Rating: PG
Category: angst, reflection
Setting: Sometime after Fuuma's dream at the end of Book 3
Summary: Fuuma's one last wish for Kamui
Spoilers: allusions to certain events, past and future, but nothing outright
Warnings: This can be interpreted as shounen-ai, but for the series, it's pretty canon
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Website: http://www.dreamwater.net/pottedcactus/erjika
Archive: Yes!
Disclaimer: Don't own em, no moolah for moi.
AN: Why are my fics so short? Why do I abuse ellipses so much? Why does sugar never mix with my coffee? No one will ever know
I roll over in my bed again. I haven't been able to sleep for the past few days. Not since what happened in the shrine.
Father...
There's... there's so much going on. I can't think anymore, my brain's going numb.
Kotori's been having so many nightmares. I wonder if they're the same as mine. She's nearly lost it again.
That's not mother...
I wonder if she's not the only one.
And Kamui... he's so changed. There's no way we can ever go back to those bright days of the past, making promises under a flurry of cherry blossoms.
I promise I'll protect you, Kamui
It's been six years since I last saw him smile. Six years since he last opened up to me. He's... I've had so many dreams... disturbing dreams... He's been hiding so much from me, and he won't let me in.
But I still love him. I still love him.
Kamui... he is your...
There is a finality approaching, centering around him. There's a feeling of dread building up. I don't know exactly what it is. Maybe it really is the end of the world, like that teenager said.* But whatever it is, it's involving this beautiful young man. And I don't want to lose him again.
I know he'd do anything to protect Kotori and I. But I also know he cares more for her than me. And that's alright.
he is your...
If I could see him smile just one more time, nothing else would matter. Only him.
~finis~
*teenager=Sorata!
End Note: Having gone through manga volumes 1-9, I'm pretty sure that the one time Kamui looks like he's about to smile at Fuuma (after returning to Tokyo) is when he decided to be a Dragon of Heaven, thus right before Fuuma goes completely dark. Just to add some more foreboding to this fic! ^^