Since you went away

Since you went away

Since you went away I've been waiting. I didn't eat I didn't sleep I just waited for you. Then… I died. War got in the way of you and me. I sat under the weeping willow next to my grave watching Heero listen to the priest. This is the last time I'm going to see you here aren't I? Tell me…

So long ago, I don't remember when
That's when they say I lost my only friend

"She died a painless death, in her sleep," the priest said distantly. Yea right… painlessly… I couldn't have imagined a more painful death…


Well they said she died easy of a broken heart disease
As I listened through the cemetery trees

I watched you sit by my grave… please tell me… You didn't cry for me. It was no surprise but still… you could have told me what I've been waiting to hear. You never did say goodbye. When the sun rose you were gone

I seen the sun coming' up at the funeral at dawn
The long broken arm of human law

I never left this town, I thought you'd come back but days turned to months… months to years…

Now it always seemed such a waste
She always had a pretty face
So I wondered how she hung around this place

I didn't want to die but at the same time I did… it was too hard to stand without you

Hey, come on try a little
Nothing is forever

I can see expression on your face. I can't read it easily though. Regret. Sorrow. Pain. Depression. All of them mixed together.


There's got to be something better than
In the middle
But me & Cinderella

I wanted to see into your mind and read your thoughts… but of course that's impossible…


We put it all together

*Flashback*

No! it was the middle of night I only had one headlight left when the second one went out. No! I what am I supposed to do?! You pulled up and asked if I needed a ride. I had no choice…

We can drive it home
With one headlight

It was such a cold night. I told you about my past…

She said it's cold
It feels like Independence Day

You told me about yours… I had no home and you invited me into yours so I quickly grew to love you… I became… sort of 'Dependent' on you.

And I can't break away from this parade
But there's got to be an opening

I remember the last day I saw you… it was the coldest of the year. It the worst day of my life I read your note and watched you leave solemnly through the window. I thought you would have seen me but all you did was glance and turn away.

Somewhere here in front of me
Through this maze of ugliness and greed

Your eyes betray your emotions sometimes… I thought I could wait for the sunrise to come but what happens when the dawn never comes?


And I seen the sun up ahead

At the county line bridge

I thought when you left it would be my divorce from dependence…

Sayin' all there's good and nothingness is dead

We'll run until she's out of breath

I still believed thought one day you'd come back to me. Since you went away I've been lonely… I'm sure it wouldn't have been bad if you only had written or called…

*end*Flashback*


She ran until there's nothing' left
She hit the end-it's just her window ledge

You came back and set down a 11 roses for me. I smiled a little and tried to pick one up but my hand slipped though. You fell asleep in the grass and I tried to touch you cheek. My hand slipped though again. You shivered and turned your head…

Hey, come on try a little
Nothing is forever

*Flashback*

Minako… I bought you this… He handed me a white teddy bear with light blue eyes. I smiled. Thank you. We kissed deeply…

*End*Flashback*

There's got to be something better than
In the middle

But me & Cinderella

Now that I think about it…


We put it all together
We can drive it home

You never did tell me that you loved me…


With one headlight

I started pacing again. You have to tell me… I can't leave until you tell me… I don't want to stay in this old gray graveyard.

Well this place is old
It feels just like a beat up truck

You woke up again and started walking out of the graveyard. I followed until the end because the edge of the graveyard was as far as I could travel.


I turn the engine, but the engine doesn't turn
Well it smells of cheap wine & cigarettes

*Flashback*

It's always so messy in here I told heero getting into his jeep. We were going to the café to eat like most nights. I hated how messy his jeep was… I mean ½ of his papers he didn't use anyway.

*End*Flashback*

This place is always such a mess
Sometimes I think I'd like to watch it burn

I hated being lonely… and that's all I ways without you… I was a lost soul, and now ironically I am a lost soul.

I'm so alone, and I feel just like somebody else
Man, I isn't changed, but I know I isn't the same

Everything I knew is gone, and I hate this place, it's killing me.

But somewhere here in between the city walls of dying' dreams
I think of death-it must be killing' me

I laid down near the tree, took out my bow, and successfully tied it around the roses… only I can see it though…

Hey, come on try a little
Nothing is forever

There's got to be something better than

It's always so dark here… even on sunny days…


In the middle
But me & Cinderella

We put it all together

I stared up at the sky for a minute, and I was hit with a heartrending and ghostly feeling. I can be free from this Heero… Just let me here you say 'I love you' just once…


We can drive it home
With one headlight

I'll wait endlessly… for something that will never come…

It's 3:00 AM, I must be lonely. I have a strange urge to call the radio guy. This chapter is longer but seems shorter… hm… I mentioned 2 lines from 2 of no doubt's songs. Did you spot them? Hm… how can Minako be free if Heero has to tell her (with Minako being able to hear him) that he loves her? I don't know but I'll come up with something! Bye! I'm angry! I accidently posted this under DB instead of my usual name, Tenshi no Shi. Sorry 'bout that.

--Tenshi no Shi