefully.
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The day rolled on slowly, as the hours grew and still no contact from her one and only.
'Syaoran...' she thought quietly. 'Where are you? Why haven't you even called me? Why?...'
"That's it, I'm going to make the first move!"
Sakura gathered up all her courage and picked up the phone, and dialed the number that would forever be etched into her mind.
The phone rang once, twice, three times and no answer. She began twisting and fiddling with the phone cord.
'Syaoran...where are you?' she thought to herself, willing herself not to jump to any conclusions, praying for the strength not to cry.
Four. Five. Six. Seven.
She began to sob softly into the phone. Her breathing being echoed in her ears.
Eight. Nine. Ten.
It was hopeless, he was back, yes, and very much alive...but where was he? Why hadn't he called to at least say hello...Why. Why. Why...
Eleven. Twelve.
Sakura slowly lowered her hand and hung up the phone. It was passed 2pm and still, no word.
She looked out her window, something that would usually calm her nerves, and her heavy hearted spirit.
"Patience is a virtue Sakura" she heard her little friend and guardian whisper in her ear.
She nodded as if in agreement but quickly turned back to sky that seemed to be clouded by a slight shade of darkness.
"Why Syaoran...Don't you still love me?", she asked the sky as if expecting an answer.
Her answer was nothing more than tiny drops of water hitting against her window. Each droplet fell in perfect timing with her own. Had he
given up? Was he even here at all? She didn't know anymore. She was lost in thought when the silence was accompanied by a gentle melody
urged by the soft cool breeze.
Why don't you call me....
Sakura stared at the phone, willing it to ring, crying out his message, projecting his voice, speaking his words...making her fantasy her reality.
are you afraid?
What are you waiting for Syaoran? I can't understand why your so unreachable...are you doing this on purpose...do...do you want to be..left alone, do you not care for me any longer? Are you...Have you...Why....Where...I..can't understand why this is happening...are we over...did we ever begin? Why are you so apprehensive? Are you scared that I will push you away? Are you scared that you..will push ME away? Is this a plan? A scheme? Or is..there some logical explanation! I wish I knew you, I thought I knew you Syaoran..I thought I did...once...once upon a time.
Your friends all told me
You think I'm all that
It's no secret that you had feelings for me, Tomoyo used that camera of hers to get the message across! You promised you'd come back to "your" cherry blossom. You always blushed when I looked at you...was it all in my mind? But why would you have told me how you felt so long ago? Was it to ease the pain of losing you? That doesn't make sense! I need an answer Syaoran! Why can you provide me with one!? Why!?
Well it don't make sense
It's just craziness
Ooh I need to know where were at
I need to know where we stand! Where DO we stand? I know how I feel, I know I love you...but that's just me...me...Sakura..."your" cherry blossom as you have said so many times before. That dream we shared proves you love me! But that...was a while ago...I havent shared such a dream with you in such a long time....have things changed? Have YOU changed?...Have..I? Please Syaoran...where are...you?
Wondering why, you're acting this way baby
But if you truly love me, what's holding you back from my arms? Why are you so distant? Why do you not find the need to be with me? I can't understand....
Wondering why, you can't find any words to say
It's been almost an entire day and still no answer from you...no word...not even a "how are you" I dont get it...even an e mail would be sufficient, just knowing...seeing...hearing...some kind of proof that your presence is not just some figment of my imagination! I need to know Syaoran...where do we stand? Jeez. I'm talking to myself through song, I must be crazy...losing my mind! I'm head over heals for you Syaoran...
Maybe someone told you a lie
Or maybe you're just being shy
Keep wondering why...
"I can't take this anymore! Kero I'm going to find him...I need to know...where we are! I want to know...and if there is someone else...I want to know!"
Sakura left her bed room door wide open as she scurried down the stairs.
"Oh Sakura, I hope you find what your looking for...and not a broken heart...if he hurts you...so help me...not even Clow Reed himself could keep me away from tearing him apart limb to limb!"
Kero's anger subsided, concern and worry consumed him as he heard a loud rumble accompanied by a bright and blinding flash of light.
"Be safe...Sakura-chan"
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Sakura ran through the rain...unstoppable! A little rain would never cease her determination, her curiosity, her persistence...especially not when her heart was involved. This was nothing compared to what she would feel if her worst nightmare came true- losing Syaoran, the only one she ever had eyes for...her heart spoke of him night and day, nothing could tear her away from her other half...nothing...not the Clan...not some black magic...not even a natural disaster! Sakura would find him...she would!
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He ran through the rain hoping the storm would subside sometime soon, he didn't want to catch pneumonia only to give it to his beloved once his lips finally fell into hers.
"Soon Sakura...very soon.." he mumbled to himself, almost as if in reassurance that he would soon be reunited with his beloved.
"Syaoran?"
He stopped dead in his tracks as the rain poured down soaking him the bone, hair matted against his face.
"I knew it was you" she exclaimed gleefully.
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Sakura suddenly stopped for a slight breath as the rain continued to pour mercilessly.
She looked up tiredly only to see what looked like her best friend Tomoyo with...someone that wasn't Eriol.
Sakura felt concern rise up, was Tomoyo interested in someone else? Poor Eriol! Where was he anyhow?
Sakura tried to go in for a closer look only to realize that the man Tomoyo was with was none other than her Little Wolf, Syaoran Li...
Her heart sank to the ground slowly being drowned in tears mixing with the rain and dirt.
Could it be that night, on the phone, that although she was with Eriol...that perhaps Tomoyo was truly referring to Syaoran afterall? NO! Never! Not Tomoyo...Never Tomoyo! No!
