~Next day after classes~
*Today, I am confused, yesterday I was confused, I thought that I would find myself… my place by going to Rawley, not that summer school would make my life worse.*
*I´m not gay, I know I´m not, but I still have these feelings for Jake. What are these feelings? Oh I don´t know.
I think I should go to sleep, maybe it would make my mind stop thinking about this.*
"Munchie, dinner is ready." Mrs Flemimg called from the kitchen.
"Mom, I´m not hungry!" Hamilton called back.
"Why not, are you sick?" Ham´s mom asked worried.
"No I´m not hungry right now." Ham said as he climbed into bed.
* What´s wrong with him?* Kate thought to herself.
"I think that he is sick, he has been strange since this morning." Kate said turning towards her husband.
The Dean looked over the paper he was reading.
"Now, I think he´s fine, he went to school, didnt he!" his father said.
"Yes, he did, but still I´ll check on him tomorrow." Kate said with a frown.
*Please brain let me sleep, so it is only 7 o´clock, I really don´t want to be awake now.*
After 10 minutes Hamilton was sleeping.
******************
~At the same time~
Jake was sitting in her room thinking
*I wonder what Hamilton is doing. Being really mad at me I guess. He didn´t say a word to me today; I have always spoken to him since we started school. Maybe I should just hit the books, it will get my mind of this whole matter.*
*Ok, studying was helpful for my grades… but not my heart and soul. I could say it was my mother´s fault that I´m dressing up like a guy! And getting me into this mess. But is it?
Why didn´t I follow my head and just said stop before it got too serious. Even though I have a heart to mend doesn´t make it right for me to just follow my heart´s desire and then later hurt somebody, especially the one boy that I have really connected with.
Why ,,, how can I ever fix this? *
Jake sighed and looked at her clock.
*It´s 9 o´clock, maybe I should just go to bed, besides I have nothing else to do.*
She looked out her window
*I have a better idea, the sun is soon setting, maybe a late night drive could help.*
*****************
Jake was walking around the the woods.
*Where did we put the bike? Was this one of the last things we did together, I hope not.* Jake thought sadly.
*I really don´t now the area like Hamilton does.
Where is that bike and why can´t I stop thinking about him?* Jake said angrily as she searched.
*Maybe I should just sit her next to the tree and think.* Jake thought, trying to remember, but then giving up, because when she closed her eyes she could only see Hamilton´s face in front of her.
.
**********************
Hamilton started to wake up, he looked over at his clock.
~In Hamilton´s bedroom~
*9.30 , is it morning already?* He thought rubbing sleep from his eyes.
* No, I can see the sun setting. Why can´t I just fall asleep? Forget about this just for one minute?*
He started to get up
*I must take a walk, maybe I can sort out my feelings then.*
As he walked he stopped to take in the beautiful sun set
*Do you remember the last time you saw the sun setting? There I go again thinking about Jake, this walk hasn't helped me yet.* He thought, rolling his eyes.
************
Jake was still at the tree when she thought she saw Hamilton
"Hamilton is that you?" Jake asked from the tree.
* ok, this walk is to forget about you… and you are here!*
"Jake what are you doing here?" he asked surprised.
"Clearing my head, what about you?" Jake said with a forced smile.
"Doing the same. Has it worked?" Hamilton asked.
"No, not yet." She said while shooking her head.
"Me neither", he shrugged.
" Hamilton look" Jake said as she tried to find the words.
"Hamilton I´m sorry for all of this, can you please forgive me?"she asked suddenly.
"I have thinking about this constantly, and I still want you as my friend, do you still want to be my friend?" Hamilton replied.
"Of course I want to!!! Now, I owe you big time. Where is my bike?" she asked him smiling slightly.
"It is just overthere, can´t you remember?" Ham said smiling.
"It´s just that my mind has been distracted lately." Jake said happily and turning red.
