To the Moon and Back
*God, our heavenly father, you take away the sins of the
world, grant us peace. God, please grant us peace, that is all anyone can ask.
On this day of utter terror and grief, my heart goes out to those of you who
may have lost a loved one in the high jacking crashes and devastating World
Trade Center disasters. Please understand that I give to you all my love and I
pray for those whom you have lost on this fateful day. This is dedicated to you
out there. May this story help you to forget your loss and give your restless
and grieving soul a break for a little while.
~~Song fic to "To the Moon and Back" by Savage
Garden~~ Pure fluff~~
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She's taking her time making up the reasons
To justify all the hurt inside
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Relena
Peacecraft sighed heavily as she stared out the window. It had been almost two
years since the Barton Foundation had tried to declare war and independence
from the ESUN, and still, everyone hustled and bustled about like it had
happened only the day before. Even she, as the Vice Foreign Minister and
Princess of the Sanq Kingdome still ran around furiously, always trying to get
a step ahead of a step that hadn't even been taken yet. Today, at this
very moment, instead of doing her work, she was simply daydreaming. 'Hiiro, where are you? Have you
come to terms with your life and it's meaning yet?' She wondered to
herself. The last time she had seen him was the night he had collapsed into her
arms.
It
was funny. He had rested so softly, so innocently and relaxed in her arms for
those few precious moments before he had pushed her aside. And even when he
did, she saw a fleeting look of pain and confusion cross his nearly always
empty eyes. She had not asked him to stay, already knowing he could not. She
had been foolish and young to call to him when he had been away, and even more
childish to stock him like a pathetic creature.
She
knew now that he had to make amends for his broken life before he could fully
accept any other emotion on. She knew that. She really did. It just stung.
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Guess she knows from the smiles and the look in their eyes
Everyone's got a theory about the bitter one
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Since
the end of the last fight she had seen all for the pilots and their girlfriends
except for Hiiro. As much as she loved them to death, she hated seeing them in
person. Every time they gave a pitiful expression that conveyed nothing but
sorrow. She didn't want their pity. Or their sorrow. She just wanted to
go on and not have to be reminded of it constantly. Not that she didn't think
about it anyway, but still…
And
when she went to her political meetings and couldn't get him off of her
mind, people knew she was thinking of something other than the original purpose
of the meeting. They saw her eyes gain a funny fiery blaze, and her personality
seemed to become almost bitter despite her ever present sweetness.
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Mama never loved her much
And daddy never keeps in touch
That's why she shies away from human affection
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And
what about her parents? Well, her mother was always too busy to drop by to say
hello. It was the same as when her father had been alive. Always too busy to
help her own daughter out, never too busy to help out her friends or anther
needy cause. The only difference was, at least her father had paid attention to
her. But no, he too was gone, lost within the same world as her mother, just on
a different physical plain.
So
many bad experiences with people close to her. First her original parents. Then
her adoptive parents. Her brother. The pilots. Their girlfriends. Her old
classmates. All of them were hurt either indirectly by her, for her, of with
her. She never wanted that to happen again, so she left up her political
façade everyday and night, never once taking it down. She briefly
wondered whether this was how Hiiro had felt: like if he got to close to someone, they would ultimately be
caused pain or injury of some sort, so it was better just to stay away and
detached from things emotionally.
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But somewhere in a private place
She packs her bags for outer space
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Relena
sighed again as she stood and left her office for home. Late tonight she was
leaving for space, specifically the Lunar Base, where Trowa, Catherine, and
their circus were. She needed to get out of the public spotlight for a while,
just for a little while, and she had figured that since she wanted visit them
anyway, it would be an ideal time to leave.
As
she entered the Peacecraft mansion, she quickly said good night to Pagan and
walked gracefully to her room to pack. Now al she needed was her body guard and
she was ready. Poking her head out of the door, she scanned the hall for her
assigned detail. They were no where to be found. Closing her door again, she
thought hard and sat down at her vanity. Where in the universe where they? They
were never missing from her side. And she couldn't very well leave
without them. She definitely didn't want a repeat of what happened last
time he had. Never had she thought her brother could blow steam from his ears
before. Apparently, however, he was quite adept at the stupid human trick.
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And now she's waiting for the right kind of pilot to
come (and she'll say to him)
She's saying
Now we're flying to the moon and back
If you'll
be if you'll be my baby
Got a ticket to where we belong
So would you be my baby
Ooh-ohh
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So
what was she going to do? Closing her eyes and running a brush through her
honey colored locks, she felt an odd warmth watching her from behind. Opening
her aquamarine eyes and turning to face the shadows, she couldn't see
anything. Suddenly, a slight movement caught her eye, and that slight movement
was followed by a longer, more defined movement of a body with messy deep brown
hair and dark blue eyes stepping out of the shadows. Was it? Could it?
"Hiiro?"
"We're
flying to the moon in a half an hour. You have everything?" He said in a
cool and calm voice. He knew that if he was going to do this right, he needed
to take it slowly. But this mission of snail-paced speed was killing him. She
was so beautiful, so happy that he wanted to be closer to her. He wanted more
of her sweet disposition, her kind manners, and her brave and understanding
soul. It didn't help that she had grown into such a gorgeous girl while
he had been away.
"Hiiro?
Is that really you? You're back?"
"Yeah,
I'm back Relena. Come on, I've got our tickets. We'll be
late."
"Oh
Hiiro." She sighed with a slight frown. Then she tried to smile.
"I'm ready."
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She can't
remember a time
When she felt needed
If love was red then she was color-blind
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So
here they were. On a shuttle. To the moon. She felt utterly lost and helpless.
Here she was, sitting next to the boy, no, man, that she loved, and all she
could do was smile idiotically and twiddle her thumbs. She didn't have
any work to do. She didn't have any speeches to write. Nothing to say.
