Hesitation 6
Author's Note: Konnichiwa Minna-chan! I'm sorry I took so long to update this, but for the last month, I've been moving, then I went to New York, and after that incident with the World Trade Center and the Pentagon, I just didn't have the heart to do anything like writing my stories! But I promise, they will be updated! I Luve You all!
This story is dedicated to Pascale-chan...where ever you are...*sniffles*
~*Always, you Samurai Hime~*
*****
Slowly opening her eyes to reveal crystal blue shimmers, Usagi moaned in pain as she scanned the surroundings around her. White, it was all white, everything, from the walls, the curtains on the windows, to the bed she was lying on right now.
Could this be heaven? Usagi though silently. Her head swam like a fish tank, making her want to vomit, but she resisted that temptation to. She had to find out where she was first, and find her family to see if they're as badly injured as she thought they were.
Placing her right foot onto the white marble floor, Usagi stood up, only to feel a strike of pain enter her left sided ribs and she swung her right hand around them, screaming in pain.
As the pain began to dissappear, Usagi looked at the white door and winced. Two fairly familiar faces entered the room in a rush to help her up, which only hurt her even more.
"Duo, Quatre? Why are you doing here?" Usagi asked in a weak, fragile tone. Both boys smiles but seemed concerned.
"Well, you left one of your shopping bags in our car, so we drove around the neighbourhood to see where you were. We thought we lost you when Quatre heard a loud scream coming from one of the houses. There, we saw you and the rest of your family unconscious. It was all thanks to Quatre's big ears that saved your life!" Duo grinned.
Usagi turned her gaze to Quatre, as he began to flush immediatly. "Arigatou, Quatre." Usagi said in a faint whisper.
Quatre did nothing but gave a nervous laugh and looked around the room, trying to conjure up a new conversation. "Oy! There you guys are!"
Coming into the room were the other three. Trowa, Heero and Wufei. Usagi smiled as she greeted them with a nod. Her head and body bandaged in white gauze.
"Usagi, are you okay?" Wufei was the first to speak out of the three, and Usagi smiled in reply. Inside, it seemed like her body was tearing apart, but she didn't have the heart to tell the others, so she just kept it quiet.
"Hai, I'm very well, thanks to all of you."
"Hn." Heero grunted. His eyes were fixated onto Usagi's body as she conversed with the other four Gundam pilots. She had been through so much pain, he knew it, she knew it, but sadly he couldn't confess it to her. A perfect soldier must have no feelings for others, or the ice barrier will melt and killing will demolish into his system. He must no let it happen!
"So..." Usagi hesitated, fumbling with her thumbs as she bit her bottom lip and looked down at her bed-covers, hoping for the right answer from the five boys. "Is kaasan and the rest okay?"
All four blinked, unable to answer. Heero noticed the uncomfortable silence, so he answered for them. "Your father just woke up a few days ago. Your brother and mother haven't woke up in 2 weeks. We don't know if they can survive to see tomorrow."
"Oh," was Usagi's only answer. Her eyes glimmered with unshed tears as she closed her eyelids shut to push back the droplets of water leaking down her cheek. I can't let them die! It was all my fault, and I have to take responcibility for my actions! Hiding her hands under the blanket, she summoned the legendary Ginzuishou with her clasped hands to weaken the amount of light the Ginzuishou was radiating. Her eyes still shut, Usagi made a wish.
Onegai, I know I am taking you for granted right now, disrupting the outer planes with this wish and colliding the astral directions of the galaxy Nebula and Artemis, but please...Take this as my wish, please revive my mother and younger brother, Shingo. I ask for none other than the safe return of their eyes opening in front of me with a lively dance. Please...Grant thy Goddess's wish.
The Lengendary Ginzuishou began to vibrate rapidly, beaming with more energy than Usagi can ever imagine. Her palms began to seperate, and with a great beam of light that flashed through the whole room, the Ginzuishou was gone, and Usagi opened her eyes slowly.
"What was that?!?" Duo cried. "What the Hell was-"
"Sir Winner!" a slim nurse cried. She swung the door open and her eyes shimmered in excitement. "The rest, the rest of the lady's family members has awakened! Come! Come!" The nurse ran out, leaving the door open as she went to finish her other errands.