*If he only knew* Jake thougth but asked…
"Do you want to get your first driving lesson now?" she asked, trying to make things more normal between them.
"Yes, that would be fun" he answered.
*I´m teaching him to drive my bike, I wonder what it feels to hold him?
Jake shook her head *What am I thinking about, I must concentrate here.*
*What is Jake thinking about?* Ham thought as Jake gave him pointers.
"Jake ? Jake can take it for a longer drive now?" he asked innocently.
*I just sounded like a child.*
"What did you say?"
"Can I drive it along the road?" Ham asked smiling.
"You are a fast learner, but it is my bike. But I´ll let you drive it this time and I will sit behind you ,ok." Jake replied smiling even more.
They took it out for a spin enjoying being near each other eventhough they were both very confused. Then they saw Ryder in his car.
"We must head back to school before he sees us?"
"Why Hamilton?" she asked concerned.
"He is the school bully and you don´t want to be the person he bullies."
But it was too late for them to go, Ryder drove by and said hi in his own unique way, then he drove away again.
"I think we should go back, it´s over the curfew and we need to sleep, it is our first crew practice tomorrow." Hamilton suggested.
"I had totally forgot about it" said Jake.
* How am I going to do that* Jake thought
They said their goodbyes and went off. They went away thinking about what happened. Being so close to each other made them confused.
*****************
~The next day~
"Hi! I´m Finn , your crew coach, I think everybody knows me as the English teacher.
So, let´s get started. During this week, I have tried to figure out who is going to be in which position, and here is the list, you can pass it around. After you have checked were you positioned, go and sit at your positon and you´ll start practice rowing out to that mark."
Everybody looked at the paper Finn gave them.
"So, Jake which position do you have?" Ham asked walking up to his friend.
" I´m the coswain, what about you?"
"I´m going to sit right in front of you. Come on let´s go."
* Great! Just great! That´s all what I needed* Jake thought sarcastically to herself
"So, here we are. Let´s start with a question, have you ever been inlove before?" Finn asked deeply.
Jake and Hamilton just watch eachother and then quickly looked away.
"Hamilton, do you want to answer?" Finn asked noticing Hamailton was lost in thoughts.
"Well, I don´t know, Finn, how do you know when you are inlove?" Ham said as he refused to look in Jake´s eyes.
"Does anybody care to answer that question- Jake, maybe? "
* Oh..MY..God! Here it goes…*
"It´s a hard question to answer.* Jake said wanting to avoid it.
*Maybe it´s when you can´t stop thinking about somebody and wondering what that person is doing right now or what the person is thinking about."
* Exactly like I´m doing right now!*
Scout and Will just looked at Jake and Hamilton and they could just feel, that there is something going on between those two, but they didn´t know what. Or they didn´t want to believe it.
"Ok, that was very good answer, now let´s start the real practice, row a few lenghts. "Finn said as he heard a boy complaining.
After practice everybody throwed themself into the water, accept Jake.
"Jake come on, it´s hot outside and we just had practice." Hamilton urged her.
"I must see if my mom has called, she promised to call today, I´ll see you later Hamilton."
*Now, I wished I was dressed as I girl, I really want to take a swim with Hamilton!
Why should I be the one who is inlove with him?*
*What is wrong with Jake,I can tell that something is bothering him? Oh, I´ll ask him later.*
Hamilton thought to himself as he was still on the water
*****************
Jake was walking towards the dorm.
"Oops, I´m so sorry." Jake said, bumping into someone.
"That´s ok, I´m Lena by the way." the stranger said.
" I´m Jake. Nice to meet you." Jake said, shoke hands with her and walked away.
*************
During the weekend Hamilton and Jake and acted "normal" but they knew their relationship was everything but normal. Though they didn´t see each other too much that weekend, because of the homework.
****************
~Monday~
"Today we are starting having a co-ed English class because the Englsih teacher at Rawley Girl´s school is sick." Finn said at the start of the class.