For the first time, she felt un-needed and useless.
Hiiro
watched as the girl in front of him twiddled her thumbs, then drummed her nails
on the arm rest. So he wasn't the only one nervous about their situation.
Why couldn't he just tell her why he had even bothered coming back in the
first place? Uhh. These emotions were so hard to contain and understand.
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All her friends have been tried for treason
In crimes that were never defined
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Relena
looked at Hiiro's emotionless face and let a lone tear fall. Backing over
her thoughts earlier, she remembered how so many people had gotten hurt,
emotionally and physically at her expense. Hiiro was only one. He was the most
important one, but not the only one. She felt guilty, evil and vile that she
had subjected them to such horrible fates.
Seeing
her tear fall, he lifted a finger and brushed it aside. Why was she so sad? He
done some thing wrong? What ever it was that was making her cry made him want
to cry as well. Moving a little closer to get a better view of her full face,
he cupped her chin in his hands and brought her face level with his own.
"Relena,
what's wrong?"
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She's saying
Love is like a barren place
And reaching out for human faith is
Is like a journey I just don't have a map for
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"I'm
sorry. I, I just… I don't know." She broke down into sobs and
pulled her face out of his warm hands. Burying her head in her hands, she
quietly cried.
So
close to him, yet so far. Relena couldn't do it. How could she trust
someone again? Every time she had she had been betrayed. She was so lost and
alone. And scared. Most of all fear loomed in the shadows of her nightmares.
How could she ever trust anyone with her feelings again? She feared both the
thought of never trusting again and the thought that she even had to think
about it.
Disbelief
shot through Hiiro. Never before had she pulled away from him. She looked so
little, so vulnerable that he felt guilty at her even slightly feeling this
way, let alone going so far as to cry over the matter. She knew why she was
crying and she wouldn't tell him. It hurt.
"Relena?"
he asked, his voice cracking and faltering. She looked up. How could his eyes
that had at only three minutes ago showed no emotion suddenly show so much? His
navy blue eyes were the color of an ocean during a storm. She could see
emotions flooding through them for the first time ever, and instead of driving
her away, they brought her closer to him.
"Hiiro.
I'm just…" She struggled with the words. "I'm just
so afraid to trust again. How do I know you, or my brother, or Duo, or even
Hilde won't just pick up and leave me? How do I know another war
won't start and take you away from me again?" Her tears had let up,
but her eyes were still misty and vague of trust.
"You
don't know. I don't know. But what I do know is that you must have
faith Relena. Faith and trust are what allowed me to come back to you, and now
you need to learn the same lesson. Everyone is lost in life. I was lost for the
longest time. But when I found you, I found my hope. Within that hope, I had
faith, and because f that faith, I placed my trust in people. And just look at
the result. Peace has been attained. Relena, I don't have to be Perfect
anymore, I can just be human. I regained my humanity. You seem to have lost
yours. Let me help you find it again."
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So baby gonna take a dive and push the shift to overdrive
Send a signal that she's hanging all her hopes on the
stars
(What a pleasant dream) She's saying
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"Hiiro?
What do you…" She was cut off by a calloused finger pressing
against her lips.
"Don't
ask Relena. Just feel." He pulled closer still and gently pecked her on
her soft full lips. As he lay butterfly kisses down her tear stricken face, she
made up her mind.
"Hiiro.
I… I…" She guided his head back to her lips and when she
moved in, he did so as well. Their lips met and heaven's gate's
opened for the two lost angels. Joy and bliss spread through their souls as
their gentle caresses waned and dwindled to the point where they finally had to
break it off for air. Holding hands, Hiiro pulled her from her seat onto his
lap. Laying her head against his chest, Relena listened to his steady breathing
and rhythmic heartbeat.
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Now we're flying to the moon and back
If you'll
be if you'll be my baby
Got a ticket to where we belong
So would you be my baby
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"Relena?"
"Hmm?"
She asked him, half awake and half in a dream state.
"Are
you still afraid?"
"Yes.
But not as much. Hiiro?"
"Hn."
"Did
you mean it when you said I gave you hope?" She asked with a little bit
of fear and a lot of hope in her tiny voice.
"Yes.
I'm sorry I took so long, I was…"
"Don't
apologize. I've been soul searching as well. Only, it seems you found
what you were looking for."
"Yeah.
I found you." She gasped.
"But
I'm only a symbol to you, a mission at best."
"You
are a woman. A very lovely woman, inside and out, who has a kind heart and an
understanding soul. You are able to keep peace with your inner strength. You
are more than just a symbol. You are the one. Aishiteru Relena
Peacecraft."
"Aishiteru?"
"I
love you." He whispered in her ear softly.
"Then
aishiteru Hiiro Yui, and thank you, for not only loving me, but helping me to
feel love again as well."
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Mama never loved her much
And daddy never keeps in touch
That's why she shies away from human affection
But somewhere in a private place
She packs her bags for outer space
Now she's waiting for the right kind of pilot to come
And she'll say to him
She's saying
Now we're flying to the moon and back
If you'll
be if you'll be my baby
Got a ticket to where we belong
So would you be my baby
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Suddenly
it was all so trivial. The pity her friends gave her. The odd looks members of
the senate would give her when she spaced out. The relationship problems with
her mother and loss of her father. The pressures of ruling, the pressures of
setting a good example. It was all so trivial as compared to the one small word
Hiiro had just taught her. Aishiteru. Love. He loved her. She loved him. Her
pilot had come, and he had flown her to the moon and back on wings of love.
Corny, I know. Sappy and purely fluff, I know. Not my
usual standards, but hey, I can only go up, right? Hehehe… please
don't kill the poor defenseless authoress!!! As always, tell me what you
think! Rix13Rix@aol.com
