The Talk
Part Four:
Angel walked into his bedroom where Buffy lay asleep. She awoke briefly after passing out, only long enough for pain killers, and dozed back off.
He watched her. As she lay there in the clothes she had gone to find the demon's in. She slowly began to toss and turn.
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Buffy's Dream: (( The one she had at the beginning of the third season when Angel's in hell... my way.))
She's standing on the beach, watching the ocean waves in and out, in and out. The wind blew softly, and moved her hair and her dress.
Angel came up behind her, and wrapped his arms around her.
"Mmmm How did you find me?"
"If I we're blind I would find you."
"Stay with me ."
"Forever.. thats the whole point, even if you kill me."
Then they we're in a place kinda like the Bronze, or a cafe`. Angel stood a few feet away from Buffy, and he looked at her, at first with fear and betrayal, then with anger and rage.
She stood there, eyes wide.
"I thought you loved me." He said.
"I do... I do Angel."
"Why'd you kill me?"
Then he looked at his hands which we're covered in blood, and then the sword appeared in is belly.
"Are you ever going to remove this thing?"
Buffy broke down in tears.
Then Angel fell to the ground.
"You don't kill the ones you love."
Then he dropped dead.
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"Angel No I do love.. I had to kill you.. I had to!!!"
She tossed and turned.
"ANGEL!!!!!"
By now Angel was at her side trying to wake her.
Tears were streaming down her face when she woke up.
"Oh god." She said as she sat up and looked at Angel.
"You're alive!" She yelled has she jumped on him and started kissing him. Then after a minute she pulled away because reality hit her.
"Sorry."
Angel put his arms around her.
"What happened?"
"Things bag things.. god I hate that dream."
"You've had it before?"
She nodded.
"When.. how many times?"
"I've had it forever... well since I.. I-I killed you. God Angel I'm sp sorry... I'm so sorry."
"Hey don't be sorry, you did what you had to."
"Your.. why aren't you mad?"
"Buffy.. tell me what happened in the dream."
She took a deep breath "I was standing on the beach, and then you came and wrapped your arms around me. I asked how'd you find me, and you told me if you were blind you'd find me, and I said stay with me, and you replied forever thats the whole point not even if you kill me."
"Is that all?"
"No... then.. we we're in a cafe' or something and you looked at me first with fear and betrayal in your eyes, and then with anger and rage.. you said I thought you loved me and I said I do.. and you said why'd you kill me and then you fell to the ground after looking at you hands covered in blood, and the sword was in your belly. Finally you said You don't kill your loved ones. And you died. Angel you died.. again right infront of me, because of me."
She began to cry harder.
"Shhh.. no baby. I didn't die because of you."
"Yes.. yes you did."
"Why do you think that?"
"Because if I hadn't wanted that long goodbye at the docks. Or even later that night... you-you said maybe we shouldn't and I said shh just kiss me, and then Angelus came about."
"You remember all that?"
"I remember everything we ever did. Especially my birthday, and not because Angelus came out because of our actions, but because that was the most wonderful night of my life.. sure somewhat because we made love, but that was everything.. you said you loved me, and I was able to say it back without worry you'd not want me to."
Buffy leaned into his chest. And hit her. She hadn't told Angel about the curse, and he had a right to know. Buffy removed her head from his chest and looked at him, she was about to speak, but was captured in his eyes.
Angel wanted to tell her he loved her and wanted her back. He was going to say something, but then she lifted her head, and they looked into eachothers eyes, their souls.
Angel leaned down and kissed her. A sweet and gental kiss, yet one with enough passion to let her know he wanted her, no more like needed her. And that his life or unlife wasn't worth living unless he had her in it.
Buffy was surprised by the kiss, but excepted, and kissed him back just the same. She needed him, and wanted him. She needed to let him know just how much he meant to her, and that she wasn't complete without him.
Buffy moaned slightly, she missed this. The kissing, the cuddling, the loving. She remembered back at her birthday, how she'd gone to see him before school and things heated up, and she said she had school, but couldn't go, then they kissed again, Angel said she had to go, but they kept kissing until they both broke away, and she knew she had to go.. but later.. they would.
