Authors Notes
Invader Zim is not mine , my good sweet god i wish it was , but that flawless honor is Jhonen Vasquez's .
( WE LOVE YOUUUU !!! ^^ )
ZimLover / Horuka , a.ka. me , Blackwing , Raenaffel , Ivy and so forth are copyrighted by me --
Dont use them in other fanfics , unless one , you ask me , and i say yes , and two , they are at least somewhat tastefully used , please ! _
Aqua Marine ( my best buddy ) owns Cassidy , Terra and Orion , ( Our baby boy at the moment )
( thankies to you for writing this with me -- its soo much funnn !^^ )
As a last note , this is a followup to " Asent " . Read and review both please ! ILOVE REVIEWS !!!
AND IT TOOK ME FOREVER TO TRANSLATE THE RPG SCRIPT FOR YOU !!! -
--- So no flames .. those hurt and are completly unneeded -- have some consideration please .
With love ,
: ZimLover_05
***************************************************************************
-- For our two favorite boys in the whole world , Zim and Dib ,
and for my " Maid Of Honor " , Aqua , who made me want to become an author .
I love you all soo much !!
=^ ^=
**************************************************************************************
Chapter Three
" Exile "
" Longing haunts the sprirt day and night ,
Bitter and sweet , tormenting the weary heart . "
" Between doubt and fear , between a blink and a tear , it will linger . "
" ...............Rest and fear taking flight . "
Red , my sire .
...I killed him to save her .
The ultimate crime for an Irkan to commit .
..Yet i didn't hesitate .
Zim had been thinking about the past for a few nights .. he found it within himself to mourn it , because somehow , he knew it would never be the same again .
The tallest , knew what it was to be changed ; as he had reminded himself before ,
even Purple had known an outsider's kiss , and been transformed by it .
He had once upon a time been an innocent .
.....Someone like her .
.....no .
No one was like Horuka .
" She was my first love ,
my angel ..."
" She never thought wrong of my head , hand or heart . "
" Im not saying it was an easy thing -- she had a warrior's spirit , thats for sure --
but Love was never an easy thing for me . "
".... I guess Red wanted it this way --
That if i ever came close , that my soul was ever still ..
..i'd lose it ....
...become alone again .....
....Dark , like him . "
" No love , no peace , just me and my demons .. "
" ......Six Months and a Universe away , and i still became my father . "
And thats what it all boiled down to ;
his grief had a name .
...Horuka .
His instinct tempted him , mercessly .
Earth , he had corrupted ,
...Raenaffel , he had failed .
.....She , had gone .
Horuka , who's trust was as shattered as her heart ....
....who ran from the one she used to run to .
" Oh , beloved ...."
Every image he'd recalled , reliving them like the day was then , related to his bride to be .
He had fallen in love with her , when she saved his life ...
He remebered her shadow falling over him in the noon sun , her arms wide , her eyes shining -- selfless .
She stepped in front of the tallest and offered her death in place of his own .
" I wont let you ! " she had pressed .
The pain washed over him as easilly as the stinging rain that fell would .
But for her he would swim the seas ,
come back fried -- die .
...ZimLover ...
Lastly, he remembered their day,
their only day--
when he finally realized it all ,
..what hurt worst of all .
Illinois , 2001
ZimLover had awoken from an uneasy sleep that day , and when he saw her face , he knew something had to be wrong -- after a half hour of waiting out front , she emerged , shouldering her bag , distraught as she passed him .
Zim asked aqua what was wrong , but she would not explain -- it seemed too harsh for her to speak , and he gave in -- drawing back into the lab .
She had sat on the steps , deep in thought and tears -- this was no ordinary dream to her -- the death Irkans played games with her thought -- they drank her fears like wine , and her feelings for him had not given ease to her heart with this , if anything , hurt her more .
She walked to his door , knocking the frame , lightly .
Hearing the framilar noise of fist on his door , he turned from the chip work , and opened his door a crack .
Glancing up at his tan love , he opened it all the way .
" What is wrong ? " he asked her .
" You'll never bielive me , she said .
"But how will you know if you dont tell me ? "
She gave in . " I'll tell you , just -- she bit her lip .