Sakura gazed at the now laughing Syaoran who seemed so content where he sat.
Tears filled her eyes.
"Be happy...my love...no matter who your with...no matter where you are...I will always...love you.."
Sakura ran back the way she came, she knew now...she knew. For a second, for a brief moment...she could have sworn she stole a glance from the almighty Syaoran...
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Syaoran's laughter subsided as he gazed out the window towards a girl who had a familiar glow to her.
"To..Tomoyo...excuse me for a brief moment"
'That had to have been Sakura! I know it was her! Dammit! What if...what if she thinks Tomoyo and I are..no, hell no!'
He ran towards the place where the girl once stood only to be greeted with rain, dirt and footprints that could have been from anyone. She was gone.
'Maybe that wasn't her...why didn't I sense her aura? Wait...maybe..maybe I did but I didn't realize it..'
"Syaoran, come back inside, it's raining pretty hard!"
"Actually Tomoyo...if you don't mind I need to get home and .."
"Well hang on a second I ll go with ya! Your gonna need an extra set of hands afterall."
Syaoran smiled a bit, he knew Tomoyo had plans to make tonight perfect...the perfect matchmaker...
"Tomoyo?"
"Yes?" she replied happily, eager and almost hyper!
"Thanks for always being there to uh "help" I guess...you know with me and Sakura.."
Tomoyo giggled, "No problemo! Sakura is too kawaii! Especially when she's all dreamy about her little wolf heheh hahahah"
Syaoran sweatdropped for a moment but realized, what was the harm in her having so much fun anyway?
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Sakura ran breathlessly through the relentless rain. She got her answers...ones she wasn't too fond of...but answers none the less.
Why when you see me
You pretend I'm not there
But when I see your eyes
Somehow you seem to care
When she stood outside the window, in the bleak weather she couldn't help but feel his eyes on her even for a brief second, she just...knew he saw her..he must have seen her. She ran and ran some more as the rain poured over her, urging her to give up and just cry. Tomoyo was her best friend....Syaoran..her love...why would they..HOW could they betray her in such a way? Was that his reason for not contacting her upon his arrival? Perhaps he loathed the sight of her, maybe she made him doubt her...why Syaoran...why....'I could have sworn that in that brief second where our eyes met, in that split second...during that blink of an eye second...I saw ...love...perhaps something even deeper in his eyes....didn't I? No. Probably only shock, nothing more..it was over...over...over...
Unbelievable..
"Tomoyo! Syaoran WHY? HOW COULD YOU DO THIS TO ME!" she managed to scream to the cloud filled sky, only to be greeted with more rain, thunder and a bright, blinding flash of lightning..
Inconceivable..
"I can't accept that my best friend, and my boyfriend would do this to me! No! They would...have told me! Why would she do this to Eriol? God! Help me understand!"
She fell onto the cold hard cement as the rain continued to pour, washing away the salty tears she had shed urging them to continue the ultimate journey down the cherry blossom's face. The pain was too great, the loss too hurtful...the betrayers...the betrayers were once people she knew as friends...
Need to know if we're going anywhere....
Pain. Despair. Lonliness. All she felt were sentiments of hatred and yes even jealousy, she had lost the one person that made her feel special....the one person she would wait an eternity for...'I never knew happiness for him would be with her...'
Wondering why, you're acting this way baby..
Suddenly a figure approached her from behind with an inquisitive look plastered on his face.
"Sakura? What's the matter?"
She looked up weakly to be greeted with a look of concern in her friend's eyes.
"Eriol kun...I..uh..There is something you need to know". He looked at her confused. "It's about Tomoyo...". Eriol's face grew pale, was his love in danger?. "Eriol...she's in love with someone else..." Eriol's eyes grew wide with hurt and astonishment, before he could reply or deny her accusations she continued. "She betrayed us both Eriol kun...she's in love with Syaoran....and he feels the same for her...I saw...them together, laughing....in the restaurant..and..". Eriol's fear subsided and breathed a breath of relief.
Wondering why, you can't find any words to say..
"Sakura, yes that was Syaoran but..they are not in love..." he spoke in a voice of certanty. Sakura's face lighted up with a flicker of hope. If what Eriol was getting at was true, why had Syaoran hesitated to speak to her...why did n't he bother to say a word...why....why...why...
"Sakura I was with them at first..." Sakura's eyes grew wide with curiosity. Eriol began to tell his tale as he helped Sakura up to her feet leading her to a form of shelter from the rain."You see Sakura, Tomoyo and I were taking a nice walk together when she kept eyeing someone....."
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"Tomoyo chan who do you keep looking for...or at..." Eriol asked inquisitively.
"Oh Eriol kun it's still that guy over there who reminds me so much of him...it has to be Syaoran...it must be! Come on lets follow him shall we?"
Eriol sighed and nodded. They kept a close tab on the man watching his every move, sure enough he turned on his heel as if sensing someone's gaze. There, he was, standing tall, looking just as he did long ago with a greater sense of maturity. He looked around suspisciously, as if he had something to hide. Tomoyo and Eriol watched from a secluded area hidden from Syaoran's view. Eventually he turned back and walked away smile widening with each stride.
"It IS Syaoran! I bet he and Sakura are planning a special evening" spoke Tomoyo with stars in her eyes. "Come on we need to go talk to him!" She exclaimed pulling Eriol along with her.
Suddenly Syaoran heard a voice and turned to see who had called him.
"Syaoran! I knew it was you!"
"Tomoyo!" he smiled at his friend whom he hadnt seen in quite awhile. Not too far behind Eriol walked over extending his hand with a smile, "Welcome back Syaoran". The two smiled and hugged.