Angel could smell her.. her scent was of vanilla. The memories, her birthday... when he came back. How he wanted her so badly, and now.. he wanted her anymore.. weather it meant soul or no soul. He needed her. Angel began to kiss down her neck, and he heard her moan again. He liked the knowing he could cause her pleasure.
They leaned back on the bed, Buffy on the pillows. In the back of her head she knew what was going to happen. She didn't want to stop, but she had too. He needed to know. He'd be angry if they did this and she didn't tell him. Buffy pulled away.
"Angel.." She whispered.
Angel pulled away, and looked in her eyes. He began to think he took contol, and maybe just imagined the moans.. maybe she had wanted him to stop sooner and he'd only just now heard her.
"I- sorry, I didn't mean-"
Buffy put her finger on his lips.
"Shh.. no.. don't even think it. We both wanted this.. I just really need to tell you something first."
*She's gonna tell she has a boyfriend oh god.*
"Buffy, before you say anything, can I tell you something?"
She nodded.
"I love you so much. I was a fool to walk away, there was more to it then children, and sunlight. Your mother came to see me, and said you were blinded by our love.. that I caused you too much pain and that I had to make the tough decitions for you. I think it started with her wanting you to go off to school. And she also made me start thinking.. what if you soon resented us.. but didn't want to hurt me and stayed with me? Or if you wanted someone else, but couldn't end things with us. I was afriad you'd stop loving me, before I could even concieve the thought of not loving you. But the main thing.. was Joyce said I was holding you back.. and I thought I was. And still do, but if you'll have me.. I want an us again. I don't want to take things slow.. I want to pick up close to where we left off. I know I can't.. I can't make love to you.. but we can find something. I love you, and will do anything to have you back."
Buffy's eyes had unshed tears in her eyes. She looked at him, stared into his eyes. She knew right then and there, that if no.. when she said yes he'd never leave her again. Or even think it.
She flung herself into his arms.
"Of course I'll have you back silly. Love doesn't just stop because a relationship does. Me and you.. we were never over, and never will be over.. there's too much history between us. God I love you so much!"
She hugged him tightly, and he hugged her back.
"You know what this means don't you?"
"What?"
"Angel... you are never ever getting rid of me. I'll be around you forever."
Angel laughed.
"I guess I can deal with that."
Buffy pulled away.
"Now... for what I was gonna say.."
"You have another boyfriend don't you?"
"No silly.. its about you."
He looked at her.
"Go load up the computer, there's a disk in there.. read over it. Then come back..."
"Just tell me."
"No.. oh wait. Do you have strawberries?"
"No.. all I have is ice cream."
"Oh then mister me and you are going to the store."
"What why.. what about-"
She kissed him.
"Do you trust me?"
"Yes."
"Then come on."
Buffy grabbed his hand and dug him upstairs
***********
The pulled into the parking lot, and stopped, Angel was about to get out.
"No.. stay here."
"Why?"
"Its a surprise. Now please give me fifty dollars, and then we can go home, and you can look on the computer.
"Okay.. but hurry."
"Hey.. be patient.. its a good virtue to learn."
"I've been patient for a couple hundred years."
"Been patient for what?"
"You.. I've waited for you, the perfect girl, and the girl or woman is you. So I am done being patient."
"Okay.. I'll hurry."
*****************
Buffy came back out twenty minutes later.
"Okay, lets go home."
Angel pulled out, and drove. He wanted to know what was in the bags, but Buffy kept them well hid.
Once home Buffy went downstairs with Angel following her.
"Okay do the computer thing.. I'll be in the bedroom. Knock before you come in."
"Okay.. but what is this about?"
"Trust me."
She went into the bedroom.
*****************
How Buffy spent the time:
Buffy unloaded what was in the bag and set it all about.
She made Angel's bed, fluffed the pillowed, pulled out candles.. and lit them.. placing them all around the room. She wished they'd had rose's. She'd always wanted 'a bed of rose's' it was one of her many fantancies... one of them that only popped into her head when she met Angel.