Lena just went straight ahead and sat down between Jake and Hamilton.
"Hi again", said Lena.
"Hi", said Jake.
"Do you know eachother", Hamilton asked.
"Yes, we met last week", Jake answered.
"Let me introduce you. Lena , this is Hamilton, Hamilton this is Lena. "
"Nice to meet you", both said simultaneousy.
During the class, Hamilton and Jake avoided each other eyes, they were too confused to deal with it in that moment.
The class ended, and the schoolday also. All the started started to get up and Lena came walking towards Jake and Ham.
"Hi! Are you doing something important?" she asked, interrupting them.
"No, just talking." Jake said.
"Ok, can you help me with the English homework, this subject is not my one of my favorites?" she asked them.
"Not one of mine either", said Ham.
"I can help you, come on Ham it is not that we have something to do. " Jake assured them.
Ham nodded not happy about it.
*************
~The next schoolday came along. ( Note: Jake and Hamilton are friends with Scout and Will)~
"Hey guys, Will, I and some friends of his are going to the movies tonight do you want to come?" Scout invited them.
"Yes, I can go" said Ham.
"I can go too", said Jake.
"Okey, we´ll see you at 7 ok.?"
" Yeah,ok."
*****************
"Hi Lena", Jake said to Lena as she approached.
"Hi! Are you doing something special tonight?" Lena asked looking at Jake
"Yes, I´m going to the movies with some friends." she answered.
"You can come if you want to", Hamilton suddenly said.
"Yes, I think I will." Lena replied. She smiled looking at Jake very often, so often Hamilton started to feel uncomfortable.
*I said it to be polite, I didn´t think she would accept, I think she maybe likes Jake.*
*Why had he invited Lena? Maybe he likes her. She is a nice girl. Not a crossdressing one like me! He has seen me talk to her a couple of times, maybe he thinks I like her, I hope he doesn´t think I like her. God, if he only knew…*
*****************
~At the movies~
Hamilton sits on one chair, in the middle sat Lena with Jake on her left.
"So, Lena what do you think about the movie", Ham asked her.
"It´s ok, but it is not the kind of movies I usually watch. "
Hamilton looked at Lena´s way but his eyes just went passed her and couldn´t stop looking at Jake.
*I wonder what he is thinking, Ham thought. *
Lena didn´t want to end the conversation at that.
" So, Jake what do you think about the movie?"
"I guess you could say it's tolerable." she answered, while simultaneously turning her head towards Lena, yet staring at Hamilton.
*What is he thinking right now?* Jake thought.
************
*Why does he look so cute, so hard to read but at the same time not so hard to read. Ok, so I like Jake but he is so hard to read, oh, is he looking at me? His eyes seems to go past me, looking at what?! The only person he could be looking at could just be Hamilton. Nah, he's probably thinking about something and his eyes are just coincidently looking that way.
I'm at the movies, so I should at least try to watch the movie*
~A few minutes later~
*Jake is so cute, I think he really like the movie now. What is he looking at? He is looking at Hamilton! And Hamilton is looking back at him.
Is this possible, the two most beautiful guys on campus like eachother?! And I´m caught in the middle. This is so cute*
*Shoot, I think Lena just saw me looking at Hamilton, this isn´t good. I must go, but where and what should I tell them.?*
"I´m going to buy som jujubees, do you want anything?"
"I´m fine." said Lena
" I´m fine too."
" Ok." said Jake and walked off.
***************
Once Jake left, Lena turned toward Hamilton.
"Hamilton, do you think Jake likes me?"
" Uh, I don´t know Lena, you should ask him, not me." he answered.
"But you´re his closest friend, he must talk to you about these things. "
"Lena, I don´t know, ask Jake. " Hamilton answered, frustrated.
"Fine, don´t tell me then. " Lena replied angrily and changed seats.
Jake finally returned form the snack bar.