"Come on guys, it's started to rain, I dont want my new camera here to get wet!"
Syaoran, Tomoyo and Eriol ran inside a nice looking restaurant and began to catch up. At the same time Syaoran's mind was filled with thoughts of Sakura and how tonight would be the perfect evening. 'Perfect...just like you Sakura..'
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"A few minutes later I had to go, I left Tomoyo and Syaoran in the restaurant catching up. At one point he started to talk about you Sakura and about how much he loved you, how much he couldn't wait to see you. "
Maybe someone told you a lie
Or maybe you're just being shy
"Well...then why didn't he bother to call me, to say anything to me, I havent heard from him."
"Dunno Sakura, but I do know he's got something up his sleeve for ya, and I dont think you'll wanna miss it! Tomoyo is in on it, shhh dont tell em I told you anything! Besides maybe he's shy or something, but he does love you and is IN love with you trust me!"
"Still Eriol kun, it sounds too perfect! I'm going to keep wondering why..."
Eriol nodded and snickered in his mind, 'soon Sakura all your dreams are going to come true'
"Come on Sakura, I ll take you to Syaoran's." he smiled as he quickly stole a glance at his watch. 'The time is almost right, Syaoran you better be ready!'
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Eriol escorted Sakura to his car as they slowly drove to their destination. He flicked on the radio to drown out the sounds of the storm outside.
"Well it don't make sense, it's just craziness. Ooh I need to know where were at.."
Sakura stared at the car radio and wondered, 'why would'nt he at least tell me he loved me...but I trust him, I trust Eriol, I trust...Tomoyo..what was I thinking! But still..why wouldn't anyone call me to tell me he had arrived! Maybe all this is true, they were planning a surprise of some kind..'
Wondering why, you're acting this way baby...
Wondering why, you can't find any words to say..
Maybe someone told you a lie..
Or maybe you're just being shy...
The car stopped, they had arrived. Soon enough silence filled the vehicle. The rain still poured furosiously outside.
"Come on Sakura, your future is right in there", Eriol said with a smirk. Something was going on...was Syaoran planning something special for the two of them...was there a point to this...there must be...there has to be! But...maybe not..
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"Syaoran will you STOP pacing! Everything is ready, Eriol should be here with her any minute now, don't fret."
Syaoran smiled at his friend who always tried to reassure him. Here he was 22 years old, acting like a child once again. But this was the moment of truth, this WAS the truth, he loved Sakura with his whole heart! If anything should happen to destroy the evening, would he ever find such courage again? He twiddled with his thumbs, pacing back and forth.
"What time is it Tomoyo!?"
"The same time it was the last time you asked, 5 o clock, she'll be here, it will be a magical evening trust me!" she replied smiling at her friend warmly. "There is no need to be so nervous, just have a good time I know she will."
"But I dont want to fall over you know! It would be so embarasing! I mean what can I do to prepare myself!? Tomoyo chan, I appreciate all your kind, reassuring words but my heart is beating so fast, my knees are weak, my tie feels so tight around my neck..."
"Stop figiting oready! God! You haven't changed Syaoran, still the same child you always were", she sighed in exasperation.
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Sakura and Eriol made there way out of the car, through the horrible storm and walked to the front door. Sakura turned the knob excited yet apprehensive.
"Go on Sakura, go on in..." Eriol whispered encouragingly.
As she walked into the house that felt oh so familiar she let out a sigh of relief. She walked to the dinning room where Eriol instructed her to go. Slowly but surely she made her way to the dinning room and stopped dead in her tracks...
"I love you. Will you marry me?", he said it so melodically, so beautifully she started to cry. She felt her heart jump into her throat, she couldn't breathe. She needed air. She used what little courage she had left and said, "Syaoran! HOW COULD YOU!?" Sakura ran out of the room, out of the house in a blink of an eye. Syaoran turned his attention to where she stood and cried out, "Sakura! NO! It's not what it looks like!" Syaoran got up from his kneeling position and felt his heart shatter into thousands of pieces! "No...Sakura...", he yelled out again and bolted for the door leaving Tomoyo standing, tears in her eyes, concern apparent in them. "Oh Eriol...what have I done?!"
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Sakura ran faster and faster through the woods, tears streaming down her face. She felt betrayed, she was mortified to see Syaoran..proposing to her best friend! When did he develop these feelings for Tomoyo! How was she so blind!? WHY? WHY? WHY?!
'I loved you Syaoran and you ripped my heart out of my chest. This pain is so unbearable!'
Wondering why, you're acting this way baby...
She ran deeper and deeper into the woods, to her everything looked the same, just trees and more trees surrounding her. The wind howled at her, blowing her hair our of her face, it was as though it was laughing at her, trying to pull her back to the house to see her love with her best friend. The thunderous beat yelled at her, it was her fault, all her fault for falling in love, she should have known better after what had happened with Yukito. Why did she never learn from her mistakes!?
Wondering why, you can't find any words to say...
"Sakura! Sakura wait! Stop!" she heard him yell at her from behind. Stop? Why stop? He wanted to stomp on her soul now too?
Maybe someone told you a lie..
"Leave me alone Syaoran!" Sakura cried painfully while the bright lightning guided her way.
Or maybe you're just being shy..
"Sakura no! STOP! STOP!!!!!" he yelled after her but it was too late.
She screamed as she tried to shield herself from the knowing impact which would surely crush her...the impact that would soon set her free...
