I kissed him, and I saw my future. And then I looked at him, and I saw all of the love in the
universe shining in his eyes. It left
me breathless.
I don't know why I fought it so hard, for so long. We're so right together. We fit.
We belong.
He grabbed my hand and kissed me on the cheek as he dragged
me off the dance floor. "Come with me,"
he whispered as he helped me into his car.
"Trust me."
"I do," I whispered.
I knew he could see all that was in his eyes reflecting in mine, but I
didn't care anymore. I don't know when
or how, but I've lost the will to try to fight it. I can't deny it anymore.
He's mine, and I'm his. Heart,
body and soul.
He smiled at me and started the car. He knew I wanted to ask him where we were
going, but I resisted, and he rewarded me when he intertwined his fingers with
mine.
I relaxed into the seat and closed my eyes as the full moon
hid behind a cloud. This was too good
to be real, better than any dream I've ever had, and if it was a dream, I
didn't want to know. I didn't want to
wake up.
And I'm losing the will to try
Can't hide it (can't hide it), can't fight it (can't
fight it)//
"Isabel," he whispered to me as he stopped the car. His voice was soft and low. We were at our spot – near where we camped
out sophomore year and gazed at the stars.
He helped me out of the car and laughed as I kicked off the heels I had
worn to the prom and tossed them in the car.
I grabbed his hand and we ran to the rocks that formed a natural seat.
He grinned at me again before his face turned serious. But I could still see the love twinkling in
his eyes, reflecting all of the stars in the sky, and I wasn't scared. I'm never scared when I'm with him. He pulled me into his arms, and I rested my
head against his chest. I could hear
his heart beating in unison with mine.
I had never felt such peace before.
"Izzy? What are we
doing?"
He gently kissed my forehead, and I felt butterflies in my
stomach. I nearly began to panic,
fearing he would reject me, as I had done to him, so many times. And then I remembered his beautiful eyes,
the eyes that never lied to me, and I abandoned my last futile attempt to try
and fight everything I felt for him. It
was time to tell him. It was far past
the time that he should know the truth.
"Alex…can you just kiss me, first, please? I promise I'll tell you everything," I
whispered, needing to borrow some of his strength before I could go on.
I could feel him smiling against my lips as he kissed me
softly. I felt all of the love in the
world when he kissed me. And when he
pulled away, he left me breathless.
//So go on, go on, come on, leave me breathless
Tempt me, tease me, until I can't deny
This loving feeling (loving feeling)
Make me long for your kiss
Go on (go on), go on (go on)
Yeah...
Come on
Yeah...//
"Alex, I'm sorry. I
tried to fight it, fight what I felt, from the very beginning. You're all I've ever wanted. I was just too scared."
"You were scared of me?"
"No, Alex, never of you.
I was scared of myself. What if
I couldn't love you the way you deserve to be loved? What if I had to leave you someday? What if you saw the real me and didn't like what you saw? What if loving you got you hurt
somehow? I couldn't handle it, so I
pushed you away. I hurt you, time after
time. I had always told myself that
getting involved with anyone – letting anyone in – would only end in hurt. For me, and for that person. I tried to convince myself that it didn't
matter that I wanted to be with you, or that you seemed to want to be with
me. The time we were together last year
– it was the best time of my life, Alex.
And then I pushed you away, and went out with Grant, because he wasn't
you. He didn't want to see the real me
– he didn't care enough to notice that there was something else - and I
could pretend I was normal. But it
didn't work. I couldn't convince myself
to love him, not like I loved you.
Because I wanted you too much, Alex. I tried to convince myself that I didn't care about you. That another man could replace you. Eventually, I realized that I was lying to
myself, and to you. Alex, you leave me
breathless. I'm tired of lying to
myself. From you, from our love, I
can't hide. And I don't want to, not
anymore. I love you, and only you."
Time seemed to stand still.
He was rubbing my back, over and over again, and I could feel his breath
on my cheek, but he didn't say anything.
I have never been so scared in my life as I was in that moment, not even
when I was facing Nicholas and the Skins.
And then I felt him smile against my cheek. "I said, once, that I would do anything to
protect you, Izzy. That's because I
love you."
I threw my arms around him and pulled him into the most
passionate kiss I've ever experienced.
"I just have one question," he whispered, as I tried to
catch my breath. "What about tomorrow?"
// And if there's no tomorrow
And all we have is here and now
I'm happy just to have you
You're all the love I need somehow
It's like a dream
Although I'm not asleep
And I never want to wake up
Don't lose it (don't lose it), don't leave it (don't
leave it)//
"I'm tired of worrying about tomorrow, Alex. I want to live for today. You are all I need, all I want, and I hope
you feel the same way. I just want to
hold on to you for all the time we have left."
"Sounds wonderful to me, sweetheart. That's all I've ever wanted." He grinned at me then, one of those
wonderful, cheesy, Alex Whitman-special grins.
"Are you sure this isn't a dream?"
"It isn't, and even if it was, I don't ever want to wake
up. I love you, Alex Whitman."
"I love you, too, Isabel Evans."
//So go on, go on, come on, leave me breathless
Tempt me, tease me, until I can't deny
This loving feeling (loving feeling)
Make me long for your kiss
Go on (go on), go on (go on)
Yeah...
Come on [echo...]
[Guitar's solo] Yeah-ie, yeah, yeah-ie, yeah...//
"We belong together, Alex.
I don't care what the alien who gave birth to me in a former life
says. She's not my mother. Diane Evans is. What that woman said doesn't matter. I don't belong with Michael – I belong with you. I know that now. I tried to fight it, but there was never any chance I could hide
from you. You are the one I want. You are the only man that I want to kiss me
for the rest of my life. I love you."
// And I can't lie
From you I cannot hide
And I've lost my will to try
Can't hide it (can't hide it), can't fight it, (can't
fight it)//
"I love you, Izzy. I
am so happy that you finally decided to let me in. You are all that I could ever want."
// So go on, (go on) go on, (go on), come on, leave me
breathless
Tempt me, tease me, until I can't deny
This loving feeling (loving feeling) Make me long for
your kiss
Go on, (go on) go on, (go on) come on, leave... me
breathless
Go on, (go on) go on, (go on) come on, leave... me
breathless
Go on, (go on) go on, (go on) come on, leave... me breathless
Go on... go on!//