*Mmm.. god what did I do to get him?*
Buffy heard a knock on the door. She jumped up, took off her shoes, and jacket, placed them in the floor. Then she stood right behind the door.
"Come in." She said
*****************
Angel's time:
He turned on the computer, and popped in the disk.
He wanted to know what this was about.
Angel clicked on a few things then it came open.
There was a message:
Angel,
I just found this today.But I didn't want to tell you before we fought the demon's. Willow's the one to did this I guess. Although I don't know why we weren't told sooner.. I'm sure theres and explanation. Read on.
He read on, and his mouth dropped to the floor.
Angel could make love to her, and Angelus would come out. He could be human, and be with her in the light, give her children. This was too good to be true.
He got up and went to the door and knocked. There was a pause and then he heard..." Come in."
He turned the nob.
**************
Buffy was anixous, she wasn't sure if he'd want to do this.. he just found out.. what if he wanted to talk?
*Oh boy.. I hope I don't make a full of myself.*
*************
Angel wanted to go in there, put her on the bed and just make love to her. But want if she didn't want to right now? Wanted things to go slow.
*I won't say much.. I'll let her lead see what she wants to do.*
************
Angel walked in and saw lit candles every where.. there must have been atleast thirty, the lights were off. He looked up and saw Buffy holding a red one. The way the candles were made her look more divine if possible.
He looked around and saw the items that were in the bag.
Ice cream, fudge, whipped cream, and strawberries.
"I wanted to learn how to body paint." Buffy said with a smile.
Angel looked at her. He stepped forward, moved the candle from her hands and kissed her.
"So you do want to do this right?" Buffy asked after the kiss broke away.
"Why wouldn't I?"
"Just wondering. I know all this stuff you can't taste, but what we're gonna do with it... it'll give you something to look foward to."
Angel laughed and picked her spinning her around.
"I love you!"
Then he kissed her. She kissed him back.
The made love for the first time since her birthday.
Part Four:
Angel walked into his bedroom where Buffy lay asleep. She awoke briefly after passing out, only long enough for pain killers, and dozed back off.
He watched her. As she lay there in the clothes she had gone to find the demon's in. She slowly began to toss and turn.
**************
Buffy's Dream: (( The one she had at the beginning of the third season when Angel's in hell... my way.))
She's standing on the beach, watching the ocean waves in and out, in and out. The wind blew softly, and moved her hair and her dress.
Angel came up behind her, and wrapped his arms around her.
"Mmmm How did you find me?"
"If I we're blind I would find you."
"Stay with me ."
"Forever.. thats the whole point, even if you kill me."
Then they we're in a place kinda like the Bronze, or a cafe`. Angel stood a few feet away from Buffy, and he looked at her, at first with fear and betrayal, then with anger and rage.
She stood there, eyes wide.
"I thought you loved me." He said.
"I do... I do Angel."
"Why'd you kill me?"
Then he looked at his hands which we're covered in blood, and then the sword appeared in is belly.
"Are you ever going to remove this thing?"
Buffy broke down in tears.
Then Angel fell to the ground.
"You don't kill the ones you love."
Then he dropped dead.
****************
"Angel No I do love.. I had to kill you.. I had to!!!"
She tossed and turned.
"ANGEL!!!!!"
By now Angel was at her side trying to wake her.
Tears were streaming down her face when she woke up.
"Oh god." She said as she sat up and looked at Angel.
"You're alive!" She yelled has she jumped on him and started kissing him. Then after a minute she pulled away because reality hit her.
"Sorry."
Angel put his arms around her.
"What happened?"
"Things bag things.. god I hate that dream."
"You've had it before?"
She nodded.
"When.. how many times?"
"I've had it forever... well since I.. I-I killed you. God Angel I'm sp sorry... I'm so sorry."
"Hey don't be sorry, you did what you had to."
"Your.. why aren't you mad?"
"Buffy.. tell me what happened in the dream."