"Did you hear that, Usagi? Your Kaasan and Shingo are back! They're back! They're back!" Quatre laughed happily. "I knew it was good to make that wish at the Hikawa Jinja Temple!"
Usagi's face ashened. Hikawa Jinja, the temple that her best friend, Hino Rei used to own. It was such a beautiful place, Rei had put so much heart into it, but now, only her aging grandfather looks over it, with no relatives to pass the ancient temple down to. And the worse thing about that is that it was all her fault.
"Usagi, Usagi?" Duo snapped his fingers infront of Usagi, making her end the deep, painful trance that she was in. "Come on Usa, I'll bring you to see your family! Let's go!" He reached out his hand, but Usagi only looked up at him, and everlasting droplets of water ran down her face.
Tears....
"Usako! What's wrong?" Duo was really concerned, and urgently looking at the doorway, he screamed,"Somebody, Help! Get a Nurse or Doctor in here! Fast! Don't make me come out there!"
Usagi gently placed her hands between Duo's palms and rubbed it softly to calm his screaming, which many passer-byers scowled at. "Duo-san, it's okay, I'm alright. Really. Demo..." her eyes wandered the white marble floor nervously.
"But what, Usagi?" Quatre asked. He want to get closer to Usagi, but with the four boys already surrounding her, he could do notihng but stay at the back.
Usagi dropped to the floor and kneeled with her hands still between Duo's. Tears began to pour rapidly down her face. "Please! I beg you, please!" Her heart ached as she bowed her head down and sobbed harder than before. "Please, tell my family that I've died, and let them realize that they should move on now...Without me...Please..." Usagi's sobs weakened as her last plea became nothing but a small whisper.
Duo gently picked her up and placed her back onto the bed, his voice, rough, but soft in a way that made every word sound so sincere. "Usagi...You don't know what you're talking about. You're probably tired...Get some sleep and we'll talk about it later," he called, running his lightly tanned hand down Usagi's hair.
"No, I can't go to sleep! Please! Promise me! Promise me that you'll tell them!" Usagi cried. "Please!"
Wufei ran infront of Usagi and held her by the arms before Duo can defend her from his strong, manly grip. "Are you crazy Onna?!? Who in the world would not want a loving family? Who? Tell me! You have a great chance to be with your own family, and you're not taking it?!? Is this how women these days think?!? Tell me!"
The rest of the Gundam boys watched sadly as Wufei tried to knock some sense into the crying Usagi. "You don't understand!" Usako cried. "The Youma, the youma that did this to me, they'll come back to finish me off! I don't want my family hurt anymore! I Don't!"
Wufei fell silent and placed Usagi back down onto the bed. His eyes shimmering at the guilt of misunderstanding her thoughts. "I- I didn't know you thought that way..."
"Well, I do!" she hissed back. "Please, promise me...You have to promise me!"
"What's the point of lying to the ones you love, just to die later without spending your last days with them?" Trowa asked.
"I agree with Usagi." Heero murmured. Quatre looked at Heero, shocked at what he's saying.
"What do you mean you agree with Usako-chan, Heero?" Quatre's eyes flashed in confusion.
"Guilt is the most fatal counterpart of hate. It looms in your mind forever, and will only cause more pain for the victims. Why not let one lose love, than let one be scorned for the rest of eternity, knowing that they could save the ones they love, but not doing anything to stop it?"
The room went silent as Usagi smiled at Heero, murmuring a thank you towards his general direction. Heero didn't answer, but nearly flushed at Usagi's adoring smile towards him.
"Well, let's go then!" Wufei said, sighing in defeat, he pushed the rest out of the room when he saw Usagi signalling him back.
"Matte, please!" she called. Wufei walked beside her bed and sat down as Usagi picked out five travelling tickets, one falling to the floor which Usagi didn't bother to pick up.
"Here." she said, and placed the tickets in Wufei's left shirt pocket. "Please give this to Poppa-san when you see him. My last wish," she smiled.
Wufei looked at them and noticed they were ship and plane, combo tickets. He looked at Usagi, confused.
