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Trowa POV How many days have passed since that day? It feels like forever to me...I can't get that thought out of my head. If I could turn back time, I would...would what? Was there something I could have done at that time? No, in reality there wasn't...all I could do was dream. I dreamt of that day, Heero and Relena...they're standing together in front of that church. I saw myself hiding under the tree, my hands clutching and my legs trembling, but my expression was just the same.. I walked by myself...he looked like a fool...I laid my hand on his shoulder and asked him what he wanted to do most. He stared at me with that insensitive mask and said 'run away'.. Everynight I dream like this and when I wake up, I can only curse at my weakness and my cowardice. When is it going to end? I don't think I can stand this anymore... Heero POV I've been lying in my bed, our bed to be correct, me and Relena. It's been 2 months since that day. Sometimes I wonder why I'm married her. I must be because there was no reason to refuse. I protected her, I took care of her and everybody said we were the perfect couple; the hero and the princess. And what? Yes, she said she loved me; but I didn't know what that meant... The meaning of love? I don't think anyone can tell me that. Not even Relena. I don't know what love is, but, after I saw Trowa standing there, I know what love feels like... The feeling of missing someone like crazy. The feeling of my heart aching just to imagine his face. The feeling of regret for what I've done. The feeling of letting him go. And the feeling of dying to touch him... Those feelings still haunt me, no matter day or night. I look out the window. The moon is shining bright and the melodies from his flute still remain in my mind... Trowa POV It's almost midnight and I'm sure that I can't sleep without doing something. I miss him too much and lying alone in the dark won't help. I decide to go take a walk, the midnight wind might help me clear my head. I grab my coat and walked along the street. Where is my destination? I don't know either. I need sometime to think, so I let my feet guide me. Heero POV Aching...My heart is aching...What can I do to stop it? I clutch the blankets tight, my mind is screaming 'I miss him' over and over again. I bury my head with the pillow but Trowa's sad melodies aren't going away. Crying...My mind is crying...now I know I can't stay here anymore. I get up and driving in the dark. I drive to his apartment that I've never been to before. I always knew where he lived but I never dared to face him privatly. All the time I was afraid of my feelings. I tell myself everyday to forget him, I thought I could handle this situation...but I failed... I reach his apartment but he isn't here...it's almost midnight, where else he can be? Trowa POV Where am I? I saw the deserted graves and a dim light from a short lamppost.. The cemetary? Why am I here...I clear my thoughts and walked to the church. I smile bitterly. This is where they were married, where Heero vowed to stayed with her till death do they part... I reach the old bench just like that day...but no one's here tonight... so I force my legs to step forward, pass the open air space and stop where they used to stand together... Slowly, I just realized that my tears weren't dry; they never dried. At least in my mind they were still pouring like an endless rain... Heero POV I have nowhere to go, but I don't want to go back to my house.. her house. I think of that day, the last time I saw him. I really want to see him again... I drive to the church, even though I know that no one's there but if there's some place or something that can calm me down a bit, I'll take it at any cost. I park the car and face the church's front gate. The fence is chained but there's space for me to slip inside. I walk along side of the white marble structure. When I reach its end...God, I can't believe my eyes... "Trowa!" Heero calls out, he is half convinced that what he sees right now is his imagination. Trowa is standing here...sheding his tears. Trowa's heart skipped a beat at his name, and he knew exactly who's calling. He tries to wipe his tears but it was too late, Heero catches his wrist and stares at him. "Why are you crying?" That's it. That's what Trowa wants to hear... 'Why am I crying?... God...Heero..' "I was thinking about you" Trowa doesn't protest against Heero's hand on his wrist and his voice fades out with each syllable he speaks "Trowa..." Heero dared to think. 'Does he... Does he love me?' "Trowa.." he calls him again and draws their bodies close together. "Sorry, Heero. I didn't show up at your wedding." the taller boy's chin is resting on Heero's shoulder as they embrace each other. "I saw you." "I didn't come because I couldn't stand it." Trowa still see that scene clearly in his mind, in his nightmare. "Stand what?" "You, married to her." Just saying is hurt enough. "Trowa, I don't love her and never will... I...love you" Heero can't stand to suppress his longing to Trowa anymore. "Heero.." Trowa broke their contact to look at Heero's face...his deep blue eyes are staring back at him tenderly... He meant it. The time stopped before them. The moon that used to bind their heart but blind their eyes is shining above them...
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