She took a deep breath "I was standing on the beach, and then you came and wrapped your arms around me. I asked how'd you find me, and you told me if you were blind you'd find me, and I said stay with me, and you replied forever thats the whole point not even if you kill me."
"Is that all?"
"No... then.. we we're in a cafe' or something and you looked at me first with fear and betrayal in your eyes, and then with anger and rage.. you said I thought you loved me and I said I do.. and you said why'd you kill me and then you fell to the ground after looking at you hands covered in blood, and the sword was in your belly. Finally you said You don't kill your loved ones. And you died. Angel you died.. again right infront of me, because of me."
She began to cry harder.
"Shhh.. no baby. I didn't die because of you."
"Yes.. yes you did."
"Why do you think that?"
"Because if I hadn't wanted that long goodbye at the docks. Or even later that night... you-you said maybe we shouldn't and I said shh just kiss me, and then Angelus came about."
"You remember all that?"
"I remember everything we ever did. Especially my birthday, and not because Angelus came out because of our actions, but because that was the most wonderful night of my life.. sure somewhat because we made love, but that was everything.. you said you loved me, and I was able to say it back without worry you'd not want me to."
Buffy leaned into his chest. And hit her. She hadn't told Angel about the curse, and he had a right to know. Buffy removed her head from his chest and looked at him, she was about to speak, but was captured in his eyes.
Angel wanted to tell her he loved her and wanted her back. He was going to say something, but then she lifted her head, and they looked into eachothers eyes, their souls.
Angel leaned down and kissed her. A sweet and gental kiss, yet one with enough passion to let her know he wanted her, no more like needed her. And that his life or unlife wasn't worth living unless he had her in it.
Buffy was surprised by the kiss, but excepted, and kissed him back just the same. She needed him, and wanted him. She needed to let him know just how much he meant to her, and that she wasn't complete without him.
Buffy moaned slightly, she missed this. The kissing, the cuddling, the loving. She remembered back at her birthday, how she'd gone to see him before school and things heated up, and she said she had school, but couldn't go, then they kissed again, Angel said she had to go, but they kept kissing until they both broke away, and she knew she had to go.. but later.. they would.
Angel could smell her.. her scent was of vanilla. The memories, her birthday... when he came back. How he wanted her so badly, and now.. he wanted her anymore.. weather it meant soul or no soul. He needed her. Angel began to kiss down her neck, and he heard her moan again. He liked the knowing he could cause her pleasure.
They leaned back on the bed, Buffy on the pillows. In the back of her head she knew what was going to happen. She didn't want to stop, but she had too. He needed to know. He'd be angry if they did this and she didn't tell him. Buffy pulled away.
"Angel.." She whispered.
Angel pulled away, and looked in her eyes. He began to think he took contol, and maybe just imagined the moans.. maybe she had wanted him to stop sooner and he'd only just now heard her.
"I- sorry, I didn't mean-"
Buffy put her finger on his lips.
"Shh.. no.. don't even think it. We both wanted this.. I just really need to tell you something first."
*She's gonna tell she has a boyfriend oh god.*
"Buffy, before you say anything, can I tell you something?"
She nodded.
"I love you so much. I was a fool to walk away, there was more to it then children, and sunlight. Your mother came to see me, and said you were blinded by our love.. that I caused you too much pain and that I had to make the tough decitions for you. I think it started with her wanting you to go off to school. And she also made me start thinking.. what if you soon resented us.. but didn't want to hurt me and stayed with me? Or if you wanted someone else, but couldn't end things with us. I was afriad you'd stop loving me, before I could even concieve the thought of not loving you. But the main thing.. was Joyce said I was holding you back.. and I thought I was. And still do, but if you'll have me.. I want an us again. I don't want to take things slow.. I want to pick up close to where we left off. I know I can't.. I can't make love to you.. but we can find something. I love you, and will do anything to have you back."
Buffy's eyes had unshed tears in her eyes. She looked at him, stared into his eyes. She knew right then and there, that if no.. when she said yes he'd never leave her again. Or even think it.
She flung herself into his arms.