"SAKURA!!!!", was the last sound she heard as she felt herself meet the ground. She recalled thinking to herself, 'thank you..for setting me free..' the final tears fell from her eyes, all the pain, all the anguish...it would soon be over all over...but would she ever get her answers? Maybe...maybe not....it was all over now...all over..
Keep wondering why...
...IM SORRRRRYEEEEEEEEEEEE for the cliff hanger lol. Ya know I love you all lol. R&R PLZ! NO FLAMES! ...
you reviewers. Why may be the concluding chapter for my m2m songfic series..lemme know what u think.
Why
Why. She found herself asking this question throughout the entire day. Why. After all that had happened, why was this happening? Why.
She yearned for answers, she longed for his touch but dared not give into her constant urges... What had changed things so completely? She could hear faint noises, sounds that seemed
so far away yet she felt the owners oh so near. Ah yes, they were all there...HE was there amongst them. In fact, his voice seemed to be so
pained, so sad....misery spoke to her through him, he sounded lost, like a little boy in a dark room with no guidance. She could hear disbelief
along with the pain, along with such a degree of fear that had manifested itself from deep concern. Not love. He was so far now...so very far...Distance...
too far...Separated. Never to be reunited, for it was now forbidden. Alone. Never able to be truly happy with anyone else. Impossible.
Only wishful thinking, nothing more, nothing less. Darkness. No guiding lights to warm her cold, unbeating heart. Despair. Pain. Heartache. Not even love could chase such horrors away. A Nightmare. One that she would never arise from.
It was as though they shared a heart, they were one almost, because she knew on some level he felt them just as deep.
Although, now everything was different, love...what was love? Just a word. Just a word that she had a distaste for.
Was it love that did this to her? Was this love? Voices. So distant now, almost faint whispers in the quiet wind. Serenity. She was calm. So very calm.
She felt almost content. Almost perfect. Almost free....almost...ALMOST complete...she was missing something in this utopia. A part of her,
an empty part of her knew what it lacked, but the rest of her denied such a request. Why. Was that all she could think of? Soon enough,
tears made their way down her cheeks, pain made it's way to heart, loneliness found a home in the depths of her soul.
Her eyes fluttered open for a moment, finally able to see the voices, finally able to pose her pained question...finally able to grasp the truth..
"W...h....y?"
Maybe he would answer her in time...maybe...or maybe not..
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That night something so very peculiar had happened, and yet she could not remember what had occured. She sat on the ground. Why there?
She felt as though amnesia flooded her system. What had happened? Why. Why was she here, with..with a tear stained face, on the ground in a heep...on the ground..on the ground in the middle of her bedroom.
She looked all around her, she remembered a sensation she knew all too well creep up on her, a warm, calm, serene sensation. One that surely brought happiness to her heavy heart. Were these tears of joy? No. These tears held the answers to her questions.
She could remember gazing up at the stairs, her heart wishing upon them, her soul soaring high carefree and hopeful. She could recall
feelings exploding all around her not all of which brought her joy. Why. Was there a pain she failed to see at this moment, that once consumed her entire world? She looked to her bedroom door as if it would provide
her with the answers she was seeking. It was as though she could see herself leave the room upset. She looked back to the ground as if in rememberance, a sad recollection. She looked to the sky yet again, as if expecting to see omnious
glances from the sky above. She was confused. She was lost in her own thoughts. Something had happened that night that had scared her, made her heart shatter into black, cold, forgotten pieces onto the ground. Pain. Despair. Those were so friendly to her.
She held her head in her hands in confusion. She wanted to cry....she wanted to die...such pain...such agony...Why? Cry. Die. Alone. Afraid.
Pain. Heartache. Heavy hearted. Where were all these feelings coming from!? What could there possibly be to make her feel so hopeless, lost, without a reason to live.
Her head jerked up in realization. There was only one thing that could have such an effect on her. Only HE had such power. She felt instant concern, she feared the worst.
Pain, despair, fear, awareness all came crashing down on her, was that it? Her love, her other half, was his life in danger? Tears began to gather in her eyes when suddenly she was overcame with relief. She felt warm and safe, her lips curved into a smile.
After all this time. After so many years. After everything that had managed to separate him from her, the day had finally arrived. He was home. His aura, strong, comforting, determined, happy, pure...anxious, nervous yet in controle
She smiled to herself. Her little wolf was on his way back into the arms where he belonged.
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"Welcome to Japan"
His eyes fluttered open. Confusion plastered all over his face. They had landed. Had he been dreaming? No. It was real, it had to have been.
He could smell the fear that was once apparent throughout the craft. He could see tear stained faces that were now lost in happiness and
exhaustion from the flight as they prepared to embark the world outside. They all just got up and walked to the doors, walking past his still form as he sat bewildered in his seat. Things didn't add up.
He felt the severity of concern in the captain's voice not too long ago, he felt the plane shake uncontrollably, he could have sworn that one of the wings of that plane had ripped off at some point.
He searched for any indication that he hadn't lost his mind, that he hadn't fused his imagination into reality. Something was off. He looked out his window only to see the plane intacked.
It was as though nothing had happened, but he knew better. He recalled feeling pain and dissapointment, knowing he would never let eyes on his cherry blossom again. He could still feel the
pain in his heart thinking of how much she would cry over him. He remembered being scared, Syaoran Li afraid for his own life, a feeling that felt oh so rare to him.
He remembered praying so profusely, he remembered feeling a sense of loss. He recalled the screams of the innocent passengers ringing in his ears, but..why?
He knew something had saved him...perhaps even..someone yet no one showed any sign of recollection or confusion. Turmoil had occured yet there were no reprocussions. His head jerked up in anticipation, could it be possible, could her powers have grown to that extent, did she will his safety?