*Why isn´t Lena sitting at her regular seat. I can´t sit next to Hamilton, going to the movies turned out to be a bad idea, but sitting here is worser. I hope the movie is over soon, I can´t sit beside him for much longer.* Jake thought as she leaned as far away from Ham as possible.
Finally the movie came to an end.
Lena sat there thinking
*Now that they are sitting next together I can feel that it is something between those two. My gut feeling has never been wrong before, so why now. But why did I have to really like Jake.
They are getting up, oh the movie is over.*
Jake interruputed Lena´s thoughts
"Lena we´ll walk you to the girl´s campus", Jake told her.
"Thanks." She said as she watched them.
*Look at those two; if there is something going on, I will be the one who finds out first, you can bet on it.*
Jake and Ham said goodbye to Lena and walked back to the boy´s campus. They came up to a familiar spot.
**************
"Hamilton, it looks like we always end up here, next to this tree and watching the sunset." Jake said pointing out the sun and smiling.
"Maybe it is becuase we love this place, the feelings it gives us, the memories it gives us."
* Wait… what in the hell did I just say?*
"Yes, I think you´re right, it´s beatiful here." Jake said quietly.
They just sat there and didn´t say anything for quite a while.
* I must be inlove with him, I remember our first crew practise; I think it was then I actually realised that it is going to be so hard for me not to show to him how I feel. If I knew that he would forgive me when I told him the truth, I would say it right now, but I can´t stand him not talking to me. That day when he didn't talk to me just hurt me so much. I can never tell you the truth if it could mean living that day every day.* Jake thought sadly looking into the sunset.
*I wonder what he is thinking about. I´m doing it again, doing the same things Jake said a person inlove would do. I do think about him so much, but it is because he is my best friend.
I´m not gay, and I´m not inlove with him. Yes, I should keep telling me that, because this is how I really do feel.*
"Jake, I think we should get back."
"You´re right, see you tomoorow, Ham." Jake said while getting up.
"See you tomorrow." He answered and they both walked away slowly.
*Today, I am confused, yesterday I was confused, I thought that I would find myself… my place by going to Rawley, not that summer school would make my life worse.*
*I´m not gay, I know I´m not, but I still have these feelings for Jake. What are these feelings? Oh I don´t know.
I think I should go to sleep, maybe it would make my mind stop thinking about this.*
"Munchie, dinner is ready." Mrs Flemimg called from the kitchen.
"Mom, I´m not hungry!" Hamilton called back.
"Why not, are you sick?" Ham´s mom asked worried.
"No I´m not hungry right now." Ham said as he climbed into bed.
* What´s wrong with him?* Kate thought to herself.
"I think that he is sick, he has been strange since this morning." Kate said turning towards her husband.
The Dean looked over the paper he was reading.
"Now, I think he´s fine, he went to school, didnt he!" his father said.
"Yes, he did, but still I´ll check on him tomorrow." Kate said with a frown.
*Please brain let me sleep, so it is only 7 o´clock, I really don´t want to be awake now.*
After 10 minutes Hamilton was sleeping.
******************
~At the same time~
Jake was sitting in her room thinking
*I wonder what Hamilton is doing. Being really mad at me I guess. He didn´t say a word to me today; I have always spoken to him since we started school. Maybe I should just hit the books, it will get my mind of this whole matter.*
*Ok, studying was helpful for my grades… but not my heart and soul. I could say it was my mother´s fault that I´m dressing up like a guy! And getting me into this mess. But is it?
Why didn´t I follow my head and just said stop before it got too serious. Even though I have a heart to mend doesn´t make it right for me to just follow my heart´s desire and then later hurt somebody, especially the one boy that I have really connected with.
Why ,,, how can I ever fix this? *
Jake sighed and looked at her clock.
*It´s 9 o´clock, maybe I should just go to bed, besides I have nothing else to do.*
She looked out her window
*I have a better idea, the sun is soon setting, maybe a late night drive could help.*
*****************
Jake was walking around the the woods.