" Its that bad ? he asked .
" Yes , she confessed ,
but just -- stay with me ...."
He lead her in , and she took a deep breath as she sat on the lab table beside him .
" .....They sent me another vision last night ...."
" ....it wasn't the same .."
" what was it ? He questioned , as a look of fear crossed her face .
" It's horrid ....you --
you........ "
" ...I what ? "
" K-killed ...
--me . "
His eyes immeadatly turned wide .
" WHAT??
I KILLED YOU ?!! "
She shivered , almost tasting the blood that poured from her lips that night .
"...yes ....
...i even felt the knife . "
Zim jumped off the table at once .
" B-B-B-But how can that be possible ?! "
" Why would i kill YOU ??! "
She started crying , a fury burning in her words .
" They dont want us here -- like this "
She kicked the chair , her eyes narrowing .
" You BASTARDS ! She cried ,
"Why wont you let us be !? "
ZIM stepped beside her .
" AH ! CALM DOWN ! "
She fell on her knees ,the tears glistening on her tan skin .
" ...the wost part of it was ...
...you liked it ... "
Zim bent down on his knees too , trying to give her solace , he lifted her chin with her fingers , the tears gliding slowly .
" None of that it is true and you know that , he spoke ,
i wouldn't hurt you and like it . "
She leaned on his shoulder , feeling him breath , trying to calm herself
" I-it was so real ..thats why i didnt dare comfront you .."
She opened her book , where she wrote it down , earlier on , and he read it -- his face falling to shock .
She looked away , wiping a few of the tears from her eyes , trying to catch her choked up breath .
He dropped the book and placed his arms around her .
" Im sorry for getting you caught up in this ....."
She leaned her head on his chest .
" No , im sorry -- this is my fault , she cried .
you are stronger than i . "
"....I -im afraid , zim . "
" No , he said , looking into her eyes .
" I am the weak one . "
" ....I mean , taking over a planet to prove myself , when i made a fool of myself at the start ?.... "
".....That was weak -- your'e the strong one .. and you still are . "
She looked up at him
" Even if that is true , zim , what if they trap your'e thought -- like dib's were -- what then?...."
He tried to speak , but even his words were uncertain
" ..I dont know what to say about that , i -- "
"You dont have to , she said . "
Her eyes were true and honest .
" Just tell me something , zim .."
" ...what's that ? "
"... Do you love me ?...." she asked , her voice trembling .
" ...Yes . I love you . "
And when he replied , her eyes brightened in wonder , even though the tears were still there .
He loved Horuka . He knew what it was she had wanted to hear for such a long time , but never dared to ;
And yet there was a hope with his own words as he held her in his arms , but then ...
" ...I love you too, Zim . "
She loved him . And now , knowing that , he had so much less to lose .
" ..And if you do , she spoke , than thats all I'll ever need to know . "
And Right there , and then , they kissed .
His heart pounded along with hers , holding the knowledge that the kiss was the beginning of something much bigger ; this was a seal , a promise , and a first step .
When they stopped , she looked into his crimson eyes , deeply , and she whispered ;
" I -i never thought -- "
He brushed her cheek with the palm of his hand , so gentilly .
" I'd never hurt you ...."
Zim shivered as he looked out on the town , his words ringing false in his mind .
" how could i let this happen ....oh , Horuka , where are you ? "
But zim wasn't aware that on another rooftop , he was being watched .
Her name was Aqua ,
and what she saw was awespiring in this troubled plane of exsistance .
--An Invader with a soul .
As far as she knew ,
Blackwing was the only one of thr brainwashed population to recover Humanity -- his free will .
In Aqua 's mind that made him an intensely tragic figure .
Also , brave .
But a victim .
But also , a victor .
A boy with a burden .
..And a purpose .
A boy who , when he looked out over the city , must surely had to muse about how he lived ,
how he would die , and how , with his soul torn , he would keep it up .
"I can walk like a human ,
but i am not . " he had once told her .
But she looked into his own eyes , as truthful as ever and said ,
" It doesn't matter my friend . "
So what am i ? His mind concurred , snapping him back to the present .
" What am i ....?"