He smiled to himself, if so, that must mean she still loved him...maybe it wasn't too late, maybe it never would be too late. His cherry blossom...his beautiful Sakura had saved him.
He wanted to contact her immediately. He looked to consult his watch when he realized it was cracked, irreperable damage. It read 3am. He furrowed his brow. He was soon recalled to life when he felt someone tap him on the shoulder.
"Sir, we have landed, I'm sure you are eager to explore Japan."
He nodded with a smile as he got up and headed for the exit he looked back to the attendent.
"Excuse me miss, what time is it?"
"6am" she replied with a smile. However Syaoran's confusion did not go unoticed.
"Is everything alright sir?"
Syaoran just nodded and decided not to question what had happened any longer. Recalling his mission, now filled with determination and persistence he started to leave.
"Sakura" he whispered into the wind as he felt the ground meet his feet. He was home despite the confusion, the awe...he was home. His home which he would never leave again.
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Sakura's eyes fluttered open, his aura felt so close. She found herself on her bed, when did she fall asleep? She looked to her clock which read 10am.
'Oh my gosh! I have to go to...wait...no I don't...its Saturday. She sighed in relief. But was soon consumed with worry, shouldnt he have contacted her by now? Surely he's back, his aura is twice as strong as it had been before.
Sakura sighed in exasperation. Where was he? What was taking him so long? She was anxious to be reunited with her soul mate, with the one thing that would always complete her.
She could feel him nearing yet it seemed as though he was searching for something...but what?
"Syaoran...I know your back, I can sense your presence...so...where are you? Why haven't you bothered to contact me?"
Suddenly there was movement from under the covers.
"Sakura...huh?"
"Kero?"
Kero scratched his head in confusion. Why wasn't he in his drawer?
"That's....strange." He said groggily as he starred at Sakura in confusion. "I could have sworn I was sad...about...something...". He shrugged it off assuming it was a dream.
He flew to open the bedroom door when it hit him like a ton of bricks. It had happened. His mistress was in deep pain about something...someone...
Something changed that...
He turned the door knob and headed towards the bathroom. There, on the ground lay a razor blade. Kero's eyes widened with realization.
"It happened, Sakura...Sy..Syaoran...Sakura wanted to...die...Syaoran was...dead...but...I sense...his aura? Could it be?"
"Kero? Whats the.."
Her eyes starred at the razor which lay on the ground. Death. Pain. Syaoran.
"Kero, we were here...right here...last night...Syaoran was on a plane...some...disturbance...some...thing...turmoil...crash the plane..it was real."
Kero flew to his mistress.
"Sakura, I sense.."
"Syaoran...is alive Kero...He didn't die..He's here in Japan..something saved him."
Kero looked up to his mistress, his friend and smiled. "You did Sakura".
Sakura shook her head. "I didnt do anything Kero...really". His smile faded. This wasnt what was originally intended to happen. Syaoran was suppose to die in that plane crash. Kero thought to himself.
Was he saved by a mere miracle? There is no way Sakura could have saved him...right?
"Expect the unexpected".
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Syaoran continued his search relentlessly. It would have to be perfect, unforgettable, tonight would be one hell of a night. A night which would mark
a whole new beginning.
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Together, the love birds walked hand in hand. They had been spending every day with each other. Nothing would ever tear them apart from each other, they had survived so much. The pair was inseparable.
Eriol smiled lovingly as his lips neared hers. They met in a sweet, gentle yet passionate kiss.
"Eriol, I love you so much" Tomoyo whispered in his ear.
"I love you too Tomoyo-chan" he replied.
Suddenly she looked straight ahead and saw a man distressed, as if searching for something. There was something so familiar about him, something so recognizable.
Eriol frowned.
"Don't tell me you've found someone else to gawk at already honey?"
Tomoyo shook the feeling off.
"Don't be silly hon, so long as you keep paying for our dates, your numero uno to me, forever and always."
They smiled to each other and continued they're strole.
Still, Tomoyo looked to the place where she'd seen the man that had emitted such a familiar glow, where he no longer stood.
'Could it be...no..no way, if that were him he'd be all over Sakura 24/7 besides, whoever he was, he's gone now.'
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Sakura paced uncontrollably around her room. She turned on her radio which explained a slight rainstorm later in the day.
"Well folks, sorry to say that last night's beautiful weather will be put on hold for just a little while, we've got some refreshing rain which hasn't
graced us with it's presence in quite some time so embrace it when it comes" spoke the radio announcer.
"A storm", she exclaimed loudly.
"Last night, there was a storm, Syaoran was flying home when it hit and.."
"The plane was going to crash, his aura became faint until it disappeared completely...he died Sakura"
"Maybe...but...here's the weird part...he's alive now." Sakura spoke in an eerie yet confused tone.
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He searched and searched some more until he found himself gazing at the perfect find.
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Tomoyo did a double take as she and Eriol walked some more. Eriol looked at her confused.
"Eriol, that man over there, doesnt he remind you of.."
"Syaoran?"
They gasped in unison. Was he back?
"I can't tell, I can't see his face!"
"Tomoyo, honey, we shouldn't interfere...not yet anyway"
"Come on, I have an idea", she exclaimed gleefully.
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The day rolled on slowly, as the hours grew and still no contact from her one and only.
'Syaoran...' she thought quietly. 'Where are you? Why haven't you even called me? Why?...'
"That's it, I'm going to make the first move!"
Sakura gathered up all her courage and picked up the phone, and dialed the number that would forever be etched into her mind.