*Where did we put the bike? Was this one of the last things we did together, I hope not.* Jake thought sadly.
*I really don´t now the area like Hamilton does.
Where is that bike and why can´t I stop thinking about him?* Jake said angrily as she searched.
*Maybe I should just sit her next to the tree and think.* Jake thought, trying to remember, but then giving up, because when she closed her eyes she could only see Hamilton´s face in front of her.
.
**********************
Hamilton started to wake up, he looked over at his clock.
~In Hamilton´s bedroom~
*9.30 , is it morning already?* He thought rubbing sleep from his eyes.
* No, I can see the sun setting. Why can´t I just fall asleep? Forget about this just for one minute?*
He started to get up
*I must take a walk, maybe I can sort out my feelings then.*
As he walked he stopped to take in the beautiful sun set
*Do you remember the last time you saw the sun setting? There I go again thinking about Jake, this walk hasn't helped me yet.* He thought, rolling his eyes.
************
Jake was still at the tree when she thought she saw Hamilton
"Hamilton is that you?" Jake asked from the tree.
* ok, this walk is to forget about you… and you are here!*
"Jake what are you doing here?" he asked surprised.
"Clearing my head, what about you?" Jake said with a forced smile.
"Doing the same. Has it worked?" Hamilton asked.
"No, not yet." She said while shooking her head.
"Me neither", he shrugged.
" Hamilton look" Jake said as she tried to find the words.
"Hamilton I´m sorry for all of this, can you please forgive me?"she asked suddenly.
"I have thinking about this constantly, and I still want you as my friend, do you still want to be my friend?" Hamilton replied.
"Of course I want to!!! Now, I owe you big time. Where is my bike?" she asked him smiling slightly.
"It is just overthere, can´t you remember?" Ham said smiling.
"It´s just that my mind has been distracted lately." Jake said happily and turning red.
*If he only knew* Jake thougth but asked…
"Do you want to get your first driving lesson now?" she asked, trying to make things more normal between them.
"Yes, that would be fun" he answered.
*I´m teaching him to drive my bike, I wonder what it feels to hold him?
Jake shook her head *What am I thinking about, I must concentrate here.*
*What is Jake thinking about?* Ham thought as Jake gave him pointers.
"Jake ? Jake can take it for a longer drive now?" he asked innocently.
*I just sounded like a child.*
"What did you say?"
"Can I drive it along the road?" Ham asked smiling.
"You are a fast learner, but it is my bike. But I´ll let you drive it this time and I will sit behind you ,ok." Jake replied smiling even more.
They took it out for a spin enjoying being near each other eventhough they were both very confused. Then they saw Ryder in his car.
"We must head back to school before he sees us?"
"Why Hamilton?" she asked concerned.
"He is the school bully and you don´t want to be the person he bullies."
But it was too late for them to go, Ryder drove by and said hi in his own unique way, then he drove away again.
"I think we should go back, it´s over the curfew and we need to sleep, it is our first crew practice tomorrow." Hamilton suggested.
"I had totally forgot about it" said Jake.
* How am I going to do that* Jake thought
They said their goodbyes and went off. They went away thinking about what happened. Being so close to each other made them confused.
*****************
~The next day~
"Hi! I´m Finn , your crew coach, I think everybody knows me as the English teacher.
So, let´s get started. During this week, I have tried to figure out who is going to be in which position, and here is the list, you can pass it around. After you have checked were you positioned, go and sit at your positon and you´ll start practice rowing out to that mark."
Everybody looked at the paper Finn gave them.
"So, Jake which position do you have?" Ham asked walking up to his friend.
" I´m the coswain, what about you?"
"I´m going to sit right in front of you. Come on let´s go."
* Great! Just great! That´s all what I needed* Jake thought sarcastically to herself
"So, here we are. Let´s start with a question, have you ever been inlove before?" Finn asked deeply.
