Courage and friendship, my crests. Sometimes I don't seem to deserve them. I really don't even have the courage to tell my real love that I love him. Yes a him. The child of hope. Takeru or Tk as he prefers to be called. I make everyone think I like Kari. I could never tell Tk the truth.

            I know Vermont. I should tell him, but I am too scared to. He could reject me, call me names or even stop being my friend. I couldn't stand to lose him in any way.

            What? Oh yeah. I have to meet the others soon. I don't want to be late. Come on Veemon.

            Tk was looking delicious today. I wanted to kiss him so bad, but I couldn't with the others there. Take-chan, if only you knew the truth about me. I would die if you did. I would die from embarrassment.

            Tk! Why are you here? You heard what I said, didn't you? Please don't hate me. I couldn't live if you weren't my friend.

            You feel the same way, you say, you love me. Please let this not be a dream. I love you with all my heart. You love me with all your soul, you say, you can't live without me?

            What? Only a dream? No! It can't be. Why does fate hate me so? I was so close to kissing him. A dream, a sweet dream of my love. Some one out there really hates me right now.

            Go back to sleep little buddy. I just had a nightmare. Nothing for you to worry about. Just a nightmare of something that will never come true.

            I am meant to be alone. Except for you Veemon. Maybe I am not meant to have Tk or anyone to love. Maybe I am meant to be alone to suffer for my sins. I just wish I could kiss Tk once. Damn, I'm going to be late for the digidestined's meeting.

            Must stay clam. It is just Tk sitting next to me and nothing more. I must stay clam. Fate must really hate me. She is so cruel to me. I must not let Tk know I am nervous around him.

            Am I all right you ask TA, you say. I'm fine, just thinking. Memo to self: stop misprononcing Tk's name. God he is so close, but everyone else is watching. What, I'm paired with Tk for a digital world mission? But I can't, no; none of you know how wrong of a chose you are making.

            So Tk, you want to chose where we start? Fine with you, you say. Lead the way, love. What did I say, you ask. Nothing, just mumbling under my breath. I have to stop this aching in my heart. I kiss you, right on the lips, softly and sweetly. You don't move and I move quickly as if burned. You look at me with shocked eyes and I turn as tears roll down my face. I run away from you, not wanting to see the hate in your eyes. I stop after I get tired and look at Veemon who followed me.

            Don't worry Veemon, we have each other. Tk most likely hates me now. I am a sick person. No one will want to go near me after Tk tells the others what happened. Thanks for the hug Veemon, I need it right now.

            I head home, forgetting the mission. Tk will finish it by himself. He is no longer my angel of hope. He is no longer mine at all. I have lost him. My foolish actions and me. I am only a stupid goggle boy and nothing more. He is a perfect angel from above.

            I am lost. No one care enough to find me. I am nothing. I am nonexistent. Veemon please stop worrying. You will not lose me so easy. I am only nursing my broken heart.

            TK! No this has to be a dream, another horrid dream. Please go away I want to be alone. I don't want to know that you hate me. Please leave me to my broken heart.

            What? You kissed me. Why? I am not worthy of an angel such as you. Please let the dream end before it gets worst. Quiet, you say, I'm not dreaming. Oh I am, you are just a wish of my sick mind.

            You slapped me! This is no dream, but why. You love me, you say, with all your soul. I love you too. I have loved you for a long time, too afraid to tell you, too afraid of being hurt. Please don't ever leave me. You never will, you say, you will be with me forever. Forever is a long time, love.