The phone rang once, twice, three times and no answer. She began twisting and fiddling with the phone cord.
'Syaoran...where are you?' she thought to herself, willing herself not to jump to any conclusions, praying for the strength not to cry.
Four. Five. Six. Seven.
She began to sob softly into the phone. Her breathing being echoed in her ears.
Eight. Nine. Ten.
It was hopeless, he was back, yes, and very much alive...but where was he? Why hadn't he called to at least say hello...Why. Why. Why...
Eleven. Twelve.
Sakura slowly lowered her hand and hung up the phone. It was passed 2pm and still, no word.
She looked out her window, something that would usually calm her nerves, and her heavy hearted spirit.
"Patience is a virtue Sakura" she heard her little friend and guardian whisper in her ear.
She nodded as if in agreement but quickly turned back to sky that seemed to be clouded by a slight shade of darkness.
"Why Syaoran...Don't you still love me?", she asked the sky as if expecting an answer.
Her answer was nothing more than tiny drops of water hitting against her window. Each droplet fell in perfect timing with her own. Had he
given up? Was he even here at all? She didn't know anymore. She was lost in thought when the silence was accompanied by a gentle melody
urged by the soft cool breeze.
Why don't you call me....
Sakura stared at the phone, willing it to ring, crying out his message, projecting his voice, speaking his words...making her fantasy her reality.
are you afraid?
What are you waiting for Syaoran? I can't understand why your so unreachable...are you doing this on purpose...do...do you want to be..left alone, do you not care for me any longer? Are you...Have you...Why....Where...I..can't understand why this is happening...are we over...did we ever begin? Why are you so apprehensive? Are you scared that I will push you away? Are you scared that you..will push ME away? Is this a plan? A scheme? Or is..there some logical explanation! I wish I knew you, I thought I knew you Syaoran..I thought I did...once...once upon a time.
Your friends all told me
You think I'm all that
It's no secret that you had feelings for me, Tomoyo used that camera of hers to get the message across! You promised you'd come back to "your" cherry blossom. You always blushed when I looked at you...was it all in my mind? But why would you have told me how you felt so long ago? Was it to ease the pain of losing you? That doesn't make sense! I need an answer Syaoran! Why can you provide me with one!? Why!?
Well it don't make sense
It's just craziness
Ooh I need to know where were at
I need to know where we stand! Where DO we stand? I know how I feel, I know I love you...but that's just me...me...Sakura..."your" cherry blossom as you have said so many times before. That dream we shared proves you love me! But that...was a while ago...I havent shared such a dream with you in such a long time....have things changed? Have YOU changed?...Have..I? Please Syaoran...where are...you?
Wondering why, you're acting this way baby
But if you truly love me, what's holding you back from my arms? Why are you so distant? Why do you not find the need to be with me? I can't understand....
Wondering why, you can't find any words to say
It's been almost an entire day and still no answer from you...no word...not even a "how are you" I dont get it...even an e mail would be sufficient, just knowing...seeing...hearing...some kind of proof that your presence is not just some figment of my imagination! I need to know Syaoran...where do we stand? Jeez. I'm talking to myself through song, I must be crazy...losing my mind! I'm head over heals for you Syaoran...
Maybe someone told you a lie
Or maybe you're just being shy
Keep wondering why...
"I can't take this anymore! Kero I'm going to find him...I need to know...where we are! I want to know...and if there is someone else...I want to know!"
Sakura left her bed room door wide open as she scurried down the stairs.
"Oh Sakura, I hope you find what your looking for...and not a broken heart...if he hurts you...so help me...not even Clow Reed himself could keep me away from tearing him apart limb to limb!"
Kero's anger subsided, concern and worry consumed him as he heard a loud rumble accompanied by a bright and blinding flash of light.
"Be safe...Sakura-chan"
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Sakura ran through the rain...unstoppable! A little rain would never cease her determination, her curiosity, her persistence...especially not when her heart was involved. This was nothing compared to what she would feel if her worst nightmare came true- losing Syaoran, the only one she ever had eyes for...her heart spoke of him night and day, nothing could tear her away from her other half...nothing...not the Clan...not some black magic...not even a natural disaster! Sakura would find him...she would!
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He ran through the rain hoping the storm would subside sometime soon, he didn't want to catch pneumonia only to give it to his beloved once his lips finally fell into hers.
"Soon Sakura...very soon.." he mumbled to himself, almost as if in reassurance that he would soon be reunited with his beloved.
"Syaoran?"
He stopped dead in his tracks as the rain poured down soaking him the bone, hair matted against his face.
"I knew it was you" she exclaimed gleefully.
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Sakura suddenly stopped for a slight breath as the rain continued to pour mercilessly.
She looked up tiredly only to see what looked like her best friend Tomoyo with...someone that wasn't Eriol.
Sakura felt concern rise up, was Tomoyo interested in someone else? Poor Eriol! Where was he anyhow?
Sakura tried to go in for a closer look only to realize that the man Tomoyo was with was none other than her Little Wolf, Syaoran Li...
Her heart sank to the ground slowly being drowned in tears mixing with the rain and dirt.
Could it be that night, on the phone, that although she was with Eriol...that perhaps Tomoyo was truly referring to Syaoran afterall? NO! Never! Not Tomoyo...Never Tomoyo! No!
Sakura gazed at the now laughing Syaoran who seemed so content where he sat.
Tears filled her eyes.
"Be happy...my love...no matter who your with...no matter where you are...I will always...love you.."
Sakura ran back the way she came, she knew now...she knew. For a second, for a brief moment...she could have sworn she stole a glance from the almighty Syaoran...