Jake and Hamilton just watch eachother and then quickly looked away.
"Hamilton, do you want to answer?" Finn asked noticing Hamailton was lost in thoughts.
"Well, I don´t know, Finn, how do you know when you are inlove?" Ham said as he refused to look in Jake´s eyes.
"Does anybody care to answer that question- Jake, maybe? "
* Oh..MY..God! Here it goes…*
"It´s a hard question to answer.* Jake said wanting to avoid it.
*Maybe it´s when you can´t stop thinking about somebody and wondering what that person is doing right now or what the person is thinking about."
* Exactly like I´m doing right now!*
Scout and Will just looked at Jake and Hamilton and they could just feel, that there is something going on between those two, but they didn´t know what. Or they didn´t want to believe it.
"Ok, that was very good answer, now let´s start the real practice, row a few lenghts. "Finn said as he heard a boy complaining.
After practice everybody throwed themself into the water, accept Jake.
"Jake come on, it´s hot outside and we just had practice." Hamilton urged her.
"I must see if my mom has called, she promised to call today, I´ll see you later Hamilton."
*Now, I wished I was dressed as I girl, I really want to take a swim with Hamilton!
Why should I be the one who is inlove with him?*
*What is wrong with Jake,I can tell that something is bothering him? Oh, I´ll ask him later.*
Hamilton thought to himself as he was still on the water
*****************
Jake was walking towards the dorm.
"Oops, I´m so sorry." Jake said, bumping into someone.
"That´s ok, I´m Lena by the way." the stranger said.
" I´m Jake. Nice to meet you." Jake said, shoke hands with her and walked away.
*************
During the weekend Hamilton and Jake and acted "normal" but they knew their relationship was everything but normal. Though they didn´t see each other too much that weekend, because of the homework.
****************
~Monday~
"Today we are starting having a co-ed English class because the Englsih teacher at Rawley Girl´s school is sick." Finn said at the start of the class.
Lena just went straight ahead and sat down between Jake and Hamilton.
"Hi again", said Lena.
"Hi", said Jake.
"Do you know eachother", Hamilton asked.
"Yes, we met last week", Jake answered.
"Let me introduce you. Lena , this is Hamilton, Hamilton this is Lena. "
"Nice to meet you", both said simultaneousy.
During the class, Hamilton and Jake avoided each other eyes, they were too confused to deal with it in that moment.
The class ended, and the schoolday also. All the started started to get up and Lena came walking towards Jake and Ham.
"Hi! Are you doing something important?" she asked, interrupting them.
"No, just talking." Jake said.
"Ok, can you help me with the English homework, this subject is not my one of my favorites?" she asked them.
"Not one of mine either", said Ham.
"I can help you, come on Ham it is not that we have something to do. " Jake assured them.
Ham nodded not happy about it.
*************
~The next schoolday came along. ( Note: Jake and Hamilton are friends with Scout and Will)~
"Hey guys, Will, I and some friends of his are going to the movies tonight do you want to come?" Scout invited them.
"Yes, I can go" said Ham.
"I can go too", said Jake.
"Okey, we´ll see you at 7 ok.?"
" Yeah,ok."
*****************
"Hi Lena", Jake said to Lena as she approached.
"Hi! Are you doing something special tonight?" Lena asked looking at Jake
"Yes, I´m going to the movies with some friends." she answered.
"You can come if you want to", Hamilton suddenly said.
"Yes, I think I will." Lena replied. She smiled looking at Jake very often, so often Hamilton started to feel uncomfortable.
*I said it to be polite, I didn´t think she would accept, I think she maybe likes Jake.*
*Why had he invited Lena? Maybe he likes her. She is a nice girl. Not a crossdressing one like me! He has seen me talk to her a couple of times, maybe he thinks I like her, I hope he doesn´t think I like her. God, if he only knew…*
*****************
~At the movies~
Hamilton sits on one chair, in the middle sat Lena with Jake on her left.
