"By You"
by: Ellis McDohl
First entry: September 13, 2001
Last entry: September 16, 2001
Disclaimer: You know who they belong to! They belong to Capcom!
Author's note:
Ah, hello... Here I am again... Me and my confused thoughts. This is Zero some time before MMX5 and after MMX4. Here I go once again... I hope you enjoy...
Ellis McDohl
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"By You"
by: Ellis McDohl
Have you ever heard the saying "It is better to be killed by the one you love"? I know I have. I've read it from a book somewhere... I don't remember which book was that though.
Others may think it's strange but I believe this.
I believe it's better to die in a love one's hands than any other. I have no idea why I do believe that. Maybe it's because I have someone I love. If I should die in anyone's hands I wish it would be him.
For of all people, he has the right to do that. I have caused great bitterness to him. Maybe if I hadn't come, his life would've been simpler... more peaceful. Vaguely, I am aware of the mission my creator has given me. I know them because I see it... always in my dreams...
Destroy...
Kill...
But how can I do that when I have grown to love him? Sometimes, I think he's so fragile, like a drowning, little bird. You have to hold him carefully in your palms to make sure he doesn't break. So fragile... Like a crystal...
He hates to fight. I know that only too well. I can see him when he doesn't want me to his pain. It hurts... so much... here... in my heart... I wish I could take all that pain away from him, carry all that burden for him.
...But he doesn't want me to.
He will carry it on his own.
The only thing I could do is to stay beside him. Keep him safe... and get hurt for him...
He told me, he'd be fine... Many, many times he had said that but I don't believe that. He told me not to get hurt for him. But I feel that I need to... Because this is the only thing I could do for him. I want to help him... I want...
"Zero? You're still out here?"
I didn't turn yet in my mind's eyes, I can see him standing there with a small smile on his lips and his blue eyes shinning as he looked at me from where I stood. He walked to join me, while the sun began to set, coloring the sky gold and red.
I can feel his eyes on me, as if searching for something he could not find. He then turned to the sunset, watching it with me on that cliff near the hunter base, under the tree that knew many hellos and good-byes.
"I came to call you." he said.
"Why...?" I asked. "Did something happen, X?"
X shook his head. "No." He replied. "Dr. Cain just called us, that's all."
There was silence between us. The wind blew, caressing my face with its coolness. X continued to look at me, searching for things I knew I had to hide for a little while longer.
"I'll be there shortly..." I reply.
He nods and I hear his footsteps as he walks back to the base. I sigh and turn to see him walking away from me. I know that day will come. But I still don't know how soon.
But if I'd fall by anyone's hands... I wish it'd by you.
END
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Further notes:
Excuse me, I've been thinking about a few things and I realized I'm out of the writer's block...(Am I?) but I'm still confused...
I got that sentence from a Manga by Clamp (those who made Magic Knight Rayearth, Card captor sakura...) called X/1999. That's also the reason why it's PG-13... It's a little morbid but...
Anyway, I don't own any one them. If you wish to flame me, go ahead just please go easy okay?
...Um... bye for now.
Ellis McDohl
by: Ellis McDohl
First entry: September 13, 2001
Last entry: September 16, 2001
Disclaimer: You know who they belong to! They belong to Capcom!
Author's note:
Ah, hello... Here I am again... Me and my confused thoughts. This is Zero some time before MMX5 and after MMX4. Here I go once again... I hope you enjoy...
Ellis McDohl
*****************************************
"By You"
by: Ellis McDohl
Have you ever heard the saying "It is better to be killed by the one you love"? I know I have. I've read it from a book somewhere... I don't remember which book was that though.
Others may think it's strange but I believe this.
I believe it's better to die in a love one's hands than any other. I have no idea why I do believe that. Maybe it's because I have someone I love. If I should die in anyone's hands I wish it would be him.
For of all people, he has the right to do that. I have caused great bitterness to him. Maybe if I hadn't come, his life would've been simpler... more peaceful. Vaguely, I am aware of the mission my creator has given me. I know them because I see it... always in my dreams...
Destroy...
Kill...
But how can I do that when I have grown to love him? Sometimes, I think he's so fragile, like a drowning, little bird. You have to hold him carefully in your palms to make sure he doesn't break. So fragile... Like a crystal...
He hates to fight. I know that only too well. I can see him when he doesn't want me to his pain. It hurts... so much... here... in my heart... I wish I could take all that pain away from him, carry all that burden for him.
...But he doesn't want me to.
He will carry it on his own.
The only thing I could do is to stay beside him. Keep him safe... and get hurt for him...
He told me, he'd be fine... Many, many times he had said that but I don't believe that. He told me not to get hurt for him. But I feel that I need to... Because this is the only thing I could do for him. I want to help him... I want...
"Zero? You're still out here?"
I didn't turn yet in my mind's eyes, I can see him standing there with a small smile on his lips and his blue eyes shinning as he looked at me from where I stood. He walked to join me, while the sun began to set, coloring the sky gold and red.
I can feel his eyes on me, as if searching for something he could not find. He then turned to the sunset, watching it with me on that cliff near the hunter base, under the tree that knew many hellos and good-byes.
"I came to call you." he said.
"Why...?" I asked. "Did something happen, X?"
X shook his head. "No." He replied. "Dr. Cain just called us, that's all."
There was silence between us. The wind blew, caressing my face with its coolness. X continued to look at me, searching for things I knew I had to hide for a little while longer.
"I'll be there shortly..." I reply.
He nods and I hear his footsteps as he walks back to the base. I sigh and turn to see him walking away from me. I know that day will come. But I still don't know how soon.
But if I'd fall by anyone's hands... I wish it'd by you.
END
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Further notes:
Excuse me, I've been thinking about a few things and I realized I'm out of the writer's block...(Am I?) but I'm still confused...
I got that sentence from a Manga by Clamp (those who made Magic Knight Rayearth, Card captor sakura...) called X/1999. That's also the reason why it's PG-13... It's a little morbid but...
Anyway, I don't own any one them. If you wish to flame me, go ahead just please go easy okay?
...Um... bye for now.
Ellis McDohl