How You Really Felt OS

How You Really Felt
I never would've imagined it. I loved you, I did, truly, deeply. I just didn't know how to show it. Maybe if I had done something earlier, it wouldn't have come to this. Maybe if I had told you how I felt, then things might be different. I wanted to tell you, I really did, but I just couldn't. I was too afraid. And now I can never tell you, since I know what your true feelings for me were. I had hoped you had felt the same as I did, maybe you were experiencing the same things as I was; nervousness, fear of rejection, whatever they call it, it's all the same. I thought that maybe if one of us said it first, the other would agree, and I kept telling myself that I should start it, so many times I could've said something, but still that fear gnawed at me, ripping me up inside. Now though, I don't have to fear rejection, because now I've already experienced it, at the hand of someone who I thought was a friend at the least, though I wanted you to be more. I was just fooling myself though. Now I know how you really felt, and I wish I didn't....