"So, Lena what do you think about the movie", Ham asked her.
"It´s ok, but it is not the kind of movies I usually watch. "
Hamilton looked at Lena´s way but his eyes just went passed her and couldn´t stop looking at Jake.
*I wonder what he is thinking, Ham thought. *
Lena didn´t want to end the conversation at that.
" So, Jake what do you think about the movie?"
"I guess you could say it's tolerable." she answered, while simultaneously turning her head towards Lena, yet staring at Hamilton.
*What is he thinking right now?* Jake thought.
************
*Why does he look so cute, so hard to read but at the same time not so hard to read. Ok, so I like Jake but he is so hard to read, oh, is he looking at me? His eyes seems to go past me, looking at what?! The only person he could be looking at could just be Hamilton. Nah, he's probably thinking about something and his eyes are just coincidently looking that way.
I'm at the movies, so I should at least try to watch the movie*
~A few minutes later~
*Jake is so cute, I think he really like the movie now. What is he looking at? He is looking at Hamilton! And Hamilton is looking back at him.
Is this possible, the two most beautiful guys on campus like eachother?! And I´m caught in the middle. This is so cute*
*Shoot, I think Lena just saw me looking at Hamilton, this isn´t good. I must go, but where and what should I tell them.?*
"I´m going to buy som jujubees, do you want anything?"
"I´m fine." said Lena
" I´m fine too."
" Ok." said Jake and walked off.
***************
Once Jake left, Lena turned toward Hamilton.
"Hamilton, do you think Jake likes me?"
" Uh, I don´t know Lena, you should ask him, not me." he answered.
"But you´re his closest friend, he must talk to you about these things. "
"Lena, I don´t know, ask Jake. " Hamilton answered, frustrated.
"Fine, don´t tell me then. " Lena replied angrily and changed seats.
Jake finally returned form the snack bar.
*Why isn´t Lena sitting at her regular seat. I can´t sit next to Hamilton, going to the movies turned out to be a bad idea, but sitting here is worser. I hope the movie is over soon, I can´t sit beside him for much longer.* Jake thought as she leaned as far away from Ham as possible.
Finally the movie came to an end.
Lena sat there thinking
*Now that they are sitting next together I can feel that it is something between those two. My gut feeling has never been wrong before, so why now. But why did I have to really like Jake.
They are getting up, oh the movie is over.*
Jake interruputed Lena´s thoughts
"Lena we´ll walk you to the girl´s campus", Jake told her.
"Thanks." She said as she watched them.
*Look at those two; if there is something going on, I will be the one who finds out first, you can bet on it.*
Jake and Ham said goodbye to Lena and walked back to the boy´s campus. They came up to a familiar spot.
**************
"Hamilton, it looks like we always end up here, next to this tree and watching the sunset." Jake said pointing out the sun and smiling.
"Maybe it is becuase we love this place, the feelings it gives us, the memories it gives us."
* Wait… what in the hell did I just say?*
"Yes, I think you´re right, it´s beatiful here." Jake said quietly.
They just sat there and didn´t say anything for quite a while.
* I must be inlove with him, I remember our first crew practise; I think it was then I actually realised that it is going to be so hard for me not to show to him how I feel. If I knew that he would forgive me when I told him the truth, I would say it right now, but I can´t stand him not talking to me. That day when he didn't talk to me just hurt me so much. I can never tell you the truth if it could mean living that day every day.* Jake thought sadly looking into the sunset.
*I wonder what he is thinking about. I´m doing it again, doing the same things Jake said a person inlove would do. I do think about him so much, but it is because he is my best friend.
I´m not gay, and I´m not inlove with him. Yes, I should keep telling me that, because this is how I really do feel.*
"Jake, I think we should get back."
"You´re right, see you tomoorow, Ham." Jake said while getting up.
"See you tomorrow." He answered and they both walked away slowly.