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***
end of chapter three
Invader Zim is not mine , my good sweet god i wish it was , but that flawless honor is Jhonen Vasquez's .
( WE LOVE YOUUUU !!! ^^ )
ZimLover / Horuka , a.ka. me , Blackwing , Raenaffel , Ivy and so forth are copyrighted by me --
Dont use them in other fanfics , unless one , you ask me , and i say yes , and two , they are at least somewhat tastefully used , please ! _
Aqua Marine ( my best buddy ) owns Cassidy , Terra and Orion , ( Our baby boy at the moment )
( thankies to you for writing this with me -- its soo much funnn !^^ )
As a last note , this is a followup to " Asent " . Read and review both please ! ILOVE REVIEWS !!!
AND IT TOOK ME FOREVER TO TRANSLATE THE RPG SCRIPT FOR YOU !!! -
--- So no flames .. those hurt and are completly unneeded -- have some consideration please .
With love ,
: ZimLover_05
***************************************************************************
-- For our two favorite boys in the whole world , Zim and Dib ,
and for my " Maid Of Honor " , Aqua , who made me want to become an author .
I love you all soo much !!
=^ ^=
**************************************************************************************
Chapter Three
" Exile "
" Longing haunts the sprirt day and night ,
Bitter and sweet , tormenting the weary heart . "
" Between doubt and fear , between a blink and a tear , it will linger . "
" ...............Rest and fear taking flight . "
Red , my sire .
...I killed him to save her .
The ultimate crime for an Irkan to commit .
..Yet i didn't hesitate .
Zim had been thinking about the past for a few nights .. he found it within himself to mourn it , because somehow , he knew it would never be the same again .
The tallest , knew what it was to be changed ; as he had reminded himself before ,
even Purple had known an outsider's kiss , and been transformed by it .
He had once upon a time been an innocent .
.....Someone like her .
.....no .
No one was like Horuka .
" She was my first love ,
my angel ..."
" She never thought wrong of my head , hand or heart . "
" Im not saying it was an easy thing -- she had a warrior's spirit , thats for sure --
but Love was never an easy thing for me . "
".... I guess Red wanted it this way --
That if i ever came close , that my soul was ever still ..
..i'd lose it ....
...become alone again .....
....Dark , like him . "
" No love , no peace , just me and my demons .. "
" ......Six Months and a Universe away , and i still became my father . "
And thats what it all boiled down to ;
his grief had a name .
...Horuka .
His instinct tempted him , mercessly .
Earth , he had corrupted ,
...Raenaffel , he had failed .
.....She , had gone .
Horuka , who's trust was as shattered as her heart ....
....who ran from the one she used to run to .
" Oh , beloved ...."
Every image he'd recalled , reliving them like the day was then , related to his bride to be .
He had fallen in love with her , when she saved his life ...
He remebered her shadow falling over him in the noon sun , her arms wide , her eyes shining -- selfless .
She stepped in front of the tallest and offered her death in place of his own .
" I wont let you ! " she had pressed .
The pain washed over him as easilly as the stinging rain that fell would .
But for her he would swim the seas ,
come back fried -- die .
...ZimLover ...
Lastly, he remembered their day,
their only day--
when he finally realized it all ,
..what hurt worst of all .
Illinois , 2001
ZimLover had awoken from an uneasy sleep that day , and when he saw her face , he knew something had to be wrong -- after a half hour of waiting out front , she emerged , shouldering her bag , distraught as she passed him .
Zim asked aqua what was wrong , but she would not explain -- it seemed too harsh for her to speak , and he gave in -- drawing back into the lab .
She had sat on the steps , deep in thought and tears -- this was no ordinary dream to her -- the death Irkans played games with her thought -- they drank her fears like wine , and her feelings for him had not given ease to her heart with this , if anything , hurt her more .
She walked to his door , knocking the frame , lightly .
Hearing the framilar noise of fist on his door , he turned from the chip work , and opened his door a crack .
Glancing up at his tan love , he opened it all the way .
" What is wrong ? " he asked her .
" You'll never bielive me , she said .
"But how will you know if you dont tell me ? "
She gave in . " I'll tell you , just -- she bit her lip .
