Disclaimer: not mine, I don't own any of it. Although it would be
cool if I
did own Josh Jackson, because then I would be able to... oh wait, this is
a
PG fic, sorry!
Dedication: this is for Robyn, Linz, Kimmi, and Rachel, for listening
to
me babble about one thing or another. Espescially Dawson's Creek.
The
dedication is mostly to Robyn and Rachel though, cause they were there
for
me the night of the prom episode...
Conflict
Pacey pushed his foot down harder on the gas pedal. He didn't know where
he
was going, but he knew that he needed to get away. Deep down, Pacey knew that
running away wouldn't solve the enormous conflict facing Joey and himself, but he
hoped to at least calm himself down for a little bit.
Pulling into the parking lot of an old bar, Pacey wiped beads of sweat from
his
forehead. He didn't want to think about his future right now, but trying to avoid it
was
only making it worse. Once inside the bar, Pacey signaled for someone to bring him
a
beer. A young blonde woman came over to him. She opened her mouth to ask for
an
ID, but seeing the look of sorrow on his face, she decided to let it slide and placed
the
drink on the table.
Pacey drank silently for an hour or so. He couldn't have been sure of the
exact
time. Finally, he stood up and sauntered to the door. The beer was beginning to
affect
Pacey, and he began to swerve slightly off the road. After about 10 minutes, Pacey
heard a siren in the distance. Cops. Pulling over, Pacey glanced in his rear view
mirror to see no one other than Doug approaching his car.
"For god sakes Pacey, how many times do I have to pull you over before you
realize that you are doing something wrong?" Doug asked his little brother.
Pacey sat motionless in the car, waiting for Doug to speak again. "You know
what, I don't really care what's wrong with you tonight, because it's always
something
with you Pacey." He told him. "Go home Pacey. Gretchen will be expecting you."
And
with that, Doug picked up his cell phone and headed back to his car. Pacey drove
off,
silent tears sliding down his cheeks.
Back at the Witter's beach house, Gretchen and Joey sat in silence waiting
for
Pacey, though each knew that it could be a while before he returned. That's when
the
phone rang. Gretchen picked it up and listened as Doug told her what had happened
to Pacey. Joey watched as Gretchen nodded, hung up the phone, and shaking her
head, walked back to Joey.
"Doug picked up Pacey on the highway. He was drunk. Doug sent him
home,
he should be here any minute." Gretchen told Joey. Joey looked away. Anger
surged
through her entire body. Just as she began to think of all the horrible things she
could
say to Pacey, he walked through the door. Before he even had a chance to speak,
Joey blew up at him.
"Are you out of your mind?" She asked him. Pacey looked into her eyes and
saw nothing but rage.
"Joey, can we please just talk about this?" He asked her, rubbing his head.
"NO! We can't talk about this, you are just going to shut your mouth and
listen
to me. I am having the worst damn day of my whole damn life and all you can do is
go
and get drunk?!?" Tears filled her eyes as she screamed at him.
"God dammit Jo! Don't you think that I'm having a bad day too? I'm only
18
years old, I can't deal with something like this! Do you have any idea how scared I
am
right now?" He shot back. Pacey looked back at Joey, and her eyes now showed
concern.
"You could have told me how you felt!" She cried, tears pouring down her
already red face. "Instead you had to go out and leave! How do you think that
made
me feel? I just found out that I'm pregnant and my boyfriend runs off without a
word! I
was terrified, terrified that you wouldn't come back.."
"Wouldn't come back? Jo, I'll always come back for you. I just needed to
get a grip on this whole thing. I wouldn't ever leave you. I love you." He spoke
softly, pulling Joey into his arms.
"I'm sorry." She told him. "I just can't do it alone." She relaxed into his
arms. He rocked her back and forth.
"You don't have to do it alone." He whispered. "I'll be here for you.
Forever. No matter what happens." Joey smiled. She couldn't believe that she had
ever doubted that he would come back. She knew that he loved her as much as she
loved him. In that moment, she felt perfect. In that moment, she forgot all of her
worries and just concentrated on being loved. Forever.