Endless Nights
Soundless, sleepless, endless nights,
I lie awake not feeling quite right.
The wind ruffles my hair and I shudder at my thoughts.
My eyelashes flutter and my emotions are distraught.
A smile takes over my solemn look,
As my eyes glow in the dim of the light.
My heart starts pounding and my mind is retracing the same thought time and again.
I can't explain what stage I'm in.
Do I make the choice to leave it alone,
Or do I seek his comfort that warms my bones?
My body can't eat,
And it refuses to sleep.
When I try to concentrate it all leads to the same place.
Every motion I make is packed with twitches galore,
And every step I take sends me to the floor.
Do I make the choice to leave it alone,
Or do I seek his comfort that warms my bones?
When I'm there I'm not my lucrative self,
I'm calm, I'm modest, I begin to doubt my friends' help.
I feel energetic and so sure,
But around him I'm slow and insecure.
What does this mean?
In my heart I know,
All the reasons why?
Is this leading to a new chapter,
Am I shedding my original self to bow down before my peculiar emotions?
In time I shall know,
And in time more feelings will grow.
But that's just it,
Only time shall know.