Fear is How I fall
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Gohan hugger
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GAH! Must quit making depressing fics! OYA OYA OYA! "Crawling" belongs to lincoln park, ad gohan belongs to Akira T. My home brudda.
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Gohan layed upon his bed, CD headphones to his ears. He loved this song. Whenever he was sad, he could share his feelings. Feelings.
~Crawling in my skin~
These wounds, they will not heal
Fear is how I fall
~Confusing what is real~
The scenes etched in his memory. Cell. 16 being crushed. Goku dying. Trunks dying. Cell. Cell. Cell. Even in his mind the words were bitter. Bitterness.
~There's something inside me that pulls beneath the surface.~
Consuming, confusing
This lack of self control I fear is never ending
~Controlling~
He lost control. He got cocky, and because of him, two people died early deaths. But only one of the two would never come back. He would never come back. Death had taken him. Death.
~I can't seem,~
to find myself again
My walls are closing in
~Without a sense of confidence I'm convinced that there's just too much pressure to take~
Pressure. The word that summarized his very life. The pressure to get good grades. The pressure to be strong. The pressure to be a good brother to Goten. The pressure to train hard and become strong, so much pressure. Pressure.
~I've felt this way before,~
So insecure
Crawling in my skin
These wounds they will not heal
Fear is how I fall,
~Confusing what is real~
'What is real and what is fantasy? What if I'm dreaming? What if this hasen't happened? Dad would still be alive, no training, what if everything up to Cell, was real, but Cell wasn't? what if he was still seven years old? Wondering why his dad didn't want to come back to Earth?' Gohan thought. Questions.
~Discomfort endlessly~
has pulled itself apart of me
distracting, reacting
against my will I stand beside my own reflection
~It's haunting how I can't seem....~
'To find myself again' Gohan finished the line in his mind. 'Where did my innocence go? Am I forever doomed to be a bloddy murderer? The one whom killed his father? The one who toyed with cell, watched him suffer, and enjoyed it?' Murder.
~To find myself again~
My walls are closing in
Without a sense of confidence I'm convinced that there's just too much pressure to take
I've felt this way before,
~So insecure~
Insecurity.
~Crawling in my skin!~
(There's soemthing inside me that pulls beneath the surface)
These wounds, they will not heal!
(Consuming, Confusing, This lack of self Control I fear is never ening)
Fear is how I fall!
(controlling)
~Confusing what is real!~
'Fellings. Bitterness. Death. Pressure. Questions. Murder. Insecurity. Fear Is How I fall' Gohan thought as he turned off the CD player, and went to go look at the sky.
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Gohan hugger
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GAH! Must quit making depressing fics! OYA OYA OYA! "Crawling" belongs to lincoln park, ad gohan belongs to Akira T. My home brudda.
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Gohan layed upon his bed, CD headphones to his ears. He loved this song. Whenever he was sad, he could share his feelings. Feelings.
~Crawling in my skin~
These wounds, they will not heal
Fear is how I fall
~Confusing what is real~
The scenes etched in his memory. Cell. 16 being crushed. Goku dying. Trunks dying. Cell. Cell. Cell. Even in his mind the words were bitter. Bitterness.
~There's something inside me that pulls beneath the surface.~
Consuming, confusing
This lack of self control I fear is never ending
~Controlling~
He lost control. He got cocky, and because of him, two people died early deaths. But only one of the two would never come back. He would never come back. Death had taken him. Death.
~I can't seem,~
to find myself again
My walls are closing in
~Without a sense of confidence I'm convinced that there's just too much pressure to take~
Pressure. The word that summarized his very life. The pressure to get good grades. The pressure to be strong. The pressure to be a good brother to Goten. The pressure to train hard and become strong, so much pressure. Pressure.
~I've felt this way before,~
So insecure
Crawling in my skin
These wounds they will not heal
Fear is how I fall,
~Confusing what is real~
'What is real and what is fantasy? What if I'm dreaming? What if this hasen't happened? Dad would still be alive, no training, what if everything up to Cell, was real, but Cell wasn't? what if he was still seven years old? Wondering why his dad didn't want to come back to Earth?' Gohan thought. Questions.
~Discomfort endlessly~
has pulled itself apart of me
distracting, reacting
against my will I stand beside my own reflection
~It's haunting how I can't seem....~
'To find myself again' Gohan finished the line in his mind. 'Where did my innocence go? Am I forever doomed to be a bloddy murderer? The one whom killed his father? The one who toyed with cell, watched him suffer, and enjoyed it?' Murder.
~To find myself again~
My walls are closing in
Without a sense of confidence I'm convinced that there's just too much pressure to take
I've felt this way before,
~So insecure~
Insecurity.
~Crawling in my skin!~
(There's soemthing inside me that pulls beneath the surface)
These wounds, they will not heal!
(Consuming, Confusing, This lack of self Control I fear is never ening)
Fear is how I fall!
(controlling)
~Confusing what is real!~
'Fellings. Bitterness. Death. Pressure. Questions. Murder. Insecurity. Fear Is How I fall' Gohan thought as he turned off the CD player, and went to go look at the sky.