"Of course I'll have you back silly. Love doesn't just stop because a relationship does. Me and you.. we were never over, and never will be over.. there's too much history between us. God I love you so much!"
She hugged him tightly, and he hugged her back.
"You know what this means don't you?"
"What?"
"Angel... you are never ever getting rid of me. I'll be around you forever."
Angel laughed.
"I guess I can deal with that."
Buffy pulled away.
"Now... for what I was gonna say.."
"You have another boyfriend don't you?"
"No silly.. its about you."
He looked at her.
"Go load up the computer, there's a disk in there.. read over it. Then come back..."
"Just tell me."
"No.. oh wait. Do you have strawberries?"
"No.. all I have is ice cream."
"Oh then mister me and you are going to the store."
"What why.. what about-"
She kissed him.
"Do you trust me?"
"Yes."
"Then come on."
Buffy grabbed his hand and dug him upstairs
***********
The pulled into the parking lot, and stopped, Angel was about to get out.
"No.. stay here."
"Why?"
"Its a surprise. Now please give me fifty dollars, and then we can go home, and you can look on the computer.
"Okay.. but hurry."
"Hey.. be patient.. its a good virtue to learn."
"I've been patient for a couple hundred years."
"Been patient for what?"
"You.. I've waited for you, the perfect girl, and the girl or woman is you. So I am done being patient."
"Okay.. I'll hurry."
*****************
Buffy came back out twenty minutes later.
"Okay, lets go home."
Angel pulled out, and drove. He wanted to know what was in the bags, but Buffy kept them well hid.
Once home Buffy went downstairs with Angel following her.
"Okay do the computer thing.. I'll be in the bedroom. Knock before you come in."
"Okay.. but what is this about?"
"Trust me."
She went into the bedroom.
*****************
How Buffy spent the time:
Buffy unloaded what was in the bag and set it all about.
She made Angel's bed, fluffed the pillowed, pulled out candles.. and lit them.. placing them all around the room. She wished they'd had rose's. She'd always wanted 'a bed of rose's' it was one of her many fantancies... one of them that only popped into her head when she met Angel.
*Mmm.. god what did I do to get him?*
Buffy heard a knock on the door. She jumped up, took off her shoes, and jacket, placed them in the floor. Then she stood right behind the door.
"Come in." She said
*****************
Angel's time:
He turned on the computer, and popped in the disk.
He wanted to know what this was about.
Angel clicked on a few things then it came open.
There was a message:
Angel,
I just found this today.But I didn't want to tell you before we fought the demon's. Willow's the one to did this I guess. Although I don't know why we weren't told sooner.. I'm sure theres and explanation. Read on.
He read on, and his mouth dropped to the floor.
Angel could make love to her, and Angelus would come out. He could be human, and be with her in the light, give her children. This was too good to be true.
He got up and went to the door and knocked. There was a pause and then he heard..." Come in."
He turned the nob.
**************
Buffy was anixous, she wasn't sure if he'd want to do this.. he just found out.. what if he wanted to talk?
*Oh boy.. I hope I don't make a full of myself.*
*************
Angel wanted to go in there, put her on the bed and just make love to her. But want if she didn't want to right now? Wanted things to go slow.
*I won't say much.. I'll let her lead see what she wants to do.*
************
Angel walked in and saw lit candles every where.. there must have been atleast thirty, the lights were off. He looked up and saw Buffy holding a red one. The way the candles were made her look more divine if possible.
He looked around and saw the items that were in the bag.
Ice cream, fudge, whipped cream, and strawberries.
"I wanted to learn how to body paint." Buffy said with a smile.
Angel looked at her. He stepped forward, moved the candle from her hands and kissed her.
"So you do want to do this right?" Buffy asked after the kiss broke away.
"Why wouldn't I?"
"Just wondering. I know all this stuff you can't taste, but what we're gonna do with it... it'll give you something to look foward to."
Angel laughed and picked her spinning her around.
"I love you!"
Then he kissed her. She kissed him back.
The made love for the first time since her birthday.