Aother note:Julia is my Charater,she transfers to Hogwarts in the fifth year.No i do not own the hogwarts charaters.I DO NOT make money,this is just enterianment.

Maybe I'm afraid to fall...in love

I can see her laughing with her friends over there, she would think me insane if I

told her how I really felt. I keep trying to tell myself it's nothing, but hormones, but that

just isn't cutting it anymore. I think I would feel this way even if she didn't have the

beautiful blonde hair and her ice blue eyes, and the cute little button nose. What the heck am I doing to

myself? Sometimes I wonder why I bother trying to act like someone that I am not. I let no

one see the real me. I guess it's an effect of repeated beatings from my father, but no one

can know that, it's a very upheld secret in my family. I know the plans my father has for

me, and I know that much of the society believes me to along with them. They are all

about to find out who the real Draco is.

Pansy interrupted my thoughts, something she's very good at, by jabbing me in the

ribs. From what she informed me, she had been trying to get my attention for "just hours."

I can't stand her. She hangs on my like she owns me, but I am about to prove no one owns

me, I am going to stand on my own feet. I have to leave these people.

* * * * * * * * * * * * *

For some reason my eyes look toward the Slytherin table, and I can see Draco

rushing away from the table. It's almost seems like he's sick of being around those

people, but that's impossible I mean he is one of them. Or is he?

Ok, maybe I am really stupid, but I can't avoid going after him. I can see him up

ahead of me, literally pounding his head against the walls in one of the dungeons.

(A/N ok enough of first person)





She could see blood start to pour from a cut he'd made on his forehead. She could

no longer stand there and watch, running forward she pulled him away from the wall.

"What the hell do you think you are doing?" Draco said as he turned, but the moment he

looked up at her he fell backwards. Julia looked down, she knew she'd done the

right thing, but she really needed to get away. He was looking way too vulnerable to her,

and she could feel her heart beat quicken at the sight of him. She kept rehearsing the line,

you are Harry's girlfriend get away, but it wasn't working.

Draco was beginning to rise from the floor when Julia's senses came to her.

"Are you all right?" Draco could sense the honesty in her question. "No." Draco's eyes

widened at the honesty of his answer. Hermione leaned her head to the side and looked at

him with interest for the first time. She could see a small scar, a little above his eyebrow

And a dimple in his cheek, not like he ever smiled for people to see it. Julia was

brought out of her thoughts when Draco's face was right in front of her own and him

Whispered softly. "Am I really that fascinating?" Julia could feel his warm breath

against her cheek. "Yes." Draco's eyes widened and then he leaned closer to here still and

his lips made contact with hers.

"What am I doing? This is Malfoy," Julia's thoughts had screamed, but they

were shoved to the back of her mind has she let herself fall into the kiss more. Then

suddenly, they broke apart. "Go." Julia looked up, shocked at the words from Draco.

Julia opened her mouth to argue, but he put his finger to her lips. "Go back to your

friends and your life. I am not worthy to be apart of it." Draco walked away with those

words.

Her heart screamed out at here to go after him, but she couldn't. She got up and

began to head back toward the Gryffindor common room. She gave the password to the

portrait and started walking toward her room. "Julia." She kept walking, pretending

she hadn't heard Harry calling her. She couldn't face him right now. Once she made it to

the dorm, she threw herself on the bed and curled up next to her pillow. No one was in

there, everyone was still in the common room. She began talking to herself.

"Julia, you have really screwed up this time. I mean you had everything. You

had the perfect guy, perfect friends, you had everything you wanted and you are going to

throw it all away on someone that called you names for the past six years. Actually, for

the past two he hasn't said anything to me. Fine for the first four years of your schooling

here at Hogwarts. Yeah, but if I had everything I wanted, why did I want him tonight."

She received no answer back, because she had none. She had wanted him, and

there was no denying that fact.


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Draco sat in a hidden corner of the astronomy tower. It was late, but he couldn't sleep. He

wanted her with him, but he knew he was about to die. His father had threatened him, that

if he did not join Voldemort, he would be killed. He knew without a doubt that he would

not become a murder of innocent victims, even if that did mean he would lose his life. He

heard Filch coming to check the rooms, and it was two in the morning, so he climbed out


the window and sat on the roof, to wait for Filch to leave. As he sat there, something or

someone caught his eye. As he watched, he realized who it was. She looked back toward

the castle and saw him watching her. The moonlight showed brightly around her, she

looked almost angelic, almost. There was something about her that told him, she

definitely had her devil side. He almost laughed at that revelation. Suddenly, he heard a

singing:

My cold eyes hide what I really am
My ice princess act hides how I feel
Maybe..It's that i'm afraid of love...
Even though I know I shouldn't be afriad
Maybe..I am



She looked back up at the castle once she was done, but he was gone. She sat down by the

lake and laid back, but when she did she felt something behind her. She turned to see

what it was, but suddenly felt someone's lips on her own.