Since the lobby was filled with all those whinny family members, I decided to just lay low outside and watch the world go by. Maybe someone will notice me as I bore myself slowly out of my mind. I walked back and forth in front of the doors of the lobby hoping Cameron would see me. I eventually gave up.
I opened the door of the lobby and stepped inside.
Every eye simultaneously turned their attention on me. I opened my mouth wide in shock. I didn't expect this.
My eyes searched the building looking for any sign of Cameron. Now I understood where he got his looks. His entire family was gorgeous. From his distant cousins to sisters and brothers.
My voice was shaky. I guess I'm not used to talking in front of all these people. Oh well. "Is Cameron here?"
Everyone stared at me as if they didn't understand. Their faces held a familiar blank expression. I knew they had to have understood me. I was about to scream at them when Cameron slipped his hand on my stomach guiding me outside.
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I stomped away from him with my fist in the air.
"Why didn't they answer me?"
He wanted to step closer to me, but my fist stopped him. I swung at him causing him to jump back.
His voice sounded apologetic. "Some don't speak english, others shy away when someone new comes around, most of them don't like the fact that I'm not with a certain woman."
I let the last words of his sentence flow in and out of my mind. Eventually, curiosity ate away at me. "Who?"
He turned his face away from me ashamed to talk. I let my fist fall to my side. I walked over to him placed my hand on his shoulder, and dragged it all the way down until I reached his hand. I held his hand bringing him closer to me.
"What's her name Cameron?"
"Alisha Heartman. She's not too happy with me dating you."
I pulled him closer to me. "Well too bad for her."
He smiled down at me, but let me go. He walked a few feet away from me crossing his arms over his chest.
I rolled my eyes and sighed. "I don't know what to do with you sometimes."
He looked at me with a worried smile.
"There are times when I wanna push you so far away that I know I can't fall in love. Then there's times like these when I know what I should be feeling is right."
He walked closer to me. "What should you be feeling?"
I smiled. "I should be head over heels. I should be feeling the same way you do, but I don't."
His expression revealed a puzzled look. "Why not?"
"I have no idea." Actually, I do. I'm just not willing to let him know yet.
He sighed. "I love you enough to wait out your confusion."
I walked over to him and hugged him. "Good cause I'm hearing from every girl I meet that you are good in bed."
His voice sounded shocked. "What?"
I let go of him, tried to walk away from him, but stopped when he grabbed my arm gently. "How many girls?"
My eyes rolled up to his face. "Two so far."
He smiled and sighed, releasing some tension. "I've only slept with two girls."
I shrugged. "Then I guess I'm overreacting."
He laughed down at me. "Sure are."
I pushed him away then headed back towards the door. I might as well face the rest of his family. I'm trying to face my fears. Maybe love is a fear for me. Oh yeah, it is. Fall in love then lose the loved one. It's a pattern in my life. It's kinda sad that my heart just won't allow it.