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Syaoran's laughter subsided as he gazed out the window towards a girl who had a familiar glow to her.
"To..Tomoyo...excuse me for a brief moment"
'That had to have been Sakura! I know it was her! Dammit! What if...what if she thinks Tomoyo and I are..no, hell no!'
He ran towards the place where the girl once stood only to be greeted with rain, dirt and footprints that could have been from anyone. She was gone.
'Maybe that wasn't her...why didn't I sense her aura? Wait...maybe..maybe I did but I didn't realize it..'
"Syaoran, come back inside, it's raining pretty hard!"
"Actually Tomoyo...if you don't mind I need to get home and .."
"Well hang on a second I ll go with ya! Your gonna need an extra set of hands afterall."
Syaoran smiled a bit, he knew Tomoyo had plans to make tonight perfect...the perfect matchmaker...
"Tomoyo?"
"Yes?" she replied happily, eager and almost hyper!
"Thanks for always being there to uh "help" I guess...you know with me and Sakura.."
Tomoyo giggled, "No problemo! Sakura is too kawaii! Especially when she's all dreamy about her little wolf heheh hahahah"
Syaoran sweatdropped for a moment but realized, what was the harm in her having so much fun anyway?
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Sakura ran breathlessly through the relentless rain. She got her answers...ones she wasn't too fond of...but answers none the less.
Why when you see me
You pretend I'm not there
But when I see your eyes
Somehow you seem to care
When she stood outside the window, in the bleak weather she couldn't help but feel his eyes on her even for a brief second, she just...knew he saw her..he must have seen her. She ran and ran some more as the rain poured over her, urging her to give up and just cry. Tomoyo was her best friend....Syaoran..her love...why would they..HOW could they betray her in such a way? Was that his reason for not contacting her upon his arrival? Perhaps he loathed the sight of her, maybe she made him doubt her...why Syaoran...why....'I could have sworn that in that brief second where our eyes met, in that split second...during that blink of an eye second...I saw ...love...perhaps something even deeper in his eyes....didn't I? No. Probably only shock, nothing more..it was over...over...over...
Unbelievable..
"Tomoyo! Syaoran WHY? HOW COULD YOU DO THIS TO ME!" she managed to scream to the cloud filled sky, only to be greeted with more rain, thunder and a bright, blinding flash of lightning..
Inconceivable..
"I can't accept that my best friend, and my boyfriend would do this to me! No! They would...have told me! Why would she do this to Eriol? God! Help me understand!"
She fell onto the cold hard cement as the rain continued to pour, washing away the salty tears she had shed urging them to continue the ultimate journey down the cherry blossom's face. The pain was too great, the loss too hurtful...the betrayers...the betrayers were once people she knew as friends...
Need to know if we're going anywhere....
Pain. Despair. Lonliness. All she felt were sentiments of hatred and yes even jealousy, she had lost the one person that made her feel special....the one person she would wait an eternity for...'I never knew happiness for him would be with her...'
Wondering why, you're acting this way baby..
Suddenly a figure approached her from behind with an inquisitive look plastered on his face.
"Sakura? What's the matter?"
She looked up weakly to be greeted with a look of concern in her friend's eyes.
"Eriol kun...I..uh..There is something you need to know". He looked at her confused. "It's about Tomoyo...". Eriol's face grew pale, was his love in danger?. "Eriol...she's in love with someone else..." Eriol's eyes grew wide with hurt and astonishment, before he could reply or deny her accusations she continued. "She betrayed us both Eriol kun...she's in love with Syaoran....and he feels the same for her...I saw...them together, laughing....in the restaurant..and..". Eriol's fear subsided and breathed a breath of relief.
Wondering why, you can't find any words to say..
"Sakura, yes that was Syaoran but..they are not in love..." he spoke in a voice of certanty. Sakura's face lighted up with a flicker of hope. If what Eriol was getting at was true, why had Syaoran hesitated to speak to her...why did n't he bother to say a word...why....why...why...
"Sakura I was with them at first..." Sakura's eyes grew wide with curiosity. Eriol began to tell his tale as he helped Sakura up to her feet leading her to a form of shelter from the rain."You see Sakura, Tomoyo and I were taking a nice walk together when she kept eyeing someone....."
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"Tomoyo chan who do you keep looking for...or at..." Eriol asked inquisitively.
"Oh Eriol kun it's still that guy over there who reminds me so much of him...it has to be Syaoran...it must be! Come on lets follow him shall we?"
Eriol sighed and nodded. They kept a close tab on the man watching his every move, sure enough he turned on his heel as if sensing someone's gaze. There, he was, standing tall, looking just as he did long ago with a greater sense of maturity. He looked around suspisciously, as if he had something to hide. Tomoyo and Eriol watched from a secluded area hidden from Syaoran's view. Eventually he turned back and walked away smile widening with each stride.
"It IS Syaoran! I bet he and Sakura are planning a special evening" spoke Tomoyo with stars in her eyes. "Come on we need to go talk to him!" She exclaimed pulling Eriol along with her.
Suddenly Syaoran heard a voice and turned to see who had called him.
"Syaoran! I knew it was you!"
"Tomoyo!" he smiled at his friend whom he hadnt seen in quite awhile. Not too far behind Eriol walked over extending his hand with a smile, "Welcome back Syaoran". The two smiled and hugged.
"Come on guys, it's started to rain, I dont want my new camera here to get wet!"
Syaoran, Tomoyo and Eriol ran inside a nice looking restaurant and began to catch up. At the same time Syaoran's mind was filled with thoughts of Sakura and how tonight would be the perfect evening. 'Perfect...just like you Sakura..'
