Just There to Die
Chapter Three: If Only You Knew.... The Pain I Feel Within
(Yes, I skipped over the Hokkan Shinzaho. Nothing happened. Everything just as was, with one more person fretting over Miaka and one more girl whimpering in pain.)
"Rami! Can you sense Miaka?" Tamahome asked.
"I... No... I'll try...." Rami panted, trying to catch her breath.
"Tamahome, she's exausted from the pain of being encased in ice," (Miaka was encased in ice, so was she) Mitsukake informed, "Rami, you'd better just rest,"
"How about we check in at an inn for the night and look for Miaka tomorrow?" Nuriko suggested.
"No!" Tamahome exclaimed, "There's no telling where Miaka will be by then, nore what will happen to her!"
"Look, nothing is going to happen to her! If anything happens to her, and I really mean if, Rami'll know first, right?" Nuriko gave Rami a weak grin.
"...." Tamahome gave in.
"Alright, everyone! We're going back to the inn," So the seven seishi and Guardian treked back down the mountain with Tamahome dragging behind.
"Miaka..."
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"So they betrayed both of us? Everything Nakago-sama said was true?" Yunzie asked Yui in a fearful voice.
"Yes, I'll never forgive Miaka," Yui replied softly as she finished braiding Yunzie's hair.
"And I'll never forgive Rami," Yunzie turned to face Yui and smiled, "Will you be my new Oneechan?"
"Hai, come now. We're heading to Sairou next," Yui informed Yunzie.
"Sairou koku? Where is that?" Yunzie asked innocently.
"Well, I heard it's in a big desert and...."
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Rami woke up with a start, 'It's gone.... I can't feel it anymore... I can still feel my bod with Yunzie, but something's missing.... Something important......' Rami climbed out of bed and walked outside. She wasn't cold. She loved the brisk winds in Hokkan for some reason She ventured out into a yard. It was a frozen wonderland. A still lake, frozen a good three feet on the surface, reflected the full moon making the whole yard glisten an eerie silver. A lone tree stood tall in one corner covered with ice spears that hung heavy on the branches. Everything was frozen solid or at least glazed over with ice. A flowering bush had fragil blue blossems on it. They too were frozen. Rami sat down in the middle of the frozen lake. So it wasn't the smartest thing to do, being all alone on that frozen surface helped clear her mind.
"Yunzie, if you can hear me, reply... Reply...." Rami cleared her throat and began to sing a soft melody.
'You're such a lucky girl,
That's what they always say,
Rich and beautiful and bright,
They don't get to see what's hidden deep inside,
So, I feel all alone,
They keep telling me, my life is so grand,
What will make them understand?
No one knows how truely lonely I am,
Why won't they understand?
I may act as if I'm strong,
But all I want is to belong,
Love and understanding from mom and Dad,
Is all I need to keep from beind sad,
If only I could just let go,
Help me let my feelings show....'
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Yunzie sat up in her bed, tired. She rubbed her eyes and looked out the tent at the full moon, "I wonder if Rami is looking at the moon too.... No, I'm mad at her, remember? I promised Yui-sama I would never fogive her...." She sniffled softly, "If only you were here, 'neechan..." (Hint, she's not talking about Rami) She cleared her voice and pushed all the weariness out of it. Then, she began to sing.
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Chichiri sighed, "I can't sleep, no da...." He sighed and opened his door. A soft voice carried to his ears through the brisk breeze, "Who's singing, no da?" He strolled down the hall slowly, wrapping a blanket around him tighter. He saw Rami in the garden out of the corner of his eye when..... Nuriko opened his door and slammed into Chichiri.
"Chichiri! I'm so sorry! Are you alright?" Nuriko helped Chichiri up.
"I've been better, no da..." Chichiri brushed himself off, "Why aren't you sleeping?"
"I came out to investivate the singing," Nuriko replied.
"You too, no da?" Chichiri asked, suprised.
"You mean that's why you're out?" Nuriko asked back.
"Hai, no da! I think it's Rami," He pointed down to the garden.
"Whatever she's signing, it sounds sad," Nuriko said to no one in paticular.
"Yeah, no da..."
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Rami opened her eyes and stopped her song, "W-who's there?"
"It's just us, no da!" Chichiri replied.
"What were you singing?" Nuriko asked as they sat down next to Rami.
"It's really none of your buisness!" Rami snapped. Chichiri and Nuriko were a bit shocked to say the least, "I'm sorry..." Rami sighed.
