Disclaimer : I don'town them, no... thanks Sunrise
Pairing : 2+5
Catagory : angst
Warning : Yaoi
Note: This is a sequel to 'Anything
you want'
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-Under the
Pressure-
By Kai
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"I love you"
The words still
echoed in Wufei's brain. Many long tormenting hours passed. Wufei couldn't
even think of sleep, he just sat there beside Duo. He never thought the
silence of this braided pilot could make him lose his mind this much. He
looked at him, the pale bruised skin in the moonlight. No doubt that when
he woke up the physical pain from them would hurt him.
He cursed himself
for his stupidity, because he can do nothing more than touch Duo's hand,
just to make sure he's still here. And then, he saw Duo say something in
his sleep under the oxygen mask. He checked his respiration counter. It
read 'normal', so he removed the mask and leaned closer to listen.
"Hee..ro, Heero,
help..me , don't leave me alone.."
Wufei was shocked.
Why Heero? Even in his fatal state, all he could think of was Heero? He
suddenly felt stupid, He thought Duo liked him but it just misreading...
Duo still said
those words over and over, in Wufei eyes, that reflected nothing more than
Duo's feeling for Heero. He always thought he was compatible for no one
since Meiran died, but he just made up his mind. He wanted to risk everything
with Duo when he woke up. His pride, his honor, his feelings...but maybe
it was too late. Just the words 'I love you' and all the rest of time in
his life wasn't enough compared to all the bad things he had done. He couldn't
revoke anything..
"Heero, Heero.."
He couldn't
hold back his tears anymore. He let them fall down in his eyes. He reached
out his hand to Duo's forehead and soothed him gently.
"Duo, it's
me 'Heero'. I'm here with you. You don't have to worry about a thing. You're
gonna be fine, Duo...you hear me?...Promise me one thing, Duo. Let me see
your smile once more..."
He barely said
those words, and it hurted him so much. He removed his hand from Duo's
forehead and replaced it with the light kiss, whispered the words 'I love
you' for Heero and 'good bye' for himself. Wufei retreated to outside of
the room, sobbing with no one but the cold wall before him. He heard the
footstep behind him, 'that should be Quatre's'. He turned to him, wearing
nicely the mask 'Heartless Bastard'.
"Where have
you been Winner? I'm very tired" he called.
"I helped Heero
and Trowa checked on Deathscythe, it's heavily damaged..."
"Whatever,
I'm going home" he said and walked out.
"But Wufei,
what about Duo? He needs you..." Wufei stopped at Quatre's words but didn't
turn back
After Quatre
came in Duo's room, he quickly checked all the status: heartbeat, respiration,
blood pressure. Relief that Duo was safe now, thank Allah. Their gundam
pilot had trained hard enough and didn't die easily. Duo, just sleeping
and ready to wake up at anytime. But something stalked Quatre's mind. 'Why
did Wufei say that?' He decided to ask Duo about this. He had wanted to
make things clear for Duo and Wufei for long time. It's no fun at all to
watch them both torment each other with unspoken feelings...
"Quatre?"
"Oh! Duo, you're
awake!!!!! I'm so glad!!!!!! How do you feel?"
"Jeez, it hurts
like hell. What happened?"
"Rifle beam
from Aires hit you. Thank Allah, you're still alive!!!!!"
"Yeah, looks
like my ribs are broken..."
"Yes, some
of them. And your leg and an arm..."
"Huh, let's
talk about that later. At least I'm still alive, like you said" He tried
to be cheerful, he didn't want his friend to worry too much about him
"What about
the others?" he asked pointlessly.
"Trowa and
Heero should be done with your Deathscythe. I think they will be here soon
and..."
-Knock knock-
He was interupted by the nurse
"Oh, my, you
woke up too fast!!! Wait a sec, I'll call the doctor!!"
"And what,
Quatre?" Duo was hoping he'll talk about Wufei
"Wufei, he's.."