"Please, give this to poppa-san and tell him to go with the rest of them, the flight and preparations are for tomorrow, so please give it to him as soon as you can," she pleaded.
"But, But how did you get so much money to get these tickets?"
"I have my ways," she grinned, and placed her left hand behind her back, the Lengendary Ginzuishou appearing before her hand as she tightened her grasp on it.
"Okay," Wufei sighed, and stood up to leave.
"Matte!" the Odango haired princess cried.
"What Now?!?" Wufei screamed in an abnormaly annoying, but cute tone.
She kneeled on her knees and took Wufei by the chin, giving him a gentle kiss on the lips. "Arigatou," she whispered.
Wufei flushed and ran out of the room, leaving a smiling Usagi behind.
*****
The ferry ship called one last time as it departed from the shoreline it was at. Rays of the emerging sunlight warmed the whole dock as Usagi leaned against the shoreline's steel bars and watched as the ship which carried her loving family in , sailed away to the horizon.
A small smile escaped from Usagi's lips.
Footsteps were heard from behind her as it tapped onto the concrete floor. A lone figure rested his arms onto the bar and watched the ship go as he stood beside Usagi.
"Feeling sad?" the figure called.
A gentle breeze played with Usagi's light, springing hair, and she acknowledged with a 'no'. " I'm actually quite happy," she sighed.
"Why? You may never see them again."
"Yes, but it is better to have loved and loss, than to have never experienced love before."
"You changed some of the words in that old phrase."
"So you've noticed!" Usagi laughed playfully.
"I've never loved before."
"Really? Well, I guess I shall be the first one to try and win your heart, ne?"
Usagi pecked the shadowed figure's cheek before she waved goodbye and left running home.
Crimson red colours shone across the boy's face, as he touched his cheek and blinked wide eyed. The wind once again danced with the boy's moss green hair.
To be Continued...
I hope you like this chapter! There might be some errors in here, since I didn't really feel very inspired after the New York and Washington incident, but I'll try to please you people too! But sadly, since I'm in such a bad and paranoid mood because of the planes incident, I might not continue without 5 or more good reviews...
I Lu you all! Owari!
*Hugs and Kisses!*
Author's Note: Konnichiwa Minna-chan! I'm sorry I took so long to update this, but for the last month, I've been moving, then I went to New York, and after that incident with the World Trade Center and the Pentagon, I just didn't have the heart to do anything like writing my stories! But I promise, they will be updated! I Luve You all!
This story is dedicated to Pascale-chan...where ever you are...*sniffles*
~*Always, you Samurai Hime~*
*****
Slowly opening her eyes to reveal crystal blue shimmers, Usagi moaned in pain as she scanned the surroundings around her. White, it was all white, everything, from the walls, the curtains on the windows, to the bed she was lying on right now.
Could this be heaven? Usagi though silently. Her head swam like a fish tank, making her want to vomit, but she resisted that temptation to. She had to find out where she was first, and find her family to see if they're as badly injured as she thought they were.
Placing her right foot onto the white marble floor, Usagi stood up, only to feel a strike of pain enter her left sided ribs and she swung her right hand around them, screaming in pain.
As the pain began to dissappear, Usagi looked at the white door and winced. Two fairly familiar faces entered the room in a rush to help her up, which only hurt her even more.
"Duo, Quatre? Why are you doing here?" Usagi asked in a weak, fragile tone. Both boys smiles but seemed concerned.
"Well, you left one of your shopping bags in our car, so we drove around the neighbourhood to see where you were. We thought we lost you when Quatre heard a loud scream coming from one of the houses. There, we saw you and the rest of your family unconscious. It was all thanks to Quatre's big ears that saved your life!" Duo grinned.
Usagi turned her gaze to Quatre, as he began to flush immediatly. "Arigatou, Quatre." Usagi said in a faint whisper.
Quatre did nothing but gave a nervous laugh and looked around the room, trying to conjure up a new conversation. "Oy! There you guys are!"
Coming into the room were the other three. Trowa, Heero and Wufei. Usagi smiled as she greeted them with a nod. Her head and body bandaged in white gauze.
"Usagi, are you okay?" Wufei was the first to speak out of the three, and Usagi smiled in reply. Inside, it seemed like her body was tearing apart, but she didn't have the heart to tell the others, so she just kept it quiet.