"It's okay, no da," Chichiri assured her, "We don't want to force you, no da,"
"I guess I owe you both my tale, eh?" Rami smiled sadly, "Yunzie wasn't always my only sister. I wasn't always oldest either. When I was ten years old I had an older sister named Wei-shan," (Ack, self-insertion... yep, TDP's real name is Wei-shan. AKA Wei. I tend to kill myself off when I insert myself in a fanfic because I feel so bad doing it....)
"She did everything with Yunzie and I. Yunzie doesn't remember her too well, she was only a year old at the time.... Anyway, we had something called a 'sister song'. It was divided into three parts-" Rami began.
"Can we hear?" Nuriko asked, "Your 'sister song' I mean,"
"Well... After I finish, or you won't understand. One part to each of us. One day, we were playing in the street and Yunzie got in to way of a passing vehicle. Wei rushed over and pushed Yunzie out of the way but... She was crushed to death.Yunzie got out of it with barely a scratch. Yunzie wasn't quite the same for a long time afterwards. She would be all alone in a room and carry on long converstions.
'Night 'neechan!
'neechan! Look at the picture I drew today!
Gomen nasai, 'neechan... It's my fault....
No one ever figured out why she did it... But.... Now for the sister songs..."
My part goes like this..."
'You're such a lucky girl,
That's what they always say,
Rich and beautiful and bright,
They don't get to see what's hidden deep inside,
So, I feel all alone,
They keep telling me, my life is so grand,
What will make them understand?
No one knows how truely lonely I am,
Why won't they understand?
I may act as if I'm strong,
But all I want is to belong,
Love and understanding from Mom and Dad,
Is all I need to keep from beind sad,
If only I could just let go,
Help me let my feelings show....'
"After Wei died, my mother and father never let me cry, or even mention Wei. They made me pretend she never existed. They made me bottle it up inside. They wanted Yunzie to forget. They wanted to erase Wei from our lives. it didn't matter, Yunzie remembered. There was always a void in my heart where joy once filled. Yunzie always sees herself as a burden to me. She thinks I don't like her because she thinks she killed Wei. I have't shed a single tear for six years, believe it or not. I've long since forgotten how to laugh and how to cry. Frankly, I don't quite care,"
"Yunzie's part goes like this,"
'I remember this song,
I've known it for so long,
And it feels so good to hear,
Sounds a little sad be sweet just the same,
Lovely melody,
Whenever I hear this song,
I really don't know why,
It makes me shed a little tear,
But I'm sure my tears will soon disappear,
Because I know you're here,
Whenever I am feeling sad,
And everything around looks bad,
All I have to do is think of you,
I know my dreams are waiting to come true,
Let's go on with hope in hearts,
Let's go on with the dream in our hearts,
Let's go on and find them now,'
"Yunzie got the longest part, but she memorized it. She always said, 'for 'neechan' after singing it. I really don't know what is going on in her mind. I do know that something has stolen her childhood from her. The last part was sung by Wei... She only sang it to us once. It's long since been forgotten by Yunzie and my parents, but I remember,"
'You are my angels,
You are my everythings,
You mean more than anything,
When you smile so lovely and bright,
Makes the world seem right,
At times you can act,
Like such little girls,
But in my eyes you are the world....
Heaven wish you happiness for all time,
And may the world be kind,
Whenever you are feeling down,
Whenever you are feeling blue,
All you have to do is sing this song,
Remember I'll be watching over you,
Please go on with hope in your hearts,
I will always be with you,
Please go on with the dream in your hears,
I will always be with you,'
"......"
"......."
"......."
"....that's quite a past you carry," Nuriko sighed, finally, "It makes me feel as if I've overreacted,"
"Now, I'm afraid that my part of our song will be all that's left... I'm afraid to lose Yunzie too... Or, perhaps, I've already lost her...." Rami cried out suddenly, she fell back and her head hit the ice.
"Rami! Daijobu ka?" Nuriko asked.
"Miaka..." Rami let the air out of her lungs with a hiss, The front part of her blouse ripped open and a bronze button rolled over by Nuriko's hand, "Nakago has Miaka...."
"Nani...? Before, the little thing's didn't happen to you, now.... Even what happens to her clothes you match..." Nuriko looked at Rami again before she realized what was happening to Miaka, "K'so! Chichiri, wake the others, now!"
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"For 'neechan..." Yunzie yawned and fell asleep on the horse she was sharing with Suboshi.
*I'm going to make like Yunzie now... It' 3:44 AM! Oh, BTW, the song I used is proporty of Rhapsody and junk and junk. Legal stuff.