-----As before as to who owns what you know it ain't me and that's all that matters. Thanks to Rents for inspiring me with all these lusty thoughts, knew they were in there just took some encouragement .Now you wont be able to stop me (yeah that is a promise *wink*wink)-------
The next day Rimmer awoke and smiled. He turned to the other side of the bed expecting to see Lister. Much to his delight and relief Lister was lying curled up fast asleep right where Arnie had left him. He reached out a hand to stroke the soft skin of at the side of Lister's face. But as he reached for him his hand passed right through. Arnolds sweet face a minute before so content was now filled with confusion and panic plus a hint of fear.
Lister was dreaming. He remembered the first time he had seen A.J Rimmer .the first day he'd came aboard he'd been assigned to these Quarters. He'd walked in to Rimmer doing his exercises in those crisp white boxers. His taunt muscles and the look of determination on his face had made Lister shiver. The idea of what was barely concealed beneath those boxers had made Lister lick his lips in anticipation. He knew Rimmer felt the same way. Had seen his eyes flutter over him at every opportunity. But back on Red Dwarf they would have bee ridiculed. Listers friends would have disowned him for being a "poof". It seemed so stupid now but at the time he had been living in fear of being caught out.
Lister awakened and yawed. Smiling up into Rimmer's face. But Listers cheeks were stained with tears. "Why can't I touch you?" his eyes pleaded with Lister to make it all better. "Last night… I could feel you inside me.we were so close.I knew it was too good to be true, please what's going on?" Lister eyes filled with sincerity " I wanted to let you know how much I loved you but I didn't know how, so I downloaded all my thoughts into the holo simulation suite and transferred it all into your memory .I wanted to give you something special."
Rimmer was furious. His Hazel eyes clouded over brimming with tears "you mean all these feelings aren't real? I don't love you?"
Lister looked sadly at Rimmer. I don't know how you feel. The feelings at the time when your memories happened aren't yours. But I don't know how you'd react if I was to tell you that I wanted you since I first saw you." At this Rimmer's eyes softened "look into my eyes and tell me that right now you aren't thinking of bending me over that table and taking me like you remember. Don't tell me you don't want to make it real."
At that Arnold sobbed. Dave wanted so badly to hold him, but when he reached for him his arms went right through. Now Lister understood. They couldn't be together, couldn't share the lust they felt, the need throbbing inside them Lister couldn't fell Rimmer's soft lips on his, nor even the warmth of his arms holding him as he fell asleep. They would always be so close but so distant.
It had bee easy for holly to doctor the black box. Lister decided that Lisa Yates would be a suitable alibi. Better to have a plausible excuse for where the time had gone. Lister had wiped everyone's memories. Except his own. It was painful to know that Rimmer had confessed his love and would never remember it, but it was too hard them both loving each other and not being able to be together. He desperately wanted to forget as well, but couldn't take the chance that he wouldn't tell Rimmer he loved him, and have to go through all this pain again. He could pretend he felt nothing, hide his feelings Lister had been hiding all his life.
The next day Rimmer awoke and smiled. He turned to the other side of the bed expecting to see Lister. Much to his delight and relief Lister was lying curled up fast asleep right where Arnie had left him. He reached out a hand to stroke the soft skin of at the side of Lister's face. But as he reached for him his hand passed right through. Arnolds sweet face a minute before so content was now filled with confusion and panic plus a hint of fear.
Lister was dreaming. He remembered the first time he had seen A.J Rimmer .the first day he'd came aboard he'd been assigned to these Quarters. He'd walked in to Rimmer doing his exercises in those crisp white boxers. His taunt muscles and the look of determination on his face had made Lister shiver. The idea of what was barely concealed beneath those boxers had made Lister lick his lips in anticipation. He knew Rimmer felt the same way. Had seen his eyes flutter over him at every opportunity. But back on Red Dwarf they would have bee ridiculed. Listers friends would have disowned him for being a "poof". It seemed so stupid now but at the time he had been living in fear of being caught out.
Lister awakened and yawed. Smiling up into Rimmer's face. But Listers cheeks were stained with tears. "Why can't I touch you?" his eyes pleaded with Lister to make it all better. "Last night… I could feel you inside me.we were so close.I knew it was too good to be true, please what's going on?" Lister eyes filled with sincerity " I wanted to let you know how much I loved you but I didn't know how, so I downloaded all my thoughts into the holo simulation suite and transferred it all into your memory .I wanted to give you something special."
Rimmer was furious. His Hazel eyes clouded over brimming with tears "you mean all these feelings aren't real? I don't love you?"
Lister looked sadly at Rimmer. I don't know how you feel. The feelings at the time when your memories happened aren't yours. But I don't know how you'd react if I was to tell you that I wanted you since I first saw you." At this Rimmer's eyes softened "look into my eyes and tell me that right now you aren't thinking of bending me over that table and taking me like you remember. Don't tell me you don't want to make it real."
At that Arnold sobbed. Dave wanted so badly to hold him, but when he reached for him his arms went right through. Now Lister understood. They couldn't be together, couldn't share the lust they felt, the need throbbing inside them Lister couldn't fell Rimmer's soft lips on his, nor even the warmth of his arms holding him as he fell asleep. They would always be so close but so distant.
It had bee easy for holly to doctor the black box. Lister decided that Lisa Yates would be a suitable alibi. Better to have a plausible excuse for where the time had gone. Lister had wiped everyone's memories. Except his own. It was painful to know that Rimmer had confessed his love and would never remember it, but it was too hard them both loving each other and not being able to be together. He desperately wanted to forget as well, but couldn't take the chance that he wouldn't tell Rimmer he loved him, and have to go through all this pain again. He could pretend he felt nothing, hide his feelings Lister had been hiding all his life.