"Hai, I'm very well, thanks to all of you."
"Hn." Heero grunted. His eyes were fixated onto Usagi's body as she conversed with the other four Gundam pilots. She had been through so much pain, he knew it, she knew it, but sadly he couldn't confess it to her. A perfect soldier must have no feelings for others, or the ice barrier will melt and killing will demolish into his system. He must no let it happen!
"So..." Usagi hesitated, fumbling with her thumbs as she bit her bottom lip and looked down at her bed-covers, hoping for the right answer from the five boys. "Is kaasan and the rest okay?"
All four blinked, unable to answer. Heero noticed the uncomfortable silence, so he answered for them. "Your father just woke up a few days ago. Your brother and mother haven't woke up in 2 weeks. We don't know if they can survive to see tomorrow."
"Oh," was Usagi's only answer. Her eyes glimmered with unshed tears as she closed her eyelids shut to push back the droplets of water leaking down her cheek. I can't let them die! It was all my fault, and I have to take responcibility for my actions! Hiding her hands under the blanket, she summoned the legendary Ginzuishou with her clasped hands to weaken the amount of light the Ginzuishou was radiating. Her eyes still shut, Usagi made a wish.
Onegai, I know I am taking you for granted right now, disrupting the outer planes with this wish and colliding the astral directions of the galaxy Nebula and Artemis, but please...Take this as my wish, please revive my mother and younger brother, Shingo. I ask for none other than the safe return of their eyes opening in front of me with a lively dance. Please...Grant thy Goddess's wish.
The Lengendary Ginzuishou began to vibrate rapidly, beaming with more energy than Usagi can ever imagine. Her palms began to seperate, and with a great beam of light that flashed through the whole room, the Ginzuishou was gone, and Usagi opened her eyes slowly.
"What was that?!?" Duo cried. "What the Hell was-"
"Sir Winner!" a slim nurse cried. She swung the door open and her eyes shimmered in excitement. "The rest, the rest of the lady's family members has awakened! Come! Come!" The nurse ran out, leaving the door open as she went to finish her other errands.
"Did you hear that, Usagi? Your Kaasan and Shingo are back! They're back! They're back!" Quatre laughed happily. "I knew it was good to make that wish at the Hikawa Jinja Temple!"
Usagi's face ashened. Hikawa Jinja, the temple that her best friend, Hino Rei used to own. It was such a beautiful place, Rei had put so much heart into it, but now, only her aging grandfather looks over it, with no relatives to pass the ancient temple down to. And the worse thing about that is that it was all her fault.
"Usagi, Usagi?" Duo snapped his fingers infront of Usagi, making her end the deep, painful trance that she was in. "Come on Usa, I'll bring you to see your family! Let's go!" He reached out his hand, but Usagi only looked up at him, and everlasting droplets of water ran down her face.
Tears....
"Usako! What's wrong?" Duo was really concerned, and urgently looking at the doorway, he screamed,"Somebody, Help! Get a Nurse or Doctor in here! Fast! Don't make me come out there!"
Usagi gently placed her hands between Duo's palms and rubbed it softly to calm his screaming, which many passer-byers scowled at. "Duo-san, it's okay, I'm alright. Really. Demo..." her eyes wandered the white marble floor nervously.
"But what, Usagi?" Quatre asked. He want to get closer to Usagi, but with the four boys already surrounding her, he could do notihng but stay at the back.
Usagi dropped to the floor and kneeled with her hands still between Duo's. Tears began to pour rapidly down her face. "Please! I beg you, please!" Her heart ached as she bowed her head down and sobbed harder than before. "Please, tell my family that I've died, and let them realize that they should move on now...Without me...Please..." Usagi's sobs weakened as her last plea became nothing but a small whisper.
Duo gently picked her up and placed her back onto the bed, his voice, rough, but soft in a way that made every word sound so sincere. "Usagi...You don't know what you're talking about. You're probably tired...Get some sleep and we'll talk about it later," he called, running his lightly tanned hand down Usagi's hair.
"No, I can't go to sleep! Please! Promise me! Promise me that you'll tell them!" Usagi cried. "Please!"