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"A few minutes later I had to go, I left Tomoyo and Syaoran in the restaurant catching up. At one point he started to talk about you Sakura and about how much he loved you, how much he couldn't wait to see you. "
Maybe someone told you a lie
Or maybe you're just being shy
"Well...then why didn't he bother to call me, to say anything to me, I havent heard from him."
"Dunno Sakura, but I do know he's got something up his sleeve for ya, and I dont think you'll wanna miss it! Tomoyo is in on it, shhh dont tell em I told you anything! Besides maybe he's shy or something, but he does love you and is IN love with you trust me!"
"Still Eriol kun, it sounds too perfect! I'm going to keep wondering why..."
Eriol nodded and snickered in his mind, 'soon Sakura all your dreams are going to come true'
"Come on Sakura, I ll take you to Syaoran's." he smiled as he quickly stole a glance at his watch. 'The time is almost right, Syaoran you better be ready!'
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Eriol escorted Sakura to his car as they slowly drove to their destination. He flicked on the radio to drown out the sounds of the storm outside.
"Well it don't make sense, it's just craziness. Ooh I need to know where were at.."
Sakura stared at the car radio and wondered, 'why would'nt he at least tell me he loved me...but I trust him, I trust Eriol, I trust...Tomoyo..what was I thinking! But still..why wouldn't anyone call me to tell me he had arrived! Maybe all this is true, they were planning a surprise of some kind..'
Wondering why, you're acting this way baby...
Wondering why, you can't find any words to say..
Maybe someone told you a lie..
Or maybe you're just being shy...
The car stopped, they had arrived. Soon enough silence filled the vehicle. The rain still poured furosiously outside.
"Come on Sakura, your future is right in there", Eriol said with a smirk. Something was going on...was Syaoran planning something special for the two of them...was there a point to this...there must be...there has to be! But...maybe not..
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"Syaoran will you STOP pacing! Everything is ready, Eriol should be here with her any minute now, don't fret."
Syaoran smiled at his friend who always tried to reassure him. Here he was 22 years old, acting like a child once again. But this was the moment of truth, this WAS the truth, he loved Sakura with his whole heart! If anything should happen to destroy the evening, would he ever find such courage again? He twiddled with his thumbs, pacing back and forth.
"What time is it Tomoyo!?"
"The same time it was the last time you asked, 5 o clock, she'll be here, it will be a magical evening trust me!" she replied smiling at her friend warmly. "There is no need to be so nervous, just have a good time I know she will."
"But I dont want to fall over you know! It would be so embarasing! I mean what can I do to prepare myself!? Tomoyo chan, I appreciate all your kind, reassuring words but my heart is beating so fast, my knees are weak, my tie feels so tight around my neck..."
"Stop figiting oready! God! You haven't changed Syaoran, still the same child you always were", she sighed in exasperation.
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Sakura and Eriol made there way out of the car, through the horrible storm and walked to the front door. Sakura turned the knob excited yet apprehensive.
"Go on Sakura, go on in..." Eriol whispered encouragingly.
As she walked into the house that felt oh so familiar she let out a sigh of relief. She walked to the dinning room where Eriol instructed her to go. Slowly but surely she made her way to the dinning room and stopped dead in her tracks...
"I love you. Will you marry me?", he said it so melodically, so beautifully she started to cry. She felt her heart jump into her throat, she couldn't breathe. She needed air. She used what little courage she had left and said, "Syaoran! HOW COULD YOU!?" Sakura ran out of the room, out of the house in a blink of an eye. Syaoran turned his attention to where she stood and cried out, "Sakura! NO! It's not what it looks like!" Syaoran got up from his kneeling position and felt his heart shatter into thousands of pieces! "No...Sakura...", he yelled out again and bolted for the door leaving Tomoyo standing, tears in her eyes, concern apparent in them. "Oh Eriol...what have I done?!"
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Sakura ran faster and faster through the woods, tears streaming down her face. She felt betrayed, she was mortified to see Syaoran..proposing to her best friend! When did he develop these feelings for Tomoyo! How was she so blind!? WHY? WHY? WHY?!
'I loved you Syaoran and you ripped my heart out of my chest. This pain is so unbearable!'
Wondering why, you're acting this way baby...
She ran deeper and deeper into the woods, to her everything looked the same, just trees and more trees surrounding her. The wind howled at her, blowing her hair our of her face, it was as though it was laughing at her, trying to pull her back to the house to see her love with her best friend. The thunderous beat yelled at her, it was her fault, all her fault for falling in love, she should have known better after what had happened with Yukito. Why did she never learn from her mistakes!?
Wondering why, you can't find any words to say...
"Sakura! Sakura wait! Stop!" she heard him yell at her from behind. Stop? Why stop? He wanted to stomp on her soul now too?
Maybe someone told you a lie..
"Leave me alone Syaoran!" Sakura cried painfully while the bright lightning guided her way.
Or maybe you're just being shy..
"Sakura no! STOP! STOP!!!!!" he yelled after her but it was too late.
She screamed as she tried to shield herself from the knowing impact which would surely crush her...the impact that would soon set her free...
"SAKURA!!!!", was the last sound she heard as she felt herself meet the ground. She recalled thinking to herself, 'thank you..for setting me free..' the final tears fell from her eyes, all the pain, all the anguish...it would soon be over all over...but would she ever get her answers? Maybe...maybe not....it was all over now...all over..
Keep wondering why...
...IM SORRRRRYEEEEEEEEEEEE for the cliff hanger lol. Ya know I love you all lol. R&R PLZ! NO FLAMES! ...