If ever you had said to me before
That I would live this life that I am
Living now I guess it's all so strange
To feel the way I do inisde but
Have so much that I could feel some
pride for in my life so why is it that
I feel like this
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He hung his head and stared at the little grains in the table

"You can't even look at me John!" Deb snapped,her cheeks pink with anger

Carter looked up,"Why?"

"Because you asked me.." her bottom lip started to shake,"How I felt about you..your addiction, you and .." Deb swallowed hard


"And?" he looked at her sadly

"I wanted a reaction from you.Some sort of confirmation that you're hearing what I have to say.I've been bottled up forever..."

Carter looked away sadly again,"I didn't mean to hurt you Deb.."

"Don't give me that again" she shot up and slid out of the booth

"What again!" Carter proclaimed

"All you've said to me was I didn't mean to hurt you..."

"I didn't"

Deb slid back into the booth and faced him,his hands in hers,"Tell me why you didn't mean to hurt me..."

"Because you mean alot to me"

She looked away

"I asked for you ..after the stabbing.You're the only who came to see me..called me in Atlanta" he took a deep breath,"That meant alot"

"I love you" they said together
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I try and try to break away from all the hate
I'm feeling for every one of you that's ever
done me wrong. I need to justify the reasons
for the way I'm living. I guess I can't 'cause
I don't feel like I deserve it