If I Never OS

I'm thinking she's right. I do. But I can't do something like that, despite what my mind says. I can control it. Besides, if it wasn't mutual it would cut off everything we already have if she knew. It isn't worth the risk, is it? No, certainly not. If I'd thought that I would have gone through with it weeks ago. Maybe I should wait till summer...but no, that'd be too long, and what if she finds someone else by then? I don't know I would do. I have to tell her how I feel. Yet I still feel that doubt. What if she rejects me? Or worse, what if she doesn't even care? I don't think I could take that. I know I couldn't. But how will I know if I never tell her? If I never even admit it to myself? If I never say how much I love her?