" Its that bad ? he asked .
" Yes , she confessed ,
but just -- stay with me ...."
He lead her in , and she took a deep breath as she sat on the lab table beside him .
" .....They sent me another vision last night ...."
" ....it wasn't the same .."
" what was it ? He questioned , as a look of fear crossed her face .
" It's horrid ....you --
you........ "
" ...I what ? "
" K-killed ...
--me . "
His eyes immeadatly turned wide .
" WHAT??
I KILLED YOU ?!! "
She shivered , almost tasting the blood that poured from her lips that night .
"...yes ....
...i even felt the knife . "
Zim jumped off the table at once .
" B-B-B-But how can that be possible ?! "
" Why would i kill YOU ??! "
She started crying , a fury burning in her words .
" They dont want us here -- like this "
She kicked the chair , her eyes narrowing .
" You BASTARDS ! She cried ,
"Why wont you let us be !? "
ZIM stepped beside her .
" AH ! CALM DOWN ! "
She fell on her knees ,the tears glistening on her tan skin .
" ...the wost part of it was ...
...you liked it ... "
Zim bent down on his knees too , trying to give her solace , he lifted her chin with her fingers , the tears gliding slowly .
" None of that it is true and you know that , he spoke ,
i wouldn't hurt you and like it . "
She leaned on his shoulder , feeling him breath , trying to calm herself
" I-it was so real ..thats why i didnt dare comfront you .."
She opened her book , where she wrote it down , earlier on , and he read it -- his face falling to shock .
She looked away , wiping a few of the tears from her eyes , trying to catch her choked up breath .
He dropped the book and placed his arms around her .
" Im sorry for getting you caught up in this ....."
She leaned her head on his chest .
" No , im sorry -- this is my fault , she cried .
you are stronger than i . "
"....I -im afraid , zim . "
" No , he said , looking into her eyes .
" I am the weak one . "
" ....I mean , taking over a planet to prove myself , when i made a fool of myself at the start ?.... "
".....That was weak -- your'e the strong one .. and you still are . "
She looked up at him
" Even if that is true , zim , what if they trap your'e thought -- like dib's were -- what then?...."
He tried to speak , but even his words were uncertain
" ..I dont know what to say about that , i -- "
"You dont have to , she said . "
Her eyes were true and honest .
" Just tell me something , zim .."
" ...what's that ? "
"... Do you love me ?...." she asked , her voice trembling .
" ...Yes . I love you . "
And when he replied , her eyes brightened in wonder , even though the tears were still there .
He loved Horuka . He knew what it was she had wanted to hear for such a long time , but never dared to ;
And yet there was a hope with his own words as he held her in his arms , but then ...
" ...I love you too, Zim . "
She loved him . And now , knowing that , he had so much less to lose .
" ..And if you do , she spoke , than thats all I'll ever need to know . "
And Right there , and then , they kissed .
His heart pounded along with hers , holding the knowledge that the kiss was the beginning of something much bigger ; this was a seal , a promise , and a first step .
When they stopped , she looked into his crimson eyes , deeply , and she whispered ;
" I -i never thought -- "
He brushed her cheek with the palm of his hand , so gentilly .
" I'd never hurt you ...."
Zim shivered as he looked out on the town , his words ringing false in his mind .
" how could i let this happen ....oh , Horuka , where are you ? "
But zim wasn't aware that on another rooftop , he was being watched .
Her name was Aqua ,
and what she saw was awespiring in this troubled plane of exsistance .
--An Invader with a soul .
As far as she knew ,
Blackwing was the only one of thr brainwashed population to recover Humanity -- his free will .
In Aqua 's mind that made him an intensely tragic figure .
Also , brave .
But a victim .
But also , a victor .
A boy with a burden .
..And a purpose .
A boy who , when he looked out over the city , must surely had to muse about how he lived ,
how he would die , and how , with his soul torn , he would keep it up .
"I can walk like a human ,
but i am not . " he had once told her .
But she looked into his own eyes , as truthful as ever and said ,
" It doesn't matter my friend . "
So what am i ? His mind concurred , snapping him back to the present .
" What am i ....?"
***
***
end of chapter three