Ratings: Shonen-ai . . . PG for very mild swearing and homosexuality
Pairings: 2x1/1x2
Summary: Duo Maxwell accepts a challenge he regrets involving his best friend. But how will Heero react? *AU* Rated PG for homosexuality and very mild swearing
Author's Notes: Doumo arigatou for the reviews!! *tears* I feel loved! Even if I get one or ten reviews, they make me feel sooo good, I love you guys!! *^_^*
Review thanks go to: Shkira, I wonder if guitars burn... (well my guitar is wood, so I'm pretty sure it would burn ^.^), Twincast (aka. SgF) and TOM, Tasuki (don't blame Heero! *sniffle* What would YOU do if your best friend suddenly kissed you!?), GSYH (hm, I'm a bit more partial to 1X2 ^^;), Dorothy McCoubrey (don't cliffhangers suck? I hate 'em, too), and *special* thanks to Keikan Yui (Kei-chan) and Shi Sensou (nope, sorry, you can't drag Duo back into the room *quite* yet!) for being so into both this story *and* Gundam Surveys!
Part Three: Duo's POV: Another Try
I am sooo dead.
I can't believe I did that! I can't believe I actually DID that! I'm a total and complete IDIOT! Oh, man, how am I supposed to show my face at school!? What got into me!?
Relena. It's all her fault! If I didn't have her stupid dare on the brain, I never would have...
Okay, Duo, breathe. Breathe, damnit, did you forget how to? Quit running, you can't even see where you're going, you're gonna run into something.
Why can't I see where I'm go- oh. That's why. My tears are blurring my vision. What's up with me? Why am I crying? I never cry. I run, I hide, I do everything, but never lie... or cry.
So why are these salty tears streaming down my face, I ask myself sarcastically. Oh, man, I'm losing it. I'm ranting at myself. I'm getting hysterical. I don't even know where I'm going!
Oh, shit. I left my books at his house. I'm gonna have to get them before school Monday.
I can't go back there!
Not really knowing where I was going, I turn down a street and suddenly find myself in front of a large, elegant house. Quatre. Quatre's my buddy, Quatre will help me out.
But wait- I can't tell him! Oh man, he's a great guy and all but if he knew I was...
I mentally slap myself. 'He's not gonna care that you're gay', I remind myself with another bit of sarcasm. After all, HE'S the one with a steady boyfriend!
Before I change my mind, I'm at his front door, knocking. A second later, he's opening the door, all smiles.
"Hey, Duo! What a surpr... what's wrong?" The smiles fade when he notices my expression. I open my mouth to say something, but all that comes out is a strangled sob.
"Quatre... I am *sooo* fucked!" I mumble, collapsing to my knees. I know he's alarmed, even without seeing his face.
He puts an arm around my shoulder and ushers me inside. He leads me upstairs to his room, and I'm thankful- I doubt I could even remember my way around the Winner family's estate in my state of mind.
Quatre shuts the door and turns around to face me. "My sisters are all out and my dad's at a meeting so we're the only ones here. Duo, what's *wrong*?" he asks me in a genuinely concerned voice.
So I tell him my whole miserable story. About the stupid dare I accepted from Relena. About Heero asking me what was on my mind, and how I replied. About my stupid, STUPID response when he asked me what I wanted. About... about the kiss. How I had raced out of the room and ran here.
When I was done, Quatre was sitting next to me and was holding me comfortingly. He was silent at first, the room filled with nothing but my occasional sniffles. Then he spoke.
"Duo, you need to talk to him."
Once again, I was up in a flash. "WHAT!? Are you INSANE, Quatre!? This is HEERO! He's Mr. I'm-Gonna-Kill-You! He's Get-Too-Close-To-Me-And-Die Yuy! He's-"
"He's your best friend."
I stop. And sit back down.
"Duo, no matter what you did, he's your best friend. Talk to him."
"I can't," I reply mournfully, aware that I almost sound like I'm whining. "There's no way he could want my friendship now. I know he's disgusted with me. Who wouldn't be!? I like guys instead of girls! I have the hots for my best friend! I-"
"Exactly."
I stop again. "Huh?" I ask, confused.
Quatre smiles. "He's your best friend. You KNOW he wouldn't care if you're gay or straight."
"BUT HE'D CARE IF IT WERE HIM I WAS MAKING A BLOODY PASS AT!" I cry. I came here for comfort, and maybe some advice. I did NOT come here to be told to do the impossible!
Quatre winced as I yelled at him. I felt kinda bad about yelling- he was only trying to help, right?- but I couldn't exactly help myself when I'm in hysterics!
An uneasy silence hung in the air for about a minute. I was getting fidgety, and was just about to leave when Quatre spoke up again.
"What will you do if he does reject you?"
I swear my heart skipped a beat. I must have looked terrified, because Quatre winced again at my expression. But he treaded on.
"I don't mean to say anything that will hurt you. But I'm asking because I don't want you to be hurt if worst comes to worse," he explained slowly, as if I were a wild animal ready to flee at the first sign of danger. If Heero rejected me... oh, Shinigami, I couldn't bear it!
"I'd die," I reply in a voice barely above a whisper. But Quatre hears, and he obviously doesn't like what he's hearing.
"DUO! Don't you DARE hurt yourself!" he snapped. I look away.
"I can't make a promise I may not keep." Quatre lets out a startled gasp, then a sad sigh.
"This isn't just a little crush, is it?" he asks gently. "You really do love him, don't you?"
I hang my head, not responding. Then I stand.
"I had better go," I reply softly. Quatre stands with me and walks me to the door.
"Just keep what I said in mind, okay?" he asks pleadingly. I nod mutely and begin to head out the door. "And Duo...?"
I turn around. "What?"
There is barely controlled desperation and panic in his bright blue eyes, and I can't help feeling sorry that I put them there.
"Don't do anything I wouldn't do."
I smile sadly. "Quatre, if you were in my position, what wouldn't you do?" And before he can say another word, I leave.
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