Wufei ran infront of Usagi and held her by the arms before Duo can defend her from his strong, manly grip. "Are you crazy Onna?!? Who in the world would not want a loving family? Who? Tell me! You have a great chance to be with your own family, and you're not taking it?!? Is this how women these days think?!? Tell me!"
The rest of the Gundam boys watched sadly as Wufei tried to knock some sense into the crying Usagi. "You don't understand!" Usako cried. "The Youma, the youma that did this to me, they'll come back to finish me off! I don't want my family hurt anymore! I Don't!"
Wufei fell silent and placed Usagi back down onto the bed. His eyes shimmering at the guilt of misunderstanding her thoughts. "I- I didn't know you thought that way..."
"Well, I do!" she hissed back. "Please, promise me...You have to promise me!"
"What's the point of lying to the ones you love, just to die later without spending your last days with them?" Trowa asked.
"I agree with Usagi." Heero murmured. Quatre looked at Heero, shocked at what he's saying.
"What do you mean you agree with Usako-chan, Heero?" Quatre's eyes flashed in confusion.
"Guilt is the most fatal counterpart of hate. It looms in your mind forever, and will only cause more pain for the victims. Why not let one lose love, than let one be scorned for the rest of eternity, knowing that they could save the ones they love, but not doing anything to stop it?"
The room went silent as Usagi smiled at Heero, murmuring a thank you towards his general direction. Heero didn't answer, but nearly flushed at Usagi's adoring smile towards him.
"Well, let's go then!" Wufei said, sighing in defeat, he pushed the rest out of the room when he saw Usagi signalling him back.
"Matte, please!" she called. Wufei walked beside her bed and sat down as Usagi picked out five travelling tickets, one falling to the floor which Usagi didn't bother to pick up.
"Here." she said, and placed the tickets in Wufei's left shirt pocket. "Please give this to Poppa-san when you see him. My last wish," she smiled.
Wufei looked at them and noticed they were ship and plane, combo tickets. He looked at Usagi, confused.
"Please, give this to poppa-san and tell him to go with the rest of them, the flight and preparations are for tomorrow, so please give it to him as soon as you can," she pleaded.
"But, But how did you get so much money to get these tickets?"
"I have my ways," she grinned, and placed her left hand behind her back, the Lengendary Ginzuishou appearing before her hand as she tightened her grasp on it.
"Okay," Wufei sighed, and stood up to leave.
"Matte!" the Odango haired princess cried.
"What Now?!?" Wufei screamed in an abnormaly annoying, but cute tone.
She kneeled on her knees and took Wufei by the chin, giving him a gentle kiss on the lips. "Arigatou," she whispered.
Wufei flushed and ran out of the room, leaving a smiling Usagi behind.
*****
The ferry ship called one last time as it departed from the shoreline it was at. Rays of the emerging sunlight warmed the whole dock as Usagi leaned against the shoreline's steel bars and watched as the ship which carried her loving family in , sailed away to the horizon.
A small smile escaped from Usagi's lips.
Footsteps were heard from behind her as it tapped onto the concrete floor. A lone figure rested his arms onto the bar and watched the ship go as he stood beside Usagi.
"Feeling sad?" the figure called.
A gentle breeze played with Usagi's light, springing hair, and she acknowledged with a 'no'. " I'm actually quite happy," she sighed.
"Why? You may never see them again."
"Yes, but it is better to have loved and loss, than to have never experienced love before."
"You changed some of the words in that old phrase."
"So you've noticed!" Usagi laughed playfully.
"I've never loved before."
"Really? Well, I guess I shall be the first one to try and win your heart, ne?"
Usagi pecked the shadowed figure's cheek before she waved goodbye and left running home.
Crimson red colours shone across the boy's face, as he touched his cheek and blinked wide eyed. The wind once again danced with the boy's moss green hair.
To be Continued...
I hope you like this chapter! There might be some errors in here, since I didn't really feel very inspired after the New York and Washington incident, but I'll try to please you people too! But sadly, since I'm in such a bad and paranoid mood because of the planes incident, I might not continue without 5 or more good reviews...
I Lu you all! Owari!
*Hugs and Kisses!*