Letters from Buffy
Chapter 7: Angel
Angel's was a hard letter for Dawn to deliver since she had no way to get to Los Angeles. Instead she did the only thing she could think of…she went to visit an old "friend" of Buffy's. As she nervously walked through the door, hoping that nobody would be able to see how scared she really was, Willy looked up from his position behind the bar.
"What are you doing little girl? Children aren't allowed in here."
"I'm Buffy's sister," Dawn said in what she hoped was a brave voice.
"Good for you. The Slayer is dead. I'm not afraid of her anymore."
"Are you afraid of her friends? Two witches, and ex-vengeance demon, and a vampire. All of whom recently helped to defeat a god. Sounds like a scary lot to me. Kick me out and they'll all be here before you can move out from behind that bar."
"Like I said, what can I do for you kid?"
"I need this letter delivered to Angel in LA. Tonight."
"No problem. Hand it over."
Dawn gave him the letter and left. Willy gave the letter to a demon who owed him a favor and that demon took it to LA and handed it over to Angel. Angel, who recognized the handwriting instantly, locked himself in his room and sat down to read his letter.
May 21-22, 2001
Dear Angel,
I've been sitting here most of the night trying to figure out how to say goodbye to you. I still don't think I really know what to say. How do you say goodbye to someone you spent so much time loving. I know that we've said goodbye before, but this time it's different. This is our last goodbye. I've always known that, as the Slayer, I was going to die young. Now that my time is near I'm finding that I'm not as scared as I thought I would be. I know that the others all think that I'm afraid that Glory will kill me and that is why I'm running, but that's not true. I'm not afraid of dying myself. I'm afraid for them. They don't deserve to die, not yet. I can't let them die fighting my battles with me or for me. Especially Dawn. She never asked for any of this. She doesn't deserve everything that she has been through this year. Glory is after her only because I am the Slayer so those stupid monks sent the key to me. If it wasn't for me she wouldn't be here fearing that her life is almost over. But if I wasn't the Slayer then there would be no Dawn. That makes me sad. I know that I wouldn't know the difference if she wasn't here, because all my memories of her are made up, but I can' t imagine my life without her. That's weird, isn't it? I'm glad that I got to see you again after my mother's funeral. I didn't want our last time seeing each other to leave us on bad terms with one another. I want you to know that I have always loved you. I don't think I could ever stop loving you. That love has changed since you've been gone, though. It's not the passionate love that I had to have in the beginning. It's grown into a love of deep friendship. I don't know if you feel the same way. Maybe you've given your love to another woman, as I am now in love with another man. I don't know when or how it happened. I didn't think that I would ever get over being in love with you, but I have and I thought that you should know. You have the right to know. Take care of yourself Angel.
Love,
Buffy