-Knock knock-
the nurse return with the doctor
"Mr. Maxwell,
this is unbelievable that you've gainned consciousness this fast!!!!! Sorry
to say it straightaway, but at first even I thought you weren't gonna make
it"
Duo smiled
bitterly at the doctor "Thanks."
"Now, let me
check on you." The doctor turned to Quatre "I'll wait outside."
Quatre walked
out just in time. Trowa and Heero had arrived.
"What about
him?" Heero asked
"Don't worry
Heero, he already woke up!!! The doctor is taking care of him."
"Where's Wufei?"
Trowa asked while looking around.
"He left before
Duo woke up. I don't know what happened."
"That bastard!"
Heero hissed and punched his other palm "I think I'll deal with him, myself!!!
You two stay here"
At their safe
house, Wufei was standing at the stain glass door frame that lead to the
wide open wood behind the house. He looked up at the sky. Bright sunlight
welcomed him to the real world. After the longest night of dreaming, dreaming
of something that wasn't his, he didn't think he could face Duo anymore.
And the best way for him to do so was to leave and get away from their
life; Duo and Heero, they should be good lovers...without him.. He didn't
know where to go. To hell with that, he'll decide later. Now he just wanted
to cool himself down from irrational thought. He stepped out the door,
his bare feet walked on the cold grass that was still damp from the morning
dew.
He just walked
and walked, not knowing where to stop or why he should stop. His pace increased
mindlessly, each footstep turned out to be a run. And he kept running.
Faster and faster. Until he missed his step and stumbled, rolling on the
ground. He faced the bright sky. He couldn't stop thinking of Duo, not
even for a single minute. The sunlight, just like Duo's smile. Both too
bright for him. He must keep that in mind from now on. Duo's smile will
be for Heero; only for Heero...
He brought
one hand to his chest where his heart is, where it used to be. He wanted
to feel if it still beat or not. Unfortunately, it still beat and didn't
seem to stop. But even that, why he felt pain, it came right from his heart.
Every beat of it cost so much pain.
'Stop, please
stop...' he begged to no one but his shattered mind.
When Heero
first entered the house, there was no sign of anybody. Then he walked to
Wufei's room, knocked lightly and said, "Wufei, are you inside? I need
to talk to you."
But no one
replied. He knocked again and turned the doorknob. Wufei wasn't in the
room. Heero made a mental note that it was in very bad shape. Almost all
the books on the shelf were scattered on the floor mixed with the pieces
of broken mirror. Pillow and blanket were piled at the corner of the room
and the painted vase was rolling, its water soaked the carpet. But one
thing that he noticed was the bag near the door. It was well packed and
untouched. He could guess that it was treated with the different temper
of its owner.
"Why are you
here, Yuy?" Wufei's voice came from behind, startling him. He couldn't
manage to react
"I think we
should talk." The two boys glared at each other silently and Wufei retreated
and lead their way to living room. Wufei let his body fall down on the
sofa, trying not to think about what Heero wanted him to discuss. Heero
followed him and just stood before him, looking at him pitifully.
"Why did you
leave him?" Heero started.
Wufei looked
back, anger rising. How can he ask him like this? "Why?" he laughed bitterly
"There's no need for me to be there"
"What are you
talking about? You should have taken care of him till he woke up!"
"Why me, Yuy?
Why not you!" Wufei stood up and started yelling back
"What are you
trying to say, Wufei?"
"I'm not a
fool, Yuy. My emotions may be good toys for both of you to play with, but
I have feelings and I get hurt!" Heero frowned, he didn't understand at
all what Wufei was saying. So he didn't deny a thing. Wufei continued.
"How can you do that Heero? You let Duo play around with me all the time
and you let me stay there with him, aren't you jealous?"
"Jealous? Of
what?!"
"Don't play
dumb, Yuy; it won't work. Don't tell me you don't like him and don't tell
me you didn't know that he liked you!"
"I'm not! Where
did you get that idea from?"
"Where?! From
my own eyes and my own ears! You may feel uneasy when I'm still around
here, but not for long, Yuy. I will not bother you again!" Wufei said and
turned to his room but Heero pulled his arm back and punched him heavily
in the face. Wufei fell to the floor. His anger was gone. He felt defeated
and didn't attempt to fight back. In his mind, Heero had 'won'.
"Come on, Wufei,
fight back! You don't give up this easily, do you?"
"I give up."
He glared at Heero wearily "I said, I give up. I want to be alone, please..."
He pulled his knees to his chest and hid his face from Heero. His hands
covered both his ears, and his world become narrowed just to his curled
body.
Heero almost
didn't believe his eyes. What in the world could make this arrogant chinese
pilot turn out to be like this? It was no use to say anything else, and
Heero wasn't the type of person that could handle this situation easily
like Quatre. He left Wufei like that and headed to the hospital.
Heero arrived
at the hospital and found Trowa and Quatre sitting next to Duo's bed. Duo
was sleeping peacefully.
"Is he ok?"
Heero asked.
"Yes, just
sleeping. What about Wufei?"
"He won't listen
to anything. He said he's going to leave us-"
"What?! He
can't leave!" Quatre said.
"Duo still
needs to sleep, please lower your voice." Trowa warned him when Duo shifted
to the other side. But quiet couldn't help anymore. Duo was half awake.
"Mmm, morning
everyone, is there something wrong? I heard that someone is going to leave?"
"Wake up and
listen Duo. Wufei is going to leave" Heero pulled him up by grabbing his
gown roughly but the thing that woke him fully awake wasn't Heero action
but his sentence...
Before he could
find any other question to asked, the door was knocked and opened hesitatingly.
Wufei was standing there. Three of them knew what they should do. They
all moved to the door, walked pass Wufei without saying a word.
"Looks like
you're doing fine..." Wufei began his sentence when the footsteps faded
out
"Yes"
Wufei bit down
his lip and tried to speak "I'm here to say good bye."
Duo was shocked.
What went wrong while he slept? Did he do something wrong?
"Why, Wufei?"
"Because I
can't stay here with all of you...with you anymore..."
"Wufei..."
"Duo, I know
I'm making things worse, but...but I'm sorry Duo...I..." he tried very
hard to stare into those violet eyes. At least he wanted to face him when
he said, "I love you.."
Duo's mouth
hung opened. What was this? Wufei loved him, but why he must leave...
His head was
still hazy from the sleeping pills, so he didn't react fast. But, 'Wufei's
going to leave...' he couldn't force his mind to find the words, but his
body, his broken body wouldn't allow Wufei to walk away. He stood up and
reached for him
"Wu..."
Wufei heard
Duo and turned back. Duo was about to fall to the floor, but Wufei caught
him just in time. Wufei craddled him in his embrace. Duo couldn't stand
straightaway so he used his only good arm to draw Wufei closer.
"Don't go,
Wufei, I love you, too"
Wufei wasn't
sure if he had heard clearly. He turned to look deep into the violet eyes,
seeking the truth. "But...what about Heero? Don't you love him?"
"Heero?, No,
Why do you think I love him?"
"You, you called
him in your sleep, you told him not to leave you..."
Duo thought
about that and his eyes widened. It must have been in his dream. "I get
it, you want to know why I said that?" Wufei nodded doubtfully "Because
he's the only one I told about you...and he helped me through the bad time
you gave me. He's my best friend."
Wufei couldn't
decide what to do first between apologize to Duo or curse himself for his
craziness, but they were all forgotten by the sweet kiss that Duo gave
him.
Kai: angst, angst and angst, ho'
ho', for this fic, thanks to Chi Chan for saying 'Anything you want' should
has a sequel, and this is what I made them turn out to be
please please, I need feedback
good or bad are welcome (*^_^*)
Edited by:
Becky Chan!